Chapter 38 The Man with No Regrets

Nan Wang had no idea how he got back to the outer gate.

He seemed to have slept for the entire night, but it also seemed as if he had not slept for even a moment, and just lay in bed with his eyes closed all night.

When he made it to the next day, he had planned to spend the whole day curled up in a dark corner thinking about life, but reality did not allow him to do so.

In just one day, his house welcomed many guests.

The first to come was Senior Brother Tani Shanshi.

Gu Shanshi was obviously entrusted by someone to visit Nanwang, bringing valuable elixirs that far exceeded his ability to afford, in order to make up for the celebration he missed the day before.

He seemed to have said something, but also seemed not to have said anything. In any case, Nanwang did not hear a single word.

Nanwang stayed in the corner the whole time, not even having the energy to get out of bed to greet the guests, hoping that Gu Shan would give up when he saw the difficulty.

Gu Shanshi sat there from early morning until afternoon before leaving. As soon as he left, Nanwang's two friends arrived.

Luo Xuyou and Yuan He received the Qi Condensation Pill from their second senior brother, and they should have been practicing in full swing in their own small rooms, but given the current situation, they really couldn't continue practicing.

Among all the immortal sects, Qingyunzhong's strength has always been one of the best. It has been a long time since twelve disciples died tragically in a secret place.

There is a saying among animals that "the fox mourns when a rabbit dies", not to mention these mortals with rich emotions.

Although immortal cultivators are not tainted by the mundane world, they are not heartless beasts. Such a tragic case happened in the Immortal Fox Secret Realm, involving the deaths of twelve sect disciples. No one in the entire Qingyun Sect would remain indifferent to this.

However, the difference between Luo Xuyou and his group and Nanwang is that the connection between the outer disciples and the inner disciples is not that close. The ones who got into trouble this time were all inner disciples, not their colleagues who were with them day and night. They were sad, but at least they could bear it. Helping to hang up some white mourning clothes and scatter some paper money was the best they could do.

Nanwang is different.

Everyone knew that he and his fifth sister were close friends.

Before coming, Luo Xuyou had prepared himself mentally for the difficulty of this journey, but when he really arrived at the place and saw Nan Wang with his head buried in his arms and his whole body curled up into a ball, he realized that he was still too optimistic.

"Brother Nan, let's not talk about the scene... We are all very sad about the matter of Fifth Junior Sister, but, but..."

"But those who are still alive must keep going."

Yuan He continued the second half of the sentence for Luo Xuyou.

Nan Wang raised his head and asked, "When did I say I wouldn't leave?"

When he raised his head, a cat-like face covered with tears appeared in front of the two people.

Luo Xuyou was stunned and speechless for a moment.

Many times, what matters is not what a person says, but what he does.

Nan Wang doesn't look like he can "go on" at all.

Yuan He frowned and said worriedly:

"Brother Nan, I was originally a casual cultivator, traveling around. I have been to many places, helped many people, and made many good connections. I was also powerless to do anything about many things, and I didn't have time to say goodbye to many people... People who cultivate immortals should not be trapped by the mortal world. Joy, anger, sorrow, happiness, separation, and the seven emotions and six desires are all false. Only the Great Dao lasts forever."

As a cultivator, when you step into the dangerous world of cultivation, you should be aware of many things.

Yuan He had seen people as loyal and righteous as Nan Wang before.

But... those were all mortals that Yuan He met when he traveled around. Only mortals who could not let go of the mortal world would be as sentimental and depressed as Nan Wang.

Luo Xuyou sighed and said:

"I know you feel bad. How about this? We can go to the foot of the mountain to find a good feng shui site and build a tomb for Fifth Junior Sister. We can go there to pay tribute to her during festivals. It can also be regarded as a memory..."

"A cenotaph?"

Nan Wang silently repeated these three words, as if he was asking Luo Xuyou, or as if he was asking himself.

Luo Xuyou said with a guilty conscience: "Hey, I..."

The fifth sister died in a secret place, and her body was not found. There was nothing to bury her, so naturally she could only be buried in a cenotaph.

His heart was good, but it was obvious that his unthinking truth angered Nan Wang, who was already in a bad mood.

"Walk!"

Nanwang staggered to his feet and rushed over:

"Go! Everyone, go!"

Luo Xuyou was pushed twice, and from the resistance he felt Nanwang's anger, so he had no choice but to duck back, saying as he retreated:

"Okay, okay, don't be angry, let's go, we'll leave now."

"Brother Nan, I'm leaving too. I picked this up at the door... I, I'll leave it here for you."

Yuan He dropped something, turned around and left with Luo Xuyou.

Nan Wang was still feeling very uncomfortable and didn't have the mood to pay attention to unnecessary things. He just glanced at the words when he heard them.

One glance and he couldn't look away.

That's a wine jug.

The gourd-shaped wine jug is pitch black with red flame patterns on it and a golden spout. Although it is exquisitely crafted, it has scratches all over, obviously showing that it is often used.

Nanwang had seen this wine pot many times.

At Du Xueling's residence, when he was soaking in the spiritual spring to advance, also at Du Xueling's residence, when a group of people were eating enthusiastically around the hot pot, and also... at the second senior brother's coming-of-age ceremony, Nan Wang had also seen this wine pot.

This is the wine bottle of the third brother.

Last night the night was as clear as water, the sky was clear and blue after being washed by rain. Under the night sky, the stars were shining brightly, and the sound of the wind was sobbing, like crying and complaining.

Namang is not the only one who cannot fall asleep.

If Lingzhi had not gone to the Fairy Fox Secret Realm on behalf of the third senior brother, the person who died in the secret realm would have been the third senior brother.

If other people were just sad about the passing of the spirit branch, then for Zhan Chenming, his sadness was mixed with guilt that he couldn't tell others.

The tears that Nan Wang had managed to hold back began to well up again, burning the corners of his eyes like magma.

The wet mist gradually condensed and turned into a soft rabbit, which fell accurately into Nanwang's arms.

Nan Wang buried his head in Annuo's soft belly and rubbed the moisture from his eyes.

"I'm trying my best to think positively... Please don't push me anymore, give me... give me a little more time..."

An Nuo: “Ji.”

I don't think it's likely that you will come to terms with it.

Namang remained silent.

An Nuo: “Chichichi.”

So, I advise you to save people.

Nan Wang pulled his head out of the plush and stared at An Nuo in a daze.

Annuo wiped the tears from his stomach in disgust and said unhappily:

“Chichichi.”

No one can convince you anyway, so you might as well go and save people yourself. Only after you have saved them can you give up.

Nan Wang's brain began to work slowly, and his eyes, which had originally become silent, began to brighten up a little.

An Nuo: “Chirp, chirp, chirp.”

Those who practice Taoism should have no regrets in their hearts, otherwise they will never be able to make any breakthroughs on the path of cultivation throughout their lives.

Nan Wang said in a daze: "I have regrets? As long as I have regrets, I can no longer cultivate immortality?"

Annuo nodded.

Nan Wang seemed to have heard some ridiculous joke, and said with a smile and a tear: "I have regrets, I do have regrets, but... why am I the only one who has regrets?"

"Does the eldest senior sister have no regrets? Does the third senior brother have no regrets? Do they think that Lingzhi's death is insignificant?"

An Nuo: “Chichichi.”

Du Xueling believed that Qi Liao Linglong's heart was immortal, so she naturally had no regrets.

“Chichichi.”

Zhan Chenming left the wine bottle to you, saying goodbye to the past, and naturally he had no regrets.

Nan Wang's eyes finally brightened up a little, but then dimmed again.

"I don't understand. I don't comprehend. I just can't accept it. There is still hope. How can I give up..."

Nan Wang curled up his body again, but this time, he was holding an Annuo in his arms.

An Nuo: “Ji.”

Of course you don't understand. Judging from the current system of cultivating immortals, you are not suitable for cultivating immortals at all.

Not suitable for cultivating immortality.

Nanwang had heard these words countless times, but none of them could break his heart as much as this time.

This is not a denial of him, nor a mockery of his talent, but it is telling him——

Being sad is wrong, being upset is wrong, letting go is the right thing to do, letting go is the right way.

Millions of immortal cultivators made the same choice: cherishing their old friends and moving forward.

The mundane world is bustling with disturbances, only the Tao lasts forever.

"Yes, I do have regrets. I can't save the spirit branch, and I can't become an immortal. Whoever wants to become an immortal can do so. I will leave the mountain in two days..."

Nan said in a self-destructive manner.

An Nuo slapped Nan Wang on the face and said angrily:

“Chichichi!”

What sad words!

“Chichichi!”

Even if you are not suitable for cultivating immortality in the eyes of others, you still embark on this path. The advice and admonitions of others have not stopped you in the past, and will not stop you in the future.

“Chichichi.”

There are three thousand roads, each one is different. Just because the road you are walking on has never been walked before does not mean that it cannot be walked on.

“Chichichi.”

Just because others can’t walk the road doesn’t mean you can’t walk it. Just because others can’t save someone doesn’t mean you can’t save them.

"grumble."

Whatever you do, I will go with you.

Nan Wang raised his head in a daze, and a strong desire was revealed on his tear-stained face: "You are right, I want to save Lingzhi, of course I want to go, Lingzhi must still be alive... But, but how can I go to the Fairy Fox Secret Realm? Qingyun Sect will not participate in the Fairy Fox Secret Realm, and I can't even get a place."

An Nuo: “Ji.”

You can get a quota from other sects.

Nan Wang was at a loss and said, "Where can I get a quota? I am not as well connected as Second Senior Brother, and I don't know anyone from other sects."

An Nuo: “Ji.”

Aren’t you...that?

Nanwang: "Ah? What?"

An Nuo: “Chichichi.”

That is, that, other sects.

Nanwang didn't react to what An Nuo was saying: "What other sects? My sect is Qingyun Sect."

An Nuo was furious: "Chichichi!"

Aren't you an undercover agent in Qingyun Sect? What is your original sect?

Nanwang: “…”

Yes, he is undercover.

In addition to the Qingyun Sect, he also belongs to another sect.

He is undercover.

Great, he's undercover!