Chapter 484 Sorry, Manman
Hospital corridor.
Su Man sat alone on the bench, looking down at her hands, wondering what she was thinking. The sunlight poured in from the window at the end of the corridor, dim and yellow with a hint of coldness, making her figure look even thinner.
Gu Sinan just stood at the door of the ward, staring at her in a trance.
She is still as beautiful as she was back then, so heartbreakingly beautiful.
As if she noticed Gu Sinan's gaze, Su Man raised her eyes and looked at him, her eyelashes trembling slightly, but she was no longer as panic-stricken as usual. On the contrary, Gu Sinan felt a little uneasy and nervous.
Finally, she withdrew her gaze and looked at the tip of her shoe with empty eyes.
Gu Sinan plucked up the courage to walk to Su Man's side and sat down on the other side of the bench. For fear of scaring her, he moved a little further away, leaving enough space for three more people.
Feeling that familiar breath, Su Man's body trembled unconsciously.
After all, he didn't leave.
Sitting next to her beloved, Gu Sinan kept thinking about what she had just said to Gu Yanchuan in the ward. Her heart felt like it was being rubbed hard by an invisible hand, and it hurt so much that she could hardly breathe.
It was all because of the sins he committed when he was young, which caused his wife and children to suffer so much.
Gu Sinan opened his mouth and said, "Manman, I didn't mean to lie to you about Yanchuan."
Su Man responded softly: "I know."
Apart from coaxing her into a contractual marriage with him, Gu Sinan had never lied to her about anything.
When she received his message, she believed it.
The air suddenly became extremely quiet, and it seemed that even the tiny dust particles had stopped moving.
Gu Sinan was reluctant to get up and leave. It had been more than ten years, and this was the first time that Manman had sat so close to him. Even though she had become someone else's wife, he still loved her hopelessly.
After a long time, Gu Sinan was the first to break the silence.
"How have you been these years?"
For some reason, when Su Man heard him ask her so cautiously, she felt like crying. Crystal clear tears rolled down from her eyes, wetting a small area of the ground.
For so many years, Su Man has been telling herself that Gu Sinan ruined her life and she should hate him.
But when I heard his words that sounded like concern, my heart still felt a slight ripple. She hated herself for being so useless and hated that she would dream of him every time she woke up in the middle of the night.
He was a devil, and she should curse him with the most vicious words.
She should hate him.
"I, I'm doing very well." Su Man didn't know whether she was telling the truth or hypnotizing herself, "I've finally gotten rid of your control, how can I not be doing well?"
Su Man's choked words were like a sharp knife, cutting open Gu Sinan's chest. Regret and bitterness poured out, and those suffocating feelings seemed to be able to drown the whole world.
Gu Sinan lowered his usually arrogant head.
"I'm sorry, Manman. I shouldn't have done such a jerk thing to you. You can hate me and blame me, but I know I deserve it."
Su Man turned her head to look at him, and he just turned his head to the side. She met his devilish eyes that were originally full of paranoia and madness. She seemed to see guilt and pain in his eyes.
For some reason, Su Man asked, "What about you? Have you been doing well these years?"
How can it be good? Manman's departure was like taking away a part of his soul, and from then on he lived like a walking corpse every day. And he also has to watch her smile like a flower next to other men.
Suffering from insomnia and nightmares, he could only numb himself with work, desperately trying to expand the Gu family and intimidate Ji Xiuci, fearing that she would suffer the slightest injustice in the Ji family.
Even though, he was no longer qualified to protect her.
But he had no choice.
He just loved her for no reason.
"I..." Gu Sinan took out a cigarette, but when he thought that this was a hospital, he put it back awkwardly.
He wanted to say that he had not had a good life these years, and that he missed her very much and wanted her to come back to him. He has learned to respect and cherish her. If she is willing to come back, he will definitely cherish her.
But he knew that he had hurt her deeply.
He might never be able to wait for her to change her mind in his entire life.
He didn't even dare to hope for her forgiveness.
"Manman, if he treats you badly, you can always come to me, and I will do my best to help you."
Hearing this, Su Man's heart ached suddenly. She had always told herself to hate him, but she never responded to his feelings from beginning to end, and even slapped him and cursed him in front of so many people.
Her departure caused a lot of uproar that year, and everyone said he was terrible and a madman who robbed and plundered.
He was such a vindictive person, but his reputation was ruined because of her.
Why was he still willing to help her?
Does he really love her? But why was she imprisoned like a canary in the first place?
He did such a cruel thing to her, ignoring her pleas.
Her tears had already burst out: "Gu Sinan, do you know? I really hate you so much."
Gu Sinan was at a loss. He wanted to reach out and wipe her tears, but he didn't dare. After a long while, he managed to utter, "Manman, don't cry."
He thought that he was no longer her husband and no longer had the right to feel sorry for her.
He lowered his head dejectedly.
"Don't cry, Manman."
Su Man raised her hand to wipe away her tears and suddenly asked, "Gu Sinan, if you could go back to the past, would you still do that?"
Gu Sinan waved his hands hurriedly: "No, Manman, I won't force you anymore."
"I will pursue you openly until you are willing to marry me." Gu Sinan thought of the fact that she already had a boyfriend when they first met. "If you choose someone else, I will protect you silently."
In fact, Gu Sinan regretted his decision so much.
Ji Xiuci is a hypocritical and suspicious guy. Sooner or later, he will break up with Su Man. He shouldn't have been so anxious at the beginning. It would have been better if he had waited until Ji Xiuci and Su Man broke up and then took advantage of the opportunity.
Or he could create some trouble in private to expose the conflict and speed up their breakup.
Unfortunately, the mistake has been made. Manman hates him to death, but it is too late to regret.
Su Man cried and shook her head: "Gu Sinan, you shouldn't love me."
Because of his paranoid and crazy love, he hurt himself, her, Ji Xiuci, and also implicated the two children, Gu Yanchuan and Ji Youli. I wish we had never met.
Gu Sinan looked at her deeply and said word by word: "Manman, there are many things I regret in my life, but the only thing I don't regret is loving you."
Su Man looked away as if her eyes were burned.
Her voice was so low that it was almost inaudible: "Gu Sinan, it's impossible for us to do this."
After an unknown amount of time, Gu Sinan finally asked the question he had never dared to ask.
"Manman, have you ever loved me? Even just for a moment?"
Have you ever loved?
Su Man covered her face and cried, "I don't know, Gu Sinan, I don't know."
She should hate him.
Can……
She didn't want to hate anymore, she was really tired.
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