Chapter 19 Personalities, Oh Personalities
After an unknown amount of time, Mu Xi regained consciousness, only to find herself standing alone in complete darkness.
Only when the mind shines upon a spot like a spotlight can one recognize that this is the inner vision of emptiness that appeared before.
"Is anyone there?" Mu Xi asked into the dark void.
No one answered.
Mu Xi could clearly sense that many people were hiding outside the spotlight of consciousness.
"Come out, I know you are her personalities." Mu Xi has never been one to give up easily.
After waiting for a long time, no one showed up.
Just as Mu Xi was about to give up in disappointment, the previously calm female voice slowly emerged from the dark void: "They dare not show themselves easily; the former Soul Master never allowed them to show themselves."
This person is tall and slender, with a noble and elegant face and an extraordinary temperament. In her clear, amber eyes, she reflects an understanding and peace that can encompass all things in the world. She looks to be over forty years old, but time seems to have only added color to her temperament.
Mu Xi was stunned for a moment.
A calm female voice smiled knowingly: "What are you looking at, Soul Master? Our figures and appearances are all derived from and resemble yours."
Since transmigrating, Mu Xi has never seen what this body looks like.
After hearing this, I still can't believe that I have such a temperament.
But what came out of his mouth was: "You know I'm not the original... Soul Master?"
A steady female voice took two more steps forward, carrying an air of warmth: "Of course I know. The so-called 'that which follows the spirit is called the soul, and that which goes in and out with the essence is called the spirit. The soul accompanies the spirit, and the spirit follows the essence.' The spirit takes the soul as its master. When the soul disappears, the spirit disperses. The original master of the soul disappears after leaving the body. We spirits should also disappear along with it, but I never expected that you would come in just as we were about to disappear."
"Disappeared? She... could it be that her soul has been scattered?" Mu Xi originally thought that the original owner had died silently, but she did not expect it to be more serious than this.
The steady female voice shook her head and then nodded, her clear amber eyes dimming for the last time: "I don't know, but perhaps it is. In any case, the Soul Master is gone, leaving us behind. I think she... was probably tired and didn't want to be born again, so she left without any regrets as soon as her soul was released."
"This... is it all because of the fact that she disguised herself as a man and pretended to be the prince?" Although Mu Xi also felt that the original owner's character was not good, there was still a way to resolve it. It shouldn't be worth it to have one's soul severed over such a small matter.
The steady female voice sighed softly as she looked up: "Alas, who can know her suffering? To the outside world, she disguises herself as a man and pretends to be the crown prince, living in constant fear. To the inside, she has to carefully suppress us spirits to prevent us from running away. Day after day, night after night, she suffers torment. No one would find life meaningless or death worthwhile."
"Suppress? If you spirits aren't suppressed, won't you all burst out at any moment?" Mu Xi suddenly thought of the two personalities, the volatile maniac and the drunken maniac, but then felt it wouldn't be good to say it to the personality in front of her, so she tried to smooth things over, "Ah, I wasn't talking about you. You seem so dignified and approachable, I..."
With a calm and understanding personality, he smiled kindly and said, "It's nothing. We are the thoughts born from the Soul Master. Nourished by spirit, we became 'spirits'. We are also companions that the Soul Master found for herself. Otherwise, she might have gone crazy when she was three years old. The previous Soul Master... had it too difficult... You are the new Soul Master, so naturally it is all up to you."
"I can make the decision?" Mu Xi felt much more at ease upon hearing this answer.
With a calm and composed demeanor, he smiled and nodded, not at all bothered that he was merely a "subordinate."
Mu Xi then realized that she seemed to possess all of the original owner's memories, but had no idea how multiple personalities came about.
To truly take control, one needs to understand more.
"Since you were all created by the original owner, and the previous two were of unknown age, yet you seem to be older than the original owner, how is that possible?" Mu Xi blurted out the question, then realized it was inappropriate. "Ah, I didn't mean you were old. You're so otherworldly, like a fairy maiden. I just don't have your memories, I..."
The calm female voice showed no sign of unease, smiling gently, "We become whatever the Soul Master desires. Although I wasn't the first spirit to appear, I arrived on the night the Soul Master's birth mother passed away. At that time, the Soul Master was young and had no one to rely on. Everyone around her told her that she needed to be strong, that she needed to be independent, that she needed to continue disguising herself as a man, that she needed to be even more cautious... So the Soul Master needed someone like a mother to lean on and confide in, someone like a teacher to ask questions and guide her, and someone like a friend to offer comfort and companionship..."
Indeed, the original owner didn't have any of those things that should have been there.
Mu Xi understood, and the more she understood, the more unbearable the heartache became: "Then do you know how many of your spirits she has?"
A steady female voice shook her head: "I cannot know."
"Why can't you know? At least you should know about the spirits that appeared after you." Mu Xi wanted to know everything to avoid falling into the same trap again in the future.
The steady female voice paused slightly, "Hmm... Not everyone can obtain a spirit like ours. The Soul Master is exceptionally gifted; with every thought, she can generate a spirit. However, she is also very clear that spirits like ours must never be revealed to others, otherwise they will be regarded as heretics and outcasts, destined for eternal damnation. Therefore, no matter how many personalities she generates, she always suppresses them with great difficulty. Let alone releasing your spirit as easily as you did before, she has never even spoken face-to-face like we are now."
“I understand…” Mu Xi at least knew that suppressing these personalities from emerging must be a very difficult thing, otherwise three personalities would not have emerged in less than a day after she transmigrated.
From this perspective, the original owner was indeed exceptionally gifted, possessing so many personalities and managing to suppress them without going insane. She couldn't do that, at least not allow herself to continue suffering like that.
It's just multiple personality disorder...
Although it seems troublesome, it is not unusable.
Moreover, the person in front of us is practically the ideal personality.
If she could have that kind of presence in front of others, she wouldn't even consider becoming a princess, let alone the Queen Mother of the West.
Thinking of this, Mu Xi said, "She is her, and I am me. I am not the original owner of this body, so you don't need to hide anything from each other. If I need to find you, will you appear in time?"
"Of course." The steady female voice nodded.
Mu Xi was still worried: "Do you have a name? What if I look for you?"
The steady female voice slowly shook her head again: "We have no names. The Soul Master can summon us at a moment's notice."
"Then I'll call you Sister Fairy from now on." Mu Xi wanted to investigate them one by one, numbering each of these personalities before figuring out how to use them.
The composed female voice naturally had no objections, and bowed respectfully: "I will obey the Soul Master's orders."
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