"She's not stupid, but she's not smart either. My decision not to choose her has nothing to do with her intelligence, but rather... I don't see the potential to become a god in her."
Fang Jinyao has a lot to say on this point. "Ren Jing's ability to become an insurmountable mountain isn't just due to her face, but also to her ruthlessness in risking everything for her career. I admit Ms. Shu is beautiful, but she lacks the determination to do something well. Whether she's in it for the money or something else, I have no way of knowing, and it's hard to judge, but she doesn't have the heart to become a good actor, even if it's just a side job. That's for sure."
Shen Zhiming asked knowingly: "Sister Fang, isn't the film queen a recognition of her acting skills by this circle?"
"No." Fang Jinyao shook her head. "This industry is very complicated. Appearance is not the most important indicator. The most important thing is operation and means. How did President Shu get the Best Actress trophy? In fact, you know better than me."
“Yeah, how could I not know.” Shen Zhiming leaned against the car door, his eyes a little empty, as if he remembered something in the past, “You are an understanding person, Fang Jingren.”
Fang Jinyao raised her eyebrows: "Agent Fang?"
Shen Zhiming smiled, "Sister."
Fang Jinyao felt relieved, and after responding, she took the opportunity to touch the top of Shen Zhiming's head, "Very good."
This action made Shen Zhiming want to cry again, and her nose was sore, “Sister, you are so gentle.”
Fang Jinyao stared at Shen Zhiming intently, "Then...I'll take care of you from now on, okay?"
"What?" Shen Zhiming didn't understand Fang Jinyao's intention for a moment.
"Squeak, squeak, I'm telling you, I'll take care of you from now on, okay? You're not without someone to take care of you." Fang Jinyao still spoke in a soft tone, as if afraid of scaring Shen Zhiming.
This is not a good place to confess, nor is it a good practice to confess, but the vulnerability that Shen Zhiming occasionally shows is really distressing. She desperately wants to get a chance from Shen Zhiming to care about her properly.
Shen Zhiming froze. She moved her lips and realized that her throat was somehow tight.
"Fang Jinyao." She called Fang Jinyao by her name.
"Yes, I'm here."
"Are you...confessing to me?" No matter how dumb Shen Zhiming was, she had been in love before, so she could react.
“Yes,” Fang Jinyao was used to the ups and downs of life, but at this moment, she still felt her heart pounding and the unspeakable nervousness, “Chen Zhiming, I’m confessing my feelings to you.”
"You deliberately took me to the highway, used Yiyi's name to make decisions for me, and... drove at a very low speed on the highway?" Shen Zhiming suddenly understood everything. "Even the book you used for investment?"
"No, that's not it." At this point, Fang Jinyao could only bite the bullet and confess, "I recognized you when I met you. You know my profession. I am sensitive to both appearance and voice. Zhizhi, your voice is very unique, like you."
Shen Zhiming: ...
"If I refuse, will you get angry and leave me here without sending me back to Jincheng or home?"
"No, I know it's not a good thing for me to bring you out with ulterior motives, but please believe me, I have no ill intentions." Fang Jinyao pursed her lips, "I want to fight for an opportunity, but it's too difficult to book your time."
During this period, she found that she was not good at online chatting. The chats between [Lu Yao] and [Famous People in Chaoyang District] would die out almost instantly. In comparison, meeting in person would allow her to perform better.
"Okay, thank you for your love, but I refuse." Shen Zhiming gave a polite smile, and the address returned from "sister" to its original polite position. "Manager Fang, although it was unintentional, I told you in the car that I don't want to consider emotional matters."
"Yes...that time with you..." Fang Jinyao frowned.
"Yes," Shen Zhiming nodded. "This was originally my private matter, an embarrassing past that I don't want to talk about. But since you know me from the video, you should know what kind of stupid things I did in my relationship. Just because my ex-boyfriend looked like a good-looking man, he said I was too thin. He said I was skinny when I was 120 pounds, 130 pounds, and so on until I was 200 pounds. He said I was fat and had no sexual interest in me at all."
In order to make Fang Jinyao give up, Shen Zhiming also made great efforts. She caught Fang Jinyao's surprise and nodded self-deprecatingly, "It's not that interest, but the sexual desire. To this day, I can only be thankful that no matter whether I am slim or not, my flat figure can't arouse his desire."
"I asked him, if that's the case, why did he make me look like that? Do you know what he said?"
Many things from the past emerged in Shen Zhiming's mind, and she suddenly realized that she had been trapped in her memories for a long time and couldn't get out.
Ziyi used her departure to force her to come out of the blow of this incident, and used her hatred and disgust for Shu Baizhu to build up the courage to face the outside world. What followed was the guilt and longing for Ziyi and -
She lost her childhood friend who had always protected her from the storm and solved her problems, and was left alone to face the world at a loss.
If Ziyi were still there, when she met Fang Jinyao, she might not have refused so decisively. At least she would have waited until she went back to discuss it with Ziyi and listened to what Ziyi had to say before refusing.
"He said he didn't know that my change from being thin to being fat didn't cause him any feelings at all." Shen Zhiming felt only sad and shocked at first, but now, he only felt disgusted.
"Actually, you and him are of similar temperament. At least on the surface, you're both equally refined and elegant. Please forgive me for comparing you two together, but I simply can't bear a second blow like this, and I don't have the energy to enjoy love anymore. I'm so sorry, Mr. Fang, thank you for your kindness."
Fang Jinyao finally understood the cause of the incident. "You said at the time that your boyfriend loved you very much and treated you very well..."
"Yes, he is good at putting on a show. Even if we break up, everyone will just say that I am ignorant and don't know how to capture a man's heart. I think I am too proud of myself just because we have confirmed the relationship. Who would like a 200-pound fat man?" After Shen Zhiming finished speaking, she opened the car door and got in first. She didn't finish her words until Fang Jinyao got in.
"Fang Jinyao, would you like it? What did you feel when you saw me trying on plus-size women's clothing in the video? Disappointment, right?"
There was silence for a long time, with only the air conditioner running diligently.
It wasn't until the car returned to the highway that Shen Zhiming opened his eyes and glanced at the vast night outside the window.
She really wanted to ask why Fang Jinyao didn't send her back to Jincheng at this time, but they had just talked about a topic that embarrassed both of them, and for a moment, Shen Zhiming couldn't ask.
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