When she left the campus, Lin Dan was almost criticized by everyone. But when she came back, everyone expressed their kindness to her. The difference in attitude was huge. The counselor who always made things difficult for her took the initiative to take her to the laboratory to find a mentor, and repeatedly comforted her not to be sad for the lost child.
Lin Dan smiled and nodded, with a gentle attitude.
Half an hour later, the tutor finally finished the experiment and took her to his office for a talk: "I got the news that Harvard seems to want to cancel your admission, but the official notice hasn't been sent out yet, so we can still think of a way."
"Why was my admission revoked? Because I sold my research results?"
"Yes, didn't you agree with them before that you would bring the research results over? They were waiting anxiously, but they didn't expect you to sell it right away, so the hospital is very dissatisfied with you. I know it's not easy for you, if you hadn't been dragged down by Wang Jun, you wouldn't have resorted to such a desperate measure." The tutor couldn't help but sigh. For the sake of Wang Jun, his favorite disciple really ruined himself completely!
"Then I'll go to the United States tomorrow to see the situation." Lin Dan pondered.
"That's what I mean. Go earlier and don't delay. I heard that you have a good relationship with Zeng Zhenyuan? He has a wide network of contacts in the United States and may be able to help you. Dr. Darren, the director of Harvard's Department of Biological Sciences, is very stubborn and has extremely high authority in Harvard. He has issued a statement to cancel your admission, and it's useless for the president to persuade him. If you want to find a breakthrough, you'd better put more effort into him. Once he gives in, your studies will be secure. But so far, he doesn't seem to have compromised with anyone." The tutor said worriedly.
"Mr. Zeng is very busy, so I'd better find a way myself. What kind of person is Dr. Darren?" Lin Dan knew Dr. Darren's achievements, but not his character, so naturally he didn't know how to start.
"He is a dictator with a hot temper and a paranoid personality." The instructor rubbed his temples and felt a headache.
"What does he care about most?" Lin Dan continued to ask.
"He cares most about research results, so you have violated his cardinal rule."
"I know. I'll find a way. Don't worry, teacher."
Lin Dan left the school quickly and boarded a plane to the United States the next day. Before leaving, she sent two papers to Dr. Darren, one on the variation and medicinal value of plants, and the other on the variation and medicinal value of insects, and then added a note: "Please give me another interview opportunity. These two papers are enough to show that losing me will be a loss to your department. 】
Dr. Darren was amused by the email, but after opening the paper, he was deeply attracted by its content. After about two hours, he closed the document reluctantly and replied: [Well, I'll wait for you in the office at 4 pm tomorrow. Please come on time. I hope your talents are enough to make up for your shortcomings in character. 】
After the email was sent successfully, he thought for a while and said to his assistant: "Eddie, can you help me check what Lin Dan did in China and why she postponed her admission." Upon learning that Lin Dan had successfully sold her research, Dr. Darren immediately blocked this person without learning the details of the situation.
Zeng Zhenyuan had already arranged for the assistant, and even if the doctor didn't mention it, he would try his best to speak well of Lin Dan. He pretended to call China to find out the situation, received several faxes, and finally placed the results of the investigation on the doctor's desk.
Darren carefully read the information, his expression changed from critical to surprised, and he finally murmured, "I can't believe there is such a stupid woman in the world." So the next afternoon, Lin Dan sat opposite him, and he looked at her as if she were a fool.
Lin Dan was also sizing up this great figure in the field of biology. The other person was very young, only in his early thirties, with a very three-dimensional facial contour and handsome features. His golden brown hair was a little messy, which made him look wild, which was completely different from the scholar. He took off his suit jacket and unbuttoned the top few buttons of his black shirt, revealing his sexy Adam's apple and collarbone. His sleeves were rolled up above his elbows, and the muscles in his arms and forearms were taut, with graceful and smooth lines. Not to mention among scholars, even among actors, his figure is definitely first-rate and his dress is very tasteful.
Huaguo's mentor described him as a dictator. Lin Dan felt that this word was very apt. He did have a kind of arrogance that was self-centered.
Darren had already printed out the paper Lin Dan sent him, and was now flipping through it page by page. He said slowly, "I only recently learned why you postponed your enrollment. To be honest, it's hard for me to understand your choice. Today is my last interview opportunity for you. If you can impress me, I will take back my previous decision."
Lin Dan said calmly: "Thank you, Doctor."
The assistant standing by was sweating for her. Everyone in the Department of Biological Sciences knows that Dr. Darren is very rational and it is very difficult to impress him!
Darren raised the paper in his hand and said, "Your thesis is enough to prove your scientific research ability. Can I ask you a few personal questions?"
"Okay." Lin Dan nodded slightly.
"In order to help those people, you are now at risk of losing your studies. Do you regret it?"
Lin Dan thought for a moment and said carefully: "No regrets. There is one thing I must be honest with you. I seem to be born lacking some emotions."
Darren seemed very surprised: "Emotional Deficit Disorder? This is dangerous."
Lin Dan knew that she was not lacking in emotions because of her illness, but she felt that there was no need to explain it, so she nodded and said, "Yes, this is very dangerous. Without the fluctuation of emotions, a person may seem to live freely and not care about anything, but in fact, he will slowly lose himself. They have no hatred, so they are indifferent; they have no love, so they are cold; they have no worries, so they are numb. I don't want to become an indifferent, cold, and numb machine, so I try to make myself take on something, whether it is responsibility or kindness, no matter what it is, as long as it can make me feel my existence, I must stick to this bottom line. After going through all that, I have been tired, hurt, and cried. Maybe it was a bad experience in the eyes of others, but to me, it was the most precious emotion."
Lin Dan pointed at his heart and said slowly, "I know something is wrong with me. My heart is like a desert, vast but barren. But when the rain falls, the desert will turn into a sea of flowers overnight. Miracles happen in an instant. Those love and hate, touching and anger, to me, are like the rain that nourishes the desert. They are very precious, so I can only be grateful, not regretful."
Would murder and arson make her feel guilty? No, so she needs to put herself in heavy shackles. She doesn't have to bear the responsibilities of the original owner. If she did that, she would live a free and easy life, but would she be able to experience the joy of learning and scientific research? Can she find her purpose in life and stick to it? No, she will just live in this world in a daze and eventually become a walking corpse. People without emotions will eventually destroy themselves, this is inevitable.
Darren was silent for a long time before he said, "If you didn't tell me, I wouldn't be able to tell that you have an emotional disorder." People with affective disorder have no empathy and cannot understand the joys and sorrows of others. They are suspicious, numb, cold, and incompatible with society. But in Lin Dan, Darren saw completely opposite qualities.
Lin Dan smiled bitterly and said, "Because I am healing myself. I try to care about other people's feelings and try to integrate into the surrounding environment, even if it is difficult." Every stage of her life is an experience, and the meaning of experience is to make herself better. Even without memories, she still has feelings and insights, just like the countless flower seeds hidden in the desert; although you can’t see them, you cannot deny their existence.
Darren stared at her for a long time and continued, "I heard that you lost a child. Do you regret it?"
Lin Dan was silent for a moment before slowly shaking his head: "Maybe my answer will make you feel uncomfortable, but I don't regret it. You also know that the nature of our work determines that we can't be with the children all the time. In a 24-hour day, we often spend 18 hours in the laboratory, and children can't grow up without the company of their parents. I am alone, and my company is more important to the child, so I chose to give up."
Darren wrote two words on the paper: Take responsibility, give up, and then put a question mark in the middle. He asked himself silently: If I were to switch places with Lin Dan, what would I choose? In the end he found that he would choose his ideals and career. Some people are more emotional, some are more rational, and Lin Dan's lack of emotional connection makes her choices more rational. There is nothing wrong with this, it's just a difference in concepts.
He didn't speak for a long time. After about five or six minutes, he deliberately said in a cold tone: "Lin, if I still decide to cancel your admission, what are you going to do?"
Lin Dan slowly pushed a check with a huge face value in front of him and whispered, "I can show you my sincerity, such as building another laboratory building for the Department of Biological Sciences, or purchasing a batch of laboratory equipment? Which one do you think is more suitable?" She also tried her best for this admission letter.
Darren couldn't hold back his serious expression, and he said with a smile, "Okay, Lin, I'm touched by your sincerity. From your conversation, I understand that you are a person with a sense of responsibility and bottom line. You try to stick to something, which is good. When I learned that you sold your research results, I was very angry. I thought you were a person who would sell everything for money, but today I found out that I was wrong."
He stared into Lin Dan's eyes and continued, "Recently, a scientist published a research result. He used gene rewriting technology to conceive two children. This seriously violated my moral bottom line. Rewriting human genes is God's science, a double-edged sword. No one knows whether the so-called perfect humans after rewriting are still our kind. Doomsday, zombies, destruction, the door to disaster has been opened by us, and the consequences are too terrible. Scientists have the ability to create a world, and they also have the ability to destroy a world. I have to make a careful choice. I must make sure that my students have a bottom line, and are not crazy profit-seeking people."
"I can understand you." Lin Dan nodded.
Darren stood up and hugged her. "Very good, you have passed the interview and I will be your mentor. You know, you are the first person who persuaded me to change my mind. Your sincerity touched me." He winked at Lin Dan mischievously, but did not accept the check. He felt that Lin Dan was a miracle, as he thought that a person without emotions could do this for others.
Lin Dan, who originally did not expect to be able to convince Dr. Darren, was stunned for a long time before expressing his gratitude. She walked out of the office and basked in the bright sunshine of late spring. Suddenly, she felt that all the exhaustion, struggle and painful decisions she had made during this period became clear. She knows that she is truly alive and what she is doing, and that is the best answer.
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