Su Mingan raised his head.
The rain flowed down his cheeks, some of it fell into his eyes, and his blood-red vision was now blurred.
The status bar in the upper left corner has begun to alarm. His physical condition is weak in the shadow state. If it continues like this, he will be at risk of shock debuff.
In his field of vision, the overwhelming barrage of comments was in a mess. He closed his eyes, lowered his head, and looked at the ruby pendant on Dongxue's neck that was dancing like fire.
"Can it be lifted?" he asked.
Dongxue gave a miserable smile.
She pulled her hand back, holding the ruby, and shook her head with difficulty.
“…Don’t be afraid.” She said, “I’ve come to my senses. Even if I die here, White Sand Paradise will not be reset. Although it’s not a perfect ending, I’ve… walked out.”
“……”Su Mingan closed his eyes.
"But why?" She looked at him, her eyes as clear as glass: "...I feel like you didn't leave?"
Su Mingan didn't say anything.
"…Is a part of you, like me, completely dead here?" she asked, her tone as innocent as a child.
On her neck, the bright red pendant flickered like fire.
Countdown to life, last thirty seconds.
The raindrops fell on her body with a crackling sound, and the world around her gradually became unclear.
In the midst of a daze, Dongxue suddenly stretched out her hand.
She hugged him tight, just as she had done in the cave.
"...Don't be afraid," she said.
However, unlike the previous ones, this hug contained no humility or request.
She simply held him.
This hug was not tight, not forceful, and not a bit sticky.
Like little kids comforting each other.
"I used to think... what's the meaning of my life for someone like me who was born with the wrong gender identity and has such a hard life?" Dongxue said softly, her words were so soft, as if she was singing a lullaby before bed: "...abnormal, unaccepted, unworthy of playing with peers, unable to live a normal life...it seems like I should have been sent for treatment and correction since I was born, and I should not exist."
In the heavy rain, her voice was as light as a feather:
"...But later, I gradually discovered that no matter how bad or useless a person is, when he or she comes into the world, there will always be traces left behind."
"I like Yang Xia, I like everything about her. I like the way she tells me stories in a gentle voice, I like the way she comforts me tenderly, and even the words she urges me to grow up are beautiful to me."
"…even though I am her creation."
"…even though I'm still something that shouldn't exist."
"But," she said softly, leaning against his. "Some things don't exist for the purpose of meaning."
"When I saw you just now, I suddenly understood what you said to me."
"[We are never anyone's shadow]." She said, "[And we always have the power to choose without regret] - they want to deny this, deny everything I did for Yang Xia... but they know almost nothing about the feelings between us."
"Even if this is wrong?" Su Mingan suddenly spoke up.
"Even if this approach is wrong." Dongxue affirmed.
"..." He closed his eyes: "In the end, I was actually comforted by you."
"Finally?" Dongxue looked a little confused.
"Thank you," he said.
Dongxue listened to his thanks and smiled.
Her black hair stuck to her cheeks, and the glowing ruby pendant on her chest looked extremely beautiful in the darkness.
There was always an unmelting frost in her eyes, as if she instinctively concealed her emotions and would no longer open up easily to the words of outsiders.
At this moment, she just looked at him without saying anything, and her eyes were more open than ever before.
"Su Mingan." She suddenly called his name.
"Um."
"Thank you for everything you've done for me...for me and Yang Xia."
"……Um."
"...I don't need to grow up anymore." She said with clear and bright eyes.
Red light danced in her eyes.
The halo gently intertwined on her face, like a touch of ironing fire.
The gemstone began to crack.
She suddenly reached out and pushed him away.
When she looked over, her eyelids opened and closed for a moment, like a flowing river of stars in the sky.
“…I have lived my life.” She said, “…I have tried to live my life.”
Su Mingan suddenly sat down in the rain pit and did not get up.
Intense hallucinations filled his vision and he gasped, his eyes fixed on the smiling girl.
"I had a future. I... left a trace."
She looked at him and smiled.
The flames flickered.
In the dark rain, that moment of blazing light flashed, like a star that suddenly lit up -
…
【From then on, she saw the meaning of pain. 】
【Man's primary concern is not to gain pleasure or avoid pain, but to see the meaning of life. 】
[…and she is working hard to possess this “meaning”. ]
…
“Bang!”
…
The black was fading away and the red pendant was bursting.
There was a clear sound of raindrops falling, dripping. The raindrops mixed with blood rolled down the girl's bloody cheeks and dripped onto the cold ground.
The raindrops on her body finally fell to the ground.
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