The word "recycling" is only used for items that have reached the end of their use life and cannot be used.
For a life...
Su Mingan looked at the old lady in front of him, who was very old and as thin as a piece of paper.
"I should have died long ago. I know my illness very well."
She said, “It’s just that I thought I had to wait until my old man came back before I would take the initiative to accept this experiment.
The other experimental subjects were all strong prisoners... but they all died. Only I, a skinny failure, survived. Although I did not obtain the power of the Soul Clan... it was enough to prolong my life.
But now, the life that was barely extended is coming to an end.
Just yesterday, the old man sent me a message telling me that there was no need to wait for him.
I promised him before that if he reached the end of his life span and still couldn't come down, he should tell me. Now it seems... he is probably waiting for me there.
I see that Lele has grown up, and I am old too. I can no longer work, and I can no longer see clearly. Jiajia's illness also requires subsidies from the Soul Hunters. Rather than letting me continue to live and let my whole family suffer with me, and let the Soul Hunters be wary of me...it's better to let me go so that I can meet the old man in heaven..."
She raised her head, and her cloudy eyes seemed to have a bright luster like silk:
"In this life... I have seen the prosperity of Praia. I have seen it all these years. Jiajia and Lele are both grown up. I have no regrets. Su Lin's child, you are a good boy, and so is Xie Lude's child. Don't worry about me. Just do what you should do.
...When people get older, it’s almost time for them to leave.”
"There is no such thing as whether or not to die." Su Ming'an said, "No one should die at a certain age."
Garde reminded him of his grandmother, who died when he was four years old.
At that time, grandma was also holding his hand, lying on the hospital bed, and talking to him in a low voice.
She told him to be obedient, to be good, and to tolerate his mother. She said that his mother was just angry outside and he just had to be patient. In the future, she would not be there to protect him, and his father would be away all year round, so he should try to hide in his room.
He remembered it and kept enduring it, enduring that woman until he could no longer endure it.
...But before he was four years old, he always remembered how his grandmother protected him behind her, gave him candy, and told him to go back to his room.
In front of him, Garde, whose face was full of age spots, was talking to him softly.
In his pocket, there was still a bag of uneaten rice cake candy.
"Do you remember what I said, child?" She said softly, "In this life, one does not have to pursue something, as long as one can savor this life without regrets.
People will get answers to their questions in this life.
I had already waited for my answer, and he told me I didn't have to wait any longer.
What about you...your answer, Sheldon's answer, have you found it?"
…
Su Mingan gradually remembered.
At that time, Xie Lude and Jiaerde had clearly agreed on the time to leave, so why did Jiaerde deliberately keep him chatting?
The answer is simple.
No one forced her to chat with him.
…Just because she herself didn’t want to leave.
He remembered what she had said.
…
[Young man, don't be afraid. You are still young and have a long way to go. Even if you see a lot of darkness and injustice along the way, you must prioritize protecting yourself.]
…
[Soul Hunt is not a place where people are eaten alive. The King City also has their own considerations. Don’t be blinded by one thing and rashly stand up for the injustice... Only when you stand up there, stand high, and see far, can you understand that some things are not that simple.]
…
[Su Lin, Su Lin's child... you are a good boy. If you become a soul hunter, you will realize your dream.]
…
He already understood.
As early as that time, when she saw the Knight of Light wandering outside and Su Mingan, she was already prepared.
When she knew that he wanted to become a soul hunter, she specifically said these words, asking him to think more about it so that he could be mentally prepared.
This way, he wouldn't get emotional and do something when he learned of her death.
…Even for a stranger who had just returned, she could be so considerate. She would rather say such a long paragraph to take care of his future.
The old lady is such a gentle person.
She clearly did nothing wrong.
"...You came back on your own initiative, right?" Su Mingan looked at her.
Meeting his gaze, Garde nodded slowly.
No one forced her.
No soul hunter came aboard to pull her off. Because her son was a sacrificed soul hunter, even if she chose to escape, the soul hunters would reluctantly accept it for her son's sake.
...She came here on her own initiative after considering Sheridan's future, his prospects, and the price he paid to send her away.
Perhaps she had promised Xie Lude that she would get on the ship, and she would insist on living even if it meant leaving her hometown.
But after receiving the letter at short notice, she stopped waiting.
…She couldn’t wait any longer.
…She came back on her own initiative.
…
"Please take me back." She said, "Take out the mutated Soul Clan Heart from my chest and give it to the Pope. Then Xie Lude's resume will not be tarnished. Lele and Jiajia probably won't be implicated by me. They still have a future. They shouldn't be forced to leave Praia and wander on the sea...
Su Lin’s child…you are a good boy, the gods will not blame you.
Please help me. "
Finish saying this.
She held the photo in her hand and suddenly lowered her head.
——She kissed the blurry-faced man in the Soul Hunter uniform.
Silver threads floated on the sides of her face, like frost from a night of winter snow, brushing across the brown spots on her face. At the moment she closed her eyes, her expression became extremely gentle, like a little girl who had just fallen in love.
The kiss was very light.
Like the melting water from the snowy mountains, the rolling morning dew, the dragonfly skimming the water, like a believer kissing the Bible.
After a moment, she raised her eyes and her lips slowly separated from the photo.
The years settled in her eyes, locking up the long time.
The eyes with a circle of white were now filled with water, as clear and bright as the sea and sky.
Under her eyes, there was a pair of dark bags, which seemed to be filled with tears from long absence.
…
...For her, this is the best ending, a "happy ending".
…
[When people plan their own death, what awaits them is an incomparable sense of peace of mind.]
[——Just as Heidegger said, living towards death. ]
[Even if that death is still unknown to them. ]
…
If the day does not come,
She should have been used to being patient and waiting.
…
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