However, Su Mingan's original intention of clearing the level perfectly was to do his best to save everything. If it did not conflict with clearing the level, he would go and save it.
Not just Yueyue, if it was Lu Shu or Nuoer who died, he would go to save them. Even though it might take several replays, or even dozens of replays this time, the cost of replaying would only be the pain he would endure.
But the least valuable thing about him, and the thing that is easiest to pay for, is his death and his pain.
What Tretia said was right, he clearly had emotions, but he acted like he had no emotions. He might have saved Yueyue partly because she was more helpful alive, because his emotions would be more stable if she was alive, he needed information about the key to the God's camp, and he needed to kill Edward once and for all - but so what?
So what?
To save her, he is human.
If he doesn't save her, he's God.
Although his actions to rescue her after the performance were more like those of a "god" who was extremely calm, he was still human.
He is not a wise man who has understood the cycle of reincarnation and seen through life and death. He is just an ordinary student who is also afraid of death and feels despair because of the death of others - just a human being.
I am just a human being who wants to identify with my own behavior but keeps feeling lost. I don't want to lose again, but I keep losing.
He empathizes with NPCs and possessed people, he uses them, deceives them, he is so cold-blooded that he measures everything by the percentage of clearance, he remains calm and indifferent to the sacrifice of millions of soldiers and civilians. He has no way to retreat, he is always alone, but he still cries in the abandoned archives and struggles in the deep sea of memories that others cannot see.
But he is only human.
She still had a long way to go, at least until all humans were saved, at least until he became a hero. She recalled her long and brilliant journey, listening to him playing the piano, until she truly reached the end of the road...only then would it be over.
The captain of Theseus's ship struggled to survive in the storm, barely lingered under the gaze of thunder, and in extreme pain, he dropped a heavy "anchor" into the deep sea. It may be an unbreakable bond like family affection, or it may be a straw for a drowning man to survive.
——What distinguishes "people" from "programs" is whether they need this kind of spiritual anchor.
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【Did I help you this time? 】
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Su Mingan closed his eyes.
--some.
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