"..."Su Mingan remained silent.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Bei Lisel kept apologizing, and his painful voice echoed in the stairwell.
"You saved me, what is there to apologize for?" Su Mingan said.
"I'm sorry. I saved you because of my own selfish desires," said Bei Lisel.
"If I saved him, I saved him." Su Ming'an said calmly.
No matter what Bei Lisel thought, saving him was saving him. Besides, he always thought of Lu Shu after Bei Lisel died, so he couldn't hate him.
He saw a scarlet flash on the back of Bei Lisel's neck - the Nine Seats all had some authority, whether it was to open the central control room or other rooms.
Soon, the two arrived at a dark room. Bei Lisel used his authority to open the door and took out a few bottles of potion for Su Mingan.
"In the medical room, there are recovery medicines here," Bei Lisel said.
Su Mingan took the bottles and jars as he was told.
It was already midnight, and blazing white lightning flashed outside the window. The windows of the medical room were not curtained, and every time the thunder passed, the room would flash for a moment. Bei Lisel's white hair was stained with snow water, soaked through, like the feathers of a dead bird. He stared blankly out the window, his pupils illuminated by the thunder, as if he was lost in memories.
"Many years ago, on a night like this, it was raining heavily outside the window. You came back from the battlefield, covered in wounds. I looked for medicine for you in the same way then..." After a moment, Bei Lisel spoke, his voice full of loneliness, his fingers resting on the windowsill and slightly bent, as if trying to grab something.
"Back then, not so many people followed you, and you were still Asa Ak-To, not some other cold god. That was a great time."
His head drooped slightly, and his voice was mixed with pain and confusion:
"But why do you have to bear the lives of so many people?"
"I still can't understand it, but it's because you are that kind of person that I just can't leave you. I'm not like Noah, who can part ways with you just because of different ideas. I just can't... give up on you as a person."
After taking the medicine, his body began to warm up, and the wound healed at a speed visible to the naked eye. Su Mingan looked at Bei Lisel, whose eyes were hazy, in the bright light and said:
"you……"
"I'm sorry," said North Lisser. "I just want you back so badly."
So he will live extremely selfishly and wait at all costs.
So he would abandon all his pride and submit to a "god" he did not recognize.
He is selfish, selfish to the extreme, because all his selflessness has been contributed to one person, and there is nothing left.
There was the sound of Xiaomei's live broadcast outside the window, but Su Mingan couldn't hear her voice clearly. He leaned against the wall, panting, waiting for his wound to heal.
He took a quick look at the Sword of Alman and found that it was indeed damaged, but it was not a big problem. He used a few equipment repair stones given to him by players, and the sword quickly returned to normal.
In the darkness, Bei Lisel lowered his head and looked at something in his palm. It was a candy wrapped in colorful sugar wrapper.
Half of the white-haired boy's face was hidden in the thick darkness, with only one lifeless eye exposed.
"In fact, everyone has told me quietly... They don't want to be human anymore. They think humans are too bitter. But I told them that wine is fragrant, sugar is sweet, and the breeze in the world is soft, blowing on the body is like a mother's gentle caress." Bei Lisel whispered:
"During the long wait, they were the only ones in the valley who sang and danced, accompanying me like a fairy tale. They were like my brothers and sisters."
"I know this world is terrible. No matter how hard a civilization tries to turn the tide, it can't escape its fate. So sometimes, I wonder if it's best to let them continue to be home appliances?"
There was deep despair in Beilissel's eyes. He pinched the shirt on his left chest:
"Will it be less painful if I don't become a human being, if I don't be a person?"
"If I freeze myself and bury myself in the ground, will I not be so sad? But how can I see you with my own eyes?"
"Asa."
His voice trembled:
“…Can you answer me?”
Su Mingan put down the medicine bottle.
He actually knew very well why Bei Lisel risked his life to save him.
——The dream is over.
All that kept Beilissel alive was the belief that Asa would come back. But tonight, his dream was completely shattered.
His shattered soul only wanted to seek the last bit of warmth. This state was more like "waking up to dream". He knew who the person in front of him was, but he still comforted himself that this was a reflection of a dream.
He is fantasizing.
The fantasy is "he just dreamed of Su Mingan, and the person in front of him was actually Asa", rather than "he just dreamed of Asa, and the person in front of him was Su Mingan".
Su Mingan looked at Bei Lisel, as if he saw Lu Shu whose soul had been drained out. The two looked at each other silently, one with clear eyes and the other with hazy eyes. Even the flowing air was very quiet.
Bei Lisel did not get a response from Su Ming'an, but he did not show any sadness, he just stood on tiptoe.
Those blue eyes can still watch over the loneliness all night long.
"I have nothing now. My fellow appliance men are gone, my valley is gone, and you are all I have left."
"Can you..." His voice was close to Su Mingan's eyes: "Can you call me 'Xiao Bei' again?"
Su Mingan's pupils seemed to fade slightly, becoming a very dark gray, and he could clearly hear the resonance of his own soul.
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