Prepare for the ninth world and take two days of rest.
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Regarding the issue of updates… I know many people want more updates, but one update a day is the limit. The main reason is that the book has not been popular, so I have to focus on my studies. I have to take the postgraduate entrance examination in my third year of college, and the prospects of the book are not convincing to my family. (Although there are 500,000 collections, there are only 1,000 people who have subscribed to it…)
I can only compress my rest time as much as possible to write every day. The more I want to read various works, the more I feel guilty for not learning. The more I immerse myself in the colorful world of ideas, the more I face the pain of boring reality.
Reality does not have the living fire, cloud city and song in the article. It is a straightforward narrative that can be read at a glance. I want to enrich my thoughts but I am powerless, I want to enrich myself but I have no time, I want to read and write more soulful texts but I am stopped because it is not the "right way". Including the eighth world, I survived under the urging of my relatives to "stop writing, it's a waste of time".
I understand the importance of a stable job, and I can't help but pursue perfection in the plot. For example, if I want to write the Ninth World, I have to read various science fiction works to get materials, but this will also consume my review time.
I don't want to pad my articles with water. I hope every chapter is the best I can.
So I am in a dilemma and suffer all the time.
So exhausted.
I thought I didn't need to care so much and ran towards the "sea". But I couldn't overturn my black wall, so I loved but suffered.
Without the cost of trial and error and the financial conditions to pursue dreams, one has to be carried forward by the future in a daze, day after day, unable to resist.
Even if you want to have non-utilitarian interests, you will still be constrained by the environment, family, and survival itself.
People are always members of society, and no one is immune.
I'm stuck with a black wall.
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"You are right, but you are doomed to perish. In today's world, anyone who wants to live and be happy all his life cannot be like you and me. Anyone who refuses to play nonsense but listens to real music, refuses cheap entertainment but real joy, refuses money but has a soul, refuses busywork but engages in real work, refuses casual entertainment but has real passion, then such a person will not find his home in this beautiful world."
——Hermann Hesse, Steppenwolf
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