Chapter 62 I will definitely be more than you imagine...
Lu Shangyan sensed that his body was trembling violently as he spoke, and could only manage to grab his hand with some strength: "Don't rush, tell me the reason slowly."
Pei Yumin opened and closed his mouth for a moment, then looked at Lu Shangyan with his red-rimmed eyes and said, "I can't tell you."
Fearing that Lu Shangyan would continue to press him, he quickly added, "You've already worked so hard, I can't let you worry any more."
People passed by, their eyes constantly fixed on them. When Lu Shangyan turned to watch his show, they would quickly look away. This was clearly not the best place to talk, so Lu Shangyan took his hand and said, "Come back to the hospital with me first."
Pei Yumin felt the warmth from his palm and forced a smile, saying, "I can't tell you even when we get back."
"Then let's not talk about it for now." Lu Shangyan grabbed his hand and pulled him forward again: "Go back and wash the grapes for me first."
Pei Yumin sniffed, and this time without hesitation, followed him.
Dai Qin, who was upstairs, hadn't even figured out what had happened yet. When he went downstairs to pick up the person after preparing hot tea, there wasn't a soul in sight.
He sighed and went back upstairs to continue working.
There were still many documents that hadn't been organized yet, and Pei Yumin had handed them all over to him. He had to review them all today.
Once in the car, Pei Yumin seemed unable to leave him, clinging to him the whole time.
Lu Shangyan could only extend one hand to him. At first, they held hands, but Lu Shangyan saw that he was not paying attention while driving, so he scolded him with a stern face.
He seemed terrified, trembling as he placed both hands on the steering wheel. Lu Shangyan had never seen him like this before. After thinking for a while, he could only place his hands on his thighs.
Pei Yumin's condition seemed to have worsened. Before, he could pretend to maintain a normal demeanor, but now it was different. He was like a child who had been living in fear for many years, always becoming aggrieved and terrified at the slightest hint of trouble.
Lu Shangyan leaned against the wall, staring intently at Pei Yumin. When they were almost at the hospital entrance, Lu Shangyan couldn't help but ask him again, "Are you afraid I'll blame you?"
Pei Yumin nodded first, then quickly shook his head: "I'm not afraid."
Lu Shangyan felt uncomfortable thinking about how Pei Yumin had run away to the company today and refused to see him, but there were some things that Pei Yumin was unwilling to tell him now, and he couldn't keep chasing after her to ask.
Moreover, given Pei Yumin's current situation, he couldn't be too forceful: "Since you're not afraid, then no matter what happens in the future, you can't hide from me, okay?"
Pei Yumin had done a lot for him before, and had always pampered and spoiled him in order to make his life happier and more comfortable.
He was always afraid that he would be of no use to Pei Yumin, and that Pei Yumin would not need him.
But now that Pei Yumin needs him, he is at a loss again.
He stared at Pei Yumin for a long time, but Pei Yumin did not respond to him. He sighed inwardly and thought to himself that being completely needed was probably a problem for him right now.
But he believed that if Pei Yumin could do it well, so could he. What Pei Yumin could learn for him, he could learn for Pei Yumin.
Pei Yumin parked the car, walked around to the passenger side as usual to open the door for him, and then stretched out his arm so that he could help him get out of the car slowly.
It's strange, he used to think that as a man, he didn't need to take such good care of him, but now that Tun Tun is slowly growing inside him, he sometimes has to give in. It becomes very difficult for him to get out of the car, and it becomes very difficult to go upstairs. Sometimes, he even needs external help to turn over when he lies down to sleep.
Perhaps it was from the first time his legs started to swell, the first time he started to get up frequently at night because the fetus was growing, or perhaps it was because of his first bout of morning sickness, when he gradually became unable to eat, that all these things tormented him and made him no longer the "Lu Shangyan" he used to be.
They intertwined, forming a tight net that ensnared Pei Yumin, and without his knowledge, the net gradually tightened, making it difficult for him to breathe.
However, he considered these things to be minor matters. He himself didn't care about his own health, but Pei Yumin seemed to care about him even more than he did.
That's why he stopped being the same "Pei Yumin" he used to be because of these trivial matters that he didn't take to heart.
Pei Yumin always seemed to take nothing to heart, so Lu Shangyan always thought that even if the sky fell, Pei Yumin would still cheerfully pull him aside and ask, "It's almost the end of the world, do you want to kiss?" Or he would pull him aside and make him promise that in the next cycle, when the two of them appeared in this world at the same time, they would still be together.
But now it seems that his thinking was not entirely correct. Pei Yumin was thinking of being with him even in death, but it wasn't that he didn't care about anything.
Lu Shangyan grabbed his arm and, after getting out of the car, took his arm: "You said you wanted me to have surgery sooner, have you thought it through?"
Pei Yumin said, "I've thought it through, but I'm afraid you won't agree."
Lu Shangyan then asked, "Is it because having the surgery earlier will be bad for Tuntun?"
Pei Yumin remained silent for a long time until he slowly walked to the ward before speaking again: "Uncle Wu said that Tun Tun's growth conditions are limited now. Even though he is over eight months old, he may not grow as well as a normal seven-month-old baby."
"But as you know, your body is not actually suitable for carrying a child. Now, Tun Tun has already had a huge impact on your body."
Lu Shangyan looked down at him as he skillfully helped him take off his shoes, and finished his sentence for him: "You're afraid that I won't be able to keep this child, and even more so, I won't be able to keep myself."
Pei Yumin paused for a moment: "You won't be in any danger."
“Yes, I’ll be fine,” Lu Shangyan said. “I feel that Tun Tun is doing well, and I’m also in good health.”
"But don't worry, if I feel even slightly unwell, I will tell you immediately."
“I will consider having the surgery earlier, but not now, because as you said, Tuntun’s current condition is not suitable for early birth. He needs to stay in the womb for at least two weeks, is that okay?”
The longer Tun Tun stays in his body, the more he grows, and the greater his chances of survival.
Pei Yumin buried her face in his knees: "Uncle Wu said that Tun Tun was very healthy during many check-ups before, and you were also very healthy. The baby would definitely be born safely. I don't know why things suddenly turned out like this."
Pei Yumin had already become very anxious, and the recent examination became the last straw that broke the camel's back.
Lu Shangyan took a deep breath: "It's already a miracle that the two of us have Tun Tun. No one can be lucky forever. Maybe this is a test that Tun Tun is giving us."
Pei Yumin reached out and placed his hand on his stomach: "What kind of test is this? Seeing you suffer like this, I'm going to spank him when he comes out."
Lu Shangyan reached out and pinched his cheeks, pulling them apart: "Don't say that now! He can understand!"
Pei Yumin said, "It would be best if he could understand."
"If he can understand, he will be more obedient in the future, grow up quickly, and be born early when he meets the conditions for surgery."
Lu Shangyan licked his dry lips: "Did Uncle Wu say when would be the best time to have the surgery?"
Pei Yumin thought for a moment. He originally wanted to "lie" to Lu Shangyan, but Lu Shangyan's gaze was too intense. He knew that even if he didn't tell the truth, Lu Shangyan would definitely find a way to find out the truth this time.
So he had no choice but to tell the truth: "Uncle Wu wasn't sure either, but he said the earlier the surgery, the better for you."
"As for Tun Tun, he said it depends on his growth. If it's possible, the surgery might be able to be performed next week. If not, it might have to be delayed for a long time."
Lu Shangyan understood. He calculated that by next month, Tuntun would be almost nine months old. Even if her growth and development weren't as good as other babies, at least... Lu Shangyan closed his eyes: "Then, can we still follow my plan for now?"
Pei Yumin finally raised her head to meet his gaze: "Two weeks later..."
Lu Shangyan was afraid that he would speak too absolutely and leave no room for reversal in the end, so he quickly interrupted him: "I will check again tomorrow, and then go to Uncle Wu and the other doctors to have a detailed talk about whether the surgery is feasible in two weeks. Is that okay?"
Pei Yumin originally wanted to say, "Whether it's possible or not, the surgery is necessary." But now that Lu Shangyan's eyes were shining, she couldn't bring herself to say anything harsh. She could only hold his hands tightly, as if that would give him the courage to agree.
Lu Shangyan knew that he couldn't answer him right now, so he didn't force him to give him an answer.
The topic was too heavy for him to think about, and he didn't want Tun Tun to notice either: "Hurry up and wash the grapes for me, I want to eat them."
Pei Yumin rubbed his eyelids, stood up and deftly washed the grapes for him, took down the small table, put the grapes on the table, and adjusted the bed to the most comfortable height for Lu Shangyan.
For every one Lu Shangyan ate, he would stuff one into Pei Yumin's mouth: "You have to take good care of yourself too. After all, once Tuntun is born, the accountant will have to go to school, and you'll need to take care of him most of the time."
Pei Yumin's hands had stopped trembling, and he managed a smile as usual: "Okay."
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The next morning, Lu Shangyan, unusually, did not sleep in. Perhaps because he had something on his mind, he could not even sleep soundly, and so did Pei Yumin, who was holding him.
At 7:30, Pei Yumin could no longer lie down. He got dressed and went out. Lu Shangyan thought he was going to see the doctor to discuss the examination, but unexpectedly, he pushed a wheelchair in.
Lu Shangyan was washing his face with hot water when he turned his head and saw the wheelchair. He couldn't help but laugh out loud: "Isn't this a bit too much?"
Pei Yumin said righteously, "It's not an exaggeration at all. I wish you didn't have to do anything right now. I'll help you brush your teeth, wash your face, get dressed, and eat."
Lu Shangyan smiled and sighed, "I guess you'll only have the chance to help me with these things when I'm ninety years old."
Pei Yumin looked at him and said, "You could do this for the rest of your life."
As if an electric current had passed through him, Lu Shangyan felt a jolt in his heart. He gave him a rare, somewhat flustered and shy smile: "Don't talk nonsense. What if Mom suddenly comes in?"
Pei Yumin had been suppressing his emotions too much lately. Last night, Lu Shangyan talked to him a lot, which helped him relieve his stress. Today, he seemed much more relaxed than before.
He even started to think about saying to Lu Shangyan again: "Let her listen to him when he comes. Anyway, we've been staying at home for a while, and she's listened to a lot of things."
Lu Shangyan looked at him with an indifferent expression, shrugged helplessly, and tried to walk past him to get dressed, but Pei Yumin suddenly turned around and blocked his way: "New car, try it out and see how it is."
Lu Shangyan hesitated and refused to try, so Pei Yumin simply grabbed his waist and pressed him down into the chair.
Lu Shangyan wanted to stand up, but unfortunately, he was unable to move and didn't have time to do so. Pei Yumin had already pushed him out, so he dared not stand up anymore.
So he had to ask Pei Yumin to bring him a blanket when he went out. When he went for his check-up, he would lift the blanket up and cover half of his face whenever he encountered someone on the way.
Pei Yumin remained remarkably open and honest: "Didn't you say you wanted me to serve you from now on? I'll try it out first."
Lu Shangyan was both amused and exasperated: "Then forget it. When I'm ninety, you'll be almost a hundred. Maybe I'll be the one taking care of you then."
Pei Yumin whispered to him, "Then you don't need to take care of me. You're so capable, you must have saved up a lot of money to hire a nanny for me."
Lu Shangyan followed her words and said, "I'll hire eight nannies for you, each taking care of you for three hours."
Pei Yumin's tone became much more relaxed: "Mr. Lu is so generous, then I'll have to rely on you for the rest of my life."
Lu Shangyan kept talking to him, afraid that he would overthink things after calming down, but unexpectedly, as soon as he saw Uncle Wu and the voice behind him, Pei Yumin's expression froze instantly, and his hands began to turn cold.
Lu Shangyan had no choice but to raise his hand, put it around his shoulder, and place it on the back of Lu Shangyan's hand: "What's the panic? The examination hasn't even started yet. The results of this examination will definitely be very good."
Pei Yumin was still nervous and couldn't say a word. He just followed the doctor and nurses, and they told him to take Lu Shangyan to a certain department for examination. He pushed Lu Shangyan there.
After a morning of fussing, he looked quite exhausted. Lu Shangyan barely walked a few steps, just lying around, feeling a backache. When he returned to his ward, he suddenly realized that the wheelchair had indeed helped him a lot.
The test results would take some time to come out, so Pei Yumin sat on the small sofa, his body curled up, looking particularly pitiful.
Lu Shangyan stretched his limbs, slowly walked over and patted his head: "Don't you believe me? If I say it's okay, then it's definitely okay."
Pei Yumin hugged his waist, but didn't dare to use too much force. She buried her face in his side and smelled his scent to keep herself from trembling too much.
When Yuan Qingyu arrived, he had been in this position for a long time. Lu Shangyan felt his back was aching terribly, but he didn't move at all. He did the same when he saw Yuan Qingyu arrive.
After hearing the noise, Pei Yumin slowly released Lu Shangyan, let him sit down, and then massaged his waist and legs.
Yuan Qingyu brought lunch: "I just heard from your Uncle Wu that you did another system check. You must be exhausted after a whole morning of work. Eat something first."
Some examinations don't allow eating or drinking, and Lu Shangyan was indeed very hungry. He instructed Pei Yumin to bring him food and dishes. After all the dishes were set out, he stood up and walked towards the dining table, but he stopped after taking only a few steps: "Pei Yumin, come and help me."
It wasn't that he couldn't walk there by himself, but he suddenly felt that Pei Yumin would be happier if he asked him for help.
Sure enough, Pei Yumin's tense body relaxed a bit. Seeing that he wasn't eating, Lu Shangyan said again, "Eat quickly, eat big mouthfuls. Now when I see other people eating with relish, I feel especially hungry."
Pei Yumin hesitated for a moment, then began to eat as he requested. Lu Shangyan then "fought" with him for the food. Yuan Qingyu, watching from the side, felt her eyes well up with tears. She felt sorry for Pei Yumin and also for Lu Shangyan.
Not long after we finished eating, Uncle Wu and the doctors arrived.
Pei Yumin was extremely nervous, and his face changed instantly. He became restless and started to fidget. He gestured for Uncle Wu to sit down, but when he turned to get a chair, he couldn't remember what he was supposed to do.
Lu Shangyan could only casually remind him, "No need to take it, Uncle Wu and the others can sit on the sofa."
Pei Yumin then brought over two chairs, one for him and one for Yuan Qingyu.
Lu Shangyan touched his knee with his knee, giving him a light tap, and gestured with his eyes for him not to be afraid.
This must be the time when Pei Yumin was most afraid of knowing the outcome, yet most eager to know the outcome. Sometimes he didn't even know what he was doing. Looking at the doctors and nurses in front of him, he felt as if he were an outsider, everything was calm, as if nothing had happened.
But then he thought about it again, and Lu Shangyan was sitting next to him. He started to breathe rapidly with fear, thinking that he would faint at any moment and never wake up again.
Time began to drag on endlessly. Pei Yumin's expression grew increasingly grave, while Lu Shangyan remained as composed as ever, even having the mind to ask the doctor questions.
Yuan Qingyu stood to the side, her eyes red, but she didn't shed a single tear.
Fortunately, everything is proceeding according to Lu Shangyan's plan.
Although various physical indicators are still below standard, the risk factor remains high, and it is unknown when things will return to normal, at least the results of this examination show that there is a downward trend.
Uncle Wu also breathed a sigh of relief for them: "If the results of this examination are accurate, the surgery can be performed in two weeks."
Pei Yumin didn't know whether to laugh or cry. He opened his mouth for a long time but could only hum and groan, unable to utter a complete word, let alone ask a complete question.
Seeing his expression, Lu Shangyan patted him on the back a few times.
He knew what Pei Yumin wanted to ask: "If the surgery is in two weeks, will Tuntun be healthy?"
Uncle Wu said, "As you know, the fetus's development is relatively slow, but if the surgery is performed two weeks later, the survival rate for the fetus is as high as 90%."
Yuan Qingyu clasped her hands together and said, "That's good, that's good!"
Pei Yumin finally dared to breathe deeply, and Lu Shangyan also relaxed and leaned back in his chair: "Thank you for your trouble, Uncle Wu."
The surgery will likely be more difficult, and Tun Tun will need to be observed in the intensive care unit after the surgery. Uncle Wu will have to take good care of all of this.
Yuan Qingyu understood this as well. When seeing the people off, they chatted for a long time, which also gave Lu Shangyan and Pei Yumin a chance to speak alone.
Once everything quieted down, Lu Shangyan looked at Pei Yumin and patted him on the shoulder again: "See, I told you, I'll be fine."
"So you must never say anything discouraging in front of Tun Tun again. He'll be unhappy if he hears it. What if you provoke him and he goes on a 'hunger strike' for a day and grows a little slower?"
Pei Yumin pursed his lips, squatted down and said, "Tuntun, Daddy apologizes to you. You have to be good for the next two weeks, okay?"
After saying that, he raised his head and argued, "But I didn't say anything discouraging in front of him."
He even consulted professional acting experts to consider Lu Shangyan's feelings, afraid of revealing any sadness in front of Lu Shangyan.
Lu Shangyan tapped his forehead with his index finger: "You look dejected every day, and your expression says it all."
Now it seems Lu Shangyan knows him far too well! He even saw through his acting skills, which had been guided by a performance expert!
Pei Yumin said, "Only you could see that, Tun Tun couldn't."
Lu Shangyan said, "Tuntun can tell what I'm thinking."
Pei Yumin also said, "I know what you're thinking."
Lu Shangyan's brows furrowed in confusion: "What?"
Pei Yumin hugged him: "You're thinking that you like me a lot, love me a lot, and want to be with me for the rest of your life, right?"
Lu Shangyan blushed, unsure where to look: "This is a hospital, don't talk nonsense."
Pei Yumin lowered his voice: "I'm not making this up, that's what you think."
"I guessed it all, but you still won't admit it. What if Tun Tun learns to lie from you?"
Lu Shangyan's face turned even redder, and his earlobes even felt hot: "If you know, then don't say it anymore."
Pei Yumin held him tightly, perhaps knowing that Lu Shangyan was temporarily out of danger and would be safe in two weeks. He relaxed completely, and his eyes were no longer filled with worry, but began to show a smile.
Pei Yumin looked at him and said, "Tell me yourself, okay?"
Lu Shangyan kept turning his face away, refusing to look at him, so he moved his face closer, insisting that Lu Shangyan look at him. After struggling like this several times, Lu Shangyan finally gave up.
Pei Yumin raised his eyebrows, gesturing for him to speak quickly.
Lu Shangyan pursed his lips, his head bowed low, and after a long while he said, "Pei Yumin, you love me more than I love myself. Maybe I can never compare to you, but I will love you more than you can imagine."
"So if you're feeling down in the future, please rely on me a little more, just like I need you and you need me a little too."
Lu Shangyan's voice grew softer and softer as he spoke, until finally he rested his head on his shoulder.
Pei Yumin was stunned for a long time, then couldn't help but smile, cupped his face, found his lips, and kissed him.
Lu Shangyan noticed that her lips were moist.
Pei Yumin cried again.
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Author's Note: Pei Yumin: Wife [crying] Wife, wife [crying] [crying] Wife, wife, wife [crying] [crying] [crying]
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