This is a heart-wrenching diary.
Melina recorded in detail how she received a commission from the Council of Scholars and went to the Grand Inquisition with Grindel to deal with the rebellious scholar Serius.
In Carteoutin, the capital of the neighboring country, she was selected into the Iron Knights because of her outstanding performance and was personally arranged by Kernlauer to be by the side of little Galausa, becoming Galausa's personal guard.
At this point, she began to come into contact with little Galausa.
At that time, Galausa was just a precocious little girl. She had a pair of sharp eyes and could vaguely see the purpose behind the adults' various behaviors, but her speculation on the logic of communication between people seemed very immature.
She often consulted Melina, and as a believer of [Truth], no matter how much Melina tried to hide it, there would always be a shadow of [Order] in her will. Coupled with her loyalty and piety to the Council of Learned Presidents, she felt that if the descendants of a [Order] ruler could be brought closer to [Truth], perhaps in the future, the contradictions between the Grand Inquisition and the Tower of Reason would be reduced to a level where they could coexist harmoniously.
So she began her "education" journey.
It was also the enlightenment of little Galausa that gave her the opportunity to follow Galausa to find Serius and see the dawn of completing the mission.
But things are not calm inside the Grand Inquisition. Just as the great scholars are scheming against each other to gain support for experimental resources and using all means to gain entry into the Erudite Presidential Council, there is also a faction within the Grand Inquisition that is investigating Kernlal's connection with the Truth.
Melina was ambushed several times because she was too close to Galausa, but she escaped death every time.
The most serious time she almost lost all consciousness, but when she woke up and saw little Galausa personally taking care of her by her bed, Melina fell.
Of course, the fall here does not refer to any forbidden emotions. She completely regarded little Galausa as her own student, and her only student, because at that time she was far from being able to recruit students and stand on her own.
From then on, her attitude towards little Galausa changed. She wanted to lead her away from the quagmire of [Order] and become a true believer of [Truth], but she also knew that this could not be done in a hurry, so she worked harder to transform the descendants of this ruler, and to transform their cognition and ideas about everything.
Galausa really changed, she began to see the world from the perspective of truth.
But it is a shame to say that this was not Melina's achievement, but Serius's contribution.
It is easy to guess what Serius is thinking. Establishing a relationship with the descendant of a powerful person will obviously make his situation in Montelani better, but this action makes Melina feel conflicted.
Her mission was to kill Serius, but she didn't want to make little Galausa sad. A crazy idea even arose in her mind, that is, it would be good if it could remain like this. As long as Serius was not dead, she could stay in the Grand Inquisition forever and take care of her student until she grew up.
However, it is useless to give up individually. Grind is a man who dreams of making great achievements. He planned one attack plan after another, and finally launched the plan in a death duel performance and killed Serius.
From then on, Melina knew that she would never have the chance to accompany Galausa again, because she had to return to the place where the "truth" flowed.
But she still wanted to say goodbye to Galausa, and even thought of a reason for her disappearance, a reason that would be enough to comfort herself and the other person.
But before she could finish her reason, Galausa died, killed by her distraction and negligence.
This unacceptable reality completely broke down Melina's defenses. She hated herself, hated the Grand Inquisition, and even began to hate the Tower of Reason. She didn't know why she had so much hatred in her heart. She only knew that her student, the perfect student who she had watched grow up for so many years, was just... gone.
So she burned down Serius' laboratory and returned to Tusnate.
Because of Melina and Grindel's outstanding performance, their status in the department began to rise. They became the backbone of their respective departments and received more and more experimental projects and teaching tasks.
However, no matter how many students Melina taught, she would never find a student as smart and perfect as Galausa.
Her obsession made her record her thoughts in a notebook every day, which later gradually evolved into daily meditation and recollection. As she grew older, her obsession accumulated more and more, and she began to be dissatisfied with the empty thoughts, so she decided to secretly start some forbidden experiments to engrave the traces of Galausa's existence in her genes.
In this way, Galausa would not be considered dead.
The contents of the rest of the diary are mostly trivial matters, but it can be seen that Melina's paranoia has exceeded the boundaries of normal emotions and has twisted into a kind of pain that she can't let go of and is unwilling to let go of.
This "twisted pain" became more and more solid with genetic inheritance until it came to Pei Laya's generation...
Little Peilaya is a rare genius in the family. She has shown remarkable wisdom and amazing talent for truth since she was young. Everyone in the family says that she is the perfect successor to the great scholar Melina, and is comparable to the star of truth named Galausa.
The attraction of blood and the admiration of the crowd made Peilaya more and more interested in Galausha. She thought that perhaps her great-grandmother's obsession had engraved that person's shadow in the genes passed down from generation to generation, so she grew up to look like Galausha.
She became more and more fond of "Gallusha" who was like herself, and even began to confide in her.
Whenever an experiment didn't go well or she was overwhelmed by lab politics, she would sit in front of the mirror and complain to "another self", just like Melina writing in a diary, pouring out all her stress to the reflection in the mirror.
For many years, she has regarded the "Galusa" in the mirror as the sustenance of her soul, thinking that only she can understand her and accompany her to move forward silently on this lonely road of "truth".
Up to this point, everything was still "normal", but Mark's fate always liked to play tricks on people. Until one day, when she confided in "Gallusha" again because of the failure of a crucial experiment, the real Gallusha flipped in from the window.
She had been listening for a long time. After coming in, she didn't say a word. She just pulled over a screen and started writing and drawing on it under Pei Laya's stunned gaze.
She explained to Peilaya the reasons for the failure of the experiment, analyzed the steps for optimizing the process, and even gave some incredible suggestions, saying that if this was done, the experiment would most likely be successful.
Pei Laya was stunned. She looked at the familiar yet unfamiliar female scholar in front of her and asked who she was.
Garusha had a beautiful smile on her face and said her name.
"Galusa."
At that moment, no one could understand the sense of redemption in Peilaya's heart. It was also at that moment that the "truth" in Peilaya's heart was materialized in the world.
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