Chapter 49: I feel sorry for Xu Yi and there is a long future ahead

Yuyan glanced at Yinzhen. With him holding her like this, the distance between them was very close. She could almost see the little girl in Yinzhen's eyes.

It wasn't completely dark in the tulle closet; a small light was left on outside to prevent anyone from seeing anything.

In the first month of the lunar year, people had to get up before dawn and rush to the palace. By the time they heard their movements, it would be too late to light the lamp, so the small lamp was never extinguished at night to avoid oversleeping.

In the dim light, Yuyan only glanced at him once before she collapsed in Yinzhen's arms, lying motionless in his arms.

"I have something to ask Lord Beile." Yu Yan said lazily, "But I'm so sleepy, I'll have to ask later."

Yinzhen refused to let her go, holding her in his arms and kissing her slowly: "You are sleepy today, sleepy tomorrow, this first month of the year, is there any day that Fujin is not sleepy? Who knows, Fujin might forget about this matter and then not ask about it anymore."

"I'm still waiting for Fujin to ask me." The Fourth Prince felt more and more aggrieved.

He hoped that with a kiss he could wake up Fu Jin, who was sleeping and for whom he was only thinking about him.

At least, finish your words first.

After being disturbed by him like that, Yuyan really couldn't continue sleeping.

Yinzhen's kiss was not strong enough, but it made Yuyan's face a little itchy.

This was not a kiss of passion. The feeling he wanted to convey accurately reached Yuyan's heart at such a late hour.

Yinzhen was actually looking forward to their conversation and her questions. He didn't want to wait and wanted to hear her words now.

I want to know what she thinks about what happened today.

His kiss was full of care, expectation, and a little cautious eagerness.

"Master Beile did this today, and my reputation spread overnight."

Yuyan said, "With Lord Beile promoting my name, sewing looms are all the rage in the palace. Many people must have expressed their desire to have sewing looms to the Imperial Concubine. But the Imperial Concubine's status is there, no one dares to force her, and no one dares to offend the Tong family. The sewing loom is safest in the hands of the Empress. Even the Emperor will not misinterpret Lord Beile's intentions."

"Then how things will develop from now on will depend on what Lord Beile wants."

[From now on, no matter who mentions the sewing machine, they will remember that it was drawn by me. Alas, my drawing was too abstract and was laughed at by Emperor Kangxi. So bad. Is it because I don’t want to draw?]

[Everyone has his own strengths and weaknesses. This is not my strength. If you are capable, let’s compete in memorizing medical books. Or in serving small animals. I can definitely be called the best in the Qing Dynasty!]

Listening to Yuyan's mumbling in her heart, Yinzhen couldn't help laughing.

He never concealed his intentions.

Others can't see it, but he and Yuyan are together day and night, and Yuyan knows many of the things he does. Of course, Yuyan can see how he does it.

Yinzhen said, "It is just as Fujin thought. I have the same idea. The emperor has many doubts about this. I want to make a name for you, but I don't want you to be envied by others. That's why I used this method. You will have room to move forward and backward in the future, and it won't bury what you have come up with and made. You can develop in any way you want in the future."

Yinzhen paused for a moment before saying, "The noble concubine is not an outsider."

He has revealed everything to Yuyan.

He said softly, "What you said are all important matters. You understand them in your heart, and I also say that you understand them. What about the others? Do you have anything else to say?"

Yuyan said: "What Prince Beile did is reasonable. It is good for both the public and private. It is beneficial. Of course I can understand and comprehend it. But Prince Beile is asking again, is it personal feelings or justice?"

Yinzhen held Yuyan in his arms, and the two of them were facing each other.

Yuyan was sitting on him, so she was a little taller than him. The eye contact between the two was not equal. Yuyan was looking down, and there was a sense of superiority.

Yinzhen didn't seem to be in a hurry to look Yuyan in the eye. He was even very calm and just let Yuyan look down at him openly.

Just like the clean inner clothes he was wearing, everything in his sight was clearly seen by Yuyan.

Yuyan didn't say anything else, she was waiting for Yinzhen's answer.

But Yinzhen didn't answer her right away. He stared at her for a long time before he asked softly, "Is it me who can't make you feel at ease?"

Yuyan's heart trembled slightly.

rest assured?

Has she always been worried?

This question really stumped Yinzhen.

Yuyan thought of the theory she had set for herself to implement before.

Yinzhen's body was very warm, and being held in his arms like this actually gave me a very safe feeling.

His actions were gentle, as if she was a treasure he cherished.

The sewing loom thing was to bring her fame. Looking at today's situation, it is clear that this was not something that Yinzhen came up with on a whim, but had been planned for some time.

Even the Tong family and the imperial concubine helped him, which showed that he had arranged everything well.

I think that Concubine Gui and the Tong family must have seen the benefits of this incident.

But it’s just like he said, this is the big deal, what about personal feelings?

The secret love is that he is wholeheartedly devoted to her.

He was unwilling to bury her reputation and even made these arrangements. Without knowing the full picture, he was determined to let such a reputation fall on her.

She was afraid that someone might be jealous and frame her, so she sent her abstract paintings to Kangxi to see, just to make everyone lower their guard.

What else can you ask of such a considerate and gentle person?

He said, those who abandon me, yesterday cannot be retained.

Yuyan secretly checked it herself, and found that the next sentence of "Old things are as far away as the sky" is "Longing for you is as deep as the sea".

That night, Yinzhen thought she was asleep, so he whispered this to her.

In fact, she was not asleep. She heard it and was holding her breath waiting for Yinzhen's next words, but the man didn't say anything.

If he didn't tell her, she would check it out herself.

Then what comes into view is the next sentence which is so lingering.

“Maybe it’s me.”

Yu Yan said softly, "I am too cautious."

Yinzhen felt wronged again: "You just don't feel at ease."

Yuyan lowered her eyes and smiled, without denying Yinzhen's words.

Is she worried? She must be.

Otherwise, for an idealistic and perfect romantic dreamer like her who expects exclusive and passionate love and marriage, how could her own nature be contrary to this?

In fact, Yuyan has always felt that her nature is very contradictory.

She obviously has a passionate and enthusiastic emotion, but she also has a rational and reasonable side. If there is no rational pull, she will probably become a love-brained person.

It would be impossible to concentrate on building your own career.

She will definitely keep looking for her ideal of love.

The fact that she is 30 years old and has a successful career but has not yet fallen in love and married proves that for Jian Yuyan, rationality is more important than emotion.

No man was worth her passionate emotions.

So when it came to Yinzhen, she held the correct answer in her hand tightly and refused to give any answer.

People came up to her, but it seemed like they were willing to do so.

Is this not good?

Yuyan reached out and hugged Yinzhen. She almost pressed her entire body against Yinzhen, completely relaxed without leaving a single gap.

Her somewhat stiff back softened, unlike the soft and fluffy back just now due to being very sleepy. Now her back was really relaxed, and her posture was very natural and casual.

Yuyan's voice was a little more cheerful: "The one who abandoned you is someone I don't want to mention again."

"Is it a thing of the past that has already been turned over to Lord Baelor?"

Yinzhen held her firmly in his arms, his voice steady: "Yes."

He answered decisively without any hesitation.

Yu Yan said, "Master Beile, you cannot confuse me with that person."

Yinzhen laughed softly: "You never tried to hide it in the first place. When have I ever been confused? I know everything."

Yuyan didn't delve into it deeply, but I knew the profound meaning behind these words.

What she thought was that she did not imitate anyone, but used her true self, which was clearly intended for Yinzhen to see.

As long as Yinzhen knows everything, that's enough.

"Now, I am with Lord Beile." Yuyan's voice was soft.

She put her hands around Yinzhen's neck, and her fingertips slowly brushed across the back of his neck. She heard Yinzhen hum.

Yuyan was somewhat dissatisfied with Yinzhen's reaction. He was the one who kept asking her questions, and she told him everything bit by bit, and he just said, "Hmm?"

Yuyan's fingertips rubbed back and forth on Yinzhen's neck: "From the beginning, Prince Beile never rejected me. I don't think I ever said what I wanted, but Prince Beile gave it to me. When I was in Suzhou, I told Prince Beile that we should support each other and be close to each other, and Prince Beile agreed to my request."

“I’m actually very happy.”

Yinzhen smiled softly. He thought, why didn't you say it? You have already said a lot in your heart.

Fortunately, I can hear your voice. If I can't hear your voice, I don't know how long we will be delayed.

Yinzhen thought to himself that if he could not hear Yuyan's inner voice, he would probably ask many questions. He was not a secretive person, and with his temperament and Fujin's temperament, if he asked and Fujin answered, the two of them would probably not be delayed.

Yinzhen smiled and said, "I am also very happy to hear you say that."

Yuyan also had a smile on her face. She hugged Yinzhen intimately and said softly, "What else do you want to hear, Prince? Ask me. If I can tell you, I will tell you."

Yinzhen raised his eyebrows: "Is there anything else that I cannot tell you?"

Yuyan hesitated, thought for a while, and said, "It seems that there is nothing that cannot be said. Prince Beile has said it himself, and you know it all. I am just afraid that if I tell him everything, Prince Beile will no longer be interested in me in the future."

Look at what this is saying, what is this saying.

The night was dark, and it was actually a good time to have a heart-to-heart talk. But they had to get up early tomorrow, and they both had responsibilities to fulfill, and Yuyan's body needed to be taken care of. If they stayed up any longer tonight, Yinzhen was really afraid that Fujin would get sick.

There is still half a month left, and we will have to get up before dawn and go to the palace. There is really no need to say everything in one night.

In fact, Yinzhen picked up Yuyan because he was angry at her coldness. He wanted to hear her words and see her attitude. Now he saw it, and he saw that she didn't hide anything.

Although I am more honest in my heart, how can I say that it is not good to have such a result?

In fact, Yinzhen was really happy in his heart.

"I won't ask you today, I'll ask you later."

Yinzhen kissed the person in his arms and said softly, "You and I have a long time to live together."

In fact, he still wanted to hear Yuyan say it herself.

After listening to so many words in her heart and knowing her personality, I realized that she had actually done very well in such an unfamiliar situation and in such a place.

Yinzhen didn't want to put pressure on her, let alone force her to say anything.

I don't know what she has been through, what kind of world she was born into, and what kind of environment she lives in, which makes people want to touch love but dare not touch it.

Didn't she find someone she loved in her time?

Is being single-minded a high demand?

Yinzhen thought, throughout history, this has always been an difficult thing to do. He had never thought about it this way before, but he could think about it in the future.

It seemed that he had been thinking since he heard her thoughts.

When she was in Suzhou, or even earlier, whenever Yuyan was thinking about private affairs, her words could not be heard, but when he heard them, Yinzhen could not forget her expression at that time.

I saw it every time.

Remember every time.

Regretful, lonely, restrained and forbearing look.

Yinzhen felt a little sorry for her.

Yuyan didn't know why, but she suddenly became happier.

The atmosphere created by Yinzhen was very comfortable, making her body and mind feel relaxed and safe. The questions she had prepared did not come, and her brain, which had been tense for a moment, relaxed. Yuyan hugged Yinzhen and found a more comfortable position to sleep in his arms.

"Yeah. We'll talk about it later."

The consequence of relaxing was that the suppressed sleepiness overwhelmed her many times, and Yu Yan felt that she could not think anymore.

Yinzhen completely let Yuyan do what she wanted. Seeing that she was so sleepy that her eyes were closed, he smiled and said softly, "Okay. Then go to sleep."

Hearing Fu Jin's small cry of joy in her heart, Yinzhen's lips curled up.

Can just satisfying her sleep make her so happy?

It's really easy to satisfy.

The two of them fell asleep together in this intimate posture.

-

As Yuyan expected, the matter of the sewing machine was apparently not over.

Yuyan didn't know what the situation was like on Yinzhen's side, but there were indeed some problems on her side. They were not that difficult, but there were some sequelae.

Others don’t know the real reason why Concubine De injured her foot, but Yuyan and Yinzhen know it very well.

At least from the perspective of Concubine De, she believed that Yinzhen knew about it.

She was not sure at first, but seeing that the relationship between the fourth brother and Fu Jin had been getting better and better over the past six months, and even the affairs of state were no longer hidden from Fu Jin, it was possible that the fourth brother and Fu Jin would tell her about what happened here when he returned.

As soon as the news of the treasure presented by the noble concubine came out, the virtuous concubine was certain.

The fourth child knows everything.

Defei couldn't tell how she felt in her heart. She called Wulanala in and asked her to sit in front of her for most of the day. Defei just remained silent and just stared at Wulanala.

She didn't do anything. She just used some tricks to get out. It's not a big deal. She just used the Second Prince's fainting to gain fame. Why can't the Fourth Prince tolerate it?

They actually let Tong Jia come forward and step on her to promote the Ulanara clan?

Although it was only one night, Concubine De felt extremely uncomfortable.

What will outsiders think?

Empress Xiaoyi is gone. She was the biological mother of the Fourth Prince. For so many years, the Fourth Prince and she maintained a delicate relationship, and no one had ever broken this veil.

Although the Imperial Concubine is the younger sister of Empress Xiaoyi, she is only a few years older than the Fourth Prince and she has never raised him personally. It is impossible for their relationship to be too close, otherwise the Emperor will become suspicious.

The fourth brother has always had a good relationship with the children of the Tong family.

Since Concubine De couldn't control this, she naturally didn't do anything about it.

Even if she was unwilling in her heart, she knew that the Tong family was valued by the emperor, and no one could compare to them. This was the family of the emperor's mother, and no one could compare to them.

Defei even thought secretly that it was good that the fourth brother had a good relationship with the Tong family. After all, the fourteenth brother was the fourth brother's biological brother, so he would have someone to take care of and help him in the future.

But what did the fourth brother do?

She would rather let the imperial concubine come forward and give all the benefits to the imperial concubine. What has become of her, the biological mother? Everyone outside will laugh at her!

It’s a joke that she raised a good son for Tong’s daughter!

Especially Concubine Yi, Concubine Yi's mouth never spares her!

The matter that had been forgotten for a long time was brought up again because of this incident. Concubine De thought bitterly, is the fourth child going to be the son of Concubine Gui? !

But the emperor didn't say anything at all, as if he condoned the closeness between the Fourth Prince and the Imperial Concubine. Defei didn't dare to resent the emperor and could only put all her resentment on the Tong family.

Since the daughter of the Tong family could not give birth to a prince, she could only steal other people's children.

But in front of Ulanara, Defei couldn't say these words. If she really said them, wouldn't that mean they would be at loggerheads?

That was not Concubine De's purpose.

Defei's eyes were a little red. Even at this age, she looked so weak and tearful, yet still had a somewhat pitiful charm.

De Fei said softly: "I still remember that when I gave birth to Yin Zhen, he was so strong that I was exhausted and almost fainted. It was only after I pinched myself that I managed to hold on."

"I was so cruel to myself. There is a big black bruise on the inside of my arm where no one can see. I just wanted to see the fourth son a few more times. I was useless at that time. I was just a concubine with no status. I couldn't keep my son and couldn't raise him. He was taken away by someone not long after he was born. It's better to see him more. One less is better."

Yuyan pursed her lips lightly and cautiously did not speak. She could not determine what Defei was thinking when she suddenly reminisced about the past with her.

Concubine De's eyes were full of love, she looked at Yu Yan and sighed, "You were once a mother, you know what it's like to be a mother. Although he has never been raised by me, he is my flesh and blood. I always remember how he looked when he was born, but children are always forgetful, young and ignorant, I'm afraid he doesn't know what his mother has endured and what she has given up for him."

Yuyan lowered her eyes and said, "Okay, not bad, this is the beginning of moral kidnapping."

Yuyan is really not used to Concubine De.

Yu Yan raised her eyes and looked directly into Concubine De's eyes: "The child is young and has no ability to take care of himself. He needs his mother's care and close protection. The child will naturally understand the blood relationship he was born with. It is not just animals that have a bird-like complex."

"Your Highness, you were a mother for the first time when you gave birth to our Prince Beile, but everyone is born to be a child first and then a parent. What kind of father and mother do you hope to have? How could you have forgotten this when you became a parent yourself?"

The historical records are just cold words that cannot represent anything.

Yuyan only believed what she saw with her own eyes and heard with her own ears.

Defei said that she had a loving mother's heart but was unable to help herself. Then why didn't Defei ask a single question when she and Yinzhen had been back for more than a month?

Yinzhen was not successful in recovering the losses in Suzhou, and there was opposition and exclusion in the court. Yuyan didn't believe that Defei didn't know about it. Even if she was not allowed to discuss state affairs as a concubine, as a mother, couldn't she ask her son whether he was doing well outside?

She just felt sorry for Yinzhen.

Because of Concubine De, he endured countless criticisms and misunderstandings in history books, among the gentry, in the court and the public, and in the interpretations of later generations.

He has clearly done so many practical things and has clearly worked for the welfare of the people, but many people still say that he forced his mother to death.

This is sheer nonsense.

Yuyan thought with heartache, we don’t even know who is forcing whom!