Chapter 47 Chapter 47 Do you like me as a person or my body...
The man who was changing his coat paused slightly.
His movements were so subtle, and he was standing on the side of the screen with his back to Zhu Yinluan. The bronze mirror on the dressing table was in another place, so the man's expression could not be seen through the mirror.
Therefore, Zhu Yinluan, who had been paying attention to Shen Jingzhan's reaction, did not notice it.
“…Yeah.” Shen Jingzhan responded softly.
He hung his coat on the rosewood hanger and came over to wash his hands.
He said to her in a gentle voice, "Today, His Majesty summoned you urgently for something at court. Before I entered the palace, I told my mother about your discomfort, but I was afraid that she didn't understand your personality and might make things difficult for you, so I asked my family's attendants to keep an eye on you and tell me if there was any situation."
It seems that the imperial physician said this because Shen Jingzhan had received a message and made secret arrangements.
Hearing this, Zhu Yinluan calmed down.
But not long after, she watched the man wiping his hands, and suddenly thought of the time at the Wei family...
The imperial physician felt her pulse and said the same thing as what he told Mrs. Shen today... He said she was in good health and there was nothing wrong with her.
But at that time, she and Shen Jingzhan didn't know each other yet.
Isn't this a bit too coincidental? What's wrong with this?
Zhu Yinluan always felt that something was not connecting, but she couldn't tell where exactly.
"What are you thinking about, Luan'er?" He had put down his handkerchief and sat beside her.
"No, nothing."
She didn’t plan to tell Shen Jingzhan what she was thinking.
Even if the two are allies, they cannot be honest with each other about every detail.
After many years of experience, Zhu Yinluan is very clear that if others know everything about her, they will definitely look down on her, so she should be reserved in everything she does.
She didn't want to say it, but Shen Jingzhan was considerate and didn't ask any more questions.
The man stretched out his hand towards her lower abdomen.
Zhu Yinluan couldn't help but dodge back, "..."
He wanted to hold her hand just like he did last night, but he found nothing and stopped halfway.
Zhu Yinluan didn't know what she was subconsciously hiding from. Anyway, when Shen Jingzhan reached out his hand, she moved first.
Perhaps it was because he had made up his mind during the day and felt that he could no longer accept Shen Jingzhan's contact as he pleased.
In order to prevent the desire for closer intimacy with him from popping up again, prompting her to continue making unspeakable "pleas" actions on the bed, this is what happened.
The man was not embarrassed. He took back his hand, looked at her evasive face, and asked with a generous smile, "Are you afraid of me, Luan'er?"
Zhu Yinluan quickly shook her head.
The pearl hairpins on her temples also swayed, making a slight and pleasant sound. She said, "No."
"Why?" He wanted an excuse.
"I..." How could she explain?
Could it be that she had to tell Shen Jingzhan directly that she really liked kissing him and being hugged and kissed all over her body by him?
She also liked his big hands roaming around on her body.
Even...even not satisfied with him helping her with his hands, and wanting to take a step closer to him?
No, she couldn't tell it even if she died.
How can I say that?
Just thinking about her makes me feel uncomfortable.
Zhu Yinluan's mind was racing. The maids came in to set the table. She looked at the round table and finally found the words to say. She lowered her voice and said, "I think we should still keep some distance."
"Has Luan'er learned how to moan in bed?" So she doesn't need his help.
Although there were only two people in the inner room, the maids were busy in the outer room. There was some distance between the inner and outer rooms, and his voice was very soft, so it would not be heard outside.
But when Chen Jingzhan directly said the word "bed", Zhu Yinluan's face was instantly flushed.
Not only did she blush, she also instantly looked up at him, with shock and disbelief in her eyes, as if silently asking: Why are you saying this in front of others?
The man met her gaze, and seeing how cute she looked, he couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips slightly, "Sorry, I spoke out of turn."
Zhu Yinluan, "..."
She glanced outside, clenched the heater in her hand, and tried her best to suppress the unnaturalness on her face, "Don't talk like this in front of others, what if someone hears..."
He wanted to tell her that even if someone heard it, no one would dare to gossip about it in his territory.
But Shen Jingzhan never said that. He nodded and followed her meaning, "Okay, listen to Luan'er."
Her face was so red that Shen Jingzhan poured her a cup of tea.
Zhu Yinluan took a sip of the medicine and felt better indeed.
After she became serious, she replied, "...It's not what you guessed."
Leaving Chen Jingzhan, it was still... a little difficult for her to make ambiguous noises at night, even though she knew a lot more than at the beginning and had accumulated some experience.
But the old mothers are experienced people, and with the comparison of the previous few days, it would be bad if they were too clever and the other party noticed the flaw.
"I just feel..." She hesitated.
"Luan'er, you can say whatever you want. I told you that you don't have to hide anything in front of me."
His voice was gentle and his expression seemed normal, as if he was not angry at her distance and avoidance.
Seeing this, Zhu Yinluan calmed down again.
Then again, Shen Jingzhan's reaction was correct. He had no feelings for her, so he naturally wouldn't be angry because of her estrangement. At most, he was puzzled.
Today, Zhu Yinluan finally came to her senses and understood why Shen Jingzhan chose to marry her, a powerless woman, back into the Shen family after being divorced four years after their marriage.
Because her heart was "dead", and she had no power or influence, which meant she was difficult to control and deal with. If she violated the original covenant, he could also divorce her.
Even though she has the support of her adoptive mother and adoptive father, her maternal family, the Shi family, is after all a branch of the Shen family. Can they still turn against the Shen family for her?
To be fair, Shen Jingzhan was handsome, good-tempered, and considerate. When he acted, he always called her Luan'er, and neither Madam Shen nor Old Lady Shen could find any flaws.
If a girl has never been married, she may not be able to resist his warm care.
Precisely because of this, she couldn't let down Shen Jingzhan's trust. She couldn't like him, even if she just simply liked having sex with him. This would be considered entanglement and a betrayal.
Thinking of this, Zhu Yinluan felt more and more that her menstrual period came at the right time.
It just allowed her to "set things right" and calm down.
“The relationship between us is…” She didn’t say it was a show, but a smart person like Shen Jingzhan must understand.
"So I think we don't need to be so intimate with each other behind people's backs. It's not good."
The implication is that we should avoid suspicion.
After she finished speaking, Shen Jingzhan did not speak for a long time, just looking at her slightly drooping little face.
After a while, he spoke, but not to mention the matter, but to show concern, "Is Luan'er's hand warmer cold? I'll go get you a new one."
The man reached out to her for it, but did not take it directly.
As we were so busy talking, the hand warmer had indeed become a little cold.
Zhu Yinluan wanted to let Mingya change it, but Shen Jingzhan had already stood up, so she could only hand it over.
The hand warmer was not big, and while passing it, Zhu Yinluan was very careful to avoid touching Shen Jingzhan's hand.
The man looked down at her little movements, "..."
Zhu Yinluan didn't know that when the man looked at her hand, there was a hint of depth in his eyes.
I was just thinking, so... Did Shen Jingzhan suddenly reach out to help her test whether the heater was warm?
It should be.
Once again, she misunderstood his actions.
Alas, after finding out the truth, she could only sigh in her heart in vain.
Misunderstandings aside, she still had to go ahead with the plan she had just made.
I originally thought that after Shen Jingzhan changed the hand warmer, I would ask him for a definite reply, so as to reach a consensus and facilitate future actions.
But the maids had already prepared the meal, so Zhu Yinluan had to go over and eat first.
In front of the maids, the two of them had a tacit understanding.
Shen Jingzhan took care of her as usual, occasionally picking up food and scooping soup for her so that she could eat more.
After thanking him, Zhu Yinluan asked him softly, "Why was he urgently summoned to the palace today? Is the situation difficult?"
Chen Jingzhan goes out early and comes back late, and it was long past dinner time. Today he sent someone to inform Zhu Yinluan in advance, asking her to eat by herself and not to worry about him, but Zhu Yinluan was not hungry, so she kept waiting.
After he came back, she was thinking about Madam Shen's visit to the imperial physician today, so she asked him about it, and didn't care about anything else for the time being.
"It's not a difficult case, but it's a sudden case that involves many officials, some of whom are respected old officials. The people in the Secretariat can't control it, so His Majesty called me to go."
Zhu Yinluan didn't understand the affairs of the court, nor could he interfere, so he could only nod and pretend to pick up some food for him, asking him to eat more.
After dinner, I washed and bathed.
After getting on the bed, the inner room returned to silence.
"Is there no one coming outside today?" Zhu Yinluan listened attentively and indeed heard no movement, but she was not sure, so she asked Shen Jingzhan.
The man next to him hummed, "No."
Mrs. Shen knew that she had her period today, so she didn't ask anyone to come and listen.
If you don't come today, will you not come in the future?
The intimacy between her and Shen Jingzhan might end completely because of this...
Although I was relieved and glad, it was also accompanied by a sense of emptiness that I couldn't control or suppress.
"I want to know why Luan'er suddenly wants to distance herself from me?" He continued the topic that he had not finished during dinner.
Zhu Yinluan pursed her lips subconsciously.
Shen Jingzhan turned over and faced her sideways.
Zhu Yinluan was lying flat.
She felt his gaze, even stronger than during the day.
But she couldn't avoid it.
It would be impolite to turn over and face away from him, but it would be too embarrassing to face him, right?
For a moment, she could only lie flat like this, enduring the gaze that Shen Jingzhan cast upon her.
She didn't know if it was because of the tense atmosphere between the two of them, but she felt that the gaze that Shen Jingzhan cast at her was stronger than usual, even a little too hot.
She didn't dare to look over, so she naturally didn't know that what she felt was not an illusion at all.
Instead, the man revealed part of himself in the darkness, his original dark background.
His eyes lingered on her smooth forehead, her straight nose, and her lips that were moving as she bit them.
Shen Jingzhan felt that he had always been very gentle. He was very considerate of her feelings when kissing her and had never been cruel, abused, or bitten her. He restrained every step and made sure to stay awake and observe her expression.
He was aware of her body's reaction and knew that she was very happy. She had even mustered up the courage to take a step closer to him, but why did she suddenly back off?
It can’t be because of Guishui.
Could it be that she noticed something unusual? But after testing her various reactions just now, it shouldn't be the case.
If she knew anything and understood what he had done, she would definitely avoid him and would not let him touch her hand warmer and would take it to exchange.
"Because... aren't you supposed to remain virgin to the person you love?" After a long while, Zhu Yinluan replied with this sentence.
In the second half of the first night of their wedding, she asked him to turn the fake play into reality, but he didn't.
"When did I say I would remain virgin to the person I love?" the man said in a low voice.
He certainly didn’t say…
Zhu Yinluan couldn't help biting her lips when she was nervous. "I...I felt it."
Shen Jingzhan watched her ravage her lips repeatedly, and his eyes grew darker as he saw through her inner torment.
Her lips were unusually soft, sweet and fragrant when kissed. I didn't know what kind of lip balm she used, or if it was just her natural sweetness.
There were several times when he wanted to suck her hard, but he always restrained himself.
“…”
Zhu Yinluan thought Shen Jingzhan's question was very strange, but she was nervous and could not sort out her thoughts for the time being.
"Luan'er doesn't like being close to me?" he asked again.
Zhu Yinluan remained silent, wanting to say that she didn't like him, but she took the initiative to touch him yesterday, wanting him...
If I tell her now, he might expose it directly and tell her that you are lying.
She answered irrelevantly, "We should get along as we agreed at the beginning."
"I have always been getting along with each other in the way we agreed upon. I wonder how Luan Er felt that I had crossed the line?"
Zhu Yinluan was at a loss for words after hearing his well-organized question and paused for a moment.
Shen Jingzhan said, "Could it be that I did something wrong yesterday and made Luan'er feel uncomfortable?"
Why did he bring up yesterday again?
“…No.” She replied.
"What's that?"
I want him to stop asking.
After all, she loved being close to him too much and was afraid that she would lose control and things would become difficult to handle.
How could she speak up when faced with such a situation?
For the first time in her life, Zhu Yinluan deeply felt the shame in her own temperament, which was so obvious and serious.
When she forced herself to calm down in silence, Shen Jingzhan hit the nail on the head again.
"Luan'er suddenly avoided contact with me, not because she didn't like being close to me, but because she liked being close to me too much, right?"
Zhu Yinluan’s eyelids twitched.
His ability to guess people's minds is so powerful that no one can escape his detection.
She didn't respond, but her hands suddenly clenched the quilt.
In the dead of night, the subtle movements became obvious, and Shen Jingzhan looked over.
She didn't say anything, but her thoughts were revealed.
"If you like it, why do you want to suppress it and avoid it?"
Just this one sentence made Zhu Yinluan instantly understand what was strange about Shen Jingzhan.
She reminded Shen Jingzhan, "You chose me because I didn't care about liking you."
"Yeah." He nodded.
"If you still remember, you shouldn't have asked me."
As she spoke, she turned her face slightly, so that she was barely talking to him face to face.
"Does Luan'er like me as a person or as a body?"
Zhu Yinluan, "..."
Although I already know that Shen Jingzhan speaks directly, but... it's too direct.
The tone he used when talking about this matter was devoid of lust, and it didn't sound like he was discussing sexual intercourse between men and women, but rather like ordinary discussions about drinking water and eating.
"Is it difficult to answer?" After waiting for a while without hearing her answer, Shen Jingzhan asked again.
Zhu Yinluan, "I really don't know how to answer you..."
Even at this point, with only the two of them inside the tent, she still couldn't say the word "like".
"It seems I guessed right." His tone was a statement, not a question.
As he spoke, he moved a little closer to her.
The distance between the two people shortened.
Zhu Yinluan was originally sleeping on the inside. His broad body moved closer to her, making her feel oppressed and cramped.
Just as she was about to ask him not to come over again, Shen Jingzhan stopped.
He shared her bed.
There was only a finger's distance between them.
Looking at the man's handsome face, Zhu Yinluan's nervousness was difficult to relieve.
"Since you like it, there's no need to suppress it." He said gently.
Shen Jingzhan has clean eyebrows and long eyelashes, and when they hang down, people always feel that he is gentle and harmless.
But when I opened my eyes, I saw that the color of her eyes was so deep that it was hard to tell how deep it was.
Zhu Yinluan didn't dare to continue looking at him, she looked away and said, "No."
"Why not?"
"It's not good for us to do this." She still said the same thing as at the beginning.
"You have someone you like, and maybe in the future..."
"What?" he asked.
Zhu Yinluan didn't say anything.
Shen Jingzhan added, "Luan'er, do you think you and I will get divorced sooner or later?"
“…I’m just worried about what might happen.”
"What if the girl you like gets divorced? Wouldn't you want to marry her?"
"Although I hold the power, marriage is a serious matter and cannot be tossed around again and again. So you and I will not divorce, and I will not marry anyone else." He said softly.
Zhu Yinluan, "…Nothing in this world is foolproof."
Didn't Wei Ruzhuo tell her that he would not take a concubine? In the end, he not only took a concubine, but also wanted to marry a concubine.
So she would no longer believe in the vows of love, even if they were written in black and white, they could still be torn up and denied in the end.
"I understand Luan'er's concerns. We have a long way to go."
He had been planning for so long to marry her, how could he let her divorce him?
Of course, she didn't know about this.
Zhu Yinluan didn't say anything.
After a moment of silence, the man beside her continued, "If Luan'er just likes my body, there is no need to resist or avoid it."
Zhu Yinluan, "..."
She really wanted to ask him not to say the previous sentence, even though his words were calm and frank, but she was embarrassed.
"I didn't." She turned around and faced away from him, trying to cover up her mistake.
"I think it's better to talk about this matter openly. I don't mean to force Luan'er to admit it."
"I know." She curled her fingers against her chest, pinching a corner of the quilt, her voice very soft.
She was just caring too much and being too twisted.
"Luan Er and I will live together for many years. When we adopt a child, we will have to watch him get married and have children."
"Life is a long journey. Sexual intimacy and the joy of lovemaking make both you and me happy, so why should we avoid it?"
Zhu Yinluan captured a key word and said he was happy too?
So she's not the only one who likes it?
Hearing this, Zhu Yinluan relaxed a little.
After a while, Shen Jingzhan didn't continue talking.
He told her to have a good rest, covered her with the quilt, and then increased the distance between them and lay back on the outer sides.
It took Zhu Yinluan a long time to fall asleep, but the man remained awake.
The next day, when she woke up, Shen Jingzhan was gone again. Mingya said that he had gone to the palace early in the morning and asked her not to wait for him for dinner today.
Shen Jingzhan was busy with court affairs, which gave her some time.
While Zhu Yinluan was having breakfast, she couldn't help but think of what Shen Jingzhan said last night.
“…”
After the meal, she wanted to find Mrs. Shen and learn accounting from her, but Mrs. Shen was out for a banquet and was not at home.
Zhu Yinluan couldn't go to the accounting office alone, so she could only stay in the yard.
Today, Shen Jingzhan came back later than yesterday. She couldn't wait for him to come back and have dinner together, so she ate first.
She tended to feel sleepy during her menstrual period, and when the time came and Shen Jingzhan still hadn't come back, she went back to bed and fell asleep.
He had been here the past few days, and suddenly leaving her to rest alone made Zhu Yinluan feel a little uncomfortable.
She didn't know when she stopped while she was distracted.
When Shen Jingzhan came back, it was already late at night.
After taking a bath, he went to bed and saw Zhu Yinluan curled up in the quilt like a kitten, with only her crow hair showing.
After looking at her for a while, he reached out and pulled her in, kissing her cheek and lips.
Zhu Yinluan slept so soundly that she didn't notice anything.
“…”
Wei family, inner courtyard.
After days of careful investigation, Wei Ruzhuo indeed found some clues.
His people found out that Shen Jingzhan and Zhu Yinluan had met more than once in the capital.
Streets, pharmacies... and opera troupes...
She also ate the cakes that Shen Jingzhan gave her.
On the surface, it's cakes...
According to the coachman at the time, what was handed over was an exquisite food box. Who knows what was inside?
Among them might be letters exchanged privately between the two.
Thinking of this, Wei Ruzhuo's face became even gloomier.
"Why didn't Zhu Yinluan report the incident of crashing into the Shen family's carriage?"
This matter is definitely not that simple.
Who is Shen Jingzhan? Is he free to go to these places?
The Shen family had such a high status, and he was the head of one of the three provinces. Did he still need to go out to get medicine and invite people from the opera troupe? He could even run into Zhu Yinluan every time?
Why didn't the carriage hit the Zhang family or the Li family, but the Wei family?
In the six months or even a year before Zhu Yinluan's divorce, she had been cold to him and even rejected his requests for sex. Was she trying to remain a virgin for Shen Jingzhan?
When she said something was inconvenient, he should have found out the truth instead of letting her fool him.
The coachman who was called in for questioning knelt on the ground with his head down, "You were busy with official duties and rarely asked about the affairs of the young lady. In addition... at that time, the young lady's personal maid told us not to spread the news, so we dared not say anything."
"Oh……"
Not letting it be known?
Wei Ruzhuo sneered and brushed off the pens, ink, paper and inkstone on the table, and shouted angrily: "Get out!"
The servant brought the coachman out of the study and met Fang Zhongyue outside. He bowed and reminded her in a low voice not to go in at this moment because the master was angry.
Fang Zhongyue smiled faintly, "Thank you for reminding me. My Lord, since you are busy, I naturally cannot disturb you. But my Lord has not eaten or drunk much in the past few days. Please help me deliver this chicken soup."
"My aunt, you are too kind. I will definitely convey your message."
Fang Zhongyue glanced at Wei Ruzhuo's study and turned to leave.
Wei Ruzhuo, who had been very angry, suddenly felt an unbearable pain in his waist. He held it with one hand and supported himself with the other hand, then sat down awkwardly on the edge of the table.
I sat there slumped for a long time before I finally recovered.
When he opened his eyes, he saw the messy ground. The two words "Yaotang" on the crumpled rice paper were so eye-catching that they could be seen through the back of the paper. Wei Ruzhuo paused.
As he watched, for some unknown reason, a strange possibility suddenly emerged in his mind.
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