Looking at the lingering gloom on the man's face, Li Chang'an suddenly felt a pang of unease in his heart.
Although he hadn't done anything wrong, Li Chang'an felt as if he had let him down.
Feng Beichuan was right. He owed Feng Beichuan so many favors, but he had never repaid them.
Li Chang'an, why can't you open your heart and try to accept it?
A mix of complex emotions suddenly welled up inside me, and I struggled with a sudden, inexplicable pain.
She wondered if she had missed out on someone like that before, and at that time, she seemed to have never learned to reciprocate such sincerity with her heart.
But once it's missed, it's truly missed. By the time you realize it and truly understand, everything has changed, and all that was there is now just a memory.
"Feng Beichuan, actually I..."
At that moment, Li Chang'an suddenly felt his heart pounding uncontrollably.
She suddenly opened her mouth, but before she could finish a sentence, and when she came to her senses, she found that the person beside her had disappeared.
Actually, it's not like I can't consider it...
Li Chang'an silently finished saying what he had just left unsaid in his heart, but unfortunately, no one but himself could hear it.
"Um... what were you just saying?"
Upon hearing this, Li Chang'an looked up again, staring at the dark red figure beside him, wondering when this person had arrived.
"nothing."
Li Chang'an waved his hand and spoke calmly, a hint of sadness suddenly flashing in his eyes.
"Oh, Your Highness has already left. If you need him for anything, perhaps I should go and call him back..."
Then, Suzaku spoke again.
"No need, he's already gone, why bother calling him?"
Li Chang'an's tone was somewhat low, and he felt a deep sense of loss.
Zhuque also noticed that this person's emotions seemed a bit off, and felt that Li Chang'an's words just now seemed to have a deeper meaning, but she didn't know what was wrong with them, so she could only helplessly say "oh".
"By the way, there's something I think I need to report to you."
Then, as if suddenly remembering something, Zhuque said, "Cangyun told me that he's been busy spreading news in the capital recently, about how you helped the people reduce taxes, and about the emperor's emphasis on civil officials over military ones. And all these recent developments were secretly orchestrated by the prince..."
Upon hearing this, Li Chang'an immediately put on a serious face and said, "You're saying he did all these things?"
After saying that, Li Chang'an suddenly found his question somewhat amusing. He knew without even thinking that this person's way of doing things had always been like that.
True to his nature, he would always find another way to get back the favor he didn't get from Emperor Xingchang.
Looking at the woman's slightly tense face, Zhuque couldn't help but wonder if he had done something wrong.
She quickly nodded and then added, "I told you this in secret. When Cangyun told me, he specifically instructed me not to let you know about it. But I don't think it's a big deal to tell you. However, you must not let Cangyun know that I told you, otherwise, he might not be willing to tell me anything in the future."
This made Li Chang'an feel even more uneasy.
Why was Feng Beichuan unwilling to tell me about this?
Does he really have so many concerns because of me?
Li Chang'an couldn't help but sigh inwardly. Finally, she turned to Zhuque with a serious expression and said, "You really shouldn't have told me."
"ah?"
Upon hearing this, Suzaku was somewhat confused.
"Because now I know I owe him a huge favor again, and I'm really troubled by it..."
Now, Zhuque felt helpless. Originally, she did this to improve Feng Beichuan's favorability in Li Chang'an's mind, but she didn't expect that she would do something bad with good intentions.
Just then, Li Chang'an suddenly stood up and walked out of the courtyard.
Seeing this, Zhuque hurriedly followed, but Li Chang'an had only just reached the door when he suddenly stopped and stood still, looking thoughtful.
"What are you going to do..."
Li Chang'an's series of inexplicable actions left Zhuque even more confused. She couldn't help but ask a question, but was interrupted by him raising his hand.
"Never mind, I won't go."
Li Chang'an spoke casually, and after saying this nonsensical sentence, he turned around and went back.
That's strange!
Looking at the woman's back, Zhuque felt that she was becoming more and more unfathomable.
Afterwards, Li Chang'an locked herself in her room and waited until it was dark, but she was still struggling with her inner turmoil.
For some reason, all she could think about all day was Feng Beichuan's face. She thought that with the selection of concubines approaching, it wouldn't be long before he would marry a beautiful woman and bring her into the Regent's Palace as a princess, and then live a happy life with a house full of children and grandchildren.
By then, his children will probably be running around all over the place and old enough to run errands, while he will still be all alone, with a stern face all day, hanging out in the military camp with a bunch of grown men, practicing swordplay and spear fighting.
In the past, Li Chang'an would not have found this surprising. After all, it was his mission to protect the country and its people, and he was naturally determined to fulfill it wholeheartedly.
But now, after comparing the two, she felt a sense of unease and resentment, wondering why she had to continue living like this.
Faith is certainly important, but why should she dedicate her entire life to it?
Who imposed this so-called mission upon me?
After much thought, Li Chang'an finally had to admit that the culprit who had been constantly putting shackles on herself from beginning to end was none other than herself.
Ironically, even though she's no longer a transmigration mission taker, she still deeply remembers all the rules of transmigration missions and never violates them in the slightest.
"Tap tap tap..."
Just then, a knock on the door suddenly broke the silence, interrupting Li Chang'an's myriad thoughts.
"Come in."
Before he could finish speaking, the door opened with a click.
The next second, as soon as Zhuque entered, she saw Li Chang'an suddenly stand up from his chair and stride out.
"Hey, where are you going?"
Zhuque called out as she watched Li Chang'an's retreating figure.
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