When Yun Nuan woke up, Qin Yan was massaging her arms. She had been lying down for too long, and the doctor had suggested that she have her arms massaged every day.
When he injured his leg, the caregiver pressed it down like this, and he did the same to the caregiver until he met the open eyes of the person he was looking at.
She opened her eyes, her breathing remained unchanged, and if I hadn't seen it myself, I guess she would have remained silent the whole time.
"You're awake. I'll have the doctor come and take a look."
He straightened the blankets, rang the bell to call the doctor, followed the familiar examination procedure, and then explained the precautions. This time, she probably scared everyone quite a bit.
Aunt Lan was already choking up during the examination. Qin Yan followed the doctor out, listening attentively to the lengthy explanations, and not forgetting to look back at her.
She woke up but didn't speak or move; she just stared blankly into space.
She had already gotten used to that dark life, so why was she pulled back? She didn't understand.
In that dark space, she floated tirelessly every day. At first, she would mutter to herself, but later she didn't know whether she should speak or not, and gradually she became withdrawn.
Then, as she drifted aimlessly with her eyes closed, a strange force pulled her back, and the next second she opened her eyes and saw Qin Yan.
He was massaging very seriously, with a solemn expression and skillful technique.
Yun Nuan has been awake for three days. She hasn't spoken during these three days, and no one has forced her. They've prepared everything that needs to be prepared. She can't eat anything yet since she just woke up, so Aunt Lan tries her best to comfort her and tell her not to overthink it.
After Aunt Lan put her things away and left the ward, Qin Yan stood silently by the bedside.
"Did you think of us when you wanted to die? Yun Nuan, I really want to ask you, do you even have a heart?"
Her hand, which was gripping the blanket, paused. She remained silent, offering no response to his words. But Qin Yan's voice grew even more furious. These past few days, everyone had been happy that she had woken up, except for her. When she woke up, her eyes were filled with disappointment. Qin Yan didn't dare look at her for long and made an excuse to call the doctor in.
These days, she's been pretending to be very obedient, getting all the injections she needs and nodding to whatever the doctor asks. But after what happened last time, it's hard for him not to wonder if she's going to lie to everyone again and have something like this happen again.
Qin Yan had been suppressing his anger ever since she entered the emergency room. He thought to himself, as long as she wakes up, he can stay calm and not get angry.
But when she woke up, her first disappointment was that she hadn't died, which he couldn't bear any longer.
“Yun Nuan, tell me, what’s wrong with being alive? You can tell me what you don’t like, and I can protect you from everything. I will find the best experts to treat your illness. Just tell me, and I can do it.”
But what about you? What did you do behind our backs? Didn't you ever think about how sad we would be? Aunt Lan is practically crying every day now. Those bodyguards have been with you for so long, checking on you every day to see if you're awake. And your friends, Yun Nuan, you're not alone.
These medical expenses, the doctors have to travel back and forth every time you're sick, can't you be a little more considerate?
Yun Nuan's lips twitched as she tried to argue, but then stopped. She turned her head away from Qin Yan, but the soreness and pain in her internal organs began to spread, making it extremely difficult for her expressionless face to even manage a smile.
"I've been sensible for so many years and I'm still being abandoned, Qin Yan. If you find this troublesome, then I'll ask you for one last thing. Don't worry about me anymore, don't be soft-hearted anymore," she thought to herself, but she couldn't open her mouth.
Her heart ached, her stomach was cramping, and nothing seemed to matter anymore, she thought.
Qin Yan is right. Her appearance not only caused him trouble, but also added trouble for the doctors and nurses.
She tried to suppress the pain, but the more she suppressed it, the stronger the backlash became.
"Qin Yan, don't worry about me, and don't be soft-hearted. Someone like me doesn't deserve sympathy or pity."
She struggled to squeeze out a sentence, her voice bitter, but her face remained calm and indifferent, showing no concern for his attitude. In reality, she was hiding under the covers, her hands pressed tightly against her abdomen.
A metallic taste of blood gradually rose in her throat, her abdomen cramped, and her vision began to blur.
It hurts so much. Qin Yan was wrong. What's so good about being alive? All she feels in her life is countless pains.
Qin Yan immediately regretted what he had just said; it was too late to take back what he had said.
Yun Nuan even told him to leave, but he thought it wasn't a good time to communicate. He decided to wait until he calmed down before having a proper talk with her.
"I'm sorry, I acted impulsively."
He strode out the door without noticing Yun Nuan's face, which was on the verge of fainting.
After he left, Yun Nuan finally couldn't hold back and coughed up blood, which spilled onto the carpet.
Qin Yan regretted it as soon as he reached the door. He was too hasty. Every time he saw Yun Nuan's attitude, he would be furious. She was like someone was dragging her along, just living like that.
Qin Yan rarely felt powerless towards someone. He could coldly ask his subordinates and others to revise their plans, but Yun Nuan was neither his subordinate nor a partner. She was like a half-understood math problem next to him.
He hesitated and retreated back into the room, "Yun Nuan!"
The floor was in chaos, the carpet was stained with blood, and Yun Nuan was half-hanging off the bed when Qin Yan caught her just before she fell.
"doctor"!
After the chaos subsided, Yun Nuan put her oxygen mask back on and had an IV drip inserted. The doctors looked grave, and the staff outside the ward dared not disturb her.
"What happened again? She was fine just now. Will it get worse if Nuannuan vomits blood? Oh dear." Aunt Lan wiped away her tears, muttering to herself, just trying to comfort herself.
But Qin Yan, standing to the side, was pale and his throat bobbed. He seemed to smell the stench of blood and spoke with difficulty.
"I... I shouldn't have said those things." Aunt Lan turned to look at him; the gloom lingered in his eyes. Aunt Lan shook her head.
"Mr. Qin is also doing this for Nuannuan's own good. We all know how Nuannuan has been these days. She, she, sigh."
Aunt Lan couldn't continue. She had never seen anyone's eyes so lifeless. Just a while ago, there was still light in her eyes, and she was slowly getting better. But this illness always made her uneasy.
"Mr. Qin, don't blame yourself. Nuannuan will eventually understand. There's nothing we can do to help her with these things. Perhaps, her choice is the right one."
She always took her medicine obediently and never complained about how bitter it was. She would wake up in the middle of the night in pain, but she never cried out. Even when her hand was bruised and purple from the injections, we never heard her complain once.
She's the strongest and bravest person I've ever met. If it were me, I probably wouldn't have been able to endure all this pain. It's just that we were both thinking from our own perspectives.
I thought to myself dismissively, how much pain could it possibly cause? I could just bear it. But sir, Nuan Nuan has been enduring this for over a decade. She gets tired too. There have been countless times when she wanted to give up, but perhaps she persevered because of us.
But this time, she felt like a burden and was afraid of causing us trouble.
I know everything even though she doesn't say it, but I'm afraid that if I talk to her about it, I won't be able to stop crying. My grandson has been making a fuss about such a small leg injury, but Nuannuan hasn't said a word about it for so long.
She is a young lady from the Yun family, but since she was hospitalized and you helped her, the Yun family has never appeared. She knows that she has been abandoned, so she doesn't cry or make a fuss.
Actually, she values you more than I do; you just haven't seen her dependence on you. She wants your advice on everything, and even what I say is useless.
As Aunt Lan spoke, she turned her back and wiped her face. What she was about to say was obvious to everyone. Everyone probably harbored some resentment towards Yun Nuan.
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