Chapter 9 Chapter 9 Please don't mention breaking up with me, okay...
The car was silent for a few seconds. Just when Chi Chen thought he had regained control, Xu Yan finally spoke.
Chi Chen could feel the other person's burning and undisguised gaze out of the corner of his eye, lingering from his hair to his face and down to his neck, as blatantly as if he were appraising a product.
"I see." Xu Yan's voice rose slightly at the end, as light and airy as a small hook. "It is indeed quite good."
Chi Chen's brown curly hair looks soft and harmless, but his high nose bridge and beautiful jawline add a touch of dangerous sophistication.
His shirt collar was slightly open, and he was dressed casually, with his muscular arms showing through the rolled-up sleeves.
They probably work out regularly; I wonder who's better at it.
Chi Chen was always confident in his appearance, but at this moment, he felt his cheeks burning under Xu Yan's gaze.
I don't feel this way when I'm making videos online.
Could it be that Xu Yan actually has no interest in his own identity?
No one had ever dared to look at Chi Chen like that before. He felt a little displeased, but also excited.
It seems he doesn't understand Yan well enough. I wonder if he can still scrutinize him with such a critical and calm gaze in bed.
Chi Chen smiled slightly, composed himself, and generously allowed Xu Yan to look him over. "Then, brother, would you like to try being with me?"
"No, I don't have any plans for that at the moment." Xu Yan refused quickly, as if she were discussing work.
Chi Chen wasn't surprised; if he had agreed too quickly, he might have lost interest even faster.
I've never encountered such a satisfying prey before; I can't let it end too quickly.
"Okay, I'll wait for my brother to change his mind."
Xu Yan heard an undisguised joy in Chi Chen's regretful tone.
He was happy to be rejected.
Xu Yan realized that she really couldn't understand the thought process of a lunatic.
For the rest of the time, the two seemed to have tacitly forgotten their previous conversation.
Back at the villa, although she had only moved in a day ago, Xu Yan was very satisfied with the place, with her three affectionate big cats, delicious meals, and comfortable living environment.
If he can get along peacefully with Chi Chen for a month, he will consider moving in directly.
Xu Yan was too lazy to go upstairs, so she sat on the sofa to rest.
The orange tabby cats probably thought the two had returned from hunting, and they all wagged their tails and meowed as they gathered around.
Little Orange seemed to love to act cute. She stood up, put her front paws on his knee, and twitched her nose, checking his scent.
"There's a cabinet full of food and snacks in the cat house on the first floor. You can give them some; they'll adore you," Chi Chen said with a smile, as he put on an apron and went to the kitchen.
Xu Yan responded and walked towards the house. The two oranges, Da Ju, Zhong Ju, and Xiao Ju, were very excited and pushed his legs with their heads, making it difficult for him to move.
The moment the snacks were opened, the three fluffy heads huddled together. The eldest, Big Orange, was the first to squeeze in, while the middle and little oranges stood obediently to the left and right.
Xu Yan couldn't bear to favor any of them, so she tore the opening as wide as possible, and the three round heads lined up side by side, licking the ointment with their little tongues.
Only when facing these healing little creatures would Xu Yan unconsciously reveal a gentle smile on her face.
Xu Yan took out toys and played with the cat toys for a while before hearing Chi Chen call him to eat.
Stepping out of the room, you can smell the unique aroma of braised pork.
I haven't felt this way in many years, as if I have a home of my own.
The moment this ridiculous thought arose, a dark and cold memory surfaced in Xu Yan's mind.
His family did eat together, but after his mother passed away and his father remarried, he never ate at the table again.
He could only eat what everyone else left behind in the kitchen, and if there was nothing left, he would go hungry and drink some tap water to get through it.
Hunger was the norm until Xu Yan grew up in his teens. The malnourished boy had an androgynous body and face, which made his situation even more difficult. He often had to give something in exchange for leftover food, such as a hot chicken leg.
His stepbrother liked to stroke his hair, rub his face and thin body with his fat hands. His skin was often bluish-purple. Occasionally, he would roughly pinch his chin and force him to look up. His greasy lips fell on his face, making him feel physically nauseous.
Through this clandestine contact, Xu Yan was able to go to school, help his stepbrother with his homework, cheat on exams, and even finish high school. Even at school, he was just a dog to be manipulated, covering for his stepbrother who liked to skip classes and running errands to get meals.
Xu Yan did not despair during these days. He knew that when he grew up and went to a more distant place for college entrance exams, he could escape this hell. So he would secretly help his stepbrother finish all his homework, even if he only slept four hours a day.
During his university years and after he started working, people always admired him for his tireless study and work, like a robot.
Only Xu Yan knew that he didn't find it difficult. Compared to the long and humiliating torment, the effort that sacrificed his dignity and health, he was actually quite content with his current life.
These experiences made him even more afraid of intimate relationships in real life. While rejecting everyone's approach, he also felt lonely and became addicted to the pleasure of being the center of attention during live streams, yet being unable to touch them.
Maybe that's what being shameless is all about.
"elder brother?"
Chi Chen's questioning voice pulled him out of his memories.
Xu Yan blinked, quickly suppressing all her emotions, and calmly walked towards the restaurant.
Chi Chen didn't say anything. He seemed to be eating seriously, but he was silently observing Xu Yan.
Just now, he sensed a gloomy aura emanating from Xu Yan, whose eyes were unfocused.
Yes, in the information he found, there seemed to be no information about Xu Yan's family.
Even among his friends, Lin Weiwei was barely a decent one.
It's like they suddenly appeared in this city from university and then worked hard to put down roots.
Chi Chen couldn't help but wonder what kind of past Xu Yan had hidden beneath her glamorous exterior.
Xu Yan spent her first day of cohabitation very happily. Chi Chen, who hid his motives and was honest and didn't cause trouble, was also a good roommate.
Delicious meals and a peaceful afternoon nap greatly improved his work efficiency.
When he got home in the evening, the cats that greeted him were also very cute.
It seems a little better than living alone before.
His fulfilling life kept him from thinking about the news all day.
Xu Yan received the phone call even before she started her broadcast at night, when she was already going to bed.
"Baby, let's meet."
Her voice was full of resentment, which made Xu Yan frown impatiently. The topic came up more often. "I'll be traveling for work a lot lately, so I don't have much time."
There was a few seconds of silence on the other end before a low voice said, "But when I woke up, I found that you hadn't even replied to my messages from before I went to sleep... Are you cheating on me? I feel so insecure qvq."
Xu Yan paused for a moment. Today had indeed been fulfilling, making him forget about what was happening online.
He softened his tone; after all, he still had some feelings for his online boyfriend of two years. "Sorry, I've been too busy today. You know I just moved..."
"Are you so busy you don't even have time to reply to a message?" Her tone became even more aggrieved, even carrying a hint of cautious probing. "Or is it that someone else has appeared in your life, baby?"
"I knew long-distance relationships were unreliable."
Chi Chen came to Xu Yan's mind.
He suddenly realized that he was subconsciously comparing Chi Chen's value.
Although Xu Yan's moral standards were not high, he did feel a little guilty.
"No, I..."
Before Xu Yan could finish speaking, she interrupted him, "You hesitated. You've done this many times lately."
Xu Yan had no way to refute it. He paused, hesitating for a moment.
Do you want to break up?
However, Xu Yan preferred Chi Chen to Chi Chen.
He couldn't be found, yet he was obedient and didn't seem to have any complicated motives.
This is also a downside; they can't have real intimate contact.
Xu Yan was yearning.
But he was also afraid.
Just thinking about that memory makes him feel nauseous; he feels like he could wash a layer of skin off his body.
Perhaps because Xu Yan had been silent for too long, she became afraid and pleaded, "I'm sorry, baby, I won't force you, please don't break up with me."
"I just love you so much... Even if there's someone else, please don't break up with me, okay?"
Xu Yan felt an invisible pressure and irritation. He sighed softly, "If we never see each other, can you still accept it? I've already wasted two years of your time... Let's just end it here."
The phone went silent for a few seconds, then suddenly the call ended.
Xu Yan breathed a sigh of relief.
When they first got together, he thought that people who visited this website just wanted to chat provocatively or have sex with each other.
His affection was longer than he had imagined.
Even without meeting in person, the other person's desire was so strong that she could only restrain herself and video chat with him every few days.
In this way, the relationship of mutual benefit has become somewhat distorted, and it has also brought responsibilities and pressures.
Having ended a relationship that could hardly be called intimate, Xu Yan was still somewhat depressed.
He sat down at the already tidied table and began preparing for tonight's live broadcast.
Just like always, he answered everyone's questions in the live stream.
Many people suspect that they are living together, since the room doesn't look like it's rented or a hotel.
There are occasional noises outside.
Some people wondered why he hadn't arrived yet.
Xu Yan skipped over this question.
Halfway through the live stream, the sound of a doorknob being turned came from the doorway.
Xu Yan paused for a moment, then quickly remembered Da Ju's habit of opening doors.
He locked the door before the live stream; if it were Chi Chen, he could have just knocked.
He couldn't bear to see Daju unable to open the door from the outside.
Xu Yan got up and opened the door a crack.
Big Orange immediately darted in and swaggered onto the table.
Xu Yan turned around and saw footsteps outside.
Chi Chen came to the door from the opposite side of the corridor, still holding Zhong Ju in his arms. He gave a handsome and clean smile, "Excuse me, brother, did I disturb you?"
"Big Orange insisted on going out just now, I didn't expect it was to bother you."
Xu Yan hummed in agreement and quickly closed the door.
He didn't want Chi Chen to find out he was live-streaming.
Xu Yan returned to her seat and realized that Da Ju's orange butt had knocked the camera askew, and it was now facing the door.
The comments on the screen were scrolling even faster than before, and he needed to move the mouse over them to slow them down so he could see a few clearly.
Holy crap, they really are living together, and he's a handsome younger guy.
[They both own cats now, when will they appear on a live stream together?]
Even though I couldn't see his face clearly and he was just a shadow backlit, I still thought that guy was really handsome.
[Did anyone notice the difference in body size? Holding him in my arms and having sex with him would be so satisfying.]
Xu Yan breathed a slight sigh of relief, realizing that Xu Yan hadn't seen Xu Yan's face and that Xu Yan wasn't even in the live stream.
Otherwise, it would be a bad thing if things got ugly.
A note from the author:
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Actually, I've been [crying][crying][crying] the whole time
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