Chapter 190 Chapter 190 The past cannot be pursued "The nagging father...
After pressing the light strip switch several times in a row, Qin Run was satisfied. He hugged Xu Yunfan and the two of them pushed each other into the room. After a while, Xu Yunfan was at a disadvantage and Qin Run sat on his waist with his legs crossed.
Xu Yunfan was "unable to move" and could only watch Qin Run take off his nightgown, then lower his head... and bite his not-so-obvious Adam's apple into his mouth, biting and sucking it lightly.
"Hmm~"
Xu Yunfan groaned as an electric current hit him, making his entire body numb to the point that his back straightened and his sanity seemed to be crumbling.
Xu Yunfan couldn't stand this kind of "torture", but Qin Run knew his sensitive spots very well, and every time he tried it, it worked.
"Don't bite here."
Xu Yunfan couldn't stand it any longer. If this continued, he would lose face as a man. He pointed at his mouth and said hoarsely, "If you have the guts, bite me here!"
Straightening up, their eyes met, Qin Run, with a blushing face, looked deeply at Xu Yunfan, and after a while he leaned down again, starting a new round of attack and plunder. Xu Yunfan took the opportunity to hug Qin Run's waist tightly, his eyes half-closed in pleasure, and he cooperated by slightly raising his chin, letting Qin Run do whatever he wanted to him.
Qin Run's enthusiasm is really irresistible.
Xu Yunfan was "tired" all night, but when he woke up the next day, he felt refreshed.
In the yard, Qin Run, Li Liu, Qin An and others picked up all the ice crystal roses on both sides of the path that Xu Yunfan had obtained by using copper sulfate. They were reluctant to throw away these flowers, so they collected them all.
Qin An and Qin Mu were running around in the yard with a bunch of balloons. Qin Run wanted to put the balloons away, but Xu Yunfan advised, "Don't put those balloons away. They're fun. Let An Ge'er and the others play with them."
Qin Run naturally would not refuse. He smiled and handed a bunch of balloons to Qin An and the others, asking them to take them out to play.
Even though the birthday has passed, the good mood lingers.
They were happy, but Qin Feiyu, who was far away in Yiping Prefecture, was not happy at all.
He came here with high expectations, but now he is leaving disappointed.
Even so, Qin Feiyu still did not give up. The clues had already been found in Yiping Prefecture. So, with Yiping Prefecture as the center, he would continue to look for the person in several counties and towns in the surrounding area. Qin Feiyu did not believe that he could not find the person, but he could not stay for long, so he could only let Zhang Jing, one of his confidants, go look for him.
On the way back to the capital, Qin Feiyu sat in the carriage, like a frost-bitten eggplant, silent and with his head down quietly. Even after returning to the capital, he still looked listless and dispirited.
Yes, as the child's father, his child was missing. He had been looking for him for so many years and finally found a clue, so he rushed over without stopping. But in the end, he returned empty-handed. Others could not understand how big a blow this was.
On this trip, Qin Feiyu gained only a lot of disappointment. To return to the general's mansion, he had to pass by Prince Xiao's mansion. When the carriage arrived in front of the gate of Prince Xiao's mansion, Qin Feiyu habitually lifted the curtain. He never thought that he would meet Xiao Hengzhi, but he was used to it. He was used to not missing any opportunity to see Xiao Hengzhi. It was a pity that every time he passed by in the past, he had never seen Xiao Hengzhi.
But many things like to happen unexpectedly.
Just when he thought he would be disappointed as usual and not see anyone, a figure appeared in his sight and Qin Feiyu's eyes widened suddenly.
He met Xiao Hengzhi.
After being infatuated with him for many years, even though he decided to come to his senses after being betrayed by Xiao Hengzhi, Qin Feiyu still couldn't deceive himself. Over the years, when he couldn't see Xiao Hengzhi, Xiao Hengzhi would still appear in his dreams every night, making him obsessed with him.
Qin Feiyu thought that the figure in front of him was fake, and that it was because he missed her too much that he conjured up a fake person. However, the familiar yet unfamiliar voice and the bustling sounds in his ears told him that it was not fake, all of this was not fake.
“Stop the car! Stop the car!”
Qin Feiyu shouted hurriedly, and before the carriage stopped, he couldn't wait to lift the curtain and jump out of the carriage.
Perhaps it was because he was too excited to see the person he had been thinking about, causing his legs to go weak. Or perhaps it was because he had not yet recovered from the loss. Qin Feiyu was exhausted, and his eyes were red as he looked at Xiao Hengzhi.
God knows how lonely and helpless Qin Feiyu has been during this period. He has no one to rely on. His father and mother are old. He dare not even mention these things. He can only bear all the loss and helplessness alone, and he can only swallow all the suffering with tears.
At this time, he wished that there would be someone he could rely on, someone who could give him support for a moment and let him relax and breathe a sigh of relief.
There is no doubt that there is no one else like this except Xiao Hengzhi.
But he couldn't see Xiao Hengzhi, and Xiao Hengzhi wouldn't see him and avoided him like the plague.
It's so hard to meet someone, but I don't know when we'll meet again.
Qin Feiyu ran up without hesitation and grabbed the person he had been thinking about for a long time and hugged him tightly in his arms.
The heavy breathing sound lingered in his ears, and the familiar whisper came into his ears. Xiao Hengzhi, who had been struggling violently because of the offense the previous moment, miraculously calmed down.
"General Qin, it's not nice to see you hugging each other in the street. Please let go immediately."
"Or is it that Jing Ye Ze can no longer satisfy General Qin, so he has become so horny that he shamelessly touches me in public?"
The word "General Qin" made Qin Feiyu feel like his heart was being cut by a knife. Xiao Hengzhi's last words made Qin Feiyu feel like he was struck by lightning.
At this moment, Qin Feiyu seemed to hear the sound of his heart breaking.
Feeling that Qin Feiyu was as stiff as a piece of wood and had lost all his strength because of his two words, Xiao Hengzhi easily pulled off the hands that were wrapped around him and easily broke free from the restraints.
Looking at the frightening dark circles under Qin Feiyu's eyes and the several noticeable red bloodshot lines in his eyes, it seemed that this man had not had a good rest for several days.
Being scrutinized by Xiao Hengzhi, seeing the slightly raised corners of Xiao Hengzhi's mouth, this half-smile seemed like a mockery, no, his words were actually a mockery of his shamelessness.
"No, I..." Qin Feiyu tried to explain, but Xiao Hengzhi didn't give him the chance. He took a step back with a proper smile on his face. "General Qin seems a little out of sorts. Are you tired from all the recent wedding preparations? There are some things that General Qin doesn't need to explain to me. Besides, given our current relationship, is it necessary for General Qin to explain all these trivial matters to me?"
It was only after Xiao Hengzhi returned to Beijing a few days ago that he heard the news that General Qin's Mansion and the Jing family were about to get married.
A bolt from the blue is probably just like this.
Even though he said he would let it go, not blame anyone or resent anyone, and that the past was past, when he heard these things, Xiao Hengzhi still felt dazed for a moment, became deaf, and even had difficulty breathing. His heart ached unbearably. After returning home and having the doctor give him a few injections, Xiao Hengzhi finally realized how ridiculous his self-deception was.
How could Xiao Hengzhi say such hurtful words so calmly? Was it because he didn't love her anymore? So he didn't care anymore?
When Qin Feiyu thought that Xiao Hengzhi really no longer had anything to do with her, she cried bitterly, "Xiao Hengzhi, do you really not like me anymore? You said you loved me, that you would marry me and spend your life with me. You've forgotten all those words, and they don't count, have you? You really don't want me anymore?"
Xiao Hengzhi, who was being blamed for this, was almost laughing out of anger after hearing these questions.
It’s not that I don’t want you, it’s that you didn’t want me eighteen years ago.
After eighteen years, he just wanted an explanation, but what did he get?
He waited for Qin Feiyu to return to Beijing and learned the news that he had adopted a child. He also waited for the news from the outside world that Qin Feiyu and Jing Yeze from the second branch of the Jing family had become engaged in the frontier.
Xiao Hengzhi didn't believe it. He dragged his weak body due to poisoning and secretly waited outside the general's mansion. He saw with his own eyes that Qin Feiyu sent Jing Yezhe out. Qin Feiyu smiled shyly and gently, just like the way he looked every time he met him when he first fell in love.
At that moment, Xiao Hengzhi looked at the strong Jing Yezhe and suddenly understood what "suitable" meant.
Jing Ye Ze and Qin Fei Yu are a good match.
As a military general, although Jing Ye Ze's rank is not high and he is only a small deputy general, he can accompany Qin Feiyu, fight with him, and go to the border with him.
Looking at myself now, I am weak and thin, almost not recognizable as a human being. I don't even know when the poison has taken effect. I am so different from the high-spirited Prince Xiao in the past. Not to mention accompanying Qin Feiyu in a wild ride, I am afraid I will die if I get a little cold or suffer a little.
How can he be worthy of being General Qin?
The ex lost to the current one, and lost in appearance. This was unacceptable to Xiao Hengzhi, who was known as the most handsome man in the Dayan Dynasty.
Feeling disheartened, Xiao Hengzhi didn't want to appear in front of Qin Feiyu in this half-human, half-ghost appearance. He avoided Qin Feiyu and didn't even dare to appear in places where he might be.
Xiao Hengzhi continued to wait, hoping that the poison could be cured. He wanted to see Qin Feiyu in the best possible appearance and ask for an explanation from him, but in the end, he received the news that Jing Ye Ze and Qin Feiyu were getting married after several months.
So, between them, it was never Xiao Hengzhi who didn't want Jing Ye Ze, but Qin Feiyu who let go first.
Hearing this, Xiao Hengzhi's face turned pale. He endured the discomfort in his body and deliberately sneered, "What General Qin said is really funny. How can you have the nerve to question these words? Didn't you promise me that you would not leave me and would not hide anything from me? I believed you, but what did you do in the end? You betrayed me without discussing it with me in advance and broke my flesh and blood. You shouldered a heavy responsibility, which I understand, but I cannot understand or forgive you. You left me out of this matter. From the moment you made this choice, you should have thought that it was over between us. It was over. What's the point of you saying these things to me today? Now that your Qin family is going to marry into the Jing family, General Qin, the past is gone and it's time to let it go. It's futile to ask about the outcome."
Xiao Hengzhi thought that it was still unknown how long he could hold on, and he should be happy that Qin Feiyu had a new beginning.
Speaking of children, Qin Feiyu opened his mouth. He wanted to tell Xiao Hengzhi the truth, but how should he say it?
Was he going to tell Xiao Hengzhi that he took their unborn child to the battlefield and almost lost him several times, and then because he was chased, the child's whereabouts were unknown, and later he hit his head, and forgot some things that were so melodramatic but true. When he woke up, he had left his previous residence and didn't even know where the child was. Now he didn't know where to find the child.
Telling Xiao Hengzhi about the child would be like giving him hope and then dealing him a heavy blow, wouldn't it?
Or should he tell Xiao Hengzhi about the child and let him fall into the longing for the child like him, experiencing hope and disappointment again and again?
The Great Yan Dynasty is so vast that it is not easy to find a child who was lost a few years ago in such a vast sea of people.
Even if the target is now set on Yiping Prefecture, who can guarantee that his son can be found in Yiping Prefecture?
Also, it is unknown whether a ten-year-old child can survive without the protection of an adult. Even if he can survive, what will happen to him?
And what about his youngest son? Just thinking about what the two children might have experienced made Qin Feiyu breathless and unable to sleep every night because of this.
Qin Feiyu didn't dare to think about it. How could he let Xiao Hengzhi suffer the same pain as him?
Xiao Hengzhi's current body can't bear it.
Considering Xiao Hengzhi, Qin Feiyu took back the words he wanted to blurt out. In the moment he was thinking, Xiao Hengzhi had already widened the distance between them. Even two guards appeared beside Xiao Hengzhi at some point, alert and vigilant to his every move.
When the two of them met, had Xiao Hengzhi already fallen to the point where he needed protection from others?
It wasn't like this before.
They had met in private countless times before, hiding their relationship from everyone, and even couldn't control themselves before they got married...
Why? He just went to fight a war, but he was afraid of Xiao Hengzhi's objection, so he acted first and reported to Xiao Heng later, and even lied. He just made a mistake, so why is everything irreversible?
There were too many things Qin Feiyu couldn't figure out. While he was thinking, Xiao Hengzhi lost all attachment to him and turned around to leave resolutely.
Qin Feiyu's eyes were dull as he let Xiao Hengzhi disappear from his sight. He could vaguely hear Xiao Hengzhi's words in his ears, "Qin Feiyu, when we meet again, we'll just be strangers. For the rest of your life, you and Jing Yeze should be good friends and love each other without a doubt. We no longer owe each other anything."
Indeed, neither owes the other anything.
Qin Feiyu had once conceived a child for him. Even though Qin Feiyu did not bring that child into this world, Xiao Hengzhi was still grateful to Qin Feiyu. At least Qin Feiyu made him experience the feeling of being a father. Abortion was so harmful to the body, and Xiao Hengzhi owed him that. But he also almost lost his life because of Qin Feiyu, so no one owed anyone anything.
"Well……"
Xiao Hengzhi disappeared from his sight. His blessings and his words that they owed each other nothing and that we would be strangers again were still lingering in his ears. Qin Feiyu realized it belatedly. He felt a piercing pain all over his body. The shrill and painful wails that he had to suppress could no longer be hidden.
Qin Feiyu finally understood a truth. For some things, if the beginning is wrong, the ending will be wrong too. For some things, if one step is wrong, all steps will be wrong. Some words cannot be expressed out loud and should last a lifetime. Some people, if missed, will be missed for a lifetime.
He and Xiao Hengzhi might have had a chance after he did something wrong, but now, this possibility has been killed by his own hands.
General Qin's marriage is a matter of great importance.
As the only one in the Dayan Dynasty who inherited his father's ambition as a son and became the patron saint of the Dayan Dynasty, what does it matter even if he is just a son?
How many men would not feel ashamed compared to a guy like this?
It wasn't that no ministers held prejudices because of Qin Feiyu's status as a "Brother." Fu Qingyu said coldly, "Since you think that General Qin, as a "Brother," shouldn't be given important positions, then tell me, who should be given the position of Grand General? Who can, like General Qin, defeat an enemy army of 200,000 with an army of 100,000? Who can be as brave and skilled in battle as General Qin, and be familiar with the art of war? Can you? Who else can do it? If you don't accept it and think you are stronger and more capable than General Qin, then I will give you a chance next time. If anyone loses the battle and loses an inch of my territory, I will take your heads. How about it? Who dares to stand up and speak?"
With Fu Qingyu's favoritism against all odds, and the approval of other ministers, who would dare to say anything about Qin Feiyu becoming a general as a young man?
No one dares.
Qin Feiyu has been in the position of general for more than ten years. They originally thought that their general would live alone for the rest of his life, but unexpectedly, when their general was in his thirties, his love life finally blossomed.
The news about the general's wedding six months later spread like wildfire, and villagers as far away as Dali Village learned about it.
For some reason, when Qin Run heard that General Qin was getting married, he was not as happy as others. It was as if fate had told him that this shouldn't be the case. He had never seen any General Qin. But when he learned about this, Qin Run couldn't help but think of Xiao Hengzhi, who was seeing another person through him.
"Brother Run, aren't you happy?" It was already November, the college entrance examination was over, and it was the busy farming season again. The college had a 15-day farm holiday, so Xu Yunfan was free again.
Everyone in the village was busy harvesting corn, soybeans and other crops, so Xu Yunfan didn't have to worry because Xiao Qin's family's land had been handed over to Fang the hunter's family.
Taking advantage of this opportunity, Xu Yunfan planned to go to the capital with Qi Xiu Ze and others to see the situation.
Recently, Qin Run asked Qin Dayou and his team to burn more than two thousand bags of silver frost charcoal. It takes about ten days to burn a kiln of charcoal, and a cave can burn more than twenty bags at a time. Qin Dayou and his team had twenty caves dug at the beginning, and they burned more than two thousand bags of silver frost charcoal in two months. This output is not much. The main reason is that Qin Run did not ask Qin Dayou and his team to burn only silver frost charcoal, but also other charcoal. In this way, when selling other charcoal, they can also promote the reputation of their Qin family, so that the charcoal will be easier to sell next year.
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