Chapter 74 Confession 2 Love comes from nowhere, but it is deep and lasting
Bai's words left Nan Qi silent.
Bai Smellide was able to be promoted to the empire's general at the age of 55 due to his military achievements. His martial arts, courage, knowledge, various military abilities and intelligence were not ordinary. It is not an exaggeration to call him a genius.
The thinking and behavioral logic of geniuses are often different from those of ordinary people. In other words, there is a fine line between genius and madness.
Nan Qi didn't know about Bai's past experiences, and during the time they had been together, Bai's behavior had always been normal.
However, today, Bai showed his genius side for the first time in front of Nan Qi at his usual workplace.
The madness that flows beneath the surface of calm.
"No need to restrain yourself", "I like it very much", "Accept everything without reservation", these seem to be passionate confessions, but in fact they are secret declarations.
He secretly declared to Nan Qi that he would accept everything he gave him, whether good, bad, forced, or harmful, as long as Nan Qi loved him.
Of course Nan Qi likes white, it can be said that he likes white very much.
Bai is Nan Qi's favorite type in terms of appearance, body shape, and even personality. Even their spiritual bodies are very compatible.
Cat and butterfly.
Everyone knows that cats love to catch butterflies. Nan Qi, the cat, is no exception, especially since this butterfly is so beautiful and capable.
But Nan Qi’s liking for her cannot be called pure love.
Nan Qi's love is mixed with the desire to take responsibility after Bai was completely marked by accident, and the desire to develop a stable life after forming an alliance with Bai.
Nan Qi's love was mixed with too many unexpected things, and even contained calculations after weighing the pros and cons, so much so that he was stunned by Bai's almost sacrificial confession.
He didn't understand what he had done to make the great general of the empire so determined that he could accept everything about him. He didn't understand how his love, which was mixed with gains and losses, could be exchanged for Bai's pure love.
Bai's love was secretive and intense. Nan Qi didn't understand what had happened that made Bai so attached to him.
Looking at Bai's eyes filled with pure and passionate love, for a moment, Nan Qi wanted to lower his head in shame.
He didn't dare look into Bai's eyes. The more he looked, the more despicable and selfish he felt.
But before he could lower his head, the bright love in Bai's eyes began to dim, and in a few breaths it turned into sadness after being rejected, and then turned into relief in an instant, as if she had figured something out when Nan Qi was silent.
What did Bai figure out? Even with this understanding, why is there still bitterness amidst the relief?
Nan Qi was puzzled, but a voice in his heart told him that if he didn't speak up, the ambiguous relationship between him and Bai, which had just heated up, would return to its original alliance relationship.
Alliances are just partners, just friends who share the same secrets.
Without time to think about it, Nan Qi only knew that he didn't want to be just friends with Bai, even though his love was not pure now.
Despicable is despicable, selfish is selfish. As an alien, he never wanted to provoke anyone, just wanted to use this life to enjoy life.
And Bai is something he doesn't want to give up in his life or in his daily life.
Since he didn't want to give up, he would hold on tightly and try to give back Bai - love that was equal to or even surpassed what Bai gave him.
Thinking so, Nan Qi did just that. He grabbed Bai's hand and leaned over to kiss it before Bai could speak.
The kiss was light, without any lingering ambiguity between lips and teeth, just lips against lips, more like a gag than a kiss.
But it was this kiss that brought color back into Bai Shiran's bitter eyes.
But the colors are fleeting, leaving behind more of a sense of confusion.
"Nan Qi..." Bai's lips didn't leave his, he spoke carefully, "Are you sympathizing with me?"
Nan Qi did not answer, but bit Bai's lips hard, then stroked Bai's lips which were slightly red and swollen from being bitten, and slowly spoke:
"Bai, I won't deny that I like you. You're an excellent female insect. Whether it's appearance or compatibility in bed, we're a perfect match. I'm sure you've become the part of my life I least want to give up, but there's one thing I can't figure out."
Nan Qi took a deep breath: "This incident made it impossible for me to accept your pure feelings calmly, so I remained silent. It doesn't mean that I want our relationship to return to the starting point."
"Why?" Bai was a little anxious, but his voice was even lower. "You like me, and I love you too. Why can't you accept my feelings? Don't we like each other?"
Nan Qi stood up and sat next to Bai, gently pinching the back of Bai's neck with his big hands, which was an intimate and soothing gesture.
Bai was comforted by Nan Qi, his stiff shoulders slumped slightly, and the whole insect revealed fatigue.
Nan Qi felt a little distressed, so he put his arm around Bai's shoulders, letting Bai lean sideways comfortably against him, and then he spoke softly.
The vibration of Nan Qi's chest and the temperature of his body were transmitted from the position where the two insects were tightly pressed together to Bai Hou's heart and then to his whole body. Bai lowered his eyes, hiding the infinite attachment in them.
"Bai," Nan Qi said, "We do like each other, but Bai, you have to know that your love and mine are not equal."
Bai turned his head, confusion rolling in his eyes, and he looked dazed, as if his brain was in a knot.
Nan Qi was amused by Bai's cute look. He covered Bai's eyes with his warm hands and said in a low, magnetic voice, "Our meeting began with calculations, and our cooperation is the result of weighing the pros and cons. Without these, I would never have met such a dazzling you."
"The time we spent together was very short, so short that it was impossible for us to develop any feelings beyond friendship. So at first I couldn't understand where your pure love for me came from."
Nan Qi lowered his head and gently kissed the white hair, his voice very soft: "But now I have a guess. You told me before that after being completely marked, the male insect will affect the female insect's emotions and mental fluctuations..."
"That's not the reason!" Bai put his hand over Nan Qi's hand that was covering his eyes, feeling Nan Qi's body temperature through his palm, and raised the corner of his mouth, "Nan Qi, you underestimate your charm."
"charm?"
"Yeah, charm." Bai moved his body, from his back pressed against Nan Qi's chest, to lying in Nan Qi's arms, his chest pressed against Nan Qi's chest, and the heartbeats of the two insects gradually merged into one.
Bai put his head on Nan Qi's shoulder with satisfaction, and whispered softly in Nan Qi's ear, "Nan Qi, our meeting and marking were indeed calculated, and our subsequent cooperation was due to interests, but it is precisely because of these things that your charm is particularly prominent."
"You're gentle, emotionally stable, and powerful. Just because you're an ally, you first helped me solve my "headache" problem, then helped me find a permanent solution to my "headache," and finally, you even risked your life to do it... Besides that, you always respect me, even in bed..."
Bai left Nan Qi's shoulder and smiled happily: "Nan Qi, do you remember what you did after we regained consciousness in the temporary command post?"
Of course Nan Qi remembered that he wrapped Bai with curtains and put clothes on Bai.
Bai shook his head. "You apologized to me. More than once."
Nan Qi's eyes widened, Bai kissed his eyes, and continued, "What happened to us was not your fault in the first place. You were innocently dragged into this, yet you apologized to me. Not only that, you gave me clothes and maintained my dignity in front of Mellon and the others..."
"You're such a good person, why shouldn't I love you? We've only been together for a short time, but I'm not blind. I've seen and remembered your every move. Even if my heart is frozen, you've melted it."
"Nan Qi, those bad things brought us together. Isn't it God's will that we be together? I don't care whether the love you said is equal or not, or whether the love is pure or not, because I think worthwhile means equality, and my love for you is not as pure as you think."
"Don't forget, I made this alliance with you because I had something against you. If you treat me badly, I won't like you either." Bai blinked mischievously. "You see, I'm not pure either. We are essentially the same."
"So, Nan Qi, can I love you? Can you love me too?"
Nan Qi was stunned again by Bai's words, but this time he reacted quickly.
Bai, who has lived in an abnormal worldview for a long time, has very few male insects that are sincere to him. It can be said that most of the male insects that come into contact with him have malicious intentions, or that most male insects in this world have malicious intentions towards female insects.
Deep in the vast malice, Bai is too familiar with the disgusting thoughts of male insects, so that if a normal male insect contacts him later, he will reflexively refuse.
Although he and Bai had to be tied together because of calculations, it was precisely because of this "having to" that Bai saw that he was a male insect who had no ill will towards him and would be helpful to him after becoming an ally.
The seeds of love were quietly planted in Bai's heart, took root and sprouted as they spent time together, and grew into a towering tree.
Knowing that Bai's love was not rootless, Nan Qi was worried that he would be uprooted.
His feelings for Bai were indeed not as pure as Bai's, but Bai was right. It was true that their meeting was due to calculation and interests, but it was also these "bad" things that brought them together.
He is obsessed with appearances and wants a reason for everything, but many times, feelings have no reason at all.
In this world, some relationships begin with appearance; some relationships begin with character; some relationships begin with interests; some relationships even begin with deception...
As the saying goes - love comes from nowhere, but it grows deeper and deeper.
His relationship with Bai started with calculations and interests, but ended with each other's character.
But in this relationship, he was the one who got the upper hand after all.
Because he only took on the responsibilities that a contract partner should bear, the responsibilities that an ally should bear, and the sincerity that a friend should give.
His commitment and sacrifices were not selfless. He exchanged them for the stability he wanted and Bai's most passionate love. In any case, he gained more.
If you earn money, you must cherish it and not waste it easily, otherwise you will be punished by God.
Nan Qi made up his mind silently.
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