Don't let each other down
The two of them sat down in the pavilion for a rare occasion, and it seemed that this was how the relationship should have developed from the beginning.
The moon in the sky was like a silver crescent, emitting a faint white light. The white light traveled hundreds of thousands of miles to reach them and hit Song Zhexi, making his already weird face even more broken.
Huang Yaya asked, "So you blame me for lying to you?"
Song Zhexi replied nonchalantly: "Compared to blaming you, I love you more."
But what is love? Huang Yaya is confused. Is it just desire? Or does it contain something greater?
"I don't understand? Why do you love me when I've deceived you and hurt you?"
Song Zhexi glanced at Huang Yaya, and the corners of his mouth rose slightly: "I don't understand either, but I just know that I love you."
He just knew this? Cuteness doesn't have a specific shape, so how did he know that?
Song Zhexi continued, "When I first saw you today, all I could think about was possessing you, destroying you, and imprisoning you. But when I saw you crying, I realized I couldn't bear to do that to you."
"I can obviously let you go, but I can't bear to do so. Even if I can just sit in this pavilion with you and enjoy the breeze, I'd feel satisfied."
"Even if you're so frivolous with me, even if you abandon me, I can't stop falling for you."
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He said it so seriously that Huang Yaya felt as if her chest was blocked by something. She continued, "If I were a man and you were a woman, I would definitely marry you."
This time it was Song Zhexi's turn to be puzzled. He asked, "Why do you make such an assumption?"
"Because I'm a man in your era, even if I marry one wife, I can still marry another!"
Song Zhexi suddenly burst into laughter and asked, "Do you care so much about these ethical constraints? Then why did you have an affair with me behind Huo Weixi's back?" Song Zhexi emphasized the word "affair" with extra force.
The education Huang Yaya received since childhood and the influence of the social environment on her were that women should love their husbands and their children, and that women who have desires are unchaste.
When she was a child, women in her grandmother's village weren't allowed to divorce. They could only wait until their husbands didn't want them. Men had the right to divorce, it was a given. Women, on the other hand, were told to just endure it for the sake of the children. If they didn't have children, they'd say no one would want them if they were a second marriage!
Even though society has developed and women have become more tolerant of divorce, women are still not allowed to cheat on their spouses in China.
Every time she saw a female celebrity cheating on her husband on the trending search results, it felt like a massive sexual humiliation. Male celebrities made the same mistakes all men make.
Even the clichéd dramas at 8 o'clock are always about a man marrying a bunch of women! It's always the hero who finds out he doesn't love his white moonlight and goes after the heroine!
Living in such an environment, she couldn't help but be affected. If it was a dream, then she had no guilt in being intimate with Huo Weixi and Song Zhexi.
But this is not a dream!
Huang Yaya thought about it and could only say a weak word, "Prince Ning, I'm sorry."
Song Zhexi asked: "If I married you first, would you be with me?"
Huang Yaya nodded.
Song Zhexi then asked, "Will you still have an affair with Huo Weixi behind my back?"
The person she was initially attracted to was Song Zhexi, but fate played a trick on her. In the one year since she came to this world, the person who stayed with her was Huo Weixi. His meticulous companionship and care over the past year made her feelings for Huo Weixi grow deeper and deeper.
"Won't."
Hearing this, Song Zhexi suddenly laughed, a laugh full of relief.
But then Song Zhexi burst into tears again. It would have been great if he had been bolder and not so hesitant and just married her directly.
That New Year, Song Zhexi and Huang Yaya talked about the next time, because he wanted his father to agree to let him marry him, but he couldn't tell her where she came from. He only knew her name, which was a fake one.
His father simply rejected him angrily. Most royal children's marriages were not determined by their own will, and he was also an unpopular prince.
Song Zhexi also knew that Huang Yaya didn't care about the customs of marriage. She only wanted his body. But he did care. He wanted to marry her, to be with her forever, to light the lamp every night, and to see her every day when he woke up.
The servants in Prince Ning's mansion privately said that he was haunted by a female ghost, but he didn't mind as long as she loved him.
After she disappeared for a long time, his father arranged a marriage for her, but he didn't want to, he disobeyed the order, and drank all day, until his father relented and said he would never care about him again.
He must have disappointed his father, but what did it matter? He just wanted to wait for her to appear, and she would definitely appear.
During this time, Huo Weixi begged his father to grant him a marriage in the palace, saying that the girl was just an orphan and he would marry her in this life. His father agreed.
Song Zhexi was very envious of why his father was so indifferent to his request.
He had seen how Huo Weixi loved his wife, and he just found it funny. A marquis, a marquis who led tens of thousands of troops on the battlefield, would actually be jealous of a woman and run all over the capital looking for sour plums for a woman.
The abduction of Mrs. Huo Weixi by the Yuewan people had caused a huge uproar. He had assumed Huo Weixi would remarry soon, as the Huo family had always had only one son. But he didn't. He simply begged the Emperor like crazy to allow him to lead his troops to annihilate the Da Qiang. He really meant annihilation.
Song Zhexi glanced at the sleepy Huang Yaya and said in a hoarse voice, "Do you know what kind of person Huo Weixi is?"
Huang Yaya said without hesitation: "A very gentle person." Then she smiled and added: "She is very tolerant of me."
Gentle? Song Zhexi smiled dumbly. How could a man who led troops to fight be a gentle person?
However, he did not refute her words, but asked: "How do you know Huo Weixi?"
Huang Yaya felt a little embarrassed when she thought of the previous scene, and just shook her head to indicate that she didn't want to answer.
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A gentle breeze brought a wave of sleepiness. Huang Yaya leaned against the stone table in the pavilion and fell asleep. She dreamed of Huo Weixi drinking and crying alone. The words of comfort in her dream disappeared from her mind: "Zhexi, please don't cry anymore, okay?"
Song Zhexi took off his brocade robe, put it on Huang Yaya, and replied: "I only cry for you."
There are some things that even if Huang Yaya doesn't want to say, he will still investigate them!
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