"mom?"
Han Qinqin had tears on her face. She looked at her mother and said with trembling lips, "Mom, you hit me? Because Dad favored Han Zecheng and his son, but you still hit me?"
"I didn't hit you because your father favored Han Zecheng and his son. I hit you because of the way you are now."
Wen Qiaoyi's eyes were filled with disappointment and she closed them tiredly.
After she hit Han Qinqin, she felt weak and her hands were shaking.
She walked to a stool nearby, sat down, and leaned on the table for a while before looking up at Han Qinqin and saying, "Qinqin, what you said made you so hysterical and embarrassed, but what do those things have to do with you?"
"Han Zecheng is in military school, he has a bright future, his son is well-educated, your father likes him, so why does this hinder you?"
"Whether you recognize him or not, he is your elder brother. He has a bright future. If you and your brother get along well with him, it is hard to say whether he will be of help to you in the future..."
Seeing that her daughter wanted to speak again, she raised her hand to stop her.
Wen Qiaoyi has a gentle personality and has always doted on Han Qinqin.
In the past, it was usually difficult for her to stop Han Qinqin, but at this moment, her face showed a sternness that Han Qinqin had never seen before, as well as a kind of broken pain and disappointment. Han Qinqin saw this and didn't know why, but she felt panic in her heart and actually stopped talking.
She knows that many people don't like her now.
They all looked down on her and despised her.
But what should she do if even her mother doesn't want her and despises her?
Wen Qiaoyi continued, "Don't say you don't need it. Who can know what's going on in this world? Look at the past few years. Don't you understand that things in the world are unpredictable?"
"You and your eldest brother don't get along well with him. Mom can see that although he is a little cold, he won't do anything bad to you. If he has a bad future and lives a life of hard work in the countryside as you wish, what good will it do you? It will only satisfy your strange vanity."
"As for your father, ask yourself honestly, who has your father treated better than you three siblings since you were little?"
"Han Zecheng never gave him anything except living expenses. He got into the military academy on his own and fought hard for his future. Maybe because of your father, he had more opportunities than others, but that also required him to have the ability to make military achievements."
"Compared to him, your brother's opportunities will only be more, not less... It's also my fault. I spoiled you since you were young. I didn't want you to suffer even a little bit, and I didn't want your brother to risk his life for his future. I just hope that you can live a good life in peace and stability."
So she was not dissatisfied with her son's current situation.
Compared to not being able to see each other for years in the army, and possibly risking their lives when on missions, what's wrong with having my son at home, safe and sound, and the whole family being together?
She took a breath and said, "How your father treats your eldest brother and his son has no effect on you at all. Besides, he likes Han Guo because Han Guo taught him well. You said your father doesn't like Tongtong. Think about what you have taught Tongtong first, and what is there in him that is worthy of your father's attention? Even you don't like him and you only want to send him away. Why do you expect your father to treat him well?"
"Qinqin, he is your own child, and you yourself hate him, so why should you ask others to look at him differently?"
"Same thing. If you can't even stand up for yourself, how can you expect others to respect you and like you? You said you want to date and get married in the future. Mom knows you are ambitious and want to marry a good and capable person. But Qinqin, how can you expect others to like you when you are like this now?"
Han Qinqin burst into tears. She lay on the bed and cried for a long time before she said, "Mom, I don't know. I just feel bad, really bad. I don't know why my life has become like this... Mom, I remember when I was a child you told me that girls shouldn't be too competitive. In the future, I just need to marry a capable or well-matched man, and I'll have a stable life. But why am I like this now?"
"I also want to be like Su Ruo, with a capable husband and a son who knows everything. I only need to dress up beautifully, and her husband will arrange and take care of everything for her... Mom, why is it so unfair? Why can she live so well with such a background, but I have become like this?"
Han Qinqin is proud and has a strong sense of self-esteem. If she were to tell others what is in her heart, she would definitely not say it.
But now, facing her mother, she was so mentally broken that she couldn't help but blurt it out.
Wen Qiaoyi was stunned when she heard the first part of her words, but felt heartbroken when she heard the second part.
She walked over and hugged him, not knowing what to do for a moment.
She had indeed said that to her at the beginning.
In fact, she has always thought so, and it is still the same now.
When her daughter was young, she was very competitive and she thought that was an unpleasant character, so she educated her in that way.
She was also afraid that her daughter would be deceived and marry someone from a poor family, which would make her life difficult in the future, so she told her that it would be best to marry someone of equal status, so that the two of them could communicate with each other and stay together for a long time.
She doesn't think there's anything wrong with these.
But no one knew what would happen next.
Due to a series of coincidences, everything has been turned upside down.
She couldn't say that her daughter's decision to marry Lin Yumin was wrong. In fact, marrying Lin Yumin was a good choice under the circumstances at the time.
Otherwise, with my daughter's personality, how could she survive in the countryside?
It was still her fault. She had spoiled her so much that she couldn't endure hardship. She was also arrogant and competitive.
How can it be so easy to break it now?
If your emotions and mentality are not stable, nothing you say will be of any use.
She could only say to her: "Qinqin, don't compare yourself with others, don't always look at others. Even if you really want to compare, why do you have to look at Su Ruo... Think about other people. There are so many educated youth who are still in the countryside and haven't returned to the city. How many of them are living better than you are now? You are still young, you still have a long time to live, and you are in college. As long as you live well, it won't be too bad."
But this really could not comfort Han Qinqin at this moment.
******
Wen Qiaoyi returned to her room exhausted.
Han Hehuai knew from the look on her face that something had happened to his daughter again.
Han Hehuai also had a headache when he thought of his daughter.
He asked, "What happened to her?"
Wen Qiaoyi's eyes were red, and she whispered, "I didn't teach her well. This child has never suffered from hardship or grievance since she was a child. She can't stand it... He Huai, everyone is different. Don't force her anymore. I'm really afraid that she can't stand it and her brain will have problems."
This is not a joke. Over the years, they know countless people who have committed suicide or developed brain problems and become insane.
Wen Qiaoyi was not afraid that her daughter would go crazy.
She was afraid that she would become more and more extreme and unrecognizable.
It’s not that she didn’t want to teach her in the past few months, but it was simply no use and she was becoming increasingly powerless.
She thought that perhaps heart disease can only be cured by heart medicine.
The biggest problem for my daughter is her unhappy marriage, which has made her lack confidence, dissatisfied with her life, and have no emotional support. This is why she has become so extreme and unhappy. If there is someone who loves her and she can be convinced, forget about the past, and teach her well, perhaps everything will slowly get better.
She knew it wasn't easy. How could she find a man who could convince her daughter and love and tolerate her?
I can't discuss this with my husband yet.
Because she knew that her husband would not understand or support this.
Han and Huai were very upset.
He forced her, what on earth did he force her to do?
He couldn't even understand how he could have given birth to such a weak daughter.
I don't know what's going on in her head.
******
Han Zecheng agreed to let Han Hehuai leave after lunch the next day.
Originally, he was thinking of taking Su Ru out for a walk again.
But unexpectedly, people came to pay New Year's greetings to Han Hehuai one after another the next day. As a result, Han Hehuai was very busy, so he asked him to bring Su Ruo and Guo Guo to build a two-meter-long and one-meter-wide outdoor battle sand table model in the study outside Han Hehuai.
But the unexpected surprise was that Su Ruo was also very interested in this.
No, in fact she is quite good at it... She is not good at field combat, operations or reconnaissance strategies, but at building architecture and garden models.
The result is the same anyway.
As a result, Han Zecheng became the instructor, and Su Ruo and Guo Guo had a lot of fun.
During this time, someone who Han Zecheng knew came to wish Han Hehuai a happy new year. When he heard that Han Zecheng was also there, he asked Aunt Cao to find Han Zecheng and apologize to him.
This person is Zhou Nianxue’s brother Zhou Chi.
When Han Zecheng returned to the room, Su Ruo looked up and asked him who that person was. Han Zecheng did not elaborate, only saying, "He's the son of my dad's comrade-in-arms. I don't know him very well, but I just came over to say hello."
Su Ruo didn't ask any more questions.
When Guoguo left after dinner in the afternoon, he still felt unsatisfied.
In the car, Guo Guo said to Su Ruo: "Mom, you see, I really resisted even the sugar-coated bullets for you."
Su Ruo was stunned. What does "I even resisted the sugar-coated bullets for you" mean?
Does he know what a sugar-coated bullet is?
Guoguo explained: "Grandpa said that if I stay, he will give me a complete set of cannon models, as well as the battle sandbox model, and he can also let me dismantle it and play with it. Isn't that a big sacrifice for me?"
Su Ruo laughed.
She reached out and patted him, smiling, "What kind of sacrifice is this? Didn't you see how busy your grandfather was this morning? If you stayed here and let you play with those things by yourself, you would probably get bored in less than two hours."
Guoguo sighed and said, "That's right, I still like you guys to play with me, Mom and Dad."
Su Ruo saw that he looked very mature and really wanted to rub his face to make him look more like a normal child.
But it looks cute this way.
Su Ruo asked Guoguo casually what he played yesterday, whether he thought grandpa was good to him, whether he was naughty, whether the food at grandpa's house was delicious, and whether there was anything he wanted to go back and ask his mother to learn to cook... Han Zecheng occasionally looked back at his wife and son, but didn't say anything. He was always focused on driving.
But after returning home, he sent Su Ruo and Guo Guo upstairs, and went to the army again. When he came back half an hour later, he had a big box in his hands. He asked Guo Guo to open it together, and it turned out to be a whole box of various sand table model materials.
Guoguo screamed.
His dad is so nice, isn't he? !
Su Ruo was also surprised.
She asked, "Where did you get it? Can you just take it from the army?"
Han Zecheng explained, "These are from my office. They are old and useless. If you and Guoguo like them, I'll give them to you to play with."
He is in charge of the investigation system, so there must be something like this, and there are a lot of them in his office.
But he never thought that his son and daughter-in-law would like to play this.
So that's how it is.
However, in the evening, Su Ruo had a new worry.
She said, "Zecheng, don't you think you are too doting on Guoguo? You easily give him everything he wants. Will this spoil the child?"
"Won't,"
Han Zecheng said directly, "I told him that I gave it to you because I saw you liked it. If he wants to play with it, he has to ask for your opinion, and he can't give up halfway through completing any model. If he doesn't finish it, I won't give him a new one."
Su Ruo:......
She felt something was wrong.
"Why do you say you like it and give it to me to play with?"
She reacted and said with a bit of unbearableness, "Why did you say that to Guoguo... Alas..."
She asked why she always felt that Guoguo's attitude towards her seemed strange sometimes.
It didn't seem that obvious.
For example, Ruguo always felt that she was useless, saying that she didn't need to worry if she couldn't get into college, and that he and his father wouldn't despise him. He also told his grandfather very seriously, "Mom needs me more, I want to stay, I guess she won't be able to sleep these few days"...
She felt that this must be related to Han Zecheng's subtle influence.
She felt that she should have a serious talk with him.
But how do I say this?
She hesitated for a long time, but before she could speak, she heard him say, "What I told him was the truth, A'ruo. School will start in a while, and you might be bored at home. I'll give it to you and Guoguo to play with. This kid can't sit still, and there are many things to teach here, enough for you and him to kill time."
That's not the question.
But after Su Ruo thought about it, she still didn't know how to explain it.
Should I tell him not to be too nice to her in front of Guoguo?
Otherwise Guoguo would always feel that she was very weak, as if she always needed his father or even him to take care of her.
never mind.
She sighed. It wouldn't be a quick thing anyway, so she would decide after she had thought it through.
******
After this delay, Su Ruo forgot about this matter.
Time flies, and after the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, it is time to report to school.
Su Ruo was packing clothes on the bed when she suddenly sighed and said, "The last time I was packing to go to Qing University, I suddenly changed to now. Do you think this is a dream? This time I am packing again, and then I wake up and become eighteen years old again?"
Even though Han Zecheng usually remained calm even when faced with great difficulties, his expression changed at this moment.
Because she made it sound like she hadn't just lost her memory.
But she suddenly became who she is now, and if she leaves, this her will no longer exist.
He said sullenly, "You just don't remember."
Su Ruo shook her head.
She didn't seem to be talking to him, but rather to herself: "I always feel that it's not that I don't remember, but it feels like there really wasn't that five years in between... I think if I just lost my memory, there would at least be other traces, but I don't feel anything at all. It's just..."
She seemed a little confused and said, "Even if I don't remember, I think it was five years of experience after all, and it should have had an impact on my personality and style of doing things, but I don't think I'm any different from before... And I remember things before I was eighteen so clearly, it's really like it happened just before I woke up, don't you think it's strange?"
For example, let's say she is reviewing for the college entrance examination. If five years have really passed, even if she doesn't remember these five years, then the knowledge from five years ago wouldn't really be as clear as it was five years ago, right?
In fact, it seemed like she had just learned those things not long ago.
In fact, Han Zecheng was also confused.
But he didn't want to think about it too deeply, as there was no answer to this question.
She had lost her memory and he hadn't even thought of taking her to see a doctor... He didn't think there was anything wrong with her now.
If she forgets, then she forgets.
He walked to the bedside, held her in his arms, bent his head and kissed her, very gently without any lust. Su Ruo was thinking about something, so she turned her face to ask him to stop, but he insisted, and she couldn't get rid of him. Slowly, she was also aroused by his kiss... You have to know that after two days, the two of them can't be together for a long time.
Just when Su Ruo wanted to grab his clothes and take it further, he stopped, hugged her in his arms, and said, "Aruo, I can't accept a life without you, and I can't even accept the way you treated me before."
Su Ruo smiled.
She doesn't want a life without him.
She whispered, "Even if I were eighteen again, I could come back to you... We could start over again."
At this point, she was a little annoyed and said, "I was only eighteen years old, and then five years were gone for no apparent reason. The best five years were gone just like that... If I could go back to that time, I would definitely not be depressed and sad because of those people and things. I would come to find you, and you would still love me like you do now, right?"
She even looked forward to it when she talked about it.
She thought that was a really good thing... But if he had no memories and she was the only one who had the memories of this period of time, given his personality, if she suddenly went to find him, would he ignore her and be cold to her like he did to other girls who liked him?
Thinking of this, she felt that it would be interesting to provoke him, who was so cold.
Once they were together, she would not waste five years, and she would follow him wherever he went.
What does it matter if the conditions are a little difficult?
He certainly wouldn't want to suffer any real hardship.
Su Ruo was lost in thought.
Han Zecheng had a gloomy expression on his face, but he was thinking about something very realistic.
He was thinking that she was going to school.
An unavoidable thing is right in front of us, that is, Yuan Chengyang's mother Shu Yuelan is a professor in the Department of Architecture of Qingdao University, and Yuan Chengyang lives in the Qingdao University staff housing compound.
When Su Ruo goes to school, there is no way she won't see them.
In fact, given her relationship with them, there might even be deeper intersections.
Then he will definitely get entangled with Yuan Chengyang.
Even though she has no feelings for Yuan Chengyang now, they have been in love for many years after all...
But this matter was like a thorn in his heart.
He couldn't say a word more.
Because there is no point in saying it.
Could he still ask her to stay away from them after going to school?
He closed his eyelids and said slowly, "Back to eighteen? Aruo, I remember you were engaged to someone else at that time, so why did you come to me?"
ha?
engagement?
If he hadn't mentioned it, she would have forgotten it.
However, this seemed to be the first time he mentioned Yuan Chengyang to her.
Did he know about this?
She glanced at him, but found that he was not looking at her at all.
She was silent for a while, then said, "I heard that he got together with my stepsister after I went to the countryside... My family has drawn a line in the sand with me and severed all ties with me, so my engagement with him is no longer valid."
"What if there isn't?"
He was not satisfied with the answer and continued to ask her.
"ha?"
"If he..."
He wanted to ask her what she would choose if Yuan Chengyang was not with her stepsister at all.
But when the words came to his lips, he changed his mind and said, "If you really go back to the age of 18, and you two are still engaged when you go back, and he is not with your stepsister at that time, will you take the initiative to break up the engagement with him and come to find me?"
Su Ruo was stunned.
She murmured, "After I went to the countryside..."
"If you don't need to go to the countryside and can continue to study at university,"
He looked at her and asked her word by word, "You know, if that's the case, he won't be able to cancel the engagement with you. Will you take the initiative to cancel the engagement with him and come to find me?"
Su Ruo was stunned.
She wondered how such an assumption could be made.
But she understood what he meant. What he actually wanted to ask was, if nothing changed, would she be willing to take the initiative to cancel her engagement with Yuan Chengyang and be with him.
His question made her unable to help but think about this possibility.
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