How could Su Ruo have ever experienced this?
She was completely stunned. All she smelled and touched was his hot breath. Her mind exploded. She instinctively wanted to step back, but there was nowhere to retreat. She wanted to push him away, but he held her tightly, as tight as steel and copper. Her little strength was like that of a fish being pinched by the waist. Apart from shaking her tail, she could not even breathe. How could she have the slightest chance of struggling?
It was unknown how long it was, but when Su Ruo's whole body went limp and she felt like she was about to die, he pulled away and touched her face with his hot hands.
But her face was wet and cold.
Han Zecheng's hand paused.
The heat in his body slowly subsided, and he called out, "Ruoruo?"
The voice was hoarse and patient.
Then he noticed that her body seemed to be shaking.
He woke up completely, stepped aside, but still held her with one hand, and said hoarsely, "I'm sorry, I lost control."
He really just lost control.
Their current situation is not right, and she is still sick. Originally, he didn't want to do anything, but his nerves have been tense these two days. Just now in the silence, he just wanted to hug her and feel the feeling of her in his arms, as if he wanted to confirm something, but as soon as she was in his arms and he smelled the faint fragrance on her body, he lost control.
Su Ruo's hands were still clutching his clothes.
She hadn't recovered yet and just kept crying, silently at first, but then she couldn't control herself and cried out loud.
She was really frightened.
Who wouldn't be frightened by something like this?
She was shocked by his behavior and also by her own reaction... In short, everything that happened just now made her collapse.
But this man happened to be her "husband", and they already had a son. He said that she had promised him that she would live a good life with him, so this kind of relationship between husband and wife was natural.
But she didn't remember.
She clearly remembered that she was just a student who had just turned 18, and her biggest worry in life was that she didn't want to see the faces of Lin Wanhua and her daughter.
But when she woke up, her father had drawn a line between them and her, and gave her place to her stepmother's daughter to go to college, and she came here alone...
She was crying, at first because she was frightened, but later she didn't know why.
Han Zecheng was stunned by her crying.
She had never cried like this in front of him before.
In the past, no matter how wronged she was, she would just redden her eyes and bite her lips tightly, and she would never cry in front of him.
Is she like this now because she no longer intends to live with him and can no longer tolerate his touch?
He felt uncomfortable in his heart.
But she cried so hard that her tears seemed to burn his heart. He didn't care about his own pain. He restrained himself, reached out and patted her, and coaxed her in a hoarse voice: "It's my fault, don't cry."
Su Ruo felt wronged and scared, and cried for a long time before she slowly stopped crying with his comfort.
After venting, people feel more sober.
She turned her head slightly to look at him and saw his chin, which was slightly blue and had hard lines.
She was not an unreasonable person. After crying and slowly calming down, she realized that it was not his fault at all... Even though it was only for less than a day, she felt that this person should be good to her and very patient.
Maybe it's really like what his mother said.
Otherwise, a normal couple shouldn't get along like this. He just kissed her and he had to apologize to her, saying it was his fault and he lost control... Although she was a little scared and had never been married in her memory and had never lived the life of a normal couple, she was not an idiot. What's more, there were many books in her house and she had read everything she should have read.
Did she really marry him just to use him, and then take advantage of the benefits of marrying him and not allow him to touch her?
She felt a little guilty when she thought of this.
But no matter how guilty she felt, she couldn't just close her eyes and do what she wanted with him, right?
What is this called? ......
"It's not your fault,"
She gritted her teeth, and after a lot of thought, she slowly made a decision. She hardened her heart and closed her eyes and said, "It's me. It's my problem."
Han Zecheng's heart choked and his hand that was holding her arm tightened, but he quickly loosened his grip again, probably because he was afraid of hurting her.
He asked, "You want to separate from me?"
Is it because you want to separate from him that you can no longer tolerate his touch?
Su Ruo heard the ferocity behind the forbearance and restraint in his tone.
separate?
She was a little frightened by his tone, but also a little confused.
She thought again about what her mother had said… Could it be that all that was really true?
This made her heart sink like lead.
No matter what the real situation was, she couldn't say she was breaking up with him without knowing everything.
Besides, he is a soldier. Can a military marriage be divorced just like that?
Under his compelling gaze, she shook her head and said, "No, I'm not."
At least not now.
"What's that?"
When Han Zecheng heard her denial, the pain in his heart finally eased a little, and even his tense body relaxed a little.
The voice also relaxed a little.
He stroked her arm with his fingers and asked, "Did I hurt you by being too rough just now?"
He was indeed too rude just now.
She had always been extremely delicate, and he seldom came back, so he could not control himself and hurt her every time he touched her.
Su Ruo:......
Where had she ever heard such straightforward words? !
Her face suddenly became hot and her body trembled.
Her heartbeat, which had finally calmed down, began to beat violently again. She realized that they were still so close to each other, that her arm was still held by him, and that her breath was full of his scent. This realization made her almost unable to breathe. She struggled to free herself from his hand and moved back to the inside of the bed.
This time Han Zecheng did not stop her, but followed her wishes, but his eyes were still fixed on her.
Su Ruo stepped aside.
The quilt let in air, and the cold air outside made her body cool, and she felt more awake.
She took a deep breath and felt that lying down was not a good condition, so she simply sat up and met his gaze, mustering up her courage and saying with all her might, "I'm sorry, it's me, there's something wrong with me."
He gritted his teeth and continued, "I don't know what happened. When I woke up today, I forgot everything. I forgot about this place, the people and the things here."
"I only remember that I had just celebrated my 18th birthday and that I would be going to college in a few days. But when I woke up, I became what I am now. In this place I don't know where, I got married, got a husband, and had a son. I..."
She shook her head and said, "So it's not your problem just now. It's me who doesn't remember. I don't remember what happened between us. I have never had such contact with anyone before, so I'm a little scared."
Han Zecheng was stunned.
He was originally propping himself up to look at her, but now he sat up and looked at her for a long time. At first, he seemed not to understand what she said, and then his eyes became sharper, as if he wanted to see through her.
Even though it was night and there were no lights, he was an excellent soldier with excellent night vision, and he could see every expression on her face.
He suppressed the emotions that welled up in his heart and said in an unpredictable tone: "You don't want me to touch you, there is no need to find such an excuse, you know, I will never force you."
After that, he paused and said, "Even if you want a divorce, I won't refuse you."
The voice became a little colder.
Su Ruo knew that he didn't believe her.
He thought she lied to avoid his touch.
This made her feel ashamed and wronged.
But she also knew that this was indeed unbelievable. Even she herself couldn't believe it, so his reaction was perfectly normal.
She bent her knees, hugged him, lowered her head and murmured, "I know this is hard to believe. Even I can't believe it. From the moment I woke up until now, I have been hoping that all this is not true."
"I was sleeping at home. I remember it clearly. It was August 22, 1972. I was packing my things. In a few days, I would go to Qingdao University in the provincial capital to study and start a new life. But when I woke up, I became like this... I don't remember anything. I just barely saw a few pieces of information in my notebook and knew what happened from 1972 to 1977."
"I really hope that all this is fake, that I can go back to my room after another sleep, and that I will go to college in a few days... This is all just a nightmare."
As I spoke, I felt sad and couldn't help but cry again.
God knows how happy she was when she received the college acceptance letter, because she could finally start a new life.
Finally, I don’t have to live under the same roof with Lin Wanhua and Su Jia anymore.
But what is happening now?
Su Jia went to college instead of her.
Her father disowned her.
She went to the countryside to work as an educated youth and married a man... You can't blame others for this. It's very likely that she seduced him in order to change her situation, and she didn't treat him well after the incident...
Life can be turned upside down, and even one’s character may be overturned.
Su Ruo suppressed her sobs.
She didn't know how long it had been before a hand reached out to her. She looked up and saw him handing her something. She vaguely saw that it should be a handkerchief.
Su Ruo took it and wiped her face, saying, "I'm sorry."
Although she didn't know why she should say sorry.
Then she heard him say, "Don't cry, I believe you."
ha?
Su Ruo was stunned and turned her head to look at him.
In the darkness of the night, she couldn't see his expression clearly, but she could feel that it must be very gloomy.
This "belief" of his is probably just a saying, he doesn't really believe it.
After Su Ruo finished crying, she slowly came to her senses.
I also clearly realized my current situation.
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