Chapter 9 I Hate You
Chapter Nine
"Cough cough..."
When Shen Panyan woke up, she felt as if all the bones in her body were about to break, and she was in pain all over.
Everything was pitch black, there wasn't a single ray of light. Was she dead?
But why can you still feel pain after you've died?
Shen Panyan's eyelashes trembled as she slowly opened her eyes.
She's not dead?
All she could see was darkness. She struggled to get up from the ground, but suddenly aggravated the wound on her left shoulder, causing her to gasp in shock.
It was only then that she realized she seemed to be... lying on top of someone.
She looked down and saw a familiar mask, a warm chest, and a black martial arts robe...
Shen Panyan was stunned for a moment, all her memories came flooding back, and there was still something she didn't understand. It must be that Lin Xiao saved her.
However, looking at Lin Xiao, whose eyes were closed and whose chest was not rising or falling, Shen Panyan's hands trembled, and a huge panic surged into her heart.
She wanted to test his breath, but her fingertips were blocked by the mask. Shen Panyan hesitated, wanting to take off his mask, but then she remembered what Lin Xiao had said and gave up.
She chose to lie down and press her face against his heart to listen to his heartbeat.
But she heard nothing; all she could hear was silence.
No heartbeat, doesn't that mean...dead?
Lin Xiao, dead?!
Shen Panyan was stunned, completely unable to believe this fact, and tears welled up in her eyes.
She frantically pressed herself against him, listening intently, but she couldn't hear his heartbeat anymore.
Lin Xiao is really dead.
Upon suddenly realizing this, Shen Panyan could no longer control her inner fear.
It was all because of her. If she hadn't trusted Qiu Shuang so easily, she wouldn't have been tricked into coming to Xishan and being pushed off the cliff, and Lin Xiao wouldn't have died.
Large tears streamed down his pale cheeks and onto his chest, soaking his clothes, blurring Shen Panyan's vision.
She clutched Lin Xiao's robes tightly with both hands, sobbing uncontrollably.
"I'm so sorry, Lin Xiao, it's all my fault that you died!"
"I was so stupid. Why didn't I believe you? If it weren't for me, Lin Xiao, you wouldn't be dead..."
"It's all my fault that you died..."
Shen Panyan burst into tears, overwhelmed by immense guilt and panic, her body trembling. She didn't know how much time had passed when she suddenly felt someone push her.
Shen Panyan was stunned, thinking she had misjudged the situation.
Until someone pushed my body again.
This time she wasn't mistaken; something was pushing her!
The royal villa was nestled against the mountains, and spring hunts were held there. Recalling the animals they had hunted in previous years, Shen Panyan felt a sense of fear.
Could it be that a wolf is coming and is going to eat her?
Shen Panyan's palms were ice-cold, and her heart was pounding like a drum. She didn't want to be eaten by wild wolves.
But with her physical condition, how could she possibly escape the pursuit of the wolves?
Realizing that she too could not escape death, Shen Panyan panicked and instinctively buried her head in his arms, clutching his clothes tightly.
"Lin Xiao, wolves are coming..." she said in a trembling voice.
Shen Panyan was self-aware; since she was going to die anyway, she might as well die cleanly and avoid the pain of escaping.
She was the one who wronged Lin Xiao. If you want to eat her, then eat her. Leave Lin Xiao with a whole corpse... But then, the next moment, Shen Panyan was suddenly pushed away.
Caught off guard, she landed hard on the snow, instinctively bracing herself with her hands, which immediately aggravated her wound, causing tears to stream down her face in pain.
Through her teary eyes, she saw Lin Xiao slowly stand up from where she had just been lying.
He rubbed his head, his body slightly unsteady.
Shen Panyan's tears stopped, and she looked at him in disbelief, "Lin Xiao, you're not dead after all?"
Lin Xiao: "......"
When did he die?
Lin Xiao looked down and saw the princess sitting to his side, looking up at him. Her almond-shaped eyes were wide open, her face was streaked with tears, and there was blood on her left shoulder. Her beautiful fox fur coat was stained and disheveled with blood, making her look extremely pitiful...
Recalling what happened before he fell off the cliff, Lin Xiao said calmly, "Princess."
Hearing his cold and indifferent voice, Shen Panyan was stunned for a moment. Then, the fear when she fell off the cliff, the pain of Qiu Shuang's betrayal, and the guilt and sadness she felt when she thought Lin Xiao was dead when she first woke up all rushed into her heart.
She was already in such a state, her wounds were still hurting, and Lin Xiao was still so cold and indifferent to her. Shen Panyan felt both wronged and sad.
She knew she was wrong, but she was still sad.
Shen Panyan looked at him through teary eyes, her voice choked with sobs, "I already know I was wrong, why are you still yelling at me..."
Upon hearing this, Lin Xiao paused for a moment, looking at her with a mixture of confusion and shock.
When did he ever yell at her?
"I don't have any."
Hearing his voice, Shen Panyan's tears flowed even more.
"I heard you! You were yelling at me!"
Lin Xiao: "......"
"No, I was just calling for the princess." He emphasized the word "calling".
Shen Panyan didn't want to hear his explanation. She knew she was being unreasonable, but she was genuinely upset.
Qiu Shuang pushed her off the cliff, and Lin Xiao treated her coldly. Perhaps she was born to be disliked.
Feeling wronged and heartbroken surged into my heart.
"Your voice is so cold and indifferent, it's like you're being mean to me..." Shen Panyan turned her head away from him, biting her lip, her voice sore and choked.
Lin Xiao: "?..."
Is that considered being mean to her?
He took a deep breath and gave a slight smile.
"If the princess says so, then it is."
This time, he didn't even argue... Shen Panyan's sadness deepened, "Lin Xiao, do you hate me that much...?"
"I don't have any."
"You have..."
Lin Xiao suddenly felt a headache coming on.
Why is the princess acting so unreasonably? If we keep arguing with her like this, when will it ever end?
He didn't want to argue with her about it anymore. It was getting dark, and if they didn't find a way back soon, they would have to spend the night there.
How do we spend the night in this freezing weather?
"Princess, we should go back now."
Seeing Lin Xiao change the subject, Shen Panyan felt a dull ache in her chest, as if a heavy stone was pressing down on her.
She doesn't want to leave now; her whole body aches, and the wound on her shoulder hurts terribly.
She can't leave.
Shen Panyan bit her lip, "I can't leave..."
"I'll help you up."
After saying that, Lin Xiao reached out to help her up from the snow, but Shen Panyan turned her head away and refused his help.
"It hurts... I don't want to leave..."
"Then I'll carry you on my back." With that, he knelt down in front of her.
Shen Panyan looked at his broad back, hesitated for a moment, and then refused.
Lin Xiao is a man, and his behavior is highly inappropriate.
"I don't want to."
Not wanting to walk by herself, yet unwilling to be carried, Lin Xiao's forehead veins throbbed. What exactly did she want?
"Then what does Your Highness wish to do?"
Shen Panyan lowered her head, biting her lip with her pearly teeth, and tightly gripping the hem of her clothes with both hands.
If you really let her make the decision herself, she doesn't know what to do.
Lin Xiao immediately noticed her helplessness: "Since the princess has no idea, then listen to your subordinate and let's go back quickly."
"Your shoulder wound needs to be treated as soon as possible."
Since men and women are different, the injury on her shoulder can only be treated by others after returning to the royal villa.
Even if Lin Xiao had a lot of frustration in his heart, he would never offend the princess.
Hearing him talk about the injury on his shoulder, Shen Panyan felt as bitter as if she were soaking in bitter herbs.
She was afraid that Lin Xiao would really kill Qiu Shuang, so she used her own body to shield her from the knife. But she didn't expect that she would push herself off the cliff.
Why?
She believed that she had never mistreated Qiu Shuang and had always been very kind to her. Whether Qiu Shuang neglected her or chattered in her ear like a bee, she had never been very angry with her.
Except for that one time.
But why does she treat herself like this?
Did she really hate her that much, wishing her dead?
Tears rolled down her cheeks like a curtain of beads.
"I'm not leaving." She buried her head in her knees. "I'm so useless. Father doesn't like me, Mother doesn't like me, Qiu Shuang betrayed me, and now, even you, Lin Xiao, don't like me. What's the point of me going back?"
She might as well stay here and die.
Anyway, nobody in this world cares about her or likes her.
Thinking of this, Shen Panyan's tears fell even more fiercely.
"You don't need to worry about me, Lin Xiao. Just let me die here."
Lin Xiao: "......."
This time, he really couldn't hold back anymore.
Why is the princess throwing a tantrum again?
He meant that this task was not easy to do.
When you can no longer tolerate something, there is no need to tolerate it anymore.
Lin Xiao stepped forward, scooped her up by the knees, and wrapped one arm around her thin back. Amid Shen Panyan's gasp, he forcibly lifted her from the ground.
"I apologize for the offense."
He said that, but his actions showed no hesitation as he carried her down the mountain.
Shen Panyan struggled in his arms, "What are you doing, Lin Xiao, let me go!"
"Princess, stop fooling around! Your injuries are serious." Lin Xiao tightened his grip on her, trying to stop her from moving around.
Shen Panyan ignored her, saying, "I don't need you to tell me what to do!"
She struggled, shouting, "I don't want to go back. Going back won't do any good. You might as well let me die here!"
Lin Xiao's forehead veins throbbed. "With me here, you won't die."
Shen Panyan covered her ears and shook her head repeatedly, "I won't listen, I won't listen!"
She was a well-behaved child from childhood to adulthood. Whether it was her father, mother, or the maids around her, she believed whatever they said. But what was the result? What kind of ending did she get?
She doesn't want to listen to anyone else now.
Chen Panyan held back her tears, stubbornly saying, "Lin Xiao, are you not listening to me?!"
"I am afraid I cannot comply," Lin Xiao said coldly.
Shen Panyan's tears fell even harder. "I hate you, Lin Xiao, I hate you!!"
Lin Xiao paused for a moment, then continued walking forward, his voice calm, "If the princess wants to hate me, then she can hate me."
"Protecting the princess is my duty."
Hearing him talk about the mission, Shen Panyan became even more heartbroken.
"Let me go! Do you want me to carry you? I can walk by myself!"
Lin Xiao completely ignored her, "Didn't the princess just say it hurt? I'll carry you back; you don't need to walk yourself."
No matter how much she struggled, Lin Xiao couldn't put her down. If he used too much force, it would only aggravate the injury on his shoulder, causing him excruciating pain. After several attempts, Shen Panyan had no choice but to give up struggling.
She angrily punched his chest, "Lin Xiao, you're so annoying!!"
"With your personality, you'll never have any friends."
This amount of force was practically negligible to Lin Xiao. He twitched the corner of his mouth, finding the princess's words amusing. "Princess, I am a secret guard. I only need to obey. I don't need anyone to like me, nor do I need any friends."
A note from the author:
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It made the list on Thursday, but there were no updates for the next two days as I was revising the text.
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