Heart in turmoil
Xu Feifei stood rooted to the spot, then looked up and saw Lin Yuan's resolute gaze before hastily looking away. She dared not meet Lin Yuan's eyes now, knowing only that her feelings were incredibly complex.
She stared down at the fallen leaves on the ground, unsure of what to say. This sudden confession caught her off guard, leaving her feeling confused and disoriented, like a tangled mess that hadn't been tended to in a long time.
Seeing that Feifei had been keeping her head down and not speaking for a long time, Lin Yuan asked, "Feifei, what's your decision?"
Xu Feifei kept her mouth shut and continued walking forward with her head down. Lin Yuan followed behind at a certain distance, without pressing her for more information.
After walking a very long way, we crossed the square from the dock to the roadside. After passing through the bustling and crowded square, the number of people gradually decreased.
When she arrived near the bus stop, Xu Feifei looked up at the people waiting for the bus ahead, and the bus was slowly approaching in the distance.
Xu Feifei said, "Lin Yuan, let's take a taxi back to the dormitory first."
Lin Yuan nodded in agreement.
The two returned to their dormitory, speaking very little along the way. Lin Yuan asked a few questions occasionally, to which she gave brief replies.
Before closing the door, Xu Feifei suppressed her inner turmoil and said, "Lin Yuan, I estimate it will take a few days before I can give you an answer about confessing."
Seeing that she finally responded, Lin Yuan smiled slightly and said, "Okay."
The door closed gently, shutting out everything outside.
Xu Feifei slumped down in front of the door, her calm from the evening crumbling the moment she closed it. Her heart pounded like a drum, the entire room filled with the sound of her heartbeat, "thump thump thump."
Her mind was racing, filled with countless thoughts. How could she have been caught up in one thing after another?
Having just resolved her engagement with the male lead, Zhang Jiayi confessed his feelings to her, and she rejected him not long after. Now it's Lin Yuan's turn. Is she really that charming? Or is it just because she's the second female lead? Since arriving in this world, she hasn't thought about staying long, let alone falling in love.
In this world, Lin Yuan had always been very kind to her. However, she had little experience with same-sex relationships and rarely thought about them deeply.
As Xu Feifei recalled her past interactions with Lin Yuan, she felt increasingly helpless and confused.
She is now like someone trapped in the deepest part of a forest, surrounded by mist, unable to see, touch, or escape.
Her thoughts were in disarray, and her heart was heavy. She had no experience in love; her emotions were a complete blank. At this moment, she desperately needed to confide in someone about her troubles.
Thinking of this, Xu Feifei took out her phone, opened WeChat, and decisively sent a message for help: Help! A shocking, explosive news story!! Something incredibly absurd has happened to me!!!
The other side: What's wrong? What happened?
Xu Feifei: I'm only telling you this, don't tell anyone else!
Opposite side: Okay, I won't say.
Xu Feifei: Lin Yuan confessed to me tonight!!!
There was a long silence on the other end, but Xu Feifei didn't notice at all, still immersed in her own memories.
My fingers flew across the screen, typing furiously into the chat box: "Today was the end of final exams, so Lin Yuan and I had dinner and took a night cruise on the A River. Before dinner, we watched the sunset together; it was absolutely gorgeous! After dinner, Lin Yuan took me to experience tea ceremony..."
The other side: Does this mean you've agreed?
Xu Feifei stopped what she was doing when she saw the reply, stunned. Then, looking at the contact name above her head, her hand trembled, and her phone slipped from her grasp. "Holy crap! It's Lin Yuan!"
She covered her face with her hands, letting out a long, embarrassed, and shy moan.
The phone vibrated again. Xu Feifei peeked at the phone on the ground through her fingers, struggled to grab a handful of hair, and took a deep breath. She picked it up, mustered her courage, and opened the chat page. A long green chat box had appeared on the interface.
It's no use withdrawing it; Lin Yuan has already seen it.
As expected, there is no limit to human embarrassment. Even though Lin Yuan wasn't in front of her right now, she wanted to find a crack to crawl into and escape to Mars.
Lin Yuan: You were happy to be with me tonight, weren't you?
My phone vibrated again.
Lin Yuan: Feifei, can you say goodnight to me before you go to sleep?
Seeing the previous message reminded Xu Feifei of the happy moments on the ship that evening, and a slight smile appeared on her lips. When she saw "Goodnight," she subconsciously glanced at the time in the upper right corner of her phone; it was 10:30 PM.
The time wasn't too early or too late, but for Xu Feifei, it was still quite early. According to her usual routine, she would probably be doing her homework at Lin Yuan's place right now. Suddenly, she felt a little relieved; thankfully, it was already final exams, and she didn't have to go over to do her homework, otherwise, it would be so awkward for the two of them to be face-to-face.
After a moment's thought, Xu Feifei replied: I had a very happy evening. It's getting late. You should go to sleep early. Good evening!
Xu Feifei looked at the message she had sent, and worried that her tone might sound a bit harsh, so she sent another emoji.
Lin Yuan: Goodnight!
Seeing that Lin Yuan was still the same as usual, she felt both relieved and annoyed. She was relieved that their relationship was still the same as before, but annoyed that Lin Yuan was so calm while she was struggling.
Thinking about continuing her search, she kept scrolling through her friends list. Suddenly, she realized that besides Lin Yuan, she didn't know who else in this world she could talk to about private matters.
"Sigh," Xu Feifei sighed helplessly. It seemed the only option left was to turn to the all-knowing netizens.
Not knowing if there were sweet potato apps and alphabet apps in this world, she stood up, lowered her head, and searched for them in the app store as she walked.
I couldn't find any sweet potato apps, but I could find alphabet apps.
Xu Feifei was puzzled. Did this world only integrate half of her memories? Or were the memories she had the most vivid recollections from watching anime on an anime app in real life that appeared in this world?
The downloaded circles disappeared quickly, and the application turned colorful.
I immediately clicked on it and searched for videos related to same-sex relationships. I accidentally came across a sexual orientation test video, and driven by curiosity, I decisively clicked on it.
As Xu Feifei watched the introduction at the beginning of the video, she murmured, "There are so many types of sexual orientation! I thought it was simply either homosexual or heterosexual, but it turns out there are also stoic, bisexual..."
The test consisted of 10 questions, some of which were quite unusual. You were asked to choose the answer based on your gut feeling. After selecting your answer, the results came out: a combination of appearance-oriented, intelligence-oriented, and paper-oriented personalities.
"It feels somewhat accurate, but it also seems too general. Many people in the comments are saying the same thing."
To get accurate information, I clicked on several links and tested multiple videos.
Xu Feifei frowned and stared intently at the screen as she worked on the problem, occasionally glancing up at the comments section to find others like her.
"The King of the Widow!" he exclaimed in shock upon seeing the result on the screen, while the chat was filled with comments like "As expected of me! A loyal follower of the King of the Widow."
Xu Feifei silently pressed her phone, lay down on the sofa, and covered her eyes with one hand to block the light above her head. The highest ratings from tonight's test were "face-oriented," "paper-oriented," "intellectual-oriented," and "widow king."
Looking back on my past, I've always believed that I would never date before the college entrance exam, and it seems that the King of the Widow wasn't wrong.
As for the other three labels, they are probably related to her frequent reading of novels. Every novel she reads features handsome men and beautiful women, which more or less influences her choice of partners.
Furthermore, online discussions about heterosexual and homosexual relationships are not very clear-cut; it mainly depends on one's own feelings, which confirms what Lin Yuan said before: love knows no gender.
"Wait!" Xu Feifei suddenly sat up in surprise, as if she had just realized something. All three labels she had just heard were related to Lin Yuan.
"Lin Yuan is the school beauty, and her grades are ranked first in the grade. She's practically a paper doll. She's perfect in every way, without a single flaw!"
"But is liking someone really that simple?" Xu Feifei sighed. Love and romance were still difficult for her.
Lin Yuan stared at the "Goodnight" message on her phone, lost in thought. After a long while, she swiped her finger to the phone and dialed one of the numbers.
The call was answered very quickly.
Before the other person could speak, Lin Yuan asked, "How is it? Have you been doing what I told you to do these past few days?"
A hoarse voice replied from the other end, "Yes, just like usual."
"OK."
Lin Yuan hung up the phone after speaking. The call immediately went through, and another call came in.
Looking at the number made me feel nauseous. I answered the phone, forcing myself to stay awake. The voice on the other end said, "The old man is coming to the old house tonight, you'd better get over here right now."
"I'm warning you, when you go back to the old house, don't wear your..."
Before the other person could finish speaking, Lin Yuan hung up the phone.
Lin Yuan paced back and forth in the room in frustration, her brows furrowed. After circling the sofa once, she seemed to have made up her mind to grab her phone and walk out of the room.
After opening the door and stepping out, Lin Yuan stood in front of Xu Feifei's door and saw that light was still shining through the crack in the door, indicating that the person inside was still awake.
The elevator doors opened with a "ding," and Lin Yuan stepped inside. Before leaving, she glanced back at the light shining through the crack in the door. Lin Yuan hoped that this light would eventually shine into her heart.
"Buzz~Buzz~Buzz~" The phone started vibrating frantically.
Xu Feifei was awakened by the sound of her phone vibrating. She groggily took out her phone, squinted at the screen, and pressed the green call button in her sleep.
"Hello?" Xu Feifei asked vaguely.
My voice was hoarse and sticky before I got out of bed in the morning. My mind wasn't clear yet, and I was only holding on by my consciousness.
"Feifei, it's Mom." The voice on the other end of the phone said gently.
"Mmm," Xu Feifei replied sleepily.
"Feifei, are you going home today? I checked the date and realized yesterday was your final exam. Are you all on holiday now that your exams are over?"
The word "home" seemed to be the key word that woke Xu Feifei up. "Hmm?" She struggled to open her eyes and stared intently at her phone screen.
Looking at the time on my phone, I was shocked; it was already 1:18 PM.
I was really conflicted last night. I watched a lot of videos, and the more I watched, the more conflicted I became. The more conflicted I became, the more I wanted to watch. I don't know how long I watched, but I just fell asleep while scrolling.
Seeing that she hadn't replied yet, Gao Lan asked again.
Xu Feifei snapped out of her daze and said, "Mom, my classmates and I are going on a trip together. We probably won't be home until later."
Where are you going on vacation? Who are you going with?
"I'm going with Lin Yuan to Scandinavia for a few days. I'll send you videos while we're there."
Gao Lan knew Lin Yuan; she had heard Xu Feifei mention her before and had also seen Lin Yuan's information with the school board. Knowing it was Lin Yuan, she felt much more at ease.
But over the phone, I couldn't help but remind her to be careful while traveling and to remember to come home before her trip.
Xu Feifei agreed to all of them.
After hanging up the phone, she rubbed her eyes. She wondered why Lin Yuan hadn't come to wake her up. She opened WeChat and sent Lin Yuan a message: "Feifei, I have to go back for a bit. We won't be having dinner together today."
The message was sent around 7 a.m. Xu Feifei sighed and struggled to get out of bed. She had slept fitfully the night before and was still groggy when she woke up.
Had Lin Yuan changed her mind and run away while she was asleep? A wave of panic washed over her, and she quickly got up to message Lin Yuan: What's wrong? When are you coming back?
Lin Yuan: It's just a small matter at home, I'll be back tonight.
Lin Yuan: Just woke up? Haven't eaten yet?
Xu Feifei: Just started, not yet.
Lin Yuan: Okay, I've ordered food from Julou Pavilion. I'll call them now to have it delivered to you.
Xu Feifei felt a warmth in her heart upon seeing this, and her lips curved slightly: Okay.
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