Chapter 3

In the third year of their relationship, Roger planned to propose to Youyou.

As a rich girl, Youyou had no job and did nothing all day long. She was either playing or on her way to play.

Roger could not contact her sometimes. Fortunately, he was not the kind of man who had a strong control desire. If he did, Youyou would not fall in love with him. But he always felt inferior in his heart. He knew that he was not worthy of Youyou, so he accommodated her in every way and tried not to let her feel unfree.

With marriage, Youyou's heart would be more restrained. What if she thought it through and started to consider having children?

That day, the timing was right and Youyou was in a good mood, so Roger took the opportunity to say, "Youyou, can you marry me?"

They were having dinner at an open-air restaurant. At this time, the day and night changed, and there was a crimson sunset in the sky. Roger took out the ring he had prepared and looked at Youyou affectionately.

Youyou's reaction was a little strange, as if she was scared. Her eyes were wide open and she had a half-bitten shrimp ball in her mouth.

"Are you crazy?" She stammered.

"No." Roger got down from the chair, knelt on one knee, and handed the shining ring to Youyou, "I love you and want you to be my wife. I will be a very good husband."

Youyou's face turned pale and she stared blankly at the beautifully shaped diamond ring.

Roger looked up at her, full of expectation.

Youyou's eyes were dull. She chewed the remaining half of the shrimp ball in her mouth and swallowed it. After a long while, she said, "I'm sorry, I haven't made up my mind yet."

The light in Luo Jie's eyes dimmed suddenly, like a candle ruthlessly blown out by Youyou's mouth.

This reaction was within his expectations. He stood up silently and sat down on the chair again. In order not to bring burden to Youyou, he pretended to be relaxed and said, "It's okay. I was too aggressive. It's really not that far yet."

"Take your time, Youyou." Finally, he said so.

The failure of the proposal made Luo Jie feel frustrated. But he has always been a person who gets more courageous with more setbacks. Although Youyou didn't agree, she didn't refuse, right? She said that she hadn't made up her mind yet, so sooner or later she would make up her mind.

Roger encouraged himself, and worked harder to win Youyou's heart!

But he didn't expect that Youyou, whom he loved, would give him the heaviest blow in his life.

Youyou has a very good friend named Esther. Youyou said that she is from Hong Kong and is a unique, chic and passionate woman.

Girls like Esther are what Roger dislikes the most. She is obviously a woman, but she dresses herself up as a man.

At first glance, Esther looks like a handsome and tall man. She always dresses fashionably and likes to wear sneakers and jeans. Sometimes she wears half-length riding pants, revealing a large tattoo of a lion or a tiger on her calf. Her hairstyle is completely based on the popular male idols of the moment, half covering her eyes, fluffy and soft, inadvertently revealing a pitiful and melancholy temperament.

Roger had met her several times and wanted to treat her well, but she always looked at him with a look that was three parts indifferent and seven parts disdainful, which made Roger very angry.

Youyou mediated between the two and said to Roger: "Oh, she cares about me and is afraid that I will meet a scumbag. Don't take it to heart, just ignore her."

Roger was worried that Youyou would learn bad things from Esther. After all, Esther smoked and drank, got tattoos, danced, and played cards (probably gambling). She was obviously not a man, but she had all the bad habits that only men would get involved in.

In fact, Esther didn't care whether Roger liked her or not, it was enough that Youyou liked her. Youyou is always so sincere to her friends. Even though Esther is a bad woman from head to toe, she has won all of Youyou's friendship (Youyou seems to have no other friends). They are inseparable, so good that even Roger is jealous, but Youyou said that she and Esther are soulmates, and she is not as good as men, so what can happen between two women.

Roger believed it, so Youyou spends half of the year traveling around the world with Esther, and he never says anything more.

Until one day, he saw Youyou and Esther hiding in the toilet to make out.

Youyou snuggled up to Esther, like a weak little bird waiting for her mother to feed her.

Esther touched Youyou's face, looking intoxicated, and then suddenly lowered her head and kissed Youyou, and it was a kiss on the mouth.

Luo Jie was stunned. Wearing an apron and holding a spatula, he asked in disbelief, "What are you doing?"

Youyou was startled and turned pale. She pushed Esther away and said, "Nothing! Haha," She smiled, but the smile looked so stiff and forced, "Well, Esther recently got a boyfriend and doesn't know how to flirt with men. Let me teach her - right, Esther?"

Esther leaned on the sink, looking as still as a mountain, and looked at Luo Jie coldly, "Why are you here if you don't cook?"

Luo Jie suppressed the strangeness in his heart. He didn't want Youyou to lose face in front of his friends. He stared at Esther and said, "Is it okay for me to go to the toilet?"

Esther snorted coldly and pulled Youyou away.

What the hell, what's so great about Hong Kong people? They can't even speak Mandarin well. What the hell.

After that, Roger always felt that something was wrong.

Although Esther was a woman, she acted like a man. He sometimes saw the shadow of He Songgao in her. Cold, superior, and looking down on everything. But she was different to Youyou. She treated Youyou with her true heart. When Youyou was sad, she was the first to be by her side. This was something that even Roger found difficult to do. After all, Youyou's whereabouts were hard to find. Even if Roger wanted to go, he didn't know where she was.

He recalled the last time he ran into them being intimate in the bathroom. Would normal best friends do that? Not ruled out, but it was a bit strange. Roger felt so sick just imagining himself kissing a man that he wanted to vomit.

Maybe there aren't so many avoidances between girls? Roger deceived himself into thinking that two straight men would never kiss, but straight women might not. Maybe they were just curious.

But Roger still couldn't ignore the affection on Esther's face when she kissed her friend.

He searched for Esther's name on social networking sites, and finally found a woman who looked like Esther on Instagram.

Her homepage was very rich in content. At first glance, it was all colorful psychedelic colors. He looked at it for a while and realized that Esther was probably an artist. Her fans came from all over the world. When Roger saw some people using Chinese characters calling Esther "husband", their expressions were quite ugly. When you click into those accounts, you will find that they are all pretty women, and most of them have one thing in common. They clearly stated in their homepage signatures: sexually oriented women, stinky men get out of here.

Roger had mixed feelings.

At this time, he still had illusions, thinking that Esther was just popular with lesbians and was not gay.

He cherished Youyou more than ever before, and was so passionate that he was a little clingy. But Youyou didn't adapt well and asked if he had taken the wrong medicine recently. Roger denied it of course, and said that he had neglected Youyou because he was busy with work in the past, and now he wanted to make up for the lost time. Youyou was under a lot of pressure, and her eyes began to evade when facing him. She and Esther had less contact recently, at least Roger hadn't heard Youyou mention her for a long time.

In addition, Roger also began to visit his future father-in-law's house frequently, giving him some supplements, cigarettes, alcohol, specialties and so on. Luo Jie's father-in-law was very enthusiastic about him and always asked him when he would marry Youyou. He didn't need to worry about the dowry, as he didn't want much, just a token of appreciation would be enough. These were the original words of his father-in-law. The support of Youyou's family gave Luo Jie confidence, and he planned to propose to Youyou again soon .

Before that day came, Youyou suddenly asked Luo Jie to go to her house, saying that she had something important to discuss with him.

Luo Jie was delighted. Could it be that she couldn't hold back and wanted to mention the marriage before him?

Luo Jie drove to Youyou's house happily. He bought this car with a loan not long ago. Considering the face of Youyou and Youyou's family, he bought a not-so-bad SUV. Youyou has many brothers and sisters, so the car must be spacious in case of emergency.

He rang the doorbell of Youyou's house, and the nanny came to open the door and said that the lady was waiting for him upstairs.

Roger wondered why she didn't come to greet him in person? She used to wait for him at the door.

He went upstairs and saw Youyou sitting in the small living room on the second floor, looking dazed.

Roger noticed that she was in a bad mood, so he walked up to her and asked carefully: "Youyou, what's wrong with you? What happened?"

Youyou was wearing a white nightgown and no underwear, and the color of her skin and clothes almost blended into one. She seemed to have just cried, her eyes were red and swollen, she looked at Roger and said desperately: "Roger, let's break up."

Roger was stunned, and the whole person was struck by lightning: "What did you say? Youyou, are you too tired?" Youyou

shook his head and said firmly: "No, I want to break up with you. I've fallen in love with someone else."

Roger couldn't believe it, and for a moment he even forgot to breathe. He asked Youyou: "Who is it?" His voice was shaking violently because of the discomfort.

Youyou cried, two lines of tears flowed down her pale cheeks: "Esther."

Roger's eyes went dark and he almost fainted on the spot.

"Are you crazy, Youyou? She's a woman, and you're a woman too, how could you, you fall in love with her?"

Youyou bent over and sobbed helplessly: "I'm sorry, I don't want to deceive you anymore."

She began to tell the whole story.

It turned out that when Roger first met her at the dinner party, she was crying because her relationship with her then girlfriend was exposed, and she was locked up and beaten by her parents. After the beating, they felt guilty and sent Youyou abroad to recuperate for a while. Later, seeing that Youyou's mood had stabilized, they took Youyou back and looked for a suitable marriage partner for her. Youyou was unwilling to give in, so she hid in a corner and cried sadly after being forced to attend the dinner party again.

Luo Jie pursued her, and she was conflicted. On the one hand, she was not interested in men, and on the other hand, she was ruthlessly forced by her parents. After weighing the two, she began to try to contact Luo Jie.

"So, you don't like me at all?"

Luo Jie was sad and desperate. Seeing Youyou crying, he also had the urge to cry, but his self-esteem as a man did not allow him to make such a fragile move. He looked at Youyou, and the sadness in his eyes overflowed like water.

Youyou avoided his gaze and said softly, "I like you, a little bit. You are very good, and I really want to be with you. But, but then I met Esther in Hong Kong, and I found out that I have always loved women."

"Then why didn't you tell me?" Roger said excitedly, kneeling down and holding Youyou's shoulders, "If you had told me earlier, I would definitely not pester you! You had to wait until I loved you so much that I couldn't extricate myself before telling you the truth, you, you were kidding me!"

Thinking of how Esther looked at him behind his back, Roger felt so uncomfortable that he wanted to vomit. Thinking about how Youyou's family viewed him, thinking he was a complete fool, thinking that Youyou might have deliberately deceived him and used him as a shield under family pressure, he felt indescribable anger, a rage mixed with shame rushed to his head, his eyes were red, and he glared at Youyou fiercely.

Youyou was frightened by his look, tears gushed out of her eyes, she cried breathlessly, ignoring the angry grip on her shoulder, she got down from the sofa, knelt down in front of Roger with a thud: "I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to lie to you. It's just that my parents said that if I keep getting involved with girls, they would put me in a mental hospital, and I had no other choice. You are the only one who can save me..."

Her strong kneeling frightened Roger too, he hurriedly supported Youyou, still angry in his heart: "You can tell me about this, why did you lie to me, I might not..." might not help you.

"I tell you, can you help me for my whole life?" Youyou was heartbroken, "I might as well lie to you for my whole life and play the role of a perfect wife."

"..." Luo Jie was stunned.

He was most afraid of women crying, especially the woman he loved. Even though he knew that this woman didn't love him and everything was just to use him, he still couldn't be cruel to her. He couldn't say anything to scold her, nor could he bear to hit her.

"Get up." Finally, Luo Jie sighed and helped Youyou sit down on the sofa.

He felt so blocked in his heart, uncomfortable and aggrieved. The infatuation of the past three years was in vain. It turned out that Youyou didn't love him, but thought he was stupid and was willing to give everything for her.

Did she even confess that he would not be angry with her? Roger stared at Youyou in a daze, looking at this woman who now made him completely unable to see through, his heart was filled with deep sorrow.

Youyou raised her eyes and looked at Roger pitifully: "Roger, I know you are a good person, can you please not be angry with me for the sake of our relationship?" Roger

smiled, but he knew that this smile did not work, his mouth was stiff, and his mouth was full of bitterness: "So you break up with me and want to be with E, Esther," he gritted his teeth, "together?" Hearing

Esther's name, Youyou's eyes turned red, and he fell on the sofa and started crying again.

Roger was now annoyed by her crying. He looked at Youyou quietly, with nowhere to vent his frustration. He wanted to scream, jump up, and grab Youyou's shoulders, asking her if she had been lying to him, playing tricks on him, and fooling him from the beginning to the end, and even laughing at him, insulting him, and trampling on his personality behind his back.

Youyou cried enough, raised her head and sobbed, "She, she wants to be with someone else. It's all my fault. I never gave her a clear promise..."

Roger said coldly, "You deserve it."

Youyou was stunned and looked at Luo Jie in disbelief: "You, you still blame me, right? I'm sorry, but I have no other choice..."

"You shouldn't build your happiness on the pain of others."

"But I, I'm in pain too." Youyou took a deep breath, grabbed his chest, looked at Luo Jie with sad eyes, and said intermittently, "I never told you before that I have depression, bipolar disorder, panic disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and I can't sleep almost every night... I have to take medicine every day, otherwise I want to jump off the building at night..."

Luo Jie's chest rose and fell violently. He looked at Youyou and thought to himself, I want to jump off the building now, too. Damn it, is homosexuality justified? ! The whole world is sorry for you, not me. You treat me like this, don't you ever consider my feelings? Now I am a complete idiot. It is hard enough to raise my head for marrying you. I endure strange looks and malicious speculations every day. It is all for you that I raise my head with great effort and stick to the responsibilities that a man should have. As a result, you tell me now that everything was a lie?

Damn, he is the one who should be wronged, the one who should cry, and the one who should jump off the building! Just let him be struck to death by lightning!

Youyou watched as Roger's face turned from white to red, then to green, and finally to gray... She didn't know whether it was out of guilt or something else, but she actually said to Roger: "I owe you, I can pay you back."

Roger sneered and said coldly: "How are you going to pay?"

Youyou pondered for a moment and asked tentatively: "Five million... No, ten million, is it enough?"

Roger felt insulted. The way rich people insult others is always so old-fashioned. He laughed because he was angry. "My love is only worth 10 million?"

Youyou whispered, with a tear in the corner of her eye: "This is the most money I can give you. If you think it's not enough, I can add more, but it will take some time... I'm sorry, I really want to compensate you. After all, a man's youth is also youth..."

Roger's head began to hurt violently, and his eyes were spinning. He saw Youyou's face was distorted and ugly, no longer the Youyou he loved. He knelt on the ground and angrily hit the floor with his fist. With a "bang", his hand bones might have been broken.

Youyou screamed, ran to the stairs and cried and shouted, asking the nanny to come up quickly, and then picked up the phone to call 120.

Roger stood up staggeringly, snatched the phone and threw it against the wall.

Youyou reached out to stop him, but Luo Jie lost control and accidentally pushed her to the ground.

Youyou lay on the ground, screamed in pain, and said in disbelief: "Are you crazy?"

Luo Jie did not look at her. At the last second before his tears fell, he hurriedly escaped from this place that made him sad and desperate.