Chapter 213 Let’s get married, do you agree?
Lin Yulan shook her head, "No...it doesn't matter."
From childhood to adulthood, there are many children who like to play in Lin Yulan's room. Apart from her feelings for Liang Guangming, Lin Yulan has no secrets.
She didn't have the habit of keeping a diary, so she wasn't worried about being seen.
Liang Guangming looked at Lin Yulan who was taking so long to come in and took a few steps forward.
He asked, "Are you feeling unwell again? You look pale."
again……
Lin Yulan didn't like this word, nor did she like the fact that she was frail and sickly in Liang Guangming's eyes.
That's completely different from Qin Shu.
"I'm fine. It's... the kids in the kindergarten who are making a lot of noise today. I'm very tired, so I just need to rest."
Lin Yulan walked into the room slowly and hesitantly.
With the appearance of Liang Guangming, the small room was filled with this man's aura, making Lin Yulan feel like an outsider.
At this moment.
The two of them were on a blind date.
This is well known.
After Lin Yulan walked into the room, she gave the only chair in the room to Liang Guangming.
She sat on the edge of the bed.
The atmosphere was in awkward silence.
"you……"
"I……"
When they spoke again, their voices collided.
Liang Guangming said, "You speak first."
Lin Yulan raised her head, looked at him, and asked, "Have you found Qin Shu?"
When Qin Shu was mentioned, the man in front of her frowned immediately.
Liang Guangming didn't seem very happy and didn't answer the question immediately.
Pause.
He spoke again, "I asked someone to find out, and asked my father to look for her, but there is no clue. I don't know where she is."
Liang Guangming has been a person who rarely expresses his emotions since he was a child.
Liang Guangming is now more reserved and stable than when he was young.
But Lin Yulan heard a hint of resentment in the tone of his words.
He probably feels...very regretful.
I also hate Qin Shu for not leaving her any clues.
Lin Yulan's hands were clasped together tightly, and her fingers were intertwined.
Again and again, she hurt herself.
The pain at this time is the best sedative for Lin Yulan.
In the silence, Liang Guangming asked straight to the point.
"Have you been on blind dates?"
Lin Yulan nodded, "Yes."
Confessing all this in front of Liang Guangming made Lin Yulan feel very ashamed and unable to hold her head up.
Liang Guangming asked again, "Do you want to get married?"
Lin Yulan lowered her head and imitated her mother's words, stating without any emotion, "I am already 24 years old. Girls my age in the compound have already married and had children. I should also get married..."
After this sentence.
There was another awkward silence between the two.
Lin Yulan kept her head down, she didn't know what expression was on Liang Guangming's face.
But after a long period of silence, the man's increasingly low voice was heard again.
He said, "I am also twenty-four years old."
"Yes...we were born in the same year..."
Lin Yulan answered subconsciously, without understanding what Liang Guangming meant.
Then she was rudely interrupted by the man.
Liang Guangming whispered, "I should get married too."
This time, Lin Yulan understood.
She suddenly raised her head and looked at Liang Guangming in a daze.
Liang Guangming swallowed heavily with his Adam's apple.
He met Lin Yulan's gaze with a resolute look.
He said, "We are both 24 years old, we both want to get married, and we grew up together. You know me best, and I know you too. Our parents are also very satisfied with this. I think this is great, let's get married."
Liang Guangming has a sharp jaw, which contrasts with the straight collar of his military uniform.
Very tight.
Liang Guangming was wearing a new military uniform today. He had never been in the water before, so the uniform seemed to be a little small and the collar was so tight that it stifled his breathing.
He swallowed his saliva again and again.
"Let's get married, do you agree?"
Liang Guangming looked at Lin Yulan and asked again.
Lin Yulan could never have imagined that the person she had a crush on when she was young would actually propose to her.
Even though this proposal has many preludes.
It’s my age…it’s the right personality…it’s the pressure from my parents…
But Liang Guangming proposed to her.
That moment.
Lin Yulan couldn't think of Qin Shu at all.
Only the girl's heartbeat.
She agreed.
…
"I shouldn't have agreed! At that time, even if I was a bit sober, I shouldn't have agreed to this marriage."
"But...how could I refuse...I have loved that person for so many years, and he said 'Let's get married', how could I refuse..."
"Arou, at that time, I really couldn't refuse, and I did the thing I regret most in my life."
When Lin Yulan recalled that scene, the heartbeat she once felt was gone, and all that was left was endless regret.
She knew that Liang Guangming got married because of responsibility and age, because the two families were well matched, and because he couldn't find Qin Shu.
Lin Yulan was just the next best thing to Liang Guangming.
But at that moment, Lin Yulan really lost her mind and felt endless regret after marriage.
Lin Yulan's eyes became red again. She clenched her hands tightly together, her nails pinching her flesh, causing waves of pain.
After so many years, her habitual little movements haven't changed at all.
Jiang Rou noticed it and reached out her hand again.
"Sister Yulan, don't hurt yourself."
Lin Yulan's hand was gently held, pulled apart, and wrapped into Jiang Rou's palm.
On the slightly cool fingertips, there was a warm touch coming from Jiang Rou's body.
The early summer sunshine on the island is not as warm as the temperature in Jiang Rou's palm.
Lin Yulan, who was struggling with her out-of-control emotions, now had a place to rest.
She took a slow, deep breath, letting the pain and depressed emotions in her heart dissipate little by little.
Speak slowly.
"After we got married, Guangming was a good husband and he really treated me well. But the better he treated me, the more I felt like a thief. All the happiness I got was stolen from Qin Shu."
Lin Yulan's inner voice is like an onion, peeling off layer by layer, and that is her real cry.
In the eyes of others, they are a perfect match, a model couple...
Every envious look and compliment turned into an endless amount of pressure, weighing heavily on Lin Yulan's heart, making her feel heavy and unable to breathe.
Night followed day and became the ultimate worry.
It was at this time that Jiang Rou finally understood the truth about Lin Yulan's marriage.
She asked softly while holding Lin Yulan's hand tightly.
"Sister Yulan, is this the reason why you don't want children? Are you afraid that your marriage will be unhappy and your children will suffer?"