Chapter 230 I wish it were true
The two had never talked about this topic before, but Huo Yan brought it up. Even though Su Lingyu knew he was trying to comfort her, she curiously asked, "How did you figure it out?"
"I thought that what had happened could not be undone. But my life was saved by my comrades who fought for me. I could not live a life that would disappoint them and make their spirits in heaven feel that it was not worth living."
"Most people are not alone in this world. Even if they die, they still have their parents, wives, and children. Their families must be their concerns, and I have to take good care of them."
"As long as I am alive, I can take care of their families. I don't ask for peace of mind, I just want to be useful. But if I don't pull myself together, one day I won't even be able to take care of them financially, and I will feel even more ashamed of them."
"Sometimes, sadness cannot compare to reality. After all, people still need to eat and wear warm clothes."
“Besides, people always have to look forward.”
"I would rather be proactive and face it than dwell on the past and hurt myself."
“…”
Su Lingyu looked up at Huo Yan.
The tall and steady man had a resolute face. He looked at her with gentle and deep eyes. His voice was low and heavy, and he spoke neither fast nor slow, like a lamp hanging on a lonely boat on a river on a windy and rainy night, warming people's hearts.
She nodded seriously: "I understand."
She always felt that she was responsible for Gu Yanying's disappearance, that she owed him something, and that she had caused Jiang Yufeng, who had finally found her relatives, to be heartbroken. She felt extremely guilty.
But Huo Yan was also right, what had happened could not be undone, and what she needed to do most now was to continue looking for Gu Yanying's whereabouts.
In case you can’t find it…
She would do whatever she could for him. At least she would take good care of Jiang Yufeng's retirement.
…
The flood was over. Although the volunteer team sent by the Chinese Academy of Traditional Chinese Medicine was delayed for one day, they boarded the train back to Beijing the next night.
Except for Jiang Yufeng who stayed to wait for news about Gu Yanying, Wang Yiling stayed with Su Lingyu because she was worried about her, and two suspicious colleagues were still detained, the rest of the colleagues left.
The rescue of Gu Yanying has never stopped.
For three consecutive days, Huo Yan and his men hovered on the river, looking for someone.
While he was looking for someone, Su Lingyu also sat in the assault boat to accompany him, thinking that once the system found out Gu Yanying's whereabouts, she would tell him immediately so as not to waste time.
Her skin was so delicate that the strong river breeze almost wrinkled her face, but she didn't care at all and just stared at the river with her eyes focused.
Even if she had to leave it to the system, she didn't want to give up her efforts. She would feel better if she kept moving and worrying.
But three days later, there was still no news from Gu Yanying.
The system couldn't help but advise: [Host, it's not a good idea to keep searching like this. When you humans do rescue work, you also pay attention to the best rescue time. It's been three days... To be honest, if something really happened, Gu Yanying would have been in trouble long ago.]
Su Lingyu didn't give up and asked: [What if nothing happens to him? ]
The system said: [It’s even better if nothing happened. Didn’t he come back on his own? ]
Su Lingyu: [……]
I wish it were true.
During these three days, many people advised Su Lingyu to give up, thinking that it would be a waste of effort after missing the best time for rescue. However, Su Lingyu gritted his teeth and refused.
In the end, Jiang Yufeng came to persuade them.
You can look for it for one day, or three days, but you can’t keep looking forever. Everything has an end.
On the fourth day, Su Lingyu and his party returned to the capital.
In the eyes of the public, Su Lingyu has done his best, but in Su Lingyu's heart, it is obviously not so easy to let it go.
On the return train, Su Lingyu couldn't sleep at night. Huo Yan held her shoulders and stood with her in front of the window, looking at the dark night outside.
"In three minutes, you can lie down and rest for a while even if you don't want to sleep, okay?"
"Um."
Huo Yan touched Su Lingyu's head and sighed in his heart.
He knew that she had been too well protected and too soft-hearted before, and suddenly someone died to protect her. No matter who that person was, the guilt was like a huge stone, weighing heavily on her heart.
Although she stopped crying except for the first day, and tried hard to stay positive and not cause anyone to worry, the sadness and confusion that occasionally flashed between her eyebrows still made him feel distressed.
When the three minutes were up, Huo Yan forced Su Lingyu to lie down.
He knows that it takes time to get over sadness, and he won't preach to her to get over it. He just wants to be there for her silently.
If she could forget it overnight, then she is not kind-hearted.
However, there are things he can do.
He said: "The Infinite Organization is omnipresent. They are so powerful that they planted spikes in the Chinese Medical Research Institute. They were not exposed after several background checks. They were even able to bribe famous doctors like Zhang Haoran. However, no matter how powerful they are, I will remove them one by one!"
"This time, their actions exposed the people behind it. I will deal with these matters when I return to the capital, and I will definitely give you an explanation."
"Dr. Jiang said he wanted to build a cenotaph for Gu Yanying. When everything is settled, we will go to pay our respects together and tell him the news."
Su Lingyu nodded: "Yes."
…
After returning to the capital, Su Lingyu was in a bad mood, had a poor appetite, and was sleepy during the day.
The Huo family looked at her condition, and although they didn't show it on their faces, they were very worried in their hearts. But they didn't dare to say anything more, for fear of making her feel more guilty.
Really worried, Huo Yan quickly finished the things on hand, and handed over the things that he couldn't handle for the time being to Xie Rongjun, asking him to help. He then planned to take Su Lingyu out to relax.
He did a lot of homework. Not only did he take Su Lingyu out camping once, he also took her to visit her favorite clothing stores and ate at famous restaurants in Beijing.
The itinerary was fully arranged, so Su Lingyu had much less time to think about random things.
Furthermore, she also discovered that her state was not right and would affect the emotions of those around her.
In their eyes, she seemed to have turned into a crystal doll that would break at the slightest mistake, so they treated her with great caution.
Even Jiang Yufeng, who was clearly as sad as she was, actually tried to comfort her...
Su Lingyu felt that she could not be depressed any longer.
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