Chapter 192 It Can’t Be Me
"I hope you can keep your promise." Cui Si glanced at him, then turned around and walked inside, pulling the cloak draped over her shoulders.
Cui Si really didn't believe him, but here, she didn't have anyone she could use. If Yan Xingchuan refused to let her see Jiang Cinian and trapped her here to death, she seemed to be unable to do anything except quarrel with him.
If it is not necessary, I really don't want to stay with him for a moment.
When Yan Xingchuan saw her turn and leave, his palms were empty, as if the world was empty in an instant.
He stood there for a while, and when he came to his senses, he walked out to meet Jiang Cinian.
Jiang Cinian was drinking tea and waiting in the guest garden. When he saw him suddenly arrive, he frowned.
He also didn't want to see Yan Xingchuan again.
Yan Xingchuan sat down on the chair across the desk from him.
Jiang Ci Nian's frown deepened. "What's going on? The King of Beiyan has changed his mind and won't let me see the Sixth Lady anymore?"
His mouth was full of thorns, piercing his heart.
This really owes a lot to Cui Si.
If these things hadn't happened, they might really be the most suitable people to accompany each other for life.
He will be tolerant, gentle, considerate and caring towards her all her life, until they are both old, and she will feel that she has lived a very happy and fulfilling life.
"You're overthinking it." Yan Xingchuan took a breath, "I came to see you because I have something to discuss with you."
"King of Northern Yan, I'm afraid there's nothing more to discuss between you and me, right?" Jiang Chenian frowned. "Could it be that you want to use my identity to scheme for Northern Yan?"
Once his identity is revealed, there will indeed be a lot to plan.
But he was originally a person who was indifferent to fame and fortune, and he really disliked those power struggles and intrigues. If it weren't for Cui Si, he wouldn't even want to have much contact with the Cui family.
There was no way he would agree to let himself jump into the vortex of power struggle and seek benefits for Beiyan.
"You worry too much." Yan Xingchuan just thought it was ridiculous. These two people just didn't believe him and just thought he had ulterior motives.
"Although using you can indeed bring benefits to the overall situation of Beiyan, perhaps the future path will be easier and Beiyan can achieve what it wants at a lower cost."
"As the King of Northern Yan, I should prioritize the overall situation and utilize everything I can."
“Those who achieve great things should do so.”
"But I am still a human being, and I have human emotions and everything that humans care about."
After all, he couldn't be so ruthless and decisive, and would do anything to achieve his goal.
"You saved me before. Although I hate the sight of your blood and want to get rid of you, I'll consider this a life for a life. As long as you don't oppose Beiyan in the future, I won't look for you."
"And Ah Si... She is the person I care about the most. She cares about you. If I use you like this and throw you into this whirlpool, she doesn't know how much she will hate me."
You can't have your cake and eat it too, he has made his choice.
Even if this is a shortcut, he cannot go this way.
Beiyan is important, but his own life is also a very important life, and his own life is also a life.
Now, he just hopes that she can live a happier life and hate him less, and he has no other requests. Could it be that he has to destroy this wish with his own hands for the sake of the world?
Perhaps, he is indeed not suitable to be a monarch.
Jiang Cinian looked at him in surprise, a little surprised, but also felt that everything was reasonable.
Yan Xingchuan is different from other overlords. He is a man who values friendship and loyalty.
Yan Xingchuan was silent for a moment, then continued, "I didn't dare tell her about you. She had always been looking forward to marrying you, hoping to live a stable and worry-free life. Although she didn't admit it, I knew that she had a place for you in her heart."
"You are able to get into her heart and make her willingly marry you. This is indeed your ability."
How hard-hearted she is. Even if he is willing to do everything for her, give her everything, even his life, she is unwilling to look back, and even doesn't want the child...
"If she knew about this, she would be so upset that there would be no possibility for us to be together anymore."
Yan Xingchuan felt very regretful. If he had known this would happen, he would not have stopped it when he discovered it, but would have erased all traces.
It's her wish.
He can always protect them for the rest of their lives.
"I think you shouldn't tell her about this. Xianyang City is no longer safe, so you should go to Beiyan City. The court and the Jiang family can't find you. As long as the Cui family denies you, you can get away with it."
Jiang Cinian was stunned when he heard this. He even suspected that Yan Xingchuan was crazy.
Yan Xingchuan saw the other person's gaze, moved his lips, and explained: "I just don't want her to be sad anymore."
"If you agree, I will arrange for you to go."
Jiang Ci Nian was silent for a long time. He reached out and picked up the teacup, taking a sip of tea. "Thank you for your help, but she and I are not destined to be together after all. I'm afraid I'll let you down."
"Why? Don't you care about her? Don't you want to be with her forever?"
"I care, and I miss her." Jiang Ci Nian lowered his eyes. "No matter how good you say it is, you've actually overlooked a lot. In her heart, I may be important, but the old lady, Cui Jing, Cui Yi, and the others are also important in her heart."
"If I go to Beiyan City with her, perhaps I can live a peaceful life in hiding under your protection, but the price she will have to pay is separation from her family and loved ones, and she won't be able to return home in the future."
This is no different from his master's fake death drug.
"Besides, my identity is ultimately a source of trouble. She is a daughter of the Cui family, a family loyal to Northern Yan and a minister of Northern Yan. Yet, she married me, the grandson of the Great Zhou Emperor. How can this be justified?"
"There's no such thing as a wall that's impenetrable. If this gets out, how will the Cui family cope? Will they be exploited by the imperial court, and be suspected by the civil and military officials of Northern Yan? What good will they end up with?"
"The Cui family has always hoped for a better future for the family. Cui Jing has never slacked off in order to achieve more. He wants to create a bright future for himself and the family."
"If she chooses to be with me just for the sake of it, her family might be ostracized, suspected, and suppressed because of her, and in the end, it might even collapse and her family might be destroyed.
Her elders and brothers lost their future because of her, and all their hard work was in vain.
How would she cope with that? How could she continue to be my husband and wife with peace of mind?
Yan Xingchuan was stunned. He had not thought of this.
Jiang Cinian looked outside the door and saw a few snowflakes blown by the cold wind, floating in through the threshold and falling to the ground.
His dream lasted from March to winter. Now the leaves have fallen and snow has fallen, and it is time for everything to end.
"A daughter of the Cui family can marry anyone, even if he's just a peddler, as long as she's willing, likes, and is happy. But she can't marry someone from the royal family of the Great Zhou Dynasty."
And it can't be me.
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