Chapter 317 I Won’t Marry, and You Won’t Marry Me
"Why are you arguing again?"
Yun Kui, Yun Gang, Yanzhi and Songlu were talking at the gate of the courtyard. When they heard a few quarrels coming from the main bedroom across the courtyard, they became a little anxious for a moment.
Yanzhi and Songlu were even more anxious. Songlu bit her lip and said hesitantly, "How about we go and take a look?"
Yanzhi hesitated for a moment, then finally nodded and decided to go and take a look.
What if the two of them start fighting while arguing, and the master suffers?
"Wait a minute!" Yun Gang hurriedly stopped him. "What do you think? We should just stay out of this. They have different opinions, so it's normal for them to argue a little. Once they decide who wins, won't this matter be over?"
"If we get involved, there will be no outcome. We'll just be stuck there, neither side happy nor unhappy. It will just be endless."
Song Lu disagreed: "What if the master gets angry and beats our wife?"
"No, no!" Yun Gang immediately denied. "Don't worry, Master, how could I dare to do that? Let's wait and see. When they argue, Master usually loses."
After all, the master is someone we can't afford to offend, but we can't leave him.
Yanzhi and Songlu thought about it and decided to just ignore it.
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The two people in the room were quiet for a long time, one lying down and the other sitting.
Perhaps, at this moment, Yan Xingchuan finally understood the truth in those words: some things cannot be undone, broken mirrors cannot be mended, and mountains and seas can be leveled but people's hearts cannot.
"You don't believe me after all, do you?" Yan Xingchuan closed his eyes, but his heart was cold. "Then tell me, what should I do? How can I repay you so that you can trust me again?"
Cui Si lay with her back to him, her fingers tugging at the corner of the quilt. His figure was illuminated by a lamp on the bedside, casting a shadow. She reached out and poked him, but found nothing.
It seemed as if a lot of messy emotions were spreading in her heart, with sweet, sour, bitter, spicy and salty emotions all mixed together.
Just like him.
She could neither abandon it completely nor stay away from it, nor was she willing to swallow the bitterness.
"I know your heart, and I know you're trying your best to continue our relationship. You hope that all the things you've missed, done wrong, lost, and regretted can be made up for and fulfilled in this life."
“Only in this way can your life be complete.”
"It's just that I'm the one who suffered the injustice, who swallowed the bitterness, and I'm the one who can't let go of my half-hearted business... I can't pretend that nothing happened and tell myself that everything is over."
"I can no longer move on, and I can no longer trust you. Maybe what you say now is true, and you can do it in the future, but I will not give you the knife that can hurt me again."
"My whole being, my whole heart, is resisting being your wife. It's not like I haven't imagined it before, but every time I think about it, I still feel uneasy and can't get over it."
"I...I can no longer be your wife. If you hadn't been pestering me, I would have wanted to stay away from you. From now on, the mountains and the seas would have nothing to do with you, and we would have nothing to owe each other, and we would never see each other again."
"If you're willing, let's live like this. I won't marry, and you won't marry me. We can live like this forever."
"Just like you explained at the beginning, when you have pacified the world, you will take me away and live in seclusion in the mountains from then on. There will be no emperor or empress in this world, no King or Queen of Northern Yan. There will only be you and me. As long as you and I are together, the rest is not important."
"Back then, you didn't think status was important. Why are you so obsessed with it now?"
Perhaps there really is karma in this world, and the arrow he once shot eventually hit his future self.
Yan Xingchuan's face turned pale, his lips trembled and he couldn't speak.
Cui Si continued, "People are selfish. At that time, you felt that reputation was unimportant because you were not the one who suffered the injustice and swallowed the bitter fruit. That's why you said lightly that reputation is not important, as long as we are together."
"But now, you're afraid you won't be able to catch me, so you think status is important. Because having a status is the most beneficial to you, you can better catch me and trap me, so that you can feel at ease."
"Go now." Cui Si was truly exhausted. "Marrying a woman who is willing to marry you is a piece of cake for you, considering your status and position. Even if you marry eight or ten, it's just a small matter. As for me, please let me go."
Either accept it and continue to live in obscurity, or let go and live happily ever after.
There is no option of getting married, and there is no fate for them to be husband and wife.
Yan Xingchuan lowered his head and was silent for a long time. Finally, he asked her, "If we don't get married, you won't get everything as my wife."
Cui Si said, "Whether you get it or not is not entirely up to you. If you are willing to give, you can get power, wealth and honor. But if you are not willing to give, even if she is your wife, you will actually get nothing."
"Whether I can get it or not, you should ask your own heart, not me."
Power is a double-edged sword. He possesses too much power and the ability to break the alliance, but she only wants to protect herself and not give him the chance to hurt her.
After saying this, the two fell silent again.
Cui Si had already drunk quite a bit of wine and was feeling a little sleepy. She was also tired after the whole commotion. She waited and waited, but he didn't say a word. She yawned and was about to fall asleep.
It was at this moment that he suddenly took off his coat, lay down beside her, and then reached out to hug her tightly.
Cui Si suddenly became more sober.
"I won't marry you, and you won't marry me, but we're still living together as husband and wife. Is this the only way it can be? Then...what if I marry someone else?"
"If you marry someone else, then you and I will go our separate ways. From now on, we won't have to see each other again. Just think of it as me giving you a chance and you giving it up. You can't blame me. When that time comes, I just hope you still have some conscience and don't make things difficult for me."
At this point, Cui Si reached out and touched his face: "I am not a naive young lady who has expectations of love. It will be very difficult for you to be with me. Perhaps this is the only way for your whole life. You have to think clearly."
Yan Xingchuan grabbed her hand and held it in his palm: "I'm not afraid of hard work."
What he feared most was that she would not want him.
"Since this is what you asked for, I will agree to it."
What else could he do except agree to her?
Either leave her and watch her find someone else, or force her to marry him.
But she couldn't get over it and would never be happy in her life.
This is not what he wants to see.
"Don't worry, I will only marry you. I will only marry you for the rest of my life. You are my only wife. Whether it's the position of my wife, queen or empress, it's all reserved for you."
"There won't be anyone."
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