Chapter 411: Not embarrassed? Wishful thinking!
"A'si, you must not do anything foolish. You will hurt yourself and your child."
Although Yan Xingchuan is indeed hateful, one still has to face reality. Either take him or leave him.
The former married Yan Xingchuan and secured her position as the principal wife, making herself and the child legitimate; the latter simply abandoned him and took the child back to the Cui family, and the child became a member of the Cui family in the future.
They are not getting married but are still together. What's the point? If Yan Xingchuan turns against her one day, she will be the one who suffers.
"Third brother, I understand what you're saying, but you should be clear: even if I marry him, if he turns against us one day and abandons us, we won't be able to do anything about it. He might even try to make me his concubine and free up his position for his beloved."
"He dares!" Cui Jing was immediately angry.
"If that time really comes, even if he doesn't dare, he will dare to do it. What can we do to him? If he doesn't let me go, I won't be able to escape." Cui Si bit her lip, her expression a little cold.
Only she herself understood the anger and embarrassment of not being able to leave even if she wanted to.
Lin Qingning even dared to send people to humiliate her in front of her, asking her to recognize her identity and kowtow. Even the people in the palace talked about it and laughed at her for being abandoned after years of hard work.
Not all the civil and military officials, but the old subordinates of the Zhenbei Marquisate and Shen Sui all praised Yan Xingchuan for his wisdom and believed that Lin Qingning deserved to be the founding queen of the Great Yan Dynasty.
In order to reassure Lin Qingning, Yan Xingchuan promised her that he would never take another queen in this life.
Even if she wanted to help him and get away, he would not let her go. He just thought it was compensation for the future and drowned her in this pool called 'humiliation'.
Doesn't she care about her reputation?
Does she have to endure such humiliation?
"Marriage, as far as he and I are concerned, can only bind me, not him. It's like a knife that can only stab me, not him. I don't want to hand him this knife that can stab me."
"If we don't get married, what's the relationship between him and me? It's just a fleeting relationship. I'm a member of the Cui family, and he's a member of the Yan family. Only the Cui family can control me, and he doesn't have the qualifications."
"As for me and the child, if he has a conscience, it doesn't matter whether we get married or not. He will give him everything he deserves. On the contrary, if he doesn't believe it and we get married, we'll be miserable."
"I told him that when the world is settled, I will marry him if he makes room for my son."
Cui Jing's eyelids twitched wildly: "He agreed?"
"Of course I agreed." Cui Si smiled. "At this point, he shouldn't have refused. As for the future, third brother, between the child and him, I naturally trust my child more. Don't you agree?"
Cui Jing understood that Cui Si wanted to use the "marriage" to hang Yan Xingchuan and fight for everything for the child. When the child came to power in the future, if Yan Xingchuan wanted to turn against her, he would have to ask the child whether he agreed.
She believed that Yan Xingchuan had a conscience at the moment, but she didn't believe that his conscience would always be there. She wanted to block any chance that Yan Xingchuan could have to hurt her.
Cui Jing was silent for a long time.
The cup of tea gradually cooled down, and Yanzhi replaced it with a hot cup for him. He took a sip, and after the warm tea went down his throat, he came back to his senses.
"Have you made up your mind? Can you hold on to it?" Cui Jing asked her.
Although Cui Jing felt that this was okay, she was only thinking about herself and her son, but not Yan Xingchuan, and didn't care about his life or death at all. Cui Jing felt a little sympathetic to Yan Xingchuan, but at the same time, she felt sad for her sister.
What on earth had she gone through that she no longer had any trust in Yan Xingchuan, nor any warmth towards him at all.
Cui Si said calmly, "He feels guilty about me, so he probably won't dare to do it in the short term. But after ten or twenty years, I can't guarantee it. He might get tired of me and even hate it if I torture him like this. But by then, the children will be grown up, so I won't care."
Cui Jing sighed deeply, then nodded: "Since you have decided, and you feel that this way will make you feel more at ease, I, your third brother, can only agree. If there is anything you need from me, please feel free to ask."
"If you feel unhappy with him, then go home. After all, we are not married yet. Even if he is the King of Northern Yan, it is unreasonable for him to forcibly seize the girl from my Cui family."
"Thank you, third brother." Cui Si smiled slightly.
"You and I are brother and sister, there's no need to thank me."
Having said that, the matter was settled. Cui Jing then asked Cui Si, "Do you want to see Yan Xingchuan? If not, I'll tell him to get lost right now."
Cui Si shook her head: "That's not necessary. The baby will be born in just over a month. Let him spend more time with the child."
The child was not born by him, nor was he raised by him. He had not spent much time with the child, so naturally he did not feel any love for the child. Now that he was willing to do so, he would let him experience what it was like to be a father.
"As long as it doesn't involve marriage, everything can be discussed between him and me. There's no need to make things too difficult for him."
"Third brother, I understand." Cui Jing agreed casually, but although he agreed quickly, he was not happy in his heart.
After all, the reason why Cui Si would rather live in such a confused state than get married is because of Yan Xingchuan!
It was Yan Xingchuan who hurt her heart, which led to her being in such an embarrassing situation.
Not embarrassed?
You wish.
He also wanted to see how much guilt and sincerity Yan Xingchuan felt.
"Take good care of yourself and give birth to the child safely. Don't worry about the rest. If Yan Xingchuan is unhappy, take the child back to the Cui family. The Cui family will be your retreat."
Cui Si nodded repeatedly.
In her life, she only suffered losses in marriage, but most of her relatives treated her sincerely. The old lady, Cui Jing, Cui Yi, and the children were the closest relatives who loved her the most.
She needs to take good care of her health, give birth to the child safely, and spend the rest of her life with her loved ones.
As Cui Si thought about this, her eyes became red.
Cui Jing touched her hair, and she lowered her head slightly, as if she had been wronged as a child and wanted her brother to coax her.
At dusk, Cui Jingcai left Cui Si's courtyard and went to meet Yan Xingchuan.
Yan Xingchuan had been waiting for him for a long time. When he saw him coming, he asked, "How is Ah Si?"
Cui Jing sneered: "Why, shouldn't the King of Northern Yan be worried about his own future?"
Yan Xingchuan breathed a sigh of relief and said helplessly, "Cui Jing, you don't have to be so sarcastic. You are Ah Si's brother and you hope she will be well. I also hope she will be well. There is actually no conflict between us, right?"
"How can there be no conflict?" Cui Jing became even angrier. "The conflict is huge. If it weren't for all the shit you did, she could have married well and lived a happy life."
"You ruined her life, and you still have the nerve to tell me that you and I have no conflicts?"
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