Li Han froze.
He waited and hoped for so long, but he never expected that what he got would be such an ending.
He didn't speak, he just looked at her quietly.
This time, Zhang Xin didn't look away, but met his gaze firmly, and then repeated, "Really, don't waste any more time on me."
"Why?"
Li Han finally spoke, his voice hoarse as if it had been sanded.
"Because we are not from the same world."
Zhang Xin looked at him and said, "I'm not like you. If it weren't for the apocalypse, if we met, you would think I'm dirty even if you just looked at me, let alone like me."
"I'm so glad you like me, really."
Zhang Xin looked away from his face, turned to look into the distance, and said in a low voice, "If I were any cleaner, I wouldn't have rejected you. Whether before or after the apocalypse, you are outstanding, while I am nothing. My superpowers are not high in the entire base. Apart from an aging body, all I have left is a shameful past."
“You deserve a better woman, Li Han. Don’t waste any more time on me. Just look elsewhere and you’ll find that most women are more deserving of your affection than I am.”
During her speech, Li Han did not interrupt her, waiting until she finished before asking, "Are you done?"
Zhang Xin did not answer.
"You've finished speaking, now it's my turn."
Li Han looked at her, frowned, and said, "I know you were kept by Yin Xiangdong. I know you sold your body for money for several years. I know many men have breathed on you. I can even guess that you had an abortion for other men. It's even possible that you damaged your body and will never be able to get pregnant again."
With each word Li Han spoke, Zhang Xin's face grew paler.
After he finished speaking in one breath, Zhang Xin's lips turned white.
"But what good will it do to know?"
Li Han's voice was unusually angry: "But I like you. Even knowing all this, I still like you, I even love you! You say most women are better than you, but they are not you! If there were even a sliver of a possibility that I could stop loving you, would I have abandoned my self-respect to pester you like this?!"
Li Han's chest heaved violently. He closed his eyes and sighed deeply: "I don't care about those things, Zhang Xin. I really don't care. From the moment I fell in love with you, from the moment I decided that I couldn't live without you, I was already mentally prepared to meet those men who had been involved with you in the future."
"You underestimate me. My mental fortitude isn't that weak. If I hadn't considered all the possibilities, I wouldn't have been so reckless in pursuing you."
“Zhang Xin, no one thinks you are not good enough for me. On the contrary, I have always been a humble pursuer in front of you. The people around us are all giving me advice. The only person who looks down on you is yourself, and the only person who thinks you are not good enough for me is yourself. I don’t expect you to love me unconditionally after suffering those traumas. So, what I have always said to you is those two words: give it a try.”
After saying this, Li Han took a deep breath, then slowly exhaled, and looked at Zhang Xin again, his eyes firm, and said, "You are not dirty. If you are dirty, then what am I, humbly begging for your love?"
"I'll pretend I didn't hear what you said today. Go to sleep early. Also, I love you."
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