secret love
Xu Xi didn't know how to express the complex emotions in her heart for a moment, and because she wasn't good at expressing herself, she looked a little flustered. Curiosity drove her to ask this question.
"Shuning...did you know that I was studying very hard all day long?"
After Xu Xi said this, she felt a little regretful, because it felt like a questioning of Chen Shuning, and she didn't want to become unhappy because of such a small matter.
However, she couldn't bear the feeling that the answer was about to come out. Xu Xi felt that there was something between them, as if it was only separated by a thin veil, and it was about to surface.
Xu Xi looked at Chen Shuning nervously, somewhat bewildered by the situation. She didn't demand an explanation; she simply wanted to know if Chen Shuning had known her for a long time. If Chen Shuning said no this time, she wouldn't ask again. She just wanted to live her life to the fullest.
“…”
In fact, Chen Shuning could have covered up this by saying that she just blurted it out casually, but she couldn't do it. Xu Xi asked her so bluntly, and she felt guilty.
Chen Shuning pursed her lips, staring at Xu Xi silently. She didn't know what to say. Should she say that it was she who kissed her that summer? Should she say that she had always paid attention to her, even following her around since then, all the way through high school and college? Should she say how she had walked past her countless times and yet been ignored? But how should she say it? Where should she even begin...
The two of them fell into an unusual silence, and Xu Xi thought she would not get an answer. However, Chen Shuning told her.
"I know." Chen Shuning's voice was very soft.
So...? Xu Xi blinked. Was Chen Shuning admitting that he knew her during school?
Xu Xi froze in place, feeling as if waves were crashing down on her heart. "You, know..."
"Um."
Chen Shuning took a deep breath, exhaled gently, and then she said slowly:
"Xu Xi, I like you."
Chen Shuning liked her, she knew that, if he didn't like her, why would he be with him. But something seemed wrong.
Xu Xi's heart was beating wildly, and she stammered, "I, I like you more."
Chen Shuning raised his eyes and moved closer to her. "I mean, I like you, even before you did."
"Like earlier?" Xu Xi only half understood. She was a little confused.
"Yes." Chen Shuning clenched her palms tightly. At this moment, she had nothing to hide because the two of them were confirmed to be together.
"I've known you since we were in school, but you were always buried in your studies and rarely chatted with people around you. So, you didn't know me and didn't recognize me."
Did you know this when you were in school? Xu Xi suddenly understood.
The day she met Chen Shuning at Xiao Mu's barbecue restaurant, she fell in love with her at first sight and wanted to pursue her. Until today, when she was able to date her at home, Chen Shuning actually knew about her. Then Chen Shuning said that he liked her, which means that the reason she was able to pursue him so smoothly over the past few days was that Chen Shuning actually liked her.
Xu Xi swallowed her saliva. No wonder there were so many coincidences when she was chasing someone for the first time. No wonder it was not difficult for her to chase someone.
Xu Xi was a little excited, but also felt an indescribable discomfort in her heart. This discomfort was caused by various factors, which made her not know what words to use to respond to Chen Shuning's words for a while.
After holding it in for a while, she blurted out stupidly, "You have a crush on me?"
Chen Shuning paused and looked at her quietly. "I guess so. But now it's an open relationship."
Xu Xi took a breath, frowned, and suddenly felt a little depressed. "But, you know me, why don't you tell me directly?"
Chen Shuning breathed a sigh of relief and decided to make things clear today.
"Because I didn't know if you liked girls, I backed off at first, only wanting to be friends with you. I started thinking that if we couldn't date in the future, then we could just start as friends. I'd consider our encounter at the barbecue restaurant as our first meeting, a reacquaintance. I'm actually very happy to have crossed paths with you. Because I like you, I cherish every opportunity to be together, and I also cherish the chance to continue to be together next time. But I don't have your courage to express my love for you. So, I'm sorry that you confessed first. It was obviously me who liked you first."
"You," Xu Xi hesitated, feeling like she had lost her voice. She suddenly thought of the bookmark, and then she took the book from the coffee table, opened it, and pointed at the photo on the bookmark and said:
"So you knew this photo was of me?"
Chen Shuning: "That's the photo on your library card. I originally wanted to return it to you, but then I found out you had a new library card, so I kept it for myself."
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