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Xu Xichen lowered his head in silence, not knowing what to say.
She straightened the stack of photos in her hand, then reached out and placed them upside down on the coffee table in front of her.
Xu Xi smiled awkwardly and uncomfortably, feeling as if her heart was being burned by a barbecue grill. She looked at her mother and gave a polite response.
"It's all okay."
When Mother Xu heard that she thought it was okay and that there was hope, she turned her head and asked Xu Xi tentatively.
"real?"
"Well, how about you see which one you're most satisfied with and go meet him tomorrow?"
Huh?! We're meeting?! Is this something that's been decided just between two people?
Xu Xi was shocked.
With such comprehensive arrangements and such eagerness to meet, it seems that my parents have been discussing this at home for quite a long time.
It felt like today's "little conflict" was unavoidable. Her attempts at smoothing things over and giving ambiguous answers were no longer enough to appease her parents who were trying to introduce her to someone.
They wanted her to go on a blind date.
Xu Xi didn't blame her parents for wanting to set her up on a blind date. After all, she had never told them what kind of person she liked, whether she preferred boys or girls. They were just like most parents, worrying about their children.
She thought about it carefully and decided that she couldn't possibly go on a blind date with the people in those photos. They weren't the right gender for her, and going would be pointless. Not only would it waste both parties' time, it might also ruin the relationship between her family and friends. So, no matter what, she couldn't agree to her mother's arrangement.
Before her rebirth, she had never thought about sharing her secret about liking girls, let alone finding love. Firstly, she was afraid of being judged by others, and secondly, she was afraid her parents wouldn't be able to handle it and would do something to hurt her.
At that time, she only thought about working hard to make money, thinking that if she kept the secret in her heart, as long as she had money, she would have enough savings for her retirement when she was old and alone.
Now the facts have proven that even if she has money but cannot live to old age, then she will have nothing. She carefully hid her inner feelings, but in the end she got nothing.
Xu Xi raised her eyes slightly and looked at her parents. Since she was living her life over again, could she be brave for herself for once? Although she didn't know what the result would be if she confessed her true feelings, at least this time, she followed her heart.
Xu Xi held her palms with her fingers and spoke in a low but clear voice.
"Dad, Mom, what if I don't want to get married?"
Father Xu frowned. "It's okay if you don't want to get married. With our family's conditions, it's not bad for you to find a live-in son-in-law."
Mom agreed. "Yes, you're our only daughter. We'd be happier if you didn't want to get married. Just stay home with us."
Xu Xi took a deep breath, her palms sweating. She was nervous because what she was about to say was a secret she had kept hidden for a long time.
Maybe she should have told you a long time ago that she likes girls.
Xu Xi silently calmed down and tried hard to keep her voice from trembling.
"Mom and Dad, you may not understand what I'm about to say. But what I say is true. Actually, I... like girls."
"What?"
"What?"
As soon as Xu Xi finished speaking, her parents expressed confusion in unison.
Mother Xu was stunned for a moment and stood up subconsciously, unable to believe what she heard.
"Xixi, you, you are joking with your mother, right?"
"No kidding."
Xu Xi looked at her mother seriously, feeling her heartbeat rapidly. She had a premonition that a storm was coming.
But once I said it out loud, it didn't seem as difficult as I'd imagined. There were only two possible outcomes: accepting the fact or not.
"You," Mother Xu said, her face full of confusion. She opened and closed her mouth as if trying to speak, almost stuttering. "You can't be making up excuses like this just because you don't want to get married, right?"
"I'm not looking for an excuse. I really like girls."
Although she was already nervous and flustered, Xu Xi tried her best to speak clearly and avoid having to repeat herself. She felt that even saying it once required a lot of courage. She sensed a hint of anger in the incredulous expression on her father's face.
"Do you know what you're talking about?"
Xu Xi lowered her head, she didn't dare to look her father in the eye.
"Of course I know. In fact, the day I realized I liked girls, I was even more surprised and scared than you are, but I... just like girls. This is a fact that I can't change. If you can't accept a daughter like me, just pretend I didn't say this today. But if you want me to go on a blind date and get married with someone of the opposite sex, I can't do it. I'd rather not get married in this life than be with someone of the opposite sex I don't like."
"You're not going to get married? What are you going to do in the future?"
"What will you do when you are old?"
"Even if you don't care about other people's opinions, don't you care about your future life?"
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9:30 pm.
Xu Xi left home in a bad mood.
She had originally planned to stay two more days, but she changed her mind in the end. She couldn't stay any longer. Her parents were a little upset, and if she stayed any longer, and there was another argument, things would only get worse.
Xu Xi returned to her used car but didn't drive away immediately. She gently rubbed her face with her hands. Thinking carefully, her parents seemed only concerned about her being alone and helpless in her old age. As for the other embarrassing issues, she probably couldn't accept the news all at once and hadn't thought about them yet. If she did think about it in a couple of days, she might call her and tell her about it again.
Thinking back to before her rebirth, she hadn't shared this secret with her parents, and ultimately left with a gloomy heart. In the end, her parents would frequently call her home to arrange blind dates and urge her to get married. At that time, she would simply numb her emotions with work to avoid her parents' pressure to get married.
But this time it's different.
After she spoke it out, she felt better. At least, she no longer had to face those blind dates her parents had arranged for her.
Maybe one day in the future, she will find someone of her own.
As for her parents' concerns, she didn't think they were a big deal. "Having support" isn't just about marrying someone of the opposite sex; it can come from family or friends. Support can come from many different people, regardless of their identities.
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