In her past and present life, Shao Qing became a mother for the first time.
In her previous life, she had few relatives, her father and mother were not close to her, and she was all alone. Some friends praised her for her independence. She was used to being independent, but actually didn’t like it. When she was little, she longed for family happiness, but unfortunately she didn’t have such a fate. As she grew up, she gradually gave up the idea.
In this life, I do have Sun and Shao Bo, but unfortunately, there is still a gap between them.
People often say that they long for something because they haven't gotten it before. Shao Qing thought he should be like that. She especially cherished her family, such as Wei Jing, even when she did not have much romantic love for him at the beginning; and the child in her belly.
There was an arc-shaped bulge under her palm. In about ten days, she would be four months pregnant. April will enter the second trimester, her baby will also grow rapidly, and her abdomen will swell at a speed visible to the naked eye.
This is a life, her child, her flesh and blood, the continuation of her life.
The young roots grow vigorously and gradually take root in the land. Because of him, Shao Qing also began to love this land, and she began to watch the sun rise and the moon set from the perspective of a master.
Perhaps if it were another person, they would choose to have an abortion without hesitation. The child can be conceived again in the future, but blindness can never be compensated.
But Shao Qing found that he couldn't.
She will never be able to forget the surprise she felt when she first learned she was pregnant. The overwhelming joy that came out of the blue made her heart tremble and she was so happy that she was at a loss.
She was looking forward to feeling the little one growing up day by day in her body. The wonderful feeling of blood connection made her palpitate and filled her with love and infinite longing.
If he was a boy, she would teach him to read and write, and ask his father to teach him how to ride a horse and shoot an arrow; if it was a girl, she would be stricter, for she was afraid that the little one's father would spoil her.
Kou Yue gave birth to a little son. Shao Qing went to see him. He was a rosy-cheeked baby who could only cry, but he would soon learn to speak and even act naughty.
When her fantasy came true, she wrote a five-page letter to Wei Jing that very day, excitedly telling him about the possible troubles she might have in the future.
Wei Jing thought hard and wrote back with many detailed solutions.
The couple went back and forth in this way and actually had a serious discussion for half a month.
All these little things came together to form a stream, and Shao Qing's heart was filled with emotion. She said in a hoarse voice, "Shall we keep this child?"
After saying this, Shao Qing's heart was completely at ease, and her chaotic thoughts strangely calmed down. In her previous life, she had heard many cases of mothers choosing to save their babies after difficult childbirths. At this moment, she suddenly deeply understood this feeling.
She is not in danger of life, but there is a slight risk of blindness, not much. The more likely possibility is that she will recover completely, or at worst just become nearsighted.
She couldn't give up her child's life.
"After giving birth to the baby and taking medicine, there is a 70% chance of recovery. Even if it is not completely cured, it should be able to recover a little."
"Cunshan's medical skills are very sophisticated."
She groped for his other hand, covered her bulging waist and abdomen, looked up at him, and her eyes were dark, but she tried to open her eyes wide.
"OK?"
Shao Qing tried hard to persuade him.
Then she certainly didn't know how ugly her face looked. It was as pale as paper, her nostrils flaring, and her pair of big almond-shaped eyes filled with water. She tried hard to look at him, but failed to meet his gaze.
Wei Jing felt great pain in his heart.
"But there is still a possibility of blindness."
He gently stroked those beautiful eyes, which were clearly black and white, and bright. He couldn't imagine that the rest of her life would be completely immersed in darkness, and she would no longer be able to see the setting sun and the colorful shadows of the trees. She would be very uncomfortable, right? You will feel confused, right?
Wei Jing just thought about it, and his heart seemed to be twisted by an invisible hand, tightening silently and causing dull pain.
He would do his best to put the best things in the world in front of her, so how could he dare to let her suffer like this?
Wei Jing's Adam's apple rolled a few times, and he said slowly: "We are all young, and we will have children in the future, you..."
"But this isn't him anymore?"
His voice was not loud and was very slow, but Shao Qing knew him very well and knew his determination as soon as she heard it. She panicked and grabbed his other hand and pressed it on her abdomen.
"My dear husband, have you forgotten? You said that if it is a boy, you should teach him to ride horses and shoot arrows, march and fight; if it is a girl, you should teach her to play the piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and let her do whatever she likes?"
Wei Jing once said that his daughter would become the most noble little princess in the world. He wanted to hold her in the palm of his hand, let her do whatever she wanted, and no one could restrain her.
He dreamed that his daughter would take after her and be as beautiful as her mother. At that time, Shao Qing joked, "I often heard that a daughter resembles her father. What if the daughter looks like her father?"
Wei Jing was very handsome, with sharp eyebrows and bright eyes, and he looked very heroic, but his appearance was indeed very masculine. He was stunned when he heard this, then thought about it and felt that it was very possible, and was distressed for a moment. But after much thought, he told her seriously that when he conquered the country and took revenge, his daughter would be the most precious princess and she could choose anyone she wanted as her husband.
This overbearing statement made Shao Qing chuckle, but he hurriedly added that his daughter was a perfect person, and if the prince consort didn't notice it at the moment, it was because this guy was blind, and he would teach him the truth.
Thinking of the past, the joy and anticipation, Shao Qing's voice choked with sobs: "Husband, have you forgotten? Touch him!"
But how could Wei Jing forget?
He was also looking forward to his birth, because upon learning of his existence, he was so excited that he couldn't sleep all night. His heart, which had been burned by hatred, was nourished and full of new vitality.
He was looking forward to him like this.
Wei Jing's breathing suddenly became rapid. He had been trying hard not to think about it and to ignore the child. At this moment, his palm was truly covering the bulge. All the emotions that had been suppressed suddenly surged up, so violently that they seemed to burst through his chest.
He closed his eyes in pain.
He also couldn't bear to leave his child. If he could save the child by cutting off his own arm, he would do it without hesitation. Unfortunately, that was not possible now, because on the other side was his wife, his beloved wife.
Wei Jing's breathing was very heavy, like a wounded beast, he gasped with difficulty, and finally said in a hoarse voice: "There will be more children in the future."
"But what about you? If you can't see anymore, how miserable will you be in the future?"
He was very determined. He sat down, held her face, and kissed her eyes gently: "You don't like staying in the inner house, you like to deal with external affairs. If you can't see it, I'm afraid you can't handle official business."
He loves his children very much, even before they are born.
But on the other side is my wife, so I have no choice but to give up on him.
"You like to travel around rivers and mountains. When we have avenged ourselves and the world is at peace, we can travel around. What should we do if we can't see it?"
Shao Qing never said that she liked traveling and exploring mountains and rivers, but whenever she saw a beautiful scenery, her almond-shaped eyes would always brighten. It turned out that Wei Jing had been paying attention to it and had always kept it in mind.
For her, he resolutely gave up his long-awaited child, even though his heartache was no less unbearable than hers.
Shao Qing burst into tears.
How lucky she was to have such a man.
Shao Qing couldn't help it any longer, and opened her arms to hug him tightly: "Husband, husband."
"Ah Qing."
Wei Jing's eyes also showed tears. He took a deep breath and hugged her back vigorously.
The couple hugged each other tightly, and he coaxed her softly, "Ah Qing, listen to me, okay?"
"You don't have to feel guilty. This is all my decision. Just listen to me."
His voice was hoarse, but he did not forget to take all the responsibility on himself, for fear that she would feel guilty. Shao Qing felt very upset, but she still shook her head firmly: "Not good."
She slightly distanced the two of them: "I don't agree."
There were still tears on her face, and her voice was heavily nasal, but her expression was serious. Just as Shao Qing understood him, Wei Jing also knew his wife well enough.
She is very serious and stubborn, and once she makes a decision, it will be difficult to change it.
Wei Jing suddenly became anxious.
Every time he said he wanted to give up the child, it felt like his heart was being torn out. He could only try his best to endure and ignore it, but he couldn't even convince his wife.
Reluctance, heartache, care, and anxiety.
The emotions in his chest surged to a critical point, and Wei Jing's breathing became more rapid. He was afraid that he could not restrain himself and would touch her, so he stood up and paced back and forth a few steps, then hit the high-legged table beside the couch with a "bang".
"Husband!"
However, the sudden noise startled Shao Qing. She was afraid that he would get up and refuse to listen, so she reached out to pull him. However, she couldn't see and misjudged the width of the couch's edge, so she tripped over the quilt and almost fell off the couch.
"Ah Qing!"
Wei Jing was shocked and rushed forward to hug his wife: "Did you get bumped? Does it hurt? Where does it hurt?"
He asked again and again, blaming himself: "It's my fault, I shouldn't have walked away, it's me..."
"No, I was too impatient."
Shao Qing groped and kissed him: "You are very good, you are not allowed to say bad things about yourself again."
Ever since he was shot with an arrow and was on the verge of death, she could no longer bear to hear those bad words about him and would interrupt them immediately.
Wei Jing felt sour in his heart and hugged her tightly: "I'm wrong, I won't say it again."
"Ah Qing, ..."
"Husband, please listen to me first."
Shao Qing fumbled and covered his mouth: "Can you please listen to me first?"
How could Wei Jing say it was not good?
"Okay, go ahead."
"I don't want to go blind either."
After this episode, the two of them calmed down a lot. Shao Qing put her face against his neck and said softly, "If I can't see anymore in the future, I will be very scared and very uncomfortable."
"But I still want to take a gamble."
Wei Jing seemed to want to speak, and Shao Qing pressed harder on his mouth. She wanted to finish her words in one breath: "Seventy percent of the disease may be healed. Even if it's the remaining thirty percent, it doesn't necessarily mean that he will be completely blind. He may still recover a little."
"Husband, if I had had an abortion right away, I would have regretted it for the rest of my life. No matter how many children I had, they wouldn't be his. I wonder if I had insisted a little bit, would I have gotten both?"
She was a mother, but she strangled her child with her own hands. Shao Qing murmured: "I will think about it over and over again. I will never have peace in my life."
The chances of having the best of both worlds were really high. Shao Qing grabbed his hand, put it inside his clothes, and placed it directly on his bulging belly.
"Husband, if I'm really unlucky, I'll certainly feel bad, but I don't think I'll regret it."
She looked up at him and whispered, "Please, please?"
There is warm skin under the palm, with firm ridges that rise and fall slightly with breathing, full and full of vitality.
How could Wei Jing not know what his wife said?
It's all just because I cherish her more.
But at this moment she didn't cry or make a fuss. She appealed to the emotions and reasoned with the people, and expressed her feelings in detail.
She thought it through clearly. She didn't want to feel guilty and regretful for the rest of her life.
What did Wei Jing ever think about?
The warmth in his palms seemed to burn them. Wei Jing opened his mouth several times, but he couldn't say no.
Shao Qing put her face against his neck pulse, listening to the strong beats one after another. She asked softly, "If I really can't see, then you won't love me anymore and won't take me to travel around the world?"
Wei Jing was immediately furious: "What nonsense are you talking about? How is this possible!"
Shao Qing hugged his neck and kissed him to comfort him: "That's it."
"Then please love me more."
There was a hint of fragility in her expression: "If you love me more, I won't be so scared even if I can't see."
"well!"
Wei Jing's throat choked, and his eyes were filled with warmth: "Okay, I will love you very much, and no matter what the future holds, I will never let you be afraid."
He held her tightly in his arms.
…
Shao Qing insisted, and Wei Jing finally acquiesced.
The next day she told Yan Ming, but he didn't say anything. Yan Ming just glanced at Wei Jing. After a night's rest, the bloodshot in his dark eyes became more intense.
With a sigh, Yan Ming comforted him in a rare way: "Even if she can't recover, she may not be completely blind."
Wei Jing barely managed to pull his lips together.
After calming himself down, he said softly to his wife, "We need to go over there."
Now that the decision has been made, acupuncture begins. After Wei Jing finished talking to his wife, he gently picked her up and placed her on the beauty bed he had sat on yesterday.
After being calcined, soft golden needles were inserted into the acupoints at the corners of Shao Qing's eyes and the top of his face. Then the acupoints were rubbed and pressed, and finally the medicine prepared by Yan Ming overnight was applied.
When the medicine was applied, there was a burning sensation and it stung the eyes, so Shao Qing didn't dare to open his eyelids.
Yan Ming asked her to take a nap and said, "Do it once every three days until the confinement period is over. During this time, you need to relax your mind and avoid excessive joy or sorrow. The rest can be the same as usual."
The couple took careful notes, and after Yan Ming left, Wei Jing carried his wife to bed, tucked in the quilt and said, "Go to sleep."
I'm watching over you.
Shao Qing fumbled for his hand, and he immediately placed his hand in her palm. Shao Qing asked softly, "Aren't you going to rest?"
She was the kind of person who would stop worrying once she made up her mind, and she slept soundly because she was pregnant, but she knew that he must not have slept well.
Wei Jing said, "I'm not sleepy."
Shao Qing thought for a moment and said, "Then you should go to the front. It should be very busy there."
The war, Prince An, and many other important government affairs, how can we keep delaying? She smiled and said, "Go ahead. If I miss you, I'll ask Madam Ping to call you."
Since yesterday, the couple has been inseparable. He personally helps her wash, bathe and dress herself, refusing to let anyone else do anything. He always tells her about every step he takes and every thing that happens. Shao Qing was familiar with the layout of the house, and the scene at that time immediately emerged clearly in his mind.
His actual actions told her how much he cherished her.
The bodies are close together, and the hearts are close together.
The eyes are blinded, and the other senses become more acute.
Every time she thought he loved her enough and was about to pour out all his love to her, she would always find that his love was even deeper.
Shao Qing said softly: "Husband, I want to kiss you."
Wei Jing felt a sudden pain in his chest and leaned forward to press his lips against hers.
It was a gentle kiss, very tender, and both parties could feel how much they cherished each other.
"Go to sleep."
Wei Jing was afraid that she would burst into tears due to her emotions, so Yan Ming said that the medicine would sting her eyes, and he coaxed her softly, "Go to sleep, I'll go to the front."
Shao Qing smiled at him and said "hmm" obediently.
Yan Ming’s acupuncture and medicine contain some sleep-inducing ingredients so that the medicinal properties can be better absorbed. Soon, Shao Qing's breathing became long and deep, and he fell asleep.
Wei Jing watched quietly, his eyes never leaving her face.
It can be seen that she really has no regrets.
He leaned over and kissed her lips, then reached out and gently stroked her abdomen through the quilt.
Well, then leave the child here.
After telling myself this, the heavy weight in my heart suddenly relaxed. But then I felt very uncomfortable again, mixed with hidden worries.
After a long time, he calmed down.
He leaned over and gently embraced his wife.
He will love her very much, so that no matter what the future holds, she will not feel afraid or confused.
…
Wei Jing stayed there for more than half an hour before he quietly stood up, called Nanny Ping and Chunxi over, gave them instructions in a low voice, turned back to tuck in the quilt for his wife, and then went forward.
He really didn't want to leave her, but there were some matters that could not be postponed. He originally wanted to deal with them in the house, but then he thought better of disturbing her sleep and rest.
Wei Jing was not in a good mood and walked into the outer study with a calm expression.
"How is the battle situation at the front? Where is Prince An?"
When mentioning Prince An, a dark color flashed across Wei Jing's black eyes.
Han Xi hurriedly handed over the letter and reported, "Report from the front: Lingcheng and Quyangbei have just been captured."
Quyang County has been completely captured by our side.
This was great news, but Han Xi did not look happy. He paused and said, "It's a pity that Prince An escaped."
The author has something to say: As for my aunt, it will be her turn tomorrow. After all, this woman has been locked up and can't run away, so we have to deal with the battle report first.
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