Chapter 22. Love is a feeling, not loving is a decision
"Becoming a queen or a bride in the end is ideal."
Ruan Tang posted the photo of herself trying on the yarn to her Moments, and added this line of lyrics which she thought was particularly literary.
She picked out the groups of various types of men in the detailed WeChat grouping, which were visible only to them, and clicked on Xu Wei separately.
Before sending, she carefully looked over the friends who could see the message. After looking through it over and over again, she suddenly frowned and simply clicked on visible to all friends and then clicked send.
Ruan Tang was very satisfied with the more than 30 WeChat Moments message reminders that appeared about ten minutes later. She carefully looked through the likes list and suddenly saw Zhang Haoyu. She clicked on his avatar and chose to block him.
Not long after, my mother called and asked, "Why are you suddenly posting pictures of yourself in a wedding dress on your WeChat Moments? Do you have a boyfriend?"
"I was accompanying Xu Wei to pick out a wedding dress, and I wore it just for fun." Her mother's worried tone made her feel very unhappy.
She suddenly remembered that when she was little, every night while she was doing her homework, her mother would squat in the kitchen to clean up the lettuce that was stuffed into the rolls when she set up the stall. As she worked, she would mutter to herself: How come it goes bad so quickly... It can't be used tomorrow... What a pity...
The tone was exactly the same as on the phone.
Ruan Tang suddenly felt like a wilted leaf in a pile of lettuce.
"Delete it quickly. This will make people think you're getting married. Who would come to you to introduce you to someone?" My mother's tone was unusually strong.
Ruan Tang responded with a few words, hung up the phone, and set her to "not allow her to see my circle of friends."
After taking a shower, she slowly opened WeChat to reply to the endless pages of unread messages and interact with her friends.
Two classmates who used to be pretty close to her started congratulating her straight away when asked if she was getting married. Three men praised her for looking even more beautiful recently and said they would find time to go out for dinner. Five men asked her directly if she had slept yet and if she wanted to go out for a drink. A few old clients of the medical beauty hospital asked what brand the wedding dress was and how much it cost.
She looked through her Moments interaction list again, and for some unknown reason, she turned on the store's camera. There was only one table of customers in the store, and Feng Xue was sitting behind the counter reading a book.
"It's boring." She threw her phone aside and sank back into the bed.
The next day when she went to the tavern, she happened to meet Feng Xue and a big brother in work clothes moving a big box into the store.
Ruan Tang saw that the outer packaging said it was a vertical air conditioner and said in surprise: So fast?
Feng Xue pulled two bottles of mineral water from the freezer and handed them to her brother, saying with a smile, "A customer also complained yesterday that the air conditioner wasn't working properly. Yingjun happened to have an unused one, so I bought it at a discount."
"Customers are really God." Ruan Tang muttered.
Feng Xue tilted his ear and asked: What?
Ruan Tang grinned: Wait until the customer personally asks you to add a few more tables, and then Shanshan can come to work.
After she finished speaking, she leisurely went to the bathroom with her bag to touch up her makeup.
Just as she was struggling between the rotten tomato color and the maple leaf red, she suddenly heard Jiang Li's voice coming from outside.
"Uncle Feng, please help me contact Wu Jiahao and tell him that I'm waiting for him here."
"You are in trouble, Uncle Feng, and it's all right, Old Feng."
"Oh, I'm not in the mood to joke with you! Hurry up!"
Then, she heard Jia Yingjun's voice again: Come back with me! Go back to England tomorrow and study hard.
"I don't!"
"Why do you have to waste your best years on someone who is impossible?"
"Isn't it a waste of your youth for you to chase Xu Wei for a bet? She's about to get married! If you can waste your time on a game, why can't I pursue true love? I'm betting my youth on true love. Who's wasting it between us?"
"Eri! Stop talking nonsense! Both of you calm down for a moment."
Ruan Tang opened the door and walked out. Jia Yingjun and Jiang Li seemed to have not expected Ruan Tang to be here. They stared at her in a daze. Feng Xue walked towards her and whispered: "You go out and have breakfast first. I'll talk to them."
She looked at Feng Xue deeply, walked straight to Jiang Li and asked: What did you say just now... a bet?
Jiang Li's eyes were red. She glared at Jia Yingjun and said unhappily: You ask him.
Ruan Tang looked at Jia Yingjun again, only to see him rubbing his brows and explaining in a hoarse voice: I did at first, I thought Xu Wei was too stubborn, so I made a bet with them, but later... Miss Ruan, I'm not in the mood to explain to you now.
In her impression, Jia Yingjun always smiled, and she had never seen him with a gloomy face.
"Okay, I'll ask you when you're in the mood." Ruan Tang smiled and turned to look at Feng Xue. "You two can chat first."
Ruan Tang walked to the alley entrance in a hurry. She opened Xu Wei's chat box, closed it again, and repeated it several times before finally exiting WeChat.
It was rush hour at the moment, and a crowd of people gathered around the breakfast stall at the entrance of the alley. Ruan Tang just stood outside waiting.
Water mist and oil smoke flew together. If you squinted your eyes, it was like being in a fairyland. The steamers were no longer filled with dumplings, but looked like night pearls.
"A tray of buns and a cup of soy milk", "No green onions on the stuffed pancakes"... The sound of orders coming one after another mixed with the prices quoted by the boss from time to time made Ruan Tang's heart rate jump, pulling her back to reality from heaven.
She looked at the dumplings in the steam and suddenly felt that the things between men and women were actually similar to buying breakfast. No matter how plump and smooth the dumplings in the breakfast stall were, they were still just eight yuan a tray of dumplings.
"Girl, what do you want? Girl?" She came to her senses and found that everyone in the circle in front of her had left.
She pursed her lips and said, "I just want a tea egg and a cup of soy milk, no sugar." After thinking for a moment, she said, "I want three trays of buns and three cups of soy milk."
Ruan Tang returned to the store with breakfast and found that Jia Yingjun and Jiang Li had left, leaving only Feng Xue dismantling the old air conditioner.
"I bought too much breakfast, so you have to eat more." Ruan Tang piled the plastic bags on a table, sat aside and started peeling tea eggs.
Feng Xue came back after washing her hands, glanced at the breakfast on the table, looked at Ruan Tang and asked: "Buying so much? Aren't you angry with Yingjun?"
Ruan Tang sighed: I am a little angry, did you know that a long time ago?
"I... should have reminded Xu Wei earlier." Feng Xue looked a little guilty. Ruan Tang found it funny and waved her hands: Fortunately, Xu Wei didn't take it seriously. Let's eat.
Feng Xue brought vinegar and his own chili sauce from the kitchen and mixed them into a dipping sauce for the dumplings. Ruan Tang, who was originally drinking soy milk through a straw, couldn't help swallowing her saliva when she smelled the flavor. Seeing this, Feng Xue broke off a pair of new chopsticks and handed them to her.
"What exactly is love to you men?" Ruan Tang suddenly asked while biting a steamed bun.
He hesitated for a moment and said: Actually, after I turned 30, I rarely heard this word from people around me. If I have to say it, I think love should be a feeling. You are happy when you are with someone and you want to live with each other.
"It seems that it is just like what they say on the Internet, love will disappear. After all, feelings will disappear quickly."
He just shook his head and said: I think love is a feeling, but many times, not loving is a decision. It may not be that you really have no feelings, but it is a choice made after weighing the situation. However, this is just my personal observation.
"Fortunately, I don't believe in any bullshit feelings. I only believe in what I can see and touch." Ruan Tang concluded.
Seeing Feng Xue looking at her, she blinked at him and asked, "What's wrong? Is this your first day meeting me?"
Feng Xue shook her head and said: Yingjun has experienced some emotional setbacks in the past. Over the years, I have watched him become like this step by step, and I could only try my best to persuade him. That's why I advised you not to have hope in him. I am not worried about Xu Wei, so I didn't tell you and Xu Wei about his nonsense bet.
"Are you worried about me?" Ruan Tang took a bite of the steamed bun and teased him intentionally.
"Ah...I think..." Feng Xue hurriedly explained.
Before he could finish his words, three middle-aged women walked in. They looked like they had just finished square dancing and were still wearing the same pink ruffled team uniform. They looked around the store and asked: Are you Feng Xue?
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