Chapter 105

Song Baoying was angry and aggrieved, tears streaming down her face. She really didn't want to see her parents-in-law, so she covered her face and ran upstairs.

She heard her elder sister-in-law say, "Mom, don't make Baoying unhappy. I'd better take it off!"

"Just wear it! She's so stingy that she's crying over a piece of clothing! Lei Lei bought this dress. You're Lei Lei's sister, it's not like you can't wear it! I really misjudged her! When we first met, I saw that she was quiet and well-educated. Although her education level was a little low, she was a good match for our Lei Lei. Look at her now that she's married, there are so many things going on! This isn't marrying a wife, this is marrying an ancestor? She's crying over her clothing! What bad luck!"

"Just keep your mouth shut!" the father-in-law said.

"Am I wrong? You know that! She's a teacher and she doesn't do farm work. How can her clothes be dirty? She washes them after wearing them for one day! Is the water free or is the soap free? And the pots and bowls, you don't know how many times they have to be washed! The bag of alkali noodles I just bought is almost empty..."

Song Baoying felt very aggrieved and for the first time began to doubt whether she had made a mistake in getting married.

She really couldn't stay at her husband's house any longer, so she packed some clothes and went downstairs.

Seeing that she was about to leave, the elder girl hurried forward to hold her back, "Baoying, don't be angry! It's my fault for wearing your clothes. I'll take them off for you in a moment."

Song Baoying really didn't want to talk, so she shook her head, pushed away her elder sister-in-law's arm and left.

If he really wanted to take it off, why would he wait a while? He just didn't want to gag her with his tongue.

Song Baoying arrived home and found her room full of clutter.

Her parents saw that she was a little embarrassed and asked, "Why are you back?"

Song Baoying had just been wronged, and when she got home and saw that her room was occupied again, she lost her temper: "Now that I'm married, am I no longer your daughter? Why don't you leave my room for me?"

Both parents were embarrassed, especially the father, who always said what he meant at home. He was irritated and pointed at her and scolded her: "Song Baoying! You are married now, so you have grown strong, right? Why are you making a fuss at home? You are married and you don't live here anymore, so what's wrong with leaving some things in the house? Can't you just clean it up later?"

Her mother also blamed her, "How come you're so loud and fussy after getting married? Why don't you learn from your mother-in-law?"

My mother has always looked down on her mother-in-law, thinking that she is petty and not presentable.

Song Baoying became even sadder when she heard her mother lumping her in with her mother-in-law.

When Song Baoying said this, she burst into tears.

Xu Wen searched his pockets but felt nothing.

As a modern person, she is accustomed to relying on tissues instead of handkerchiefs and often forgets to bring one.

Turning her head, she saw a piece of paper pinned on Dongsheng's collar. She took it off and handed it to Song Baoying.

Song Baoying took the handkerchief and thanked him.

Xu Wen discovered that Song Baoying must have been well brought up, and the temperament of a lady was engraved in her bones. Even when she was crying, she half-lowered her head and shed tears silently, without making any unnecessary sounds.

Her crying didn't affect the people around her at all. Even though Xu Wen was looking at her, she didn't cry so much that tears and snot appeared.

Song Baoying calmed down and raised her lips with difficulty, "I couldn't convince my parents, so I ran away from home again. It was not spring yet, and it was quite cold. I didn't even wear a coat. Not only was I cold physically, but I was also cold at heart. I thought I would have two homes after getting married.

I never thought that after getting married, I would have no home. My husband’s family treated me as an outsider, and my parents’ family treated me as a guest.”

Song Baoying laughed at herself, "At that time, I felt that Shi Lei was all I had left. Without him, I would have nothing."

Before Shi Lei returned to his workplace, he left her his phone number, telling her he could call her if there was anything urgent.

Song Baoying started to fight.

The phone passed through several hands before it reached Shi Lei.

Song Baoying cried and told him what had happened.

Shi Lei said: "That's it?"

Song Baoying's eyes were still filled with tears, and her lips curled up. "This is the man I've been thinking about all along! I've been wronged so much, and I don't know who to tell except him, but he just said casually, 'That's all?' As if I was making a fuss. I suddenly didn't know what to say. I hung up the phone!"

Xu Wen sighed softly. She guessed that Shi Lei didn’t care, but they were just particularly straight men most of the time.

The phone number they left was for them to contact if they had any difficulties.

When she heard the phone call, she thought it was an urgent matter, but when she answered the phone, she found out it was just a conflict caused by a piece of clothing and Song Baoying felt wronged.

So there comes the question, “Is that all?”

Song Baoying worked hard all day, but when she got home she found that her clothes had been worn and her room had been ransacked.

She must be a person with a strong sense of boundaries. It is particularly rude for her to allow others to enter her room without permission.

As a result, none of her parents-in-law or sister-in-law spoke up for her. When she returned to her parents' home, she found her room was occupied. She complained and was scolded. She felt extremely aggrieved.

Shi Lei, the only spiritual support, said, "That's it!"

If you put yourself in her shoes, you can imagine that Song Baoying must have felt particularly uncomfortable at that time.

Xu Wen thought for a moment and consoled him, "When people are in a negative mood, they tend to magnify the unhappiness and ignore the beauty around them. It's not that Instructor Shi and your aunt don't care about you, they just didn't feel your grievances at the first time."

Song Baoying nodded, "Yeah. After I hung up, Shi Lei called back. I didn't answer. He called a public phone near my home and asked my parents-in-law to answer the phone. He must have been angry with them. My parents-in-law came to my house to look for me, and then my parents realized that I was wronged, and they also looked for me all over the street."

"What happened next?"

"Later, my parents advised me that it is difficult to integrate into someone's family as a daughter-in-law. I am a quiet person and I like to keep my unhappiness to myself. My parents said that I should tell my parents-in-law about the things I care about, and we should work hard to find a balance."

"Did you find it?"

Song Baoying nodded and shook her head. "That incident solved some of the problems temporarily. My eldest sister-in-law returned my clothes to me. My parents-in-law have also changed. Although they still take my things without permission, they are much better than before. At least they will tell me afterwards. They also know to wash the dishes thoroughly after cooking."

"Isn't that good?"

Song Baoying shook her head. "Life is not just about washing pots, dishes and clothes! Once this conflict is resolved, there will be the next one, and the next one. There are so many, so many that you are embarrassed to communicate. It is impossible for people from two completely different worlds to live together in peace."

Probably because I called Shi Lei to complain, my mother-in-law was very dissatisfied with me. She often hid my complaints against Shi Lei and wrote letters to him to complain about me.

Do you know what they are suing me for? For example, when Shi Lei's aunt came to my house, I didn't call her aunt right away. It's not that I didn't call her aunt, but I didn't call her aunt right away, for example, I didn't call her aunt before her aunt opened her mouth. They are saying that I am impolite and disrespectful to his family members."

"What's Shi Lei's attitude?"

"What kind of attitude could he have? He just asked me indirectly or reminded me. Later, I couldn't stand it anymore and wanted to move back to my parents' home, but my parents disagreed, saying that I would be laughed at if I lived in my parents' home after I got married. So I applied for a dormitory at school."

Xu asked: "..."

Is Shi Lei wrong?

Is Song Baoying wrong?

Both are correct.

It's just that she was the only one who had to endure all the mess in her marriage.

Xu Wen sighed, "The sadness of long-distance love. Why didn't you join the army?"

"My parents wouldn't let me, saying it was a stable job and it would be inappropriate to lose it. Besides, my disappointment with Shi Lei started when he told me to join the army.

Shi Lei did not have a summer vacation after graduation, so he went home before reporting to his assigned unit.

I discussed with him the matter of joining the army. As long as he took me with him, I would quit my job.

At that time, Shi Lei said that he would pick me up after he settled down in the new unit. I waited anxiously, but when he arrived, he told me that he had just been assigned to a new unit, and the regulations of the new unit were different from those of the unit he had been in before the military academy entrance exam. In this unit, if you want your family to accompany you, you must be a company-level cadre. At that time, he was only a deputy company commander and did not qualify. "

"I don't know whether what he said was true or false. Anyway, I had no choice but to wait passively." Song Baoying curled her lips, "Later, he not only waited for Shengzheng, but also got me pregnant. After I got pregnant, not only Shi Lei, but even my parents wouldn't let me go to him. After that..."

She paused, "What's the next step?! Shi Lei said he would come home to be with me when I gave birth. But he didn't come back when I gave birth, and he didn't even call me. Yes, I understand that it's not easy for him, and I understand that he may have this or that mission. But I also had a narrow escape, didn't I?! I am also pregnant with Shi Lei's child.

Shi Lei didn't come back, so my parents-in-law insisted that I give birth at home, saying there was no need to go to the hospital. As a result, my child and I almost died. Even when I arrived at the hospital, they wouldn't let me have a cesarean section, saying it would be bad for the baby and I wouldn't be able to become a pilot! At that time, I hated Shi Lei and his family so much."

Fortunately, Song Baoying's parents were not conservative people and signed the consent form for the surgery.

Because Shi Lei is not around, Song Baoying's parents take precedence over her parents-in-law.

After finally giving birth to the child, Song Baoying cried every day.

She is also a person who loves beauty. She gained weight after giving birth, and her belly is so bulging that it looks like she has another baby.

Her parents-in-law favored boys over girls and disliked her for giving birth to a girl and not taking good care of her during the confinement period.

She took care of the child by herself for 14 hours a day, day or night, and on holidays.

Feeding, changing diapers and giving soup to her baby were her whole life for a long time.

She suffered from a lot of postpartum diseases.

Song Baoying tapped her waist with both hands. "Now, every time the weather changes, it feels like there is a blade on my waist, cutting back and forth."

Xu Wen felt so aggrieved after hearing this that he didn't even know how to comfort the woman.

The ice does not freeze overnight.

Song Baoying fell in love with Shi Lei because of his clothes, but she also shed tears because of his clothes.

Seeing Xu Wen's expression, Song Baoying comforted her, "It's okay. Every military wife has experienced such sorrow. Once you get through it, you won't be afraid of anything."

Because life can't be any worse.

One gets pregnant, one gives birth to a baby, and one lives with her parents-in-law as the only outsider in the family.

Day after day, year after year, you become numb.

When Shi Lei hurried home, the baby was already one month old.

At that time, Song Baoying had not given up yet, thinking that as long as the family was together, nothing else mattered, so she once again proposed that Shi Lei take her with him to join the army.

But at that time, Shi Lei's level was still not enough.

By the time Shi Lei's level was high enough, Song Baoying had already lived like a nun.

After Shi Lei reached a high enough level, he excitedly called Song Baoying and asked her to join the army.

But by that time Song Baoying was already accustomed to being a mother rather than a wife.

Her love had just begun, but before it had even reached the stage of passionate love, it had already disappeared in the hardships of life.

Song Baoying no longer thinks about Shi Lei and does not want to join the army.

She works hard and is named an excellent teacher every year.

Only at work do you not have to worry about all this mess.

After Shi Lei's repeated persuasion, she just agreed to bring the children to spend the New Year with him.

As a result, the family didn't have many good meals to eat, and there were always a lot of people at home. Song Baoying felt that she was just a nanny in a different job.

Of course, life in the compound is a little more comfortable as you don’t have to serve the elders.

But before the end of the year, Shi Lei left again.

As his wife, Song Baoying only said, "I have to go on a mission and will be back in about four months."

Where are you going? What are you doing?

Song Baoying knew nothing about it.

"The best decision I made at that time was that fortunately I didn't wait for him there," said Song Baoying.

As soon as Shi Lei left, Song Baoying returned to her hometown.

It was half a year later that I got in touch with Shi Lei again.

"We have been married for almost ten years. In these ten years, he has never fulfilled a single thing he promised me. I have long given up hope in him. Before he came to the island, he had been doing my work, hoping that I would come to the island. I never agreed."

Xu Wen moved his mouth, and the words "Then why are you here now?" came to his lips but he swallowed them back.

Song Baoying saw Xu Wen's confusion and shrugged, "My parents-in-law are making trouble. They want a grandson."

No matter how many times she tried, both soft and hard, Song Baoying just refused to compromise.

She is not a tool for giving birth to children, so why should she give birth just because they say so?

But the parents-in-law saw that no matter how they persuaded her, it was useless, so they started crying and making a fuss and threatening to hang themselves.

It even caused trouble at her workplace.

The principal talked to her and liked the way she handled family relationships.

That means if the noise continues, it will be difficult for the school to handle it.

Song Baoying had no choice but to agree to go to the island during the New Year.

Xu asked: "..."

Song Baoying is not the first sister-in-law to go to the island to have children.

In front is sister-in-law Wang Lingling and several other sisters-in-law.

"But I'm still curious about one thing." Song Baoying smiled, "Shi Lei wrote me a letter, telling me a lot about the island, and you were the one he talked about the most. I always felt that he was lying to me! How can a woman keep giving and be willing?"

Xu asked: "..."

"I'm not that great! It's just that people have different personalities. Maybe I'm suitable for this kind of life? Then... Instructor Shi?"

When Xu Wen looked up and saw Shi Lei standing next to Song Baoying, he was dumbfounded.

When did he come? How much did he hear?

Song Baoying followed Xu Wen's gaze, turned her head, her eyes flashed slightly, and then she regained her previous calm. She just moved to Xu Wen's side, made a place for Shi Lei, and let him sit down.

Shi Lei looked at Song Baoying with complicated eyes, his Adam's apple rolled, and his voice was a little hoarse, "Thank you for your hard work over the years."

Xu Wen thought, this was probably all he had heard.

She moved towards Lu Yuanzheng to give the couple some space.

If it weren't for the special dinner tonight, Xu Wen would have suggested that they go home and have a good talk.

Looking at Shi Lei's eyes, there is pity, heartache and regret. I guess the love between the two is not necessarily dead.

Maybe it's just because there is too little communication and too many misunderstandings.

Song Baoying was not moved, she just raised her eyelids and said coldly: "Change the sentence! You haven't said the first sentence in so many years, I'm tired of hearing it."

When they said goodbye to each other, he said, "I'll be thankful for your hard work in the future!"

During her pregnancy, she only received two letters from him, both of which contained two sentences: "Thank you for your hard work!"

She almost died while giving birth, but when he came home he still said, "Thank you for your hard work."

For so many years, she has taken care of the elderly and children, and suffered all kinds of pain and grievances, but from beginning to end, she always said, "Thank you for your hard work!"

Shi Lei was silent for a while and then spoke again: "I'm sorry!"

He really didn't know that she had suffered so much injustice over the years.

At first, Song Baoying would tell him about the trivial matters at home and the changes in her daughter day by day and month by month.

I don't know when she stopped talking.

His letter was to let people know he was safe and to ask about his family.

Her reply was to let him know she was safe.

Even more formal than the reports he submits every month.

They don't look like a couple who have been married for more than ten years.