Yinhua listened to Old Lady Ye's words in a daze, her heart filled with mixed feelings.
Ye Huan'er looked at Yin Hua:
"Yinhua, when you told us you weren't going to the Shen family, you probably wanted us to persuade you, right? But you wanted to stay, and we had to convince you. Isn't that a bit too cunning?"
Yinhua was startled: "Cousin...how could you say that about me? Cunning?"
Ye Huan'er raised her hand: "Don't rush to argue. Let me ask you, didn't you want us to persuade you back then? Actually, you didn't want to withdraw in the first place, right?"
Yinhua clenched her hands tightly, hesitated for a long time, and finally mustered the courage to say what she had suppressed in her heart for many years:
"I want to go to class... but I'm too ashamed to go. But... I can't let it go... I'm ashamed, yet I want someone to help me... Waaah..."
As she spoke, she broke down in tears.
Ye Huan'er said formally, "If you want someone to help you, you have to step forward and ask them for help first. Don't wait for someone to push it in front of you."
"It's like asking someone for money; you have to ask first! You can't just stand there looking pitiful, saying nothing, looking all wronged. Are you hoping that someone will see how wronged you are and offer to lend you money? Isn't that just being cunning?"
Yinhua stared blankly, tears streaming down her face. Indeed, she had once longed for others to persuade her... That, too, was a kind of cunning!
Ye Huan'er continued, "You're too embarrassed to make a request first, and you expect us to persuade you again and again? If we stop persuading you, you'll be sad and disappointed. Of course, I believe you don't blame us. But aren't you being a little too calculating?"
This little thought is harmless, but it makes people uncomfortable.
Pulling her and pushing her again and again, who could stand it?
Moreover, if you try to persuade them too much, they might become even more fussy and might not stay.
Ye Huan'er continued, "Although we didn't try to stop you from quitting, didn't my mother always support you before that? Did she never give up on you because you were weak?"
"But then that thing happened! It was your brother and your own mother who plotted against my sister!"
“At this critical juncture, you are too ashamed to continue attending classes but do not want to leave. If you had come over openly and honestly and apologized to my mother and sister, saying that you are different from them, would my mother have misunderstood you? Even if you do not say anything and continue to attend classes, my mother will not hold a grudge against you.”
"But you clearly want to stay, yet you won't say so yourself, and you want us to persuade you, to comfort you..."
As she spoke, Ye Huan'er shook her head:
“My sister is also very valuable! She is the apple of our eye! She is the victim! At this critical moment, you still expect us to take care of your feelings?”
"Just because you're weak, helpless, pitiful, and dragged down, does that mean we have to chase after you, plead with you, and feed you everything? Is my sister worthless, or are we all just despicable people?"
This is one of the reasons why they were so indifferent when Yinhua said she wouldn't go to the Shen family.
Hearing these words, Yinhua was stunned on the spot.
Yes, at first she felt ashamed to leave, she didn't want to go, but she couldn't bring herself to say it, and she even hoped that others could persuade her.
How could you forget that at that time, Cousin Jin had just been schemed against and hurt by her own mother and brother?
If you're going to give up, then give up; give up gracefully.
But she was unwilling to accept it, and became stubborn, hoping that her aunt and cousins would persuade her, comfort her, and take care of her feelings...
Why don't they think about how much their aunt and cousin were hurt back then? They also had feelings, so who should take care of them?
They suffered harm from her birth mother and brother; they were clearly the ones who suffered the most...
It's like you've suffered a tiny prick, and you're feeling frustrated, yet you want someone who's been stabbed multiple times to treat your wounds.
Isn't that cunning?
Reversing the Heavenly Gang!
It turns out that I was the most despicable one.
What's infuriating is that even though she clearly wants something, she never takes the initiative to fight for it. Instead, she acts like a pitiful weakling, expecting others to pull or push her along.
What's infuriating is that she only cares about her own feelings; if she feels wronged, others should comfort and take care of her.
What's even worse is that even though they've given up, they're still unwilling to accept it! They can't accept the outcome and wallow in self-pity every day.
Watching Jin Hua grow more confident and successful, rising higher and higher, filled her with a bittersweet feeling...
Even Xiao Yan, who arrived late, went up.
She felt inferior because she was not like them, yet she was unwilling to associate with the ordinary girls in the village.
But weren't all of these things given up by ourselves?
Looking back now... I realize that my temperament is exactly the same as my mother's!
My mother used to be timid and weak, keeping everything bottled up inside.
Constantly yielding, constantly feeling helpless, constantly hoping others will feed them, yet unable to accept the consequences of giving in, harboring resentment...
Everything keeps piling up!
Then slowly, gradually... the things that had been suppressed for so long burst forth, turning into this ugly state we see now.
It turns out that the person I am now is the same person I was in the past, Wei Siya!
If this continues, I will become like Wei Siya now!
Ye Huan'er sighed and looked at her: "If you want something, go for it yourself. No one will push you along forever. Yinhua, I've said everything I need to say. This is all I can do to help you."
Grandma Ye also looked at Yinhua: "Given the current situation, you should think carefully about how to proceed in the future."
"Grandma knows you're feeling confused right now, but I still have to say it. Kang Kang's situation... either you stay at home and find a husband, or we'll find you a good family to marry into. You're not getting any younger, you should start thinking about it."
Yinhua's mind was already in turmoil, and hearing these words only made it worse.
She felt as if one giant net after another was enveloping her, leaving her with nowhere to avoid or hide.
But Grandma is right, it's time to consider it!
I don't want to face it, but I still have to.
What's meant to happen will happen.
Life doesn't give anyone time to prepare.
Yinhua nodded, her voice choked with emotion: "I understand."
"Alright, you can go back now."
Yinhua wiped away her tears and turned to leave.
As I walked out of the hall, I was taken aback to see Jin Hua standing there.
She wore an orange brocade dress, a gold hairpin in her hair, had a fair complexion, and an outstanding aura; she was already a true noblewoman.
They are no longer seen sleeping together since childhood.
Looking at her, Yinhua felt empty inside, a mix of emotions surging within her, which finally coalesced into a forced smile: "Sister."
Jin Hua pursed her lips, wanting to say something, but couldn't utter a single word.
In the end, he could only nod and say, "Yinhua, just say what's on your mind."
"good."
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