Chapter 253 Sherlock's Heart Knot
The Temple of Silver and Tin was quite far from the port, so if Aiwass and the others decided to go see the fun, they would probably need to borrow a griffin to get there. However, it was very close to the Inspectorate.
So Aiwass was not in a hurry.
In his spare time, Aiwass can even take a shower and style his hair.
The room Aiwass was staying in was a guest room, but it had been used by deceased royals—there were many such vacant rooms in the Hall of Silver and Tin. There was even a corner in the room where he could take a bath; all he had to do was pull a screen over it.
After changing into a bathrobe, Aiwass sat in front of the mirror while Lily helped Aiwass with his hair.
Isabel was sitting on the sofa, watching from afar.
Aiwass looked at himself in the mirror and couldn't help but frowning slightly: "Why not cut it?"
It’s not a question of not looking good.
Aiwass actually cares a lot about his image.
It wasn't simply a matter of "good looks" or "ugly looks"—let's be frank, Aiwass's looks were undoubtedly impressive. After all, he inherited his father's exceptional good looks, the commoner pastor who had the ability to make a noble lady from Iris elope. Aiwass's mature and cool demeanor was tempered by his mother's soft, gentle features.
Aiwass's emphasis on his image stems primarily from a sense of purpose, that is, the impression his appearance can make on others.
His temperament is one of warmth, like the sun or a fireplace. Despite the warm colors, it doesn't appear harsh or explosive, but rather static—like a good-tempered teacher. This inherently leans towards neutrality.
Aiwass has also been deliberately taking care of his image before.
In order to avoid being too sharp and aggressive, he kept his hair in a fluffy, slightly curly style, but now that his hair has grown longer, it has straightened itself.
Even now, with their hair down, they looked somewhat feminine. Aiwass tried clasping his fingers together, bowing his head and closing his eyes in a gesture of prayer—but it no longer had the same dazzling effect as before. It was like the blazing sun gradually turning towards the moon.
It's fine for now. But if it grows any longer, reaching his back or even waist... I'm afraid Aiwass will give people a sinister look. An overly gentle temperament can be disjointed and easily arouse others' vigilance.
Hearing this, Lily just calmly helped Aiwass comb his hair.
She casually picked up two strands of hair and braided them with exceptional skill, letting them fall to one side of Aiwass's temple.
"Isn't it pretty, Master?"
Lily asked back, "I know what you're worried about...but I feel like at least everything is fine for now."
"That's fine for now."
Aiwass thought about it and felt okay: "How about changing your hairstyle?"
Isabel also ran over and took a closer look. "I think it looks pretty good. How about this, Aiwass? I want to see your hair longer... just for a change of mood?"
Her warm breath gently fanned Aiwass's temples with her breath, making his hair sway slightly.
"That's it, then."
Aiwass replied helplessly.
It's rare for Her Royal Highness the Princess to take the initiative to ask for what she wants - for someone with an introverted personality like her, this probably requires a lot of courage.
If I refuse, I might destroy the courage she has worked so hard to cultivate.
Anyway, I'm already a minister without a department, so there's basically no room for advancement. I don't need to care too much about what others think of me.
Aiwass explained to himself in his heart.
Now that Isabel finally had the courage to clearly express her own ideas, Aiwass was quite happy. Seriously, he felt the joy of raising a child.
This shows that she has gradually come out of her past depression and gradually returned to a normal person...and this was cultivated by Aiwass.
This promotion ceremony had been quite effective in boosting her confidence—although it was a test, it was also a lesson. Perhaps it was Sherlock who hadn't grown much.
But this is normal, because his own desire for advancement is not strong enough, so naturally he will not touch the real test of the ceremony.
But he was promoted after all, which is a good thing.
——In Aiwas’s opinion, this actually shows that Sherlock also has a mental illness.
Although he had embarked on the Path of Wisdom, he still hesitated deep down. He probably thought, "Even if I fail this time, I can still ascend to higher rank on the Path of Authority," and so he gave up.
The essence of this idea is that he hopes others will deny his path to wisdom. Or, conversely, he hopes that his path will be affirmed and supported by others.
This may be because Aiwass became Minister without Portfolio.
Because Sherlock is a very proud and confident man. But he is still too young after all, and has the anxiety unique to young people.
He had always admired his brother, Mycroft. And now, his best friend, Aiwass, had become a Minister without a rank, on the same level as his brother... Isabelle was almost certain to become the next Queen of Avalon. And then there was Edward, the Inspector General...
All of Sherlock's friends and close people have become real "big shots".
And he himself is still an "Inspection Bureau Consultant".
This would make him feel a little confused.
Aiwass actually understands him quite well.
Because Aiwass once knew such a friend.
It's like an outstanding college student who graduated from a top prestigious university and resolutely chose a career that he likes but has nothing to do with his major and does not have much future - such as being an idol or a host, or being a screenwriter for a game company.
Then, relying on his outstanding talents and full enthusiasm, he became a very outstanding and famous person in this industry.
But one day, you suddenly hear that your former classmates, your roommates, and your good brothers have either become Yangtze River Scholars, or become National People's Congress representatives, or become associate professors, or become chairmen or general managers... At that time, you will always feel confused about the path you have chosen.
This is human nature.
——Am I the one who is wrong? Are the things I gave up the right ones?
Sherlock is at this stage now.
Because of his considerable talent for the path of authority, Dean Meg even offered to accept him as his disciple. If he continued to develop step by step, he would undoubtedly reach the fifth level. At that point, as Meg's disciple, he would become the new Grand Arbitrator and Deputy Director of the Arbitration Hall.
And he actively rejected that future.
Because Shylock really has no interest in the path of authoritarianism.
——If Aiwass understands it from this perspective, then Sherlock’s psychology becomes very clear.
He was proud, his head held high. He didn't want to give up, but he felt lost. So he wanted to give up on himself, surrendering his promotion initiative to pave the way for Aiwass and others—essentially, he was craving true failure.
At this point, a well-placed failure could "wake him up," allowing him to revisit the path of authority he had set aside. In that case, his path of wisdom would likely become a "part-time job" or "personal hobby" that would likely not affect his advancement along the path of authority.
But Aiwass would not allow that.
Because that doesn't count as a "wake-up call."
Rather than looking for a reason to give up, he was searching for motivation to persevere. It was like riding alone in a storm... Even if the rain soaked him, even if he couldn't see the road ahead, he didn't want to stop.
A person who really wants to give up will not be so proud and stubborn. In order to protect themselves, they will find reasons for failure in advance.
This time, Aiwass helped him get promoted, but it didn't solve the problem. Sherlock still had hesitations in his heart.
I hope this trip can help him untie the knot in his heart. Aiwass sighed inwardly.
Her Highness the Princess has begun to grow, but it's unacceptable for you, a senior, to regress...
Aiwass came back to his senses, touched the thin strand of hair that Lily had braided into a small braid on the left side of his ear, and smiled helplessly - you might as well just tie a side ponytail for me.
After bathing, Aiwass changed into his formal dress as the Minister without portfolio for the first time, put on his hat and followed Isabel out.
——This time, Aiwass was not in a wheelchair.
Just like Isabel and Sherlock - he also has to gradually give up those things that make him feel convenient.
I am too dependent on the wheelchair and my appearance, and perhaps I am lacking something.
What am I missing...confidence?
Following slowly behind the jumping and excited Isabel, Aiwass lowered his eyes slightly and fell into deep thought.
He has always considered himself a fully grown and complete person.
But now it seems... is it really like that?
Before this incident, Sherlock also thought that he was perfect.
Or maybe, it's simply not time for me to change and awaken...
Following behind Aiwass, Lily looked at Aiwass and smiled with relief.
(End of this chapter)
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