Chapter 933 I love you, as always
……Why?
Aiwass hesitated and did not answer.
Yulia pondered for a moment, then suddenly smiled brightly. She sat on the ground, patted her thigh, and motioned for Aiwass to lie down. "Brother, you've answered many questions for me... so let me listen to your worries. Maybe I can help answer them, too!"
For a moment, Aiwass was a little dazed.
It wasn't because of Yulia's lap pillow invitation...
It was because he realized that his melancholy and hesitation just now might be meaningless in a sense.
——The theme of this world is "self-separation".
Hengwo had stripped himself of himself ten times, having been cut by the Crown Lord, Supreme Heaven, and Great Master. The power initially cut by the Samsara Celestial Master created Amber, the many snake tails cut by the Ring Celestial Master became the man he is today, and the Fallen Angels were also a part of Lucifer's cutting. Not to mention the Pillar Gods like the Sand Clock who can help others cut...
The reason is that the source river is absolutely pure.
The only way to achieve Pillar Godhood is to purify oneself to a pure state. The safest and most mature way to do this is to separate oneself.
Once we think about the philosophy of self-separation, the myth of "what is me" becomes an unavoidable topic.
The Heavenly Master of Reincarnation, the Heavenly Master of Rings, the "Snake", the Shepherd, Ai Shiping, Aiwass, Aleister... their essence may be the same, but they are absolutely different from each other.
If you cannot find your true self, it will only lead to self-denial and self-struggle.
But at this moment, the words that the Lord of Scales and Feathers had said came to Aiwas' mind:
“—You’re from another world, right… This is your biggest secret.
"—You haven't told anyone this secret. Not Isabel, not Julia. Because in your memory, this world is just a game... and you are not 'Evans Moriarty'.
"—But is that really the case?"
……yes.
Aiwass opened his eyes slightly.
Come to think of it, why have I never told them this secret?
The answer was obvious—because Aiwass was worried that if he said that, their relationship would no longer be pure. They might think that Aiwass wasn't the real Aiwass, and they might even become estranged because of it...
Whether it was Yulia or Isabel, they were both important ties to Aiwass in this world. He couldn't bear the possibility of losing them - even if it was just a possibility.
Therefore, he subconsciously chose to conceal it. He never even considered "whether he should conceal it"...
And now, this question has emerged from the lake of the soul.
The words are obvious—
"...if, I mean if...Yulia."
Aiwass asked softly, "What if... I have memories from another world that allow me to predict the future to a certain extent. That's why I can become the remarkable person I am today... What would you think of me?"
Yulia stared at Aiwass, then suddenly laughed. "No wonder... I understand. You got it from... the day you brought the Shadow Demon back, right? You also got the ability to transform tarot cards into extraordinary items back then, right?"
"...What's the matter?"
Aiwass said calmly, without changing his expression, "It's just a 'what if'."
But at this moment, his heart was beating so fast.
But Yulia just said briskly: "What are you worried about, brother?"
——The moment the word "brother" came out of his mouth, Aiwass felt like he was basking in the warm sun in winter.
Yulia covered her mouth with her hand, squinting her eyes and chuckling softly, "You're not worried... that I'll think you're an outsider who took my brother away, are you? Or that I'll cry and ask you to give him back to me? If you really think so, I'll be sad.
"—My brother actually thought I couldn't recognize the person I love most in the world...Luckily, it was me you asked. If you had asked Sister Isabel instead of me, she might have been so upset that she cried."
This was a playfulness and aggressiveness that Yulia had never shown in front of Aiwass before.
Yulia had always been soft and delicate, needing protection, and always had a lovely smile on her face, like a smiling angel or a cute little snowball.
However, when Yulia said these "uncharacteristic" words, Aiwass did not feel strange or uncomfortable.
Because Aiwass actually knew that Yulia also had a strong sense of self-esteem, and was stubborn and obstinate. She even showed strong aggressiveness in front of strangers... She even wanted to become a celestial being.
But Aiwass does not associate this impression with the Julia he knows.
……etc?
So...
Aiwass was stunned for a moment, then suddenly reacted.
Seeing this, Yulia also smiled gently.
At this moment, she was in another strange posture that Aiwas had never seen before.
She got up from the ground, brushed the dust off her butt, walked over briskly, stood on tiptoe, and reached out to touch Aiwas's head.
She no longer used such aggressive words, her voice becoming gentle again, but her tone was still much more mature than before: "Look, brother. Everyone pretends. People will make themselves better in front of the people they care about. No matter what kind of personality or self they have, it may be pretended... Even important relatives are the same, they will always have secrets.
"Even if I'm from you, I'll always hide some things, some things I don't want you to see...
"But when I truly reveal this side of me, you're not surprised. Just because I'm not always as cute as I am in front of you, do you dislike me and think I'm not Yulia, but a monster that has taken over your sister's body?"
"...Of course not." Aiwass whispered.
"Me too, brother."
Yulia said seriously with a bright smile on her face.
"No matter what you become, no matter what memories you gain... I will never make a mistake. You are my brother, the real 'Evans.' Everything you do is what I imagined the Aiwass to do."
The person Yulia was referring to was "Evans" whom she met in the orphanage, not "Evans Moriarty".
——That was the Aiwass she really knew.
"I also believe that even if you get the memories of the future, you won't do anything bad. You must be trying to save everything around you... Even me, right?"
Yulia sat on the ground and said leisurely, "I've never asked about the mysterious skill that saved me from the fate of the 'Phantom Demon Egg'... but I haven't forgotten it. That's the ability I gained from the memories of that other world, right?
"Since that's the power used to save others—I think it can't be wrong."
She spread her hands, smiling calmly as if Aiwass had comforted her in the past, and asked for a hug openly: "If you are worried, come and hug me."
At that moment, Aiwass seemed to see another self through Yulia.
What he saw was the Aiwass before he "awakened his past life memories".
Aiwass looked at his past self, but did not feel the slightest bit of strangeness or alienation.
——Without a doubt, that is the "true self".
The hesitation in my heart disappeared in an instant.
It doesn't matter whether he is Ai Shiping, Huan Tiansi, or a time traveler... whether he is a real person, a created tool, or even a shadow, or a key...
This is Aiwass.
He is Julia's brother, Isabel's husband, Edward's younger brother, Sherlock's bad friend, Lily's master, Aleister's half... He is the Prince of Avalon and the Pope of the elves.
——No matter what he “used to be”, he is now “Evans” in the eyes of these people.
The real Aiwass has already been born.
In the love of people.
Seeing that Aiwass was still standing there motionless, Yulia simply took a step forward and hugged Aiwass tightly.
It was a temperature as hot as fire, making Aiwas's heartbeat feel like another heartbeat.
"I love you, brother."
Yulia raised her head and whispered in Aiwas's ear, "Same as always."
Update!
Strengthen Yulia tomorrow!
(End of this chapter)
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