Ruan Qing'an stood at the door with her arms crossed, her leaden eyes gloomy as she looked at the scene inside the house. Because she had forcibly taken away Qin Xi's "murder weapon" during the day, the situation inside the house was even more chaotic.
Files were scattered all over the floor, just as all the computers had been shut down before.
Qin Xi was immersed in her own world and didn't even look up at Ruan Qing'an, staring at the pale blue veins on her wrist.
Just as Qin Xi was about to slide down, a hand suddenly reached out and tightly gripped his wrist. Ruan Qing'an pounced on him, dragging Qin Xi directly into the headboard.
Qin Xi leaned against the headboard, while Ruan Qing'an pressed down on him, holding his knife tightly: "Calm down, Qin Xi, or do you want me to tie you up again?"
"release."
Qin Xi struggled violently, shaking off Ruan Qing'an's hand. He didn't need anyone to intrude into his world; he just wanted to feel physical pain, the more the better.
At least it proves he's a human being, not a machine...
Qin Xi was like a caged beast, trapped in darkness, with only endless demands responding to him. He could never see the light of day, and he reminded himself of this pain day after day.
But it's still not right.
Instead of repeatedly reminding ourselves of this painful cycle, why not just break free from it altogether and let go of everything...
The thin utility knife blade was also very sharp, reflecting a cold light under the moonlight. The sharp blade was already close to Qin Xi's neck. He sat there, his eyes empty and lifeless.
"It should have been discovered sooner; it would have been better if he were dead."
"And there's no need to worry about whether I can fall asleep anymore..."
His voice murmured, but just before he could brace himself, a hand gripped the blade.
The sudden smell of blood finally pulled Qin Xi out of his own world. He sat there, his slightly rounded dog-like eyes staring blankly at the woman in front of him.
The pain shot through his hand, but Ruan Qing'an merely frowned. Drops of blood fell onto the sheets. Before Qin Xi could react, Ruan Qing'an had already subdued him, throwing the utility knife to the ground.
"Sister, you..."
"I didn't pack your things properly when I took them from you, it's my fault."
Ruan Qing'an didn't blame anyone, she just casually took the blame upon herself, but the wound on her hand was very deep.
Qin Xi was already very familiar with the taste of blood, but this was the first time he had ever seen blood, and the wounds were not on his own body.
But after only a brief silence, Qin Xi subconsciously got up, wanting to get off the bed to get the utility knife that Ruan Qing'an had thrown away, but Ruan Qing'an held him tightly.
Qin Xi tried to resist, but almost touched Ruan Qing'an's injury several times, making her feel helpless. After struggling for a while, she was pinned down by Ruan Qing'an and lay on the bed.
Ruan Qingan sat on Qin Xi's waist, pressing him down firmly.
All his movements were suppressed, but the anxiety and pain churning in his heart, along with the auditory hallucinations, made Qin Xi feel increasingly uncomfortable. He grabbed Ruan Qing'an's hand: "Let go, sister."
"Please don't stop me, I beg you..."
"Sister, please..."
His softened voice was filled with intense pain and pleading. Qin Xi pressed his face tightly against Ruan Qing'an's hand: "Sister, I will know what I'm doing. Don't worry about me."
"Measures?"
Ruan Qing'an lowered his voice: "If I let you go, you will have successfully committed suicide. Little brother, don't try to play tricks on me."
"Leave me alone, sister. It would be better for me to die than to be like this... Every time I sleep, I'm forcing my body to sleep, and every time I eat, I'm just satisfying my body's needs."
"The only thing that makes me feel like I'm a person and not a machine is the pain. Please, sister... I can't feel my body anymore..."
Qin Xi pleaded in a low voice. His physical strength was already almost exhausted due to his depression, and Ruan Qing'an was being very forceful. He was now enduring suffocating mental torment every moment.
If it weren't for the pain reminding him that his body still existed, Qin Xi felt as if he were about to be assimilated into a computer.
"Smack—"
The next moment, Qin Xi received a heavy slap across the face.
The metallic smell of blood mingled with her cool, refreshing fragrance, similar to the last time. Yet, Qin Xi felt as if her reason had been pulled back from the brink of disaster. The irritation in her heart was momentarily stunned by the slap, and even the auditory hallucinations in her ears briefly ceased.
He had considered all sorts of so-called treatments for Ruan Qing'an, but he never imagined that he would be slapped in the face...
Ruan Qing'an pressed down on Qin Xi, lowering his head: "Is it comfortable now? Is this pain enough, little brother?"
"elder sister……"
Qin Xi was speechless for a moment. When she wasn't having an attack, her sweet voice was slightly hoarse, and her Adam's apple bobbed.
Ruan Qing'an paused, then grabbed Qin Xi by the collar with her bloodied hand. She narrowed her eyes and said, "Qin Xi, listen carefully."
"If you want to prove your body exists, to make you feel your own body, there are many ways besides pain. If I see you cutting yourself with a knife again, I'll chop off your hand."
Her pronunciation was laced with gritted teeth.
Before Qin Xi could react, her excessively soft and warm body pressed against him, and she hugged him. Her slender hands stroked his back, the light touch sending a shiver down his spine.
Her bright red lips were just a finger's width away from her ear. Ruan Qing'an's lead-gray eyes, filled with warm tenderness, drew Qin Xi straight into them like a deep pool.
He was almost drowning in all the senses she brought him.
It was a strange feeling.
It's called, Desire...
Seeing Qin Xi's trembling body gradually calm down, Ruan Qing'an lowered her eyes and said gently, "You can hurt me, but you can't hurt yourself."
"I've remembered, Qin Xi."
As she spoke, she opened her injured palm, the blood already somewhat congealed. Qin Xi looked at her, his eyes swirling with lust.
But Ruan Qing'an continued speaking, her low voice almost like a siren's chant, carrying a seductive quality, whispering in Qin Xi's ear.
"If I absolutely must grasp something..."
"Then grab me, Qin Xi."
The next moment, Ruan Qing'an, who had just been on top of Qin Xi, was almost instantly subdued. She was pressed against the soft pillow, while he held her down firmly like a large dog, gripping her hand tightly, almost digging his fingers into hers.
Before Ruan Qing'an could even react, Qin Xi's slightly sharp canine teeth bit her neck, and the small patch of delicate skin was constantly being rubbed by the canine teeth, which was probably already completely red.
Qin Xi's eyes were no longer a clear indicator of her emotions.
She was like a swan waiting to be slaughtered...
He went crazy for a while, exhausting all his strength, before finally pressing down on Ruan Qing'an, burying his face in the crook of her neck, and falling into a deep sleep.
At this moment, she managed to raise one hand to press her neck, which was covered in bite marks, while her other injured hand was tightly gripped by Qin Xi and could not be let go.
Ruan Qingan couldn't help but sigh: "A mad dog..."
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