If being ridiculed and looked down upon only made Lin Meng angry, then now Lin Meng's mentality has collapsed.
She was kicked out of the Kars team over a year ago, and from then until now, she has tried her best to avoid being associated with the word "professional". Although this often makes her feel sad, she is not as sad as she is now.
She used to be able to tell herself that she didn’t want to play professionally, she didn’t want to, and she didn’t want to. But now it’s like someone is telling her solemnly, “You don’t deserve it.”
She was forced to bow down to reality, and the psychological gap was too great.
She returned home and ran into the bedroom, locked the door without saying a word, and covered her head with a pillow.
Just don't listen, watch or think about it.
She didn't know how long it had been before she heard Lin Sitian knocking on the door.
"Dong Dong Dong"
"Dong Dong Dong"
Still knocking non-stop.
Lin Meng pressed the pillow firmly and pretended not to hear.
Lin Sitian, however, persisted: "Lin Meng! Lin Meng!"
Lin Sitian: "Don't hide in there and keep silent. I know you are in there. I saw you come home!"
Lin Sitian: "I have something to ask you, come out."
Lin Sitian: "Lin Meng, are you deaf?"
Lin Meng was so annoyed that she raised her hand and threw the pillow out. It hit the door with a "puff" sound. "Shut up! Leave me alone!"
Lin Sitian was quiet for two seconds, seemingly still dazed by the scolding. After all, this was the first time Lin Meng had lost her temper in the two years since she moved into her house. Unbelievably, she kicked the door and shouted angrily, "I'm going to tell my mom you're mean to me!"
Lin Meng didn't bother to pay attention to her. She thought with despair that even if the sky fell down, it probably wouldn't cause any emotional waves in her.
When Yu Mo returned to the base from Hengbo Internet Cafe, he did not show a good expression the whole time. When Panda entered the door, he wanted to yell "Captain" and ask for affection, but was scared away by Yu Mo's expression.
Zhong Xiang followed him in, pressing his brows with a guilty look on his face, his wrinkles almost appearing. A group of internet-addicted teenagers over there looked up one after another, and gradually realized that something was wrong with the atmosphere.
"What happened?" The oldest man, who had the most relaxed demeanor, asked on behalf of everyone else: "Didn't you two go to check out the venue? Was it bombed?"
Zhong Xiang stood behind Yu Mo and winked at Lao Mai with a grin. Yu Mo threw the keys on the table and said coldly, "Meeting."
A group of people, including Zhong Xiang, sat in a row on the sofa, looking like a group of elementary school students waiting to be scolded, not daring to breathe. Yu Mo dragged a chair over and sat down, crossing his legs. He glanced at the seat below and asked, "Where's Xiao Xingheng?"
He actually called the Star God by his full name. A-Lu and Lao Mai looked at each other and swallowed their saliva. Only the fat man was kind-hearted and answered without thinking: "The Star God went to the headquarters to get copies of the new team members' certificates and materials--" Panda was halfway through his words when Zhong Xiang pinched him hard.
Yu Mo narrowed his eyes and said calmly, "Am I usually too nice to you?"
Everyone: “…”
In my impression, Yu Mo is indeed a person with a good temper, which is rare in the world. He received a good education since childhood, rarely gets angry with others, and is especially tolerant and considerate to his relatives and friends.
The last time Yu Mo lost his temper... it seemed to be when they lost in the round of 16. A Lu and Panda, two impatient guys, almost fought over the injury data. Yu Mo picked them up one by one and threw them hard on the floor of the lounge.
That was the first time they witnessed Yu Mo's most serious side as the head of the family.
To say how fierce he was, Zhong Xiang always remembered that night when Panda and A Lu cried, he ran to the convenience store in the middle of the night to buy some tissues that the logistics officer had brought with him.
So when Yu Mo asked this, the group of people were stunned for a few seconds, and then they all started shaking their heads like rattles: "No, no, no..."
"Who did you learn this 'kill first, ask for permission later' tactic from?" Yu Mo asked coldly, "Or do you think that a captain like me is too old and unnecessary? You all want to usurp the throne, right?"
It was as quiet as a chicken down there.
Zhong Xiang couldn't stand the atmosphere a bit. He said with difficulty, "Silence, don't scold them. To be frank, it was me who made the decision. If you want to blame someone, blame me."
"Of course I blame you." Yu Mo laughed in anger: "Zhong Xiang, you don't realize the seriousness of the problem at all!"
Zhong Xiang was puzzled: "But our team is short of people?"
"Did I ever tell you this isn't urgent? Is it because the autumn season starts tomorrow or something? Are they holding a knife to your neck? Forcing you to take over like this despite all the obstacles!" Yu Mo roared, "Headquarters is putting pressure on you, right? Are you withdrawing funding or the endorsement?" He slammed the table in anger, "Tell me, tell me the amount, and I'll go talk to them. I'll make up for whatever they withdraw! Our team doesn't need to be threatened by others because of money!"
Zhong Xiang was confused by the scolding. He really couldn't understand why Yu Mo got so angry just because he signed a young trainee selected by the headquarters.
At this time, the sound of the door opening was heard and Xiao Xingheng came back.
A group of people burst into tears and shouted in unison as if they had seen a savior: "Star God!"
If there was anyone that Yu Mo, the team's boss, would still give some face to, it would probably only be "Team Mom" Xiao Xingheng.
Xiao Xingheng took off his baseball cap and looked at the scene in surprise, which looked like a syndicate. "What's going on?"
Zhong Xiang was nearly in tears from being scolded, howling miserably, "Xing Heng, come and say something for me. I showed you the footage of Dragon's skills back then, right? He's definitely not that bad. You have to testify for me. I really only agreed to sign him for the good of our team."
Xiao Xingheng looked at Yu Mo's expression and suddenly realized something.
He placed the personnel materials on the table, tossed the tissue into Zhong Xiang's arms, and then smiled at Yu Mo: "Come on, let's talk alone. I have something to ask you."
Yu Mo held his forehead, temporarily suppressing his anger, and turned to look at Zhong Xiang, who was about to cry. "Go ahead and cry, and reflect on yourself. If you run out of tissues, ask them to buy some for you, and remember to ask me to reimburse you."
Xiao Xingheng was the first teammate Yu Mo recruited after his contract was terminated. He provided considerable assistance to Yu Mo at the beginning of Team E's establishment.
At the time, Xiao Xingheng was already the starting support for the top local team, Winter. His popularity was so high that even the top quartermaster in the European server, Doctor, was jealous, showing his immense popularity. This was already a great platform, but because of his friendship with Yu Mo, he didn't renew his contract after it expired. He resolutely stepped out of his comfort zone and started his conquest with Yu Mo from scratch.
Unfortunately, during the championship match, Xiao Xingheng's back injury flared up. He barely managed to win the championship, but ultimately had to retire.
Xiao Xingheng is of similar age to Yu Mo and is more mature in his thinking. Yu Mo will not teach him a lesson like he does to the other kids. Usually, they will discuss things together when there are problems.
Xiao Xingheng called Yu Mo to the sunroom on the roof, closed the soundproof glass door, and folded his arms, saying, "You shouldn't have lost your temper with Brother Zhong. You don't know how bad headquarters' attitude was before. Brother Zhong said he wanted to ask you about it, but headquarters said he was using excuses to delay, threatened to use funds, and said they would lay him off."
"It seems like headquarters is very clear. If this person were sent to me, I would most likely not agree to let him join the team. So I'd rather let Zhong Xiang come to me and talk to me, and see how we can deal with it in our own nest." Yu Mo snorted, opened the window, and lit a cigarette in a ventilated position: "Bringing money into the team, awesome."
Xiao Xingheng said, "In the absence of suitable personnel, I have seen Dragon's level. Is he worth using? Or—" He said meaningfully, "You had a more suitable candidate at the time."
Yu Mo was struck by what he was thinking. He sighed and said seriously, "Yes."
"Is that MENG?"
"Yeah." Yu Mo closed his eyes: "I just reached an agreement with her today."
Xiao Xingheng thought for a moment and said, "That's a pity, but Silence, you have to admit that you were too emotional throughout this matter."
Yu Mo raised his eyes: "So you doubt my decision?"
Xiao Xingheng shrugged: "Although it's a bit cruel to say so, it's true."
Yu Mo said, "You're wrong. Quite the opposite. I got so angry with Zhong Xiang because I was too cautious." He turned around and pressed his arm against the windowsill, tobacco burning bit by bit. "Xing Heng, do you remember how long it took me to find all of you?"
Xiao Xingheng asked: "Half a year?"
Yu Mo: "More than that, eight months. I started contacting you before I was even discharged from the hospital."
Xiao Xingheng thought about it and realized that it was indeed the case.
"Panda wasn't a very good player when he first arrived, and Ah Lu's temper was so bad that he started a fight like the Japanese invaders." Yu Mo said, "But I still chose them. Why?"
Xiao Xingheng didn't say anything.
Yu Mo answered without thinking, "It's not just because they have potential, but also because they are responsible. Only those who are responsible and know how to reflect on themselves can continuously improve in teamwork. Quality is something I value more than technology."
"That Dragon pleaded with the Alliance for a childhood friend of his who violated the Alliance's rules." Yu Mo said, "Although I can't generalize, Xing Heng, there's a Chinese saying that goes, 'People from the same family don't enter the same house.' There's some truth to that."
Xiao Xingheng pondered for a moment and said calmly, "But the contract has already been signed and is legally binding. You can't do anything rash just because there's no phantom. The team won't allow it, and the league certainly won't allow it."
Yu Mo's expression darkened.
"I know." He whispered, picking up the cigarette and taking a deep puff.
"Sometimes, I feel so powerless." A light blue smoke ring was exhaled, and Yu Mo's face became a little blurry in the back: "Is it only people like Tang Jinhai who have enough control over everything?"
Xiao Xingheng was suddenly stunned.
"You can't think like that!" he whispered. "Didn't Kars die in the end?"
"That's Tang's own stupidity!" Yu Mo said, "But at least all his decisions can be implemented. No one can object, and no one will object."
"But he still couldn't keep you." Xiao Xingheng whispered, "He still couldn't control you, right?"
Yu Mo sneered: "What a huge price I paid."
"But you really can't compare to Tang Jinhai." Xiao Xingheng said: "He never considered anyone his own. They were all just pawns."
"I'm angry because Zhong Xiang doesn't trust me." Yu Mo twisted the cigarette butt into the potting soil. "If they don't sign the contract, I have a way to make them relent. If headquarters wants to lay him off, they have to ask me first. If I don't agree, do you think headquarters dare to touch him?"
"Brother Zhong doesn't want to trouble you with everything. He means well."
Yu Mo sighed and said coldly, "I think headquarters is extremely arrogant now. They even dare to threaten the cash cow. Don't they care about who created the commercial value of the club? Who gave them face?" After a pause, he still felt disappointed: "Why is Zhong Xiang so cowardly? We have been working together for more than a day or two."
"Once the power structure becomes complicated, these things are bound to happen. Brother Zhong is just a poor little manager." Xiao Xingheng laughed suddenly: "Captain, why don't you buy the club and become the boss yourself?"
"That's easy to say, but I do want to." Yu Mo rolled his eyes and shook his head helplessly. "To be honest, my dad has been eyeing the e-sports club industry for a long time. He asked me about investing in it the day before yesterday, but I turned him down. Now that I think about it, I feel a little regretful. If I miss this opportunity, I'll probably never get it again."
"Why refuse?" Xiao Xingheng asked in surprise.
"My dad's a very controlling person—" Yu Mo's face was filled with confusion, and he changed his tone, "First, I look down on him a little. I think he's behind the times and unworthy of investing in emerging industries. He really looked down on this industry in the beginning." Yu Mo laughed, "And then there's…" He lowered his head, glanced at his wrist, and muttered to himself, "I'm still angry."
Lin Meng lay on the bed for a long time before her soul and spirit finally returned to their place.
Just treat being a professional gamer as a dream, she told herself, and life must get back on track.
Being a substitute is not bad. There are no rules and you can scold anyone you want and make a lot of money.
As for the future... let's talk about it later.
She packed up her things and went out, then found a nearby branch of Hengbo Internet Cafe and logged into her game and live streaming account.
Compared to the gloomy reality, the fans in the live broadcast room are still lovely, with dense barrages and singing and dancing.
【Ahhhh, the missing people are back! 】
【Sprinkle flowers! 】
【Welcome Mr. Meng to Orz//Orz//Orz】
[Meng Meng, where have you been? I haven’t seen you for a long time and I miss you so much! ]
[Mengzi, let me feel your hand! Slurp!]
[Boss Meng, hurry up and go to the border jungle to kill all the ducks! ]
…
What's with playing professionally? Can those pigs called Yu Mo be even one ten-thousandth as cute as the fans?
It must not be possible.
Lin Meng looked at the barrage, and her mood calmed down a little, and she distributed some red envelopes.
"I was a bit busy before," she said. "I won't miss it next time. Thank you, 'Meng Meng's Fingertip Butterfly', for the rocket."
As she spoke, she logged into her game account. As soon as she logged in, the friend system in the lower right corner began to pop up new message notifications.
Lin Meng clicked it in confusion.
【POP_Doctor requests to add you as a friend. 】
【SN_Wildwind requests to add you as a friend.】
Lin Meng: “…”
These two???
Lin Meng was completely confused, but the barrage of comments had already exploded.
【What the hell did I see! 】
[Both teams have extended olive branches to me?!]
[Is Womeng finally going to break out of the circle? ! Is Womeng going to become a professional? ]
【Ahhhhh lemon powder is out of the head Liao 1551】
[Oh shit, Ye Feng is my idol! ]
[Doctor Mommy loves you, woooooo, woooo. Mommy also wants to add you as a friend! ]
What does this mean?
[Do these people actually know each other?! ]
WTF, what's this wonderful smell? Shura Field Warning?
[Shura Field! Shura Field! Fight! Fight!]
Lin Meng's hands trembled and he clicked "agree" twice.
Then.
【POP_Doctor invites you to join a team】
【SN_Wildwind invites you to form a team】
Lin Meng: “…”
She had no idea what these two guys were up to, so she simply rejected them both. However, her friend list started to frequently pop up with private chat messages.
【POP_Doctore on baby.】
[POP_Doctor: I will carry you! I will carry you! 】
[SN_Wildwind: Little Lemon, get on board.]
【SN_Wildwind: Take you flying.】
So what on earth are these two guys up to?
The rhythm was so fast that Lin Meng swallowed and stopped the live broadcast to be on the safe side. He picked up his phone and dragged the two bastards into the group chat.
Lin Meng: [What the hell are you two doing? Don’t you know I’m live streaming?]
SN_Wildwind: [Hey, is it live streaming? We didn't know. Sorry to bother you.]
POP_Doctor: [Let's duo queue! Oppa will give you the healing power of love! ]
SN_Wildwind: [Are you blind? They said it was live.]
POP_Doctor: [So what? This is a great opportunity for LEMON's fans to see just how big my breasts are, even though I'm the best in Europe.]
Lin Meng: […Your national server account is only rank 6, we can’t play in a duo queue.]
SN_Wildwind: [Oh no, Jin Yunhui, you should leave the group.]
POP_Doctor: [? ? ? 】
POP_Doctor: [LEMON, aren't you a substitute player? Come and help me with the next section.]
Lin Meng: [? ]
Lin Meng: [No, get out of here, fight on your own.]
POP_Doctor: [LEMON, what's wrong with you?]
POP_Doctor: [Why do you always treat me like this?!]
SN_Wildwind: [Okay, you've already lost, remember to buy me the new skin :)]
POP_Doctor: [Wild wind, damn you!]
Lin Meng: [???]
Lin Meng: [Are you two carrying out some shameful PY transaction behind my back?]
SN_Wildwind: [No, no, absolutely not. I just made a bet.]
Lin Meng: [What?]
SN_Wildwind: [Jin Yunhui said you were actually very friendly to him in private. I bet him you'd tell him to get lost within three sentences.]
Lin Meng: […Did you two retire together? Why are you so bored?]
SN_Wildwind: [Haha.]
POP_Doctor: [Are you feeling better now?]
Lin Meng was slightly stunned.
SN_Wildwind: [Would you consider coming to SN?]
POP_Doctor: [Yeah, you should go to SN. Even though they're always the runner-up, who knows, you might just give Team E a run for their money!]
SN_Wildwind: [If you don't mention the perennial runner-up, will he die or something?]
POP_Doctor: [You bite me.]
Lin Meng: [So Team E really signed a new player, right?]
SN_Wildwind: [You didn't know? They promoted a young player named Dragon, who specializes in playing the nanny role. I think they'll find an opportunity to officially announce it soon.]
Lin Meng was silent for a moment: [I roughly guessed it.]
SN_Wildwind: [It's not your problem. You're excellent.]
Lin Meng: [Yes.]
SN_Wildwind: [Silence is such a scumbag.]
POP_Doctor: [Silence is such a jerk.]
Lin Meng felt that the arrival of these two people was indeed a bit strange.
Lin Meng: [I have a question. How did you two find out my ID?]
a long time
SN_Wildwind: [Silence told us.]
Lin Meng finally declined Ye Feng's invitation.
The live broadcast commentators were still frantically imagining the hidden relationship between the three of them. Lin Meng was afraid that their image would be affected by the rhythm, so she went to play solo.
After winning a few games in a formulaic way, she felt that it was not very interesting. She got up and went to buy some milk. During the break, her phone vibrated. Yu Mo sent her a message.
From yesterday till now, Yu Mo has not contacted her. Instead, he gave his Eddie to Ye Feng and Doctor. Lin Meng thought he was quite strange.
Don’t you try to guess what a man is thinking?
She picked up her phone and took a look.
Yu Mo: [Don’t you want to go to SN?]
Yu Mo: [Which team do you want to join? Any top domestic team is fine. Tell me the name and I'll contact them for you.]
Lin Meng looked at the screen of her mobile phone, unable to describe the feeling in her heart.
For so long, she had been blaming Yu Mo unilaterally, blaming Yu Mo for provoking her in the first place and for being able to get away with it so easily.
But she never considered that Yu Mo seemed to have his own difficulties. In such a huge business system, Yu Mo himself could not do as he pleased and was often criticized.
It's not that she doesn't want to consider this, but that she doesn't dare.
Once she thought in this direction, her heart would soften endlessly, and she would feel so sorry for Yu Mo.
Then she is not the cold and sharp-tongued Lin Xiaomeng, she is not cool anymore, so annoying.
She turned the phone in her palm, wondering if she would have chosen to become a professional player if Yu Mo hadn't been there.
Probably not?
She wasn't one to enjoy flattery, and she had no greed for money. If she didn't want to fight alongside this person, what difference would there be between playing professionally and playing for others?
Without this person, she would not have any aspirations for this industry.
If I go to another team, I will have to face Yu Mo one day in the future.
She doesn't want to lose, but she won't be happy if she wins.
Lin Meng knelt down on the gaming chair, ruffling her hair dejectedly.
It's too difficult.
It’s actually a very simple multiple-choice question.
She took a deep breath, felt that she had figured it out, and replied to Yu Mo.
[No need. I'm really not that interested in playing professionally.] She bit her lip as she typed, leaving a mottled tooth mark on her lower lip. [Silence, don't always think you're the one making decisions for others. I'm 16, can't I just live a peaceful life? Why do you have to drag me into the public eye? Does it make you feel better to see me get criticized?]
That's so hurtful.
She pressed the send button, her heart aching.
I really want to play professionally...
I really want to walk onto the championship stage with Yu Mo...
No! Lin Meng, you don't want to.
She shook her head and saw Yu Mo replied: [Sorry.]
What did he do wrong?
He has always tried his best to provide himself with the best platform.
Lin Xiaomeng, you are a ungrateful person, right?
She wiped the corners of her eyes with her hands, thinking hopelessly that this time, Yu Mo had probably completely given up on her.
No one would hold her back like that anymore.
No! He will!
I have never seen a man let his wife be coaxed by others. What kind of fool are you, Moshen?
Our Lin Xiaomeng must have been a math problem in her previous life, as she ended up with such a straight guy.
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