Chapter 95 World G:5 Because I cannot open it alone...
Because she couldn't open the portal to another world on her own, Nadia and Reena had been spending a month together in this world.
Although at first there was some concern that if Ethan encountered some unexpected event during his time travel and died, would they still be able to return? The main concern was that if that happened, the situation in their world would be even worse, because no one had expected that Ethan would actually be able to obtain something.
Furthermore, the ability to open portals from their original world to travel to different worlds was enough to show them just how vast a knowledge base Ethan, who had always seemed so unremarkable, possessed.
Is this the guardian of the city's strongest will? He learned so much knowledge, only to put it to good use at the crucial moment, and he even humbly said that he had just learned enough, when in reality he is a useless little brat who knows nothing.
Who would believe that? Everyone's city will advised them to minimize contact with the Starfall City Will and its guardians, without explaining why. Even Novigrad told Reina not to do anything to anger them, as the Starfall City Will is quite concerned about this guardian.
Therefore, everyone felt that their chances of dying were greater than the other's, and they were all waiting to be rescued.
The month was peaceful. Nadia and Reena flew around, searching for the possibility that others were still alive, hoping to find people from this world other than Reena, but in the end they returned disappointed.
Because you stayed here a little longer, Nadia learned that what was once the ruins of a city was her dream city.
Thinking of the prosperity of my city, the skyscrapers, the endless stream of tourists, the laughing children, and the office workers rushing to work.
The tranquil scene was like a bubble that had been popped; with a "pop," it shattered completely, leaving only a few remnants to prove that it had once existed.
I feel dazed. How could such a bustling city become lifeless and turn into ruins?
Nadia spends most of her days walking through her old city while Rrena is out, hoping to find some important information about her survival, but often she finds nothing.
Reina once said that no matter what the situation or when, you can never completely trust a person, not even yourself, let alone your counterpart.
Well, although she still trusts Reina completely, Reina is right; even her counterpart can't be trusted 100%. Speaking of which, how much trust does Reina have in her again?
Nadia is digging.
She was in what was roughly the location of a safe house she frequented, trying to find some useful information.
Unfortunately, even as they dug closer to Reena's return, they still found nothing.
Just as she stood up as if giving up, preparing to take off, she stepped on a foreign object.
She crouched down and carefully dug it out, discovering it was a safe that had been twisted from being hit by a heavy object.
With a gentle tear in her fingers, her special physique, bestowed upon her as a guardian, granted her immense strength, making it as easy as tearing a piece of paper.
When the safe door was torn open, only a slightly worn notebook was found.
Having heard that many years had passed in this world, she worried that the paper inside was too thin, and for the first time, she was so hesitant to pull it out, as if she were protecting a fragile bubble.
The first thing she saw was a yellowed notebook, the style of which was very similar to the notebook that Tenas had given her some time ago. She had planned to use it to write in her diary. She opened the notebook.
"May 29th, XX year, today is a terrible cloudy day."
It really was a diary... and some words were blurry, some were stained with some unknown dirt, and some parts were completely rotten. Nadia continued reading.
"Reena, why is this happening? It feels like this is the first time I've ever met you."
You make me feel like a stranger. I wonder who that cold but kind girl I've known for the past twenty years really is.
You lied to everyone, detonating bombs you had planted long ago at the same time, obliterating every city, including those in other countries. You wantonly orchestrated your machines to hunt down surviving humans, and when others questioned you, you even killed them, despite having worked with us for so long.
When I spoke, you didn't kill me; you simply invited me to stand beside you so that we could cleanse the "evil" together.
Of course I wouldn't agree. You didn't seem to be acting any different, but you killed several more people a few seconds later.
By the time I discovered something had been implanted in your mind, it was too late; you had killed everyone except me.
I hate it so much.
I hate it so much.
I hate your rivals, I hate how perfectly you kept your secrets. Your political enemies wanted to drive you mad, but they never imagined that besides being a politician, you were also a protector. They turned a leader who should have been rationally commanding and minimizing harm for everyone into a complete madman. I hate that someone as meticulous as you could fall for this trick. I hate that even after your drastic personality change and the killing of so many people, you spared me.
If you had killed me cleanly and efficiently like everyone else, I wouldn't have been in so much pain. I could sense that there were a few moments when you wanted to kill me, but in the end you just looked at me and then looked away.
What exactly do you mean? Why are you treating me like this? You could kill Tenas without batting an eye, so why can't you be any more ruthless towards me?
I hate you. Even so, you still give me special meaning. Although I find it ironic and even a little funny, I can't laugh at all.
I've always known I'm not very bright, whether compared to you or Tenas, I'm always single-minded. Your thoughts are so obvious to you, secrets simply don't exist, so I also know that I alone can't bring you back to your former self.
I truly don't know what to do. I can't save anyone else, and I can't save you. I'm worried that you'll continue like this, and I'm even more worried that when you wake up and discover everything you've done, I can't even imagine it.
The more she wrote, the more illegible her handwriting became. It was unlike Nadia's usual neat and orderly handwriting, and unlike the beginning when, although somewhat messy, her habits were still discernible. In the end, it looked as if her hand was trembling so badly that she could barely hold the pen; it resembled scribbles, and there were even traces of ink being stretched out.
Some of the writing still had a watery, blurred appearance. Although it was blurry, it was still possible to guess what the words were.
Nadia felt heavy-hearted, her throat felt blocked, and she couldn't make a sound. She could only stare blankly at the diary, her nose stinging and her eyes filled with tears.
She couldn't imagine it; no matter how much she imagined it, she never knew that the truth of this world was so cruel.
Reina, you can be plotted against too? Even to this extent? Someone as smart as you, so many times smarter than her, how could someone find an opportunity to do this to you?
Reina...does that happen too?
Nadia's slightly parted lips trembled, and the string in her mind snapped with a crack, along with her tears falling like pearls from a broken string.
Tears streamed down her face, falling onto the diary and blurring the writing, just as she had seen it.
She felt so uncomfortable and in so much pain; this world terrified her.
In her eyes, Reina was always perfect, flawless in every way. Not only was she beautiful, but she also had a great personality. Although she seemed a bit aloof, she often accompanied her to see the children, despite being so busy.
She looks fierce, and she is indeed a bit fierce, but most of the time she has a sharp tongue but a soft heart. Despite her seemingly cold-hearted but actually warm-hearted personality, her counterpart ended up like this.
Now that you mention it, is it possible that she might also be involved?
No, Nadia, calm down, don't think about this, it's impossible! She won't allow it, she doesn't want to see it! This terrible parallel world cannot befall Reina.
Although it's not nice to say this, and the world is very pitiful, people also have selfish desires. Even heroes are not completely upright and have no selfish desires at all.
She had ulterior motives, she admitted.
Reina is like the bright moon, she should hang high in the night sky, not be destroyed by someone.
She will deal with anything that intends to bring down the moon, everything! Even if it costs her life.
Reaffirming her conviction, Nadia continued reading. She turned a page, and the handwriting had become neat again, though it appeared that many pages had been torn out in the middle.
"On December 24th of XX year, it snowed heavily today. It was very cold, like the blood Reena splattered on me when she killed Tenas. It made me feel the biting cold."
Although I really didn't want to do it at this time, I really couldn't stand it anymore. Reena kept asking me last month why I hadn't been talking to her, but actually, after that day, I couldn't make a sound anymore.
Perhaps I screamed too loudly inside, and I lost control of my vocal cords, leaving me only with silent despair.
"If anyone sees this diary... I'll go crazy. There's only Reena and me left in this world, there's no one else."
This sentence has been crossed out.
"Anyway, whatever it is or Reena, by the time you read this, I will be dead. I will die on the day before Christmas, alone and by myself."
I simply can't bear it anymore. My mental resilience isn't very strong to begin with, and with everyone going through one mishap after another, my heart is dead.
It's just a little sad that I'm standing by the window now, but I can't see the familiar moon, not even in my final moments.
Although she had expected it, Nadia couldn't help but fall silent when she saw this part.
She was somewhat surprised, but not entirely. After losing a close friend with whom she had fought side by side, commanded alongside, and grown up, it was only natural for her to become listless.
But when she looked away from the diary, she discovered that the figure covering her body was Reena's shadow.
...I don't know how long the other party has been here, how powerful they are, doing everything so quietly, watching from the sidelines for so long?
Watching the elusive Reena, Nadia had to be on high alert, keeping her body tense, ready to react to any sudden situation or escape at any time, in case Reena went crazy.
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Author's Note: There's about one more chapter to go before it ends. Her personality has changed a bit because everyone she trusted is gone, and reality has dealt her a major blow. This world's Nadia is rather silent.
Sleepy
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