Chapter 74 74 I promise that my love is extremely loyal, far more loyal than my own...
Liang Guanyue sat against the headboard of the bed. Fu Yunlu grabbed his shoulders, rested her head on his shoulders, exposed her glands to Liang Guanyue, and asked softly: "A few years ago, after we broke up... No, after we broke up, during the susceptible period, did you have sex with others..."
Liang Guanyue reached out and pinched Fu Yunlu's cheeks, forcing him to look up at her. He smirked and chuckled in agreement. Although Fu Yunlu didn't want to accept it, he had no choice but to say, "Call me next time. I'll help you with your physiological problems. I'll come over no matter the time or place."
Liang Guanyue repeated with amusement: "No matter where?"
Fu Yunlu seemed to be recalling a bad scene and added: "...Indoors."
"You're asking for so much," Liang Guanyue quipped. "Are you deliberately trying to embarrass me?"
Fu Yunlu opened her mouth and bit his tiger's mouth, asking, "Who is making things difficult for whom?"
"It's not me anyway. I've always been a democratic person. If you're willing to listen to me, just follow me. If you find it difficult, just leave." Liang Guanyue looked at him with a smile, "Brother, if you find it difficult, do you want to leave now?"
"...I thought we were just joking around in a harmless way."
"Oh?" Liang Guanyue asked, "You mean you don't have any objections to what I said?"
"Except for your future, I'll listen to you on everything else."
Liang Guanyue asked back, "What do you mean by involving my future?"
"I'm sure you can grow up healthy and safe."
Liang Guanyue laughed out loud: "I know I'm not that old, but in any way, I can't relate to the word 'grown up', right?"
Fu Yunlu held his face in her hands, stroking the red corners of his eyes with her thumbs, and said, "Because I always feel that your life has only truly begun from now on."
He said: "You have your own business, your own house, your own friends. This is the starting point you should have."
Liang Guanyue retorted: "I never want to deny it, Fu Yunlu, the embarrassing past also belongs to me."
"Of course it belongs to you, but it's not worth dwelling on. What you need to do is move forward without looking back. Compared to the past that cannot be changed, your present life can be completely controlled by you."
Liang Guanyue couldn't understand why Fu Yunlu cared so much about her future, and said cruelly, "But I don't need you in my life. Fu Yunlu, to me, the future and the past, you are dispensable."
"...That's how it should be, Guan Yue." Fu Yunlu lowered her eyes. "Don't become... like me. Living forever under the gaze and expectations of others will make you a very bad adult."
Liang Guanyue pinched Fu Yunlu's cheeks and shook them, then smiled when she heard the words: "People without self will be devoured by others."
Fu Yunlu was stunned for a moment, staring at him intently, then blinking. Liang Guanyue seemed amused, squeezing and releasing her like a doll. "Living on for me is not a good choice. I only support myself, not others. Besides, I am a patient myself—a patient who longs to love you, a patient who doesn't understand love. Fu Yunlu, you are as stupid as a person whose brain has been removed when it comes to feelings."
He said, "You tampered with the gland, didn't you?"
Fu Yunlu said calmly, "Yes."
"Just glands?"
"…What do you suspect?"
"I suspect..." Liang Guanyue's hand moved to his neck, then tightened suddenly. Fu Yunlu's pupils shrank, and the sudden suffocation made him subconsciously struggle to pry open Liang Guanyue's fingers.
The Alpha in his susceptible period showed no mercy. Liang Guanyue even restrained Fu Yunlu's wrist with his other hand, frowning and saying sinisterly, "Don't even think about using pheromones to influence my emotions and behavior."
"I will never become like my mother. Seeing what happened to her, I know that love is not a good thing."
"You have influenced me too much, Fu Yunlu. Time and again, I have changed my decision, my behavior, my thoughts because of you--" Liang Guanyue squinted his eyes and stared at Fu Yunlu who was suffocating due to lack of oxygen. The veins on his temples bulged, and his messy hair covered his eyes. The resistance suppressed by his hands gradually lost its strength, and Fu Yunlu suddenly grinned.
"Kill... uh... me?" Fu Yunlu's brain was almost unable to think. He could only tell Liang Guanyue, "No need... ahem... you, do it."
He could die, but not here.
"Of course I won't kill you. I'm a good citizen who abides by the law." Liang Guanyue smiled and relaxed. The air passed through Fu Yunlu's mouth and nose like a silk thread. He covered his neck and took a deep breath. Saliva remained on his lips awkwardly. He curled himself into a ball, and cold sweat soaked his back.
Liang Guanyue didn't give him a chance to breathe. She grabbed his hair roughly, forced him to turn and look at her, and said with a smile: "Do you understand? The person you like doesn't care about your life or death at all."
Fu Yunlu hadn't really recovered yet. The Liang Guanyue in front of her was still blurry. The other party's voice was mixed with the tinnitus and sounded like an extremely weak cry for help.
He thought he might be crazy.
"Fu Yunlu, don't look for me anymore. I figured it out just a few minutes ago." Liang Guanyue said, "It's not good for me to keep you by my side."
"..." Fu Yunlu frowned and said in a hoarse voice, "Wait——"
"I admit that in this match, you currently have some slight advantages that I can't quite explain."
Fu Yunlu couldn't understand why Liang Guanyue suddenly attacked. He was fine just now. He grabbed Liang Guanyue's wrist and finally came to his senses. He explained humbly: "Guanyue, this is not a competition."
"For you, this isn't really a competition," Liang Guanyue's emerald green eyes were like deep pools as she declared, "But you've stepped into my territory. Here, I'm the referee."
Fu Yunlu said anxiously, "If you were the referee, then I would be the only one who loses from beginning to end, right?!" He said in a trembling voice, "I am willing to accept my failure, Liang Guanyue. I will make you the eternal winner. No, you will be the eternal winner—"
"I don't need these wins and losses!" Liang Guanyue raised his voice. Fu Yunlu had never seen Liang Guanyue's emotions fluctuate so much before, and she couldn't help but be stunned. Liang Guanyue frowned and glanced at the Alpha warily. "From the moment I thought this game had a winner and a loser, I might have lost, Fu Yunlu."
He gritted his teeth and said, "...but there's still time. This insignificant defeat won't have any impact on my control."
"Put away your little tricks and don't try to control me." Liang Guanyue's eyes moved to Fu Yunlu's glands and said, "Go away."
"I don't……"
If he really had a child, he would not let Liang Guanyue know, nor would he let them meet. He swore that he would never let the child affect Liang Guanyue - he just wanted to keep a thought in mind. Who knew how long Liang Guanyue could tolerate him?
"You don't have anything?" he asked. "I've seen enough of the dirty tricks of the royal family to believe you're immune."
Liang Guanyue looked at Fu Yunlu indifferently. Under such a cold and silent gaze, Fu Yunlu's blood seemed to be gradually frozen, as if he had returned to that time. His mother glared at him resentfully and roared, "I just hate you! I hate your birth! I hate you and Fu Liaoyan for depriving me of everything that belongs to me! I hate my family for selling me to the royal family like a commodity - shouldn't I hate it? I hate it enough!!"
"Everyone in your royal family should die!!"
"...It's not right..." Fu Yunlu clung to Liang Guanyue as if asking for help, choking with sobs, "It's not right, it shouldn't be like this, Guanyue, Guanyue... I know I was wrong before, I know..."
He clung to an impassive Buddha statue, but the statue showed no concern for the dissection of an ant. It pushed him away and said, "Do you know whether you're wrong or not? What does that have to do with me?" Liang Guanyue tilted her head. "In the final analysis, I just don't want to be influenced by you anymore. As for you, I don't care."
"You like the wrong person. If it was someone else, maybe they could help you." He patted Fu Yunlu's face gently, "But brother, I'm a bad person."
I know you need me the most.
I clearly knew... Liang Guanyue lowered her eyes and wiped away the tears from Fu Yunlu's eyes. I clearly knew that you -
"I don't want to leave."
Fu Yunlu bit her lower lip, desperately trying to hold back the tears that were about to burst out of her eyes, and said in a trembling voice: "It's obvious that you have fallen in love with me... I won't leave."
Liang Guanyue laughed softly at this bizarre conclusion: "Brother, you're talking nonsense."
"You won't admit it, but I know it."
"So you think I'm in love with you, but I pinch you, insult you with words, deny everything about you, and maybe even stir up some bad memories from your past," Liang Guanyue commented. "Isn't my love a little too unusual?"
Fu Yunlu's eyes turned red as he stared at Liang Guanyue. He took a deep breath, and with courage that came from nowhere, he temporarily put aside all the fear and terror that had frightened him in the past and judged himself: "If you are a bad person... then I am a sinner."
Some sinners are imprisoned in cages, some sinners are still hiding in the darkness, and some sinners can still walk in the light even if they are exposed to the public. In Ninopa, fairness is a nursery rhyme, and eternal justice exists in a distant fantasy land.
The lonely and vast universe, the starlight thousands of light years away, and the humans who have escaped from their home planet, even if they roar with all their might, they cannot change their insignificance.
But humans are still far from accepting the insignificance of their own existence. They do their best to gather individuals together, to pass on life from generation to generation, to let the human race leave a footprint in the universe, and to allow fairy tales to be woven on top of filth and sin. Fantasyland is no longer far away, and where people, the "measure of all things", are, there will be eternal light.
"Where did the Zerg come from, Father?"
Fu Yunlu still remembers a family dinner when the young Fu Yunliang flipped through a popular science book about Zerg. He looked up and asked Fu Liaoyan, "They look somewhat similar to the creatures recorded on our home planet, Earth. But the universe is so vast, why are the natural enemies of humans who have escaped the Milky Way still creatures we know well?"
Fu Liaoyan just looked at Fu Yunliang quietly. Fu Yunlu saw something other than warmth in the eyes of this man who was called her biological father.
He thought that he should have interrupted Fu Yunliang at that time.
But the jealousy that had been buried for a long time prompted him to clench the fork in his hand and silently poke it into the beef again and again, three holes after three holes, until Zhao Yi came back after answering the phone and stopped Fu Yunlu's behavior that was not in line with table etiquette.
"What did Yunliang talk about with his father? Why does he look so happy?" Zhao Yi asked with a smile.
Fu Liaoyan said calmly: "He asked a very childish question."
Before Zhao Yi could ask what the problem was, Fu Liaoyan called out his name: "Yunlu, what do you think?"
"..." Fu Yunlu looked at the distorted reflection of herself in the fork. After a while, she raised her head and smiled politely at Fu Liaoyan, "The steak that mother made is delicious, father."
Zhao Yi was stunned for a moment: "Yunlu, this is not the question my father asked you..."
Fu Liaoyan interrupted slowly, "Zhao Yi, stop letting Yunliang read these useless books. It's of no use to his growth." He added, "Yunlu, on the other hand, is a good material." He picked up a small piece of cut steak and put it into his mouth with an expressionless face.
From then on, he understood what kind of successor his father really expected, and of course he understood that his mother hoped he would bring all kinds of convenience and glory to the family.
In this way, Fu Yunlu slowly lost herself and gradually forgot when was the last time she stood up for justice for the disadvantaged. She never looked back and regarded power as her guiding principle for the past thirty years of her life.
"Guan Yue, there's no need to always say you're a bad person." Fu Yunlu laughed self-deprecatingly, "Because many times, you have no choice, or external forces push you towards a bad outcome. For you, many things are just the maximum benefits you can gain passively."
"But I am a true sinner," Fu Yunlu said softly, "Among many choices, I chose the worst one."
"The victims who needed me to seek justice, the people who needed me to help speak up for them, the mothers who needed me to tell them it should stop ... and Fu Yunliang, I made the wrong choice," he said.
Liang Guanyue raised an eyebrow.
Fu Yunlu forced a smile and said, "Of course, there was also our actual encounter, which, due to my choice, left a less than pleasant outcome."
"But I am a lucky sinner. At least now, I can make up for some of my past mistakes, I can still see you, and I can tell you that I don't want to leave. I love you."
He held Liang Guanyue's hand, placed it on his forehead, and said to his 'God' who had also suffered, like a devout believer in prayer: "If I betrayed you, made you sad, and made you angry, then you can punish a sinner like me today, okay, Guanyue."
"I promise that my love is loyal and far more important than my own life."
“…”
It's like this again.
Liang Guanyue thought that Fu Yunlu might be some kind of devil. Every time she wanted to break up with him, he would always cut them off with a few words. It was not his style to keep ties with her.
When he entangled with this cunning Alpha again and again, even if the other party was shaking with pain, he would be like a lamb to be slaughtered, completely open to his own actions, as if to say:
“Guan Yue, I’m not saying sweet words.”
"I really, really love you."
Liang Guanyue, who was in the susceptible period, bit Fu Yunlu's gland with a frown. In the disturbing pheromones, he thought of his mother's dead face.
The greedy fly circled above her head for a long time and finally landed on her lips.
He stretched out his hand in a daze and touched the mole under Fu Yunlu's lip based on his memory.
Then, as if suddenly awakened, he froze in place for a long time. Fu Yunlu noticed that something was wrong with him, turned around and asked him in a concerned hoarse voice, "What's wrong, Guan Yue?"
"..." Liang Guanyue chuckled and replied under Fu Yunlu's worried gaze, "Now that I think about it, maybe you will become like her."
“……?”
Liang Guanyue just lowered her head and kissed his forehead: "You mean to say that brother is stupid."
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The author has something to say: Don't worry about the Zerg... I'm fine-tuning the setting for Nino and Nirvana in my head... After all, the next book will still take place in Nino and Nirvana.
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