He didn't stop until his arms were rubbed red and he had washed his hands countless times.
She curled up in the quilt, wrapping herself tightly.
"Sister Luo Qing, don't be afraid. You are still You Ran and we are still here. You will live happily in the future and no one will hurt you anymore." Gu Qinghuan comforted her.
There was silence for a long time, so long that she thought Zhong Luo would not speak.
"Huanhuan, do you know that countless times in the past few days, I wanted to end my life and take Youran with me.
The heavy pressure of life makes me feel suffocated; my child's illness makes me hate myself and life; my husband's betrayal and insults make me sad and desperate; the gossip, attacks and insults from my parents-in-law and other people have made me collapse countless times and become devastated.
The funniest thing is that people like me have to consider the consequences even when they collapse.
Whenever I want to give up on myself, I will take out the letters from my parents and grandparents to read.
I told myself, your parents and relatives have suffered one, ten thousand times more than you, and they have never given up. You should not be the last straw that overwhelms them.
I couldn't bear it either, Youran was so young..., she hadn't seen what the world was like.
So I told myself, just hang in there, one day I'll get through it.
My tolerance and compromise did not win other people's conscience, but only intensified their torture and humiliation.
Is it possible that all the education I received since childhood was wrong? I should not be kind to others, I should not be tolerant, and I should not raise a tiger to cause trouble.
I work so hard to live, am I really not worthy of being loved, only to be let down, deceived, and abandoned? "
She no longer understands the world or human nature.
Gu Qinghuan realized that her depression might not appear in a few days, but develop over months.
Her life has changed dramatically in the past few days, and I'm afraid she has also been under a lot of pressure and pain in her heart.
For the sake of her children and her family who were still suffering, she had to move forward with pain.
Gu Qinghuan patted her on the back gently.
"You don't think your face is dirty when the mirror is dirty, so why do you feel bad when someone treats you badly?
If things don't go as planned, God must have other plans.
If you are heading in the wrong direction, then stopping is the best way to progress.
We have been taught since childhood to treat everyone sincerely, but experience has taught us that not everyone deserves to be treated sincerely.
Even if you misjudge someone, even if you are let down, even if you hit a wall, at least it proves one thing: you are good.
You just gave your heart to the wrong person.
Whether it is lover, relative, or friend, loving and being loved happen at the same time, which is meaningful and never a one-man show.
Sincerity should be reserved for those who love and care about you. Those who are hypocritical should be left behind as soon as possible and abandoned decisively.
This world is very beautiful. No matter who leaves you, life will be very good. For the rest of your life, love the one who loves you deeply with all your heart and cherish the one who loves you.
You will find that life is actually beautiful and everything will be fine, trust me! ”
After listening to her words of comfort, Zhong Luoqing felt as if he had been enlightened.
Ah, it would be a disaster if one's true love was misplaced. Why should she insist on an unequal relationship and allow herself to fade into the dust to accommodate others?
If you don't have any interest in me, I will give up. If she had understood this earlier, she wouldn't have tortured herself so much.
Not anymore.
The two sisters chatted for a long time until the sky turned pale in the east and then they fell asleep side by side.
Gu Qinghuan used her eloquent tongue and the unique perspective of a modern woman to confuse Zhong Luoqing.
Later on, the topic took a 100-degree turn and ended up talking about doing business.
In short, he talked about all sorts of things and boasted about everything, and finally managed to appease Zhong Luoxi.
Gu Qinghuan and Zhong Luoqing slept in late and woke up late. The three little guys wanted to push the door in to find their mother, but Xu Huaian ruthlessly dragged them to the yard to take care of the little white rabbit.
He was alert even when he was sleeping, and he noticed everything that happened yesterday. I guess the two sisters had a lot of conversation last night.
Xu Huai'an made breakfast today, continuing to cook the stomach-nourishing red date millet porridge, paired with the leftover meat buns from last night and Gu Qinghuan's homemade pickled radish kimchi.
There are no classes at Lanting School during the holidays, and I am taking care of my children at home.
Xu Huaian gave him the glorious but difficult task of teaching the children to write Chinese characters.
I slept until noon and then got up. I remembered that I had a lot of arrangements for today, and suddenly I felt anxious. I got myself ready first, and then went upstairs to have breakfast.
While eating breakfast, I arranged for Xu Huaian to prepare gifts.
She will visit Zhang 녊 first this morning, and then go to the police station to find Xu Lei.
In the original body's memory, Zhang was a kind uncle who helped him many times without asking for anything in return.
This time, she had to bring some nice gifts to show her sincerity and thank him for his help before. After all, people are helping you out of kindness, not out of duty.
Of course the gift came in two copies, one for Zhang and one for Xu Lei.
Xu Lei hadn't thanked anyone for his help before.
Gu Qinghuan quickly finished his breakfast and then tidied himself up.
Today you will mainly meet elders and ask for favors. The lower the profile, the better.
Before Gu Qinghuan put on the purple floral shirt, she bought it and matched it with black cotton pants.
She just tied her hair into a braid and let it hang behind her head, and simply put some cream on her face.
It does look a lot more ordinary.
Xu Huaian prepared the gift in the space of course.
Gu Qinghuan packed up and prepared his gift.
First, let’s talk about Northeastern specialties.
Some dried fruits such as hazelnuts, pine nuts, pecans, dates, etc.
Some hazel mushrooms, schisandra chinensis, and black fungus.
One dried pheasant and one dried rabbit.
Then, in order to cater to his taste, Xu Huaian found two boxes of tea in Gu Qinghuan's selection warehouse. It was called Junshan Yinzhen, and it looked good.
He simply removed the beautiful packaging and only put it in a box, so that no clues could be seen.
Gu Qinghuan usually doesn't organize his warehouse. He looks for what he needs. You won't know until you see it, and there are quite a lot of good things.
There are a lot of dried goods such as 35-head yellow fish glue, morels, seaweed, scallops, shrimps, etc.
Xu Huaian also picked up some and packed them up to take with him.
When Gu Qinghuan came in, he had already packed two packages.
You can't see anything outside, but inside it has all the internal organs and can accommodate all kinds of food and drink.
Gu Qinghuan flipped through it carefully and found that Xu Huaian was quite reliable in doing things.
I was going to get two more bottles of wine, but the wines from later times are not as good as this modern wine, so I just gave up. These are good enough and I have already given them away.
First, you need to build up your relationships. In the end, you will have to give people gifts. It is not good to be too exaggerated the first time you visit someone, as this may scare them.
After packing up, the two of them went out with the gifts. Today the children were not under someone's care, so Gu Qinghuan and Xu Huaian went together.
The two arrived at the Revolutionary Committee's building, which was quite impressive. After explaining their situation and identities to the guard, they waited at the door for a while before being allowed in to look for someone.
The control was quite strict, and the guard wanted to do a routine bag check, but Xu Huaian immediately took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and handed it to him, indicating that he should be flexible. The guard smiled and let them pass.
The two arrived at Zhang 녊놅's office smoothly.
Zhang Dong'er is a cadre who was professionally trained. He has been working diligently and cautiously in his job, and he is tactful and alert, which is why he is in the current situation.
To put it simply, the Revolutionary Committee is a revolutionary committee composed of the "three combinations" of military cadres, veteran cadres, and representatives of the revolutionary masses.
The majority of the country's leaders are directors of revolutionary committees, and most of them are military cadres.
Zhang is in charge of many things, but he is no more than a deputy director, and there is another director above him who puts pressure on him.
When the two knocked on the door, Zhang was busy writing something.
“Bang, bang…”
"Come in." He wrote the last stroke and closed the cap on his pen.
Gu Qinghuan forced out a warm smile and walked in first: "Uncle Zhang, long time no see!"
Zhang looked up and saw... this... the girl from Teacher Zhong's family? Why did she seem to have a strange expression?
I remember she came to see him once before. She was like a crybaby at that time, crying and unable to speak clearly. But today she is acting very strange.
"Hey, little girl, you brought someone with you. Are you getting married?"
Gu Qinghuan smiled shyly: "You have seen through it. This is my lover Xu Huaian. Huaian, this is Uncle Zhang."
Xu Huaian followed suit and called for help, while extending his hand and lowering his posture very low.
"Congratulations, and I wish you and your wife a long and happy marriage." Zhang did not take Qiao's hand, but shook Xu Huaian's hand in return.
The young couple seemed to be a good match, a talented man and a beautiful woman.
"Haha, thank you for your help. If you hadn't helped me switch places, Huai'an and I wouldn't have had this fate. I came here today to bring you some local specialties from Northeast China. They're not worth much, so I hope you don't mind."
Gu Qinghuan brought the topic to the gift and deliberately said it was worthless, hoping that he would feel at ease and accept it.
Xu Huai'an immediately passed the bag over and put some dried fruits on it. Zhang took a few glances and found that they were indeed some local specialties, so he didn't refuse.
"Thank you, niece. You've come all the way here to bring me these specialties. You must have worked hard. Please take a seat!
What are you doing here this time? Tell me, please." Zhang said half jokingly and half helplessly.
In this situation, everyone is walking on thin ice, and he lives in fear every day, fearing that he will be caught one day.
But as for the Zhong family's affairs, he had no choice but to take the risk and intervene.
Mr. Zhong is not only his academic mentor, but also his life mentor. Without Mr. Zhong, he would not be where he is today. He must help within all circumstances to live up to his conscience.