Su Luo took a deep breath, composed herself, and looked up at Song Lingshan.
"I...I've finished reading it. What do you want to say to me?"
Song Lingshan's gaze softened as she looked at Su Luo, and her tone became much gentler, as if she were discussing something with him.
“I want to ask you, can you temporarily give up custody of Su Jiani? Don’t worry, I won’t abandon her. I will find her the best orphanage in the city, send her to the best school, and give her a large monthly allowance. I can support her until she can live independently.”
She knew Su Luo would be reluctant to part with Su Jiani, but she felt that a short, sharp pain was better than a long, drawn-out one. Keeping Su Jiani by Su Luo's side was like a ticking time bomb; not only was Su Jiani's mother in danger, but she also felt that Su Jiani herself wasn't quite right in the head, and the future was unpredictable—it was impossible to tell when she would explode.
So she had no choice but to make this decision that would upset Su Luo; she really couldn't think of any other good solution.
Su Luo's face suddenly darkened, his hand holding the documents trembled slightly, and he suppressed his dissatisfaction as he asked in a deep voice.
"Are you showing me this to try and get me to give up custody of Nini? Do you think I'd agree to that?"
How could he possibly give up custody of Su Jiani? It was a promise he made to his deceased brother.
Damn it, don't underestimate the bond between men!
Since he had promised, he had to keep his word and raise Su Jianni safely no matter how difficult it was. How could he possibly abandon her halfway through?
Moreover, he was well aware of his place in Su Jianni's heart. It would be too cruel for him to abandon her because of her mother's mistake; he simply couldn't do such a thing.
Song Lingshan knew Su Luo wouldn't agree immediately, so she patiently explained.
"I know you can't accept this right now, but it's the only way. Aren't you afraid her mother will come knocking on your door?"
If there were any other way, she would not want Su Luo to give up custody of Su Jiani.
Why should I be afraid?
When Su Luo saw Su Jiani's mother, Zhao Qingsi, at the wedding, she thought she was absolutely perfect for a wedding dress. She looked like a fairy descended from heaven, with bright eyes and a warm smile.
Moreover, I heard from my brother that she was a top student since childhood and was admitted to the Chinese Literature Department of Peking University without taking the entrance exam.
In the years after Su Jiani's mother left.
His brother had invited him for drinks countless times, and every time he got drunk, he would mention Zhao Qingsi with red eyes, which showed that they had a really good relationship.
Therefore, he was unwilling to believe that Zhao Qingsi was mentally ill.
Song Lingshan couldn't understand why Su Luo wasn't afraid. She always thought that as long as it wasn't a severely mentally ill person who needed to be locked up in a hospital.
Most patients look pretty much the same as ordinary people in normal times, and only go berserk when they are subjected to strong stimulation.
Therefore, she didn't think Su Luo could tell the difference, and suppressing her anger, she continued to ask questions.
"Okay, even if you say you're not afraid of her coming to your door, do you really think Su Jianni is normal? Do you really understand her?"
"I……"
After Song Lingshan said that, Su Luo felt a little guilty. He realized that he really didn't know Su Jiani well enough.
I have absolutely no idea what she's thinking every day, why she knows so much, or why her mood swings are sometimes frighteningly fast.
Seeing that Su Luo was starting to hesitate, Song Lingshan took his hand and said sincerely.
"If you ask me, just do as I say. I can give her a better life, and you won't have to work so hard every day just to make a living."
Su Luo shook off her hand, her chest heaving slightly. Looking at Song Lingshan, her eyes were filled with sadness and disappointment, and she smiled bitterly.
"Ling Shan, you weren't like this before."
He remembered that when they were deeply in love, Song Lingshan would take any dirty stray dog she encountered on the street to the vet to get it cleaned at her own expense, have it checked out, get it vaccinated, and then patiently wait online for a kind person to adopt it.
Therefore, he always felt that although Song Lingshan was strong and violent, she still had a kind side.
But she's so kind, why can't she put herself in his shoes? Su Jiani, who was abandoned by her mother when she was young, and whose father died early, had nothing left and could only rely on him for survival when she was only twelve years old?
If he really abandons Su Jiani, Su Jiani will definitely break down. This is not about money at all. Why can't Song Lingshan understand this?
Seeing the disappointment in Su Luo's eyes, Song Lingshan felt a surge of anger rising within her, and she shouted loudly.
"What did I do? What did I do that makes you look at me like that? All I did was advise you to give up custody of Su Jiani. Is it wrong for me to help you raise me?"
Su Luo couldn't stay calm either, and exclaimed excitedly.
“I don’t need you to raise her for me. I can support her myself. When you asked me to give up custody of Nini, did you consider Nini’s feelings? She’s a human being! Not a machine. She has feelings, which money can’t buy. Do you understand?”
One sentence made Song Lingshan laugh in anger, her fox-like eyes reddening as she spoke in a trembling voice.
"I want to think about her too. I know she has feelings, but that's not important anymore. More than whether she's sad or hurt, I care about your safety. I'm just trying to protect you. Am I really wrong?"
Looking into Song Lingshan's affectionate eyes, Su Luo suddenly lost her temper. It seemed that Song Lingshan was really right; she cared more about herself than Su Jianni.
What did she do wrong?
She only cares about herself, she only still likes herself, she really did nothing wrong.
But he was no longer able to reciprocate her feelings.
The two stared at each other silently. Su Luo rubbed her slightly sore nose and said firmly.
“You did nothing wrong. I shouldn’t have blamed you. I’m sorry, but I still want to tell you, Nini, Nini is the most important person to me, and my only family in this world. So no matter what the future holds, whether her mother is mentally ill, whether she is in danger to me, or whether Nini is not normal, I will never abandon her.”
Song Lingshan clenched her fists, her nails digging into the lines of her palms.
Her eyelashes trembled slightly, and her eyes glistened with tears as she asked in a hoarse voice.
"And what about me? What am I to you?"
God knows how much courage it took for Song Lingshan, who was always aloof and looked down on everyone, and who was incredibly arrogant to the core, to ask her ex-boyfriend such a humble question.
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