After Xue Fei came to the United States, he followed Lin Xin wherever he was filming, just like traveling.
Seeing President Xue following Lin Xin around like an assistant every day and asking about her well-being, the people in the crew finally understood what true love is.
In front of Xue Fei, Lin Xin was just like a big pet. He wanted to be fed, hugged, patted on the head and praised. Every time after filming, if there were no NGs, he would go to Xue Fei to beg for snacks and praise, just like a big dog that had brought back a plate.
Xue Fei was like a dog slave, and never repeated his words of praise for Lin Xin. God knows where he got such a large vocabulary.
The crew saw these two men having sex every day, and Gavin laughed and said, "Lin Xiaoxin, I'll pay for your marriage registration fee, you two should get married soon."
Lin Xin nodded immediately: "Okay, okay, what do you think, Brother Fei?"
Xue Fei hurriedly said: "What's good? Don't talk nonsense."
Lin Xin immediately became wilted like an eggplant hit by frost.
Seeing Xue Fei's reaction, Gavin felt embarrassed to continue making trouble.
He looked at Xue Fei secretly with curiosity. Xue Fei clearly showed that he liked Lin Xin very much, so why did he change the subject immediately when the topic of marriage came up?
Could it be that President Xue is a non-marriageist and doesn't want to get married no matter how good their relationship is? Then Lin Xiaoxin will have a hard time in the future.
It was just a relationship between two people, and it was not appropriate for others to interfere. Besides, apart from the issue of marriage, Lin Xin and Xue Fei had a very good relationship, and it was not appropriate for others to interfere.
Gavin was worried for a while, but he was relieved after being teased by his friend, the director. Although Xue Fei is indeed a multinational CEO, Lin Xin is still a big star. Even if the relationship between the two is unstable in the future, Lin Xin is not a little star supported by a sponsor, and her future will be ruined. At most, Lin Xin can just change someone else. There are many people who like Lin Xin.
Seeing Xue Fei change the subject again, Lin Xin was very considerate and didn't bring it up again, but there was still a hint of melancholy in her eyes. This gave the director some more inspiration and gave Lin Xin another set of female clothing.
Lin Xin felt even more depressed.
Xue Fei saw that he had answered too hastily this time, which hurt Lin Xin. He was anxious, knowing that he was not in the right state, but he had not adjusted yet.
One was in a low mood and the other was somewhat evasive, and the atmosphere between Xue Fei and Lin Xin began to become a little awkward.
The people in the crew were also worried and felt it was really anxious to see the two of them dating.
The current tense atmosphere is worse than before when they were showing off their love.
Soon Xue Fei's vacation was over. When he was leaving, Lin Xin took a day off to send Xue Fei to the airport.
At the airport, Xue Fei looked at Lin Xin, who had been listless for many days, and couldn't help but hugged Lin Xin and rubbed her, saying, "I'm sorry, I'm a little confused. When you finish filming this movie and return to China, I'll pick you up at the airport and give you an answer, okay?"
Lin Xin's eyes lit up for a moment, then dimmed again: "What do you mean by give me an answer? Is there a negative answer?"
Xue Fei didn't know whether to laugh or cry. This kid really knows how to find loopholes: "Don't talk nonsense."
Lin Xin snorted coldly, arched his back and bumped his head against Xue Fei's chest, like a sulky child.
Lin Xin's impact was quite powerful, causing Xue Fei to groan.
Xue Fei smiled bitterly and rubbed his chest and said, "Internal injuries and fractures."
Lin Xin turned around and left angrily.
Xue Fei rubbed his chest again and sighed. Although he knew he should apologize, his mind was in a mess and he didn't know what to say. It might make Lin Xin even angrier. He should wait until he adjusted his mentality before...
Well, I'd better send a text message to apologize first.
Lin Xin looked at the text messages on his phone and couldn't help but burst out laughing.
The assistant glanced at the snickering Lin Xin from the rearview mirror and thought that people in love were really unreasonable. She was angry just now, but now she was laughing again.
Lin Xin: Xiaoguang, what do you think Brother Fei is hesitating about? He seems very distressed.
Optical Brain: If you ask me, who should I ask? He is thinking in his mind and I can’t read his thoughts. Don’t make things difficult for me.
Lin Xin: I'm just talking to you, I'm not really asking you for an answer.
Optical Brain: ...Are all humans so boring?
Lin Xin: Probably?
Optical Brain: ...Will I become like this in the future?
Lin Xin: Maybe?
Light Brain: Leave me alone.
Lin Xin scratched the back of his head. Hmm, did he feel a little bit disgusted? It must be an illusion.
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The promotion of the film has been continuing along with the filming, and the audience has been kept on suspense by the crew, waiting for the moment when the film's screening time will be announced.
During this period, in addition to Lin Xin, Gu Meng also finally made the headlines. He went from being an outdated actor to the CEO of a famous listed company.
Now no one said that he was a little star kept by Qin Feng. Everyone said that their marriage was made in heaven and that they were well matched. Gu Meng was very proud. This time he finally surpassed Lin Xin in showing affection.
Lin Xin ignored Gu Meng's petty success. Now that he had finished filming his movie, he had hurried back to China and asked someone to play the ostrich to pick him up and listen to the answer.
Xue Fei had lost several pounds recently due to worry. When Lin Xin saw Xue Fei's appearance, he thought that he had become a president who worked overtime and suffered like his elder brother.
Lin Xin felt a little reluctant. He hesitated for a moment and said, "If you really don't want to, I'll give you some more time. I don't really want to get married right now."
Xue Fei smiled bitterly and said, "If we delay any longer, Lin Qin will come to attack us. Although he can't beat me."
Lin Xin said: "Okay, what do you want to tell me?"
Xue Fei said: "Would you like to go somewhere with me first?"
Lin Xin's face immediately fell: "Ah, I just came back and I have to go out again? I want to stay at home and play games for a few days. I have an appointment with Da Meng."
Xue Fei: “…”
Xue Fei held his forehead with his hand: "Then are you going or not?"
Lin Xin said with a gloomy face: "Go ahead. I'll talk to Da Meng first."
Xue Fei felt that the courage he had finally mustered was about to dissipate again.
After Lin Xin went home to rest for a night, he dragged his luggage and went to a sanatorium in the southwest with Xue Fei.
That sanatorium is a high-end sanatorium for mental patients, located in a natural scenic area surrounded by mountains and rivers. Whether it is the environment or the facilities, as well as the professionalism and service attitude of the medical staff, they are all top-notch. Not only in China, but also in countries around the world, there are rich people visiting this sanatorium and sending their relatives with mental problems here for treatment and recuperation.
Looking at the destination, Lin Xin had some idea of the purpose of this trip.
Xue Fei smiled bitterly in the car and said, "Even if I don't tell you, you should know who I'm taking you to see. It's not too late for you to refuse now."
Lin Xin said: "Why should I refuse?"
Xue Fei didn't say anything.
Why? Because the person you are going to meet is the murderer who almost killed you.
Although you have woken up and are living a good life now, the suffering you once endured cannot be erased just by saying so.
But this person was his mother. Even though the pain this mother brought him far outweighed the warmth, and even hurt the people he loved the most, the only people who had ever given him family warmth, he still couldn't let go of this person.
Xue Fei has read some psychological analysis and seen a psychologist. Some people, the more they lack something, the more they expect it, especially in terms of family affection. It is precisely because they receive little love from their parents that they expect more love from their parents.
Just like when he was young, even though he knew that his mother only had his father in her eyes and not him as her son, he would still sit in the piano room for hours, dozens of hours, just for a compliment from his mother, until his fingers on both hands were rubbed raw, blood formed scars, and finally formed calluses.
His mother went mad, and the only warm place he had ever found was destroyed.
He felt that he should hate his mother.
Although he knew that the source of his pain might be his philandering and irresponsible father, he couldn't help but hate his mother even more.
Perhaps because the child's sense of right and wrong is very weak, his father is irresponsible and unfaithful, but he is really good to him. His mother hurt him the most.
As he grew up, his sense of right and wrong became stronger. His hatred for his mother gradually decreased, and he knew that his mother had no choice, that she had mental problems, and that this was not her intention.
He began to distance himself from his father, not knowing how to face this irresponsible man.
He gradually returned to the piano room of his childhood in his dreams. Although it was very hard at that time, hard to the point of pain, it was the only memory of him and his mother that made him feel warm and "happy".
He could see his mother's smile, hear her praises, and feel her warm hands rubbing his head.
At this time, he was already the CEO of a successful multinational group, but he seemed to have returned to his childhood. He was nervous and anxious. He tried his best, just hoping that his mother's eyes would stay on him for even one more second.
Please look at me, please love me, my mother.
After waking up, he just felt disgusted by this mentality and his heart was filled with guilt.
Xue Fei felt that he was sinful for still having expectations for his mother. This woman destroyed a happy family, the family that treated him best. The child who once would hold his clothes and call him brother sweetly was still lying on the hospital bed, with terrible tubes inserted all over his body, and had been lying there for many years.
The couple who had no blood relationship with him but were called dad and mom by him cried every day for their child. His best friend who once competed with him for his younger brother became extreme and gloomy.
It's all his mother's fault.
No, his mother was mentally ill, and it wasn't his fault. It was his father's fault.
But after he was born, his father no longer went out to spend money and drink. His mother's mental problems were caused by her own suspicion, and his father seemed innocent too.
Actually...it's my own fault.
It was I who should have died, but Lin Xin died instead of me.
When he was wearing a shirt that was one size too small and couldn't be buttoned and sweatpants that looked like cropped pants, shyly hiding behind the door and not wanting to come out, Lin Xin, wearing baggy clothes, rolled up his sleeves and trouser legs, and a baseball cap, smiled and greeted his mother, calling "Mom". His mother bent down, picked up Lin Xin, and smiled brightly.
At that time, he thought to himself that his mother must have been amused by Lin Xin's funny appearance. If he walked out, would his mother laugh even more happily when she saw his funny appearance?
But this is really embarrassing.
While Xue Fei was hesitating, he watched his smiling mother holding Lin Xin and walking to the windowsill. He watched her let Lin Xin sit on the windowsill, and then pushed the confused Lin Xin down.
This scene, and the scene when he was practicing in the piano room, kept appearing in his dreams, reminding him of his sin.
If he had not exchanged clothes with Lin Xin, Lin Xin would be fine; even if he ran away, Lin Xin would be fine.
In fact, it was all his fault.
It wasn't his mentally ill mother's fault, nor was it the fault of his father who was misunderstood by his mother. It was all his fault.
Sometimes Xue Fei thought, it would be nice if he went crazy too. It would be easy if he went crazy.
But he can't go crazy, he must atone his sins.
He helped Lin Qin start a business and worked hard to earn money to secretly hire a better doctor for Lin Xin. He knew that Lin's parents would not take his money, so he also had to act with the doctor to make the doctor sympathize with Lin Xin, so he only asked for a low price. In fact, he was the one who paid the other part of the money.
Xue Fei numbed himself with busy work and sent himself to the hospital several times.
When he looked at his father and grandparents who were guarding his bedside, he realized that his relatives didn't not love him, but they were too busy with their own affairs. It was just that he valued the woman who had not given him much warmth more.
He can't collapse, his family will be sad for him.
Xue Fei used these beliefs to hold on until Lin Xin woke up.
When Lin Xin woke up, his life immediately changed from black and white to color, just like when Lin Xin was still awake.
His life was getting better and better. Everything he had lost came back one by one, and he even had more. Every day was like living in a beautiful dream, and he dreamed less and less about the past.
But when happiness is really within reach, the old nightmare reappears.
He returned to the piano room where he played piano as a child and saw again the moment when Lin Xin was pushed down by his mother.
Xue Fei knew that it was wrong to think like this, but he still couldn't help but think that he was guilty. Could he really be with Lin Xin?
After his mother was sent to the nursing home, Xue Fei would take time out every year to visit her, just quietly watching her from a distance.
After Lin Xin woke up, he would take time to secretly visit him.
He hid it from everyone, as if he was afraid that others would know that he would still visit his mother. He subconsciously believed that going to see that woman and still missing and expecting that woman was also a sin that would be blamed.
But if he wanted to marry Lin Xin, he didn't want to hide this from him anymore.
He wanted to get out of his sin and didn't want his relationship with Lin Xin to be mixed with other impurities.
It was not for atonement, he really loved Lin Xin and wanted to be with him forever.
But after Lin Xin knows his inner thoughts, will she still choose to be with him?
Would Lin Xin hate himself for visiting his murderer every year?
Xue Fei's mind was a mess.
Lin Xin didn't notice Xue Fei's current poor mental state. He looked around, curious about everything in the sanatorium.
Is this a sanatorium for treating mental illness? Are all the people living here mentally ill?
Mental illness is a disease that only humans can get. Even in the future, it is not a strange disease that can cure all patients.
It's not like the system. If there's any problem, you just need to do a virus scan or reinstall it.
The human spirit cannot be disinfected or reinstalled. If it is broken, it can only be repaired bit by bit through medication and recuperation.
Obviously, the technology of the future will be advanced enough, but it can only cure pathological problems. However, human mental problems are sometimes caused by mental illness.
Heart knots are hard to untie, heart diseases are hard to cure. Even if there is a panacea, if humans can't figure it out, even if they can save themselves this time, they can't save their whole lives.
Humans are really strange creatures. It’s fine if their organisms are abnormal, but they can even “think” of illness for themselves. They can even influence the condition of organisms through their minds.
Lin Xin followed Xue Fei into the sanatorium with full curiosity, and listened to Xue Fei asking about his mother Wu Cui's current condition.
The attending physician showed Xue Fei the most recent case, and Lin Xin noticed Xue Chen's name on the visitor list.
It turns out that Xue Chen would also come here to see Aunt Wu, Lin Xin thought.
Xue Fei seemed to have known that his father would come to see his mother. He looked at his father's name with no change in expression. He read through the treatment records up to that point in a glance, and then said to Lin Xin: "I'm going to see my mother, you..."
Lin Xin asked: "Can I go and see? Will it have any impact on Aunt Wu?"
Xue Fei seemed a little surprised by Lin Xin's nonchalant attitude. He hesitated for a moment and looked at the attending doctor.
The attending doctor asked, "You are Lin Xin, right?"
Lin Xin nodded.
The attending doctor said, "I'll go with you."
This person must be the cause of Wu Cui's worsening condition. I wonder if Wu Cui's condition will improve or worsen after seeing him appear.
Now Wu Cui has completely shut herself off mentally and refuses to communicate with doctors. Although her quiet appearance makes her easier to get along with than other patients, it is of no use to her treatment.
Before Lin Xin left, he held Xue Fei's hand and said, "Don't be afraid."
Xue Fei was stunned for a moment, and the fear in his heart seemed to be slowly soothed by a pair of large hands.
He held Lin Xin's hand tightly, took a deep breath, and said, "Okay."
The attending doctor's eyes flickered.
So that's how it is. Although I want to say congratulations, Xue Fei must be under a lot of pressure. I hope he can get over his psychological barriers.
With Lin Xin accompanying me, it should be okay, right?
This young man looks innocent and kind, so he should be able to heal Xue Fei's heart, right?
Lin Xin didn't know that he was labeled as "simple and kind" again. He held Xue Fei's hand and walked through the long corridor.
The sanatorium should be very quiet in the morning, but sometimes there would be sudden sounds like the howling of wild beasts, or creepy laughter or crying, adding a sense of horror to the quiet atmosphere.
In this environment, Lin Xin's heart couldn't help but tighten.
The attending doctor looked at Lin Xin's unnatural expression and comforted her, "The patients here are all under the care of specialists, don't worry."
Lin Xin frowned and asked, "Wouldn't it be uncomfortable for you to live in this environment?"
The attending doctor was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said, "We have long shifts and regular psychological treatment."
Without these, we would definitely not be able to hold on.
Lin Xin felt Xue Fei's grip on his hand tighten.
He shook Xue Fei's hand in return, and continued to follow the attending physician through corridors after corridors until they came to an independent small courtyard.
Xue Fei did not enter the gate, but took Lin Xin to a bush. From here, through the gaps between the railings and the trees, a woman sitting on a rattan chair in the yard could be seen.
The woman looked like an ordinary person, as if she was leisurely basking in the sun. But if you look closely, you can see that she is mumbling something and her eyes are dull and lifeless.
Lin Xin asked in a low voice: "What is Aunt Wu talking about?"
Was she apologizing to him, or was she reading her child's name? Since Aunt Wu's condition worsened because she accidentally dropped him, she must be thinking about him and Xue Fei, right?
Xue Fei's eyes were dim and he did not answer.
The attending doctor sighed and said, "Thinking of Mr. Xue Chen."
Lin Xin was puzzled: "Uncle Xue?"
Xue Fei forced himself to remain calm and said, "Mom's consciousness went back to the time when she was in love with Dad. She seemed to be able to see a younger version of Dad that we couldn't see. Every time I came, she was chatting with that invisible person, and she looked very happy."
Lin Xin was silent.
Aunt Wu's biggest worry was Uncle Xue. She had ignored Xue Fei before, and now she had simply forgotten about him.
Lin Xin thought, he was Aunt Wu’s worry, so as long as he showed up, maybe Aunt Wu would wake up?
It seems that there is no way now. Even if Uncle Xue appears, Aunt Wu will not wake up.
She rejected all information from the outside world, rejected the misunderstandings and pains she encountered after marriage, and allowed her consciousness to return to the happiest time.
Lin Xin couldn't help but said, "I'm sorry, Brother Fei, it seems that it's useless for me to come?"
Xue Fei was stunned for a moment and asked, "Why do you want to apologize to me?"
Lin Xin said: "Didn't you bring me here to cure Aunt Wu?"
Xue Fei was stunned: "Ah?"
Lin Xin said: "Aunt Wu went crazy because of me. If I'm fine, Aunt Wu will be fine too. But you're worried that I hate Aunt Wu and don't want to save her, so you're in so much pain, isn't that right?"
Xue Fei frowned: "Of course not..."
Lin Xin acted like Psyduck and tilted his head in confusion.
Xue Fei sighed and said, "Look, my mother once hurt you... and your family so much. But I can't abandon my mother. I will still try my best to treat her and visit her every year..."
Lin Xin said: "Ah, isn't this natural? Of course you should try your best to treat her and come to visit her."
So what is Brother Xue worried about? Lin Xin continued to imitate Psyduck with its head tilted in confusion.
Xue Fei was speechless.
The attending physician listened in and couldn't help turning his head and shaking his shoulders.
Lin Xin looked at his brother Fei with a confused look. Brother Fei, what are you thinking about? I don't understand.
Xue Fei understood what Lin Xin meant and suddenly felt powerless.
He said weakly: "Let's go back."
Lin Xin looked confused: "Ah?"
Xue Fei said weakly: "Go back and get your household registration booklet and register for marriage."
Lin Xin: ?????
Hey, why did you suddenly agree to get married? Don't you need to think about it? I don't understand.
The attending doctor tried hard to suppress his smile and said, "Congratulations... Congratulations... Haha."
Hahahaha, this couple is so funny!
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