Yun Shuning was held in his arms, feeling his familiar breath, and her messy thoughts slowly calmed down.
She knew that now that she had spoken these things out loud, there was no need to hide them any longer.
She was in his arms, her voice was very soft, no emotion could be heard: "At first, I pretended to be your girlfriend only because I made a mistake at that time and didn't want to be punished, so I made up a story about being the girlfriend of a powerful and wealthy man who had disappeared."
The matter of traveling through a book was too unbelievable, so she didn't intend to tell him, but other than that, she told him everything.
If it weren't for the emergence of this system, she might have always been afraid, afraid that He Yan would recover his memory at some point, and afraid that she would lose everything she had now.
But she didn't dare to break this situation, didn't dare to tell everything, because she didn't have the courage.
"Originally I just wanted to live a good life, but later, more and more people believed this lie. Of course, this is what I want. After all, only when more people believe in our relationship can I live a better life."
"You should know what happened later. The speed at which this lie spread even shocked me, the person involved." She knew how to use words to embellish things. The circulation of the painting "Miracle" was indeed not her original intention, but she also benefited from it.
She slowly, slowly told the whole story of the lie from beginning to end.
Actually, after all, there are not so many excuses. It’s just because she wants to live.
At first, it was to escape the punishment for destroying Lin's evening dress, and later it was to avoid the "pursuit" of Su Muqing, Yu Cheng and others.
It seems a bit too much of an excuse for her to say it was a coincidence.
After Yun Shuning finished speaking, she felt that He Yan's hand on her did not move at all, and many thoughts flashed through her mind.
How would he look at her now: disappointment, heartache, or disgust?
She slowly stood up from his arms and took two steps back. Now she didn't dare to look up, for fear of seeing a stranger.
He Yan stretched out his hand to block her way back.
Perhaps it was because the Lord God had too little energy, or perhaps it was because time was urgent, the distorted memory of Yun Shuning was full of loopholes.
He didn't even need to discern what she said, because for every word she said, he could find countless reasons to refute it.
She said that her past with him was just a lie, but how could that explain her understanding of him? His insomnia, his preference for food...
Although He Chen is not very smart, he will not be fooled by such a fantastic lie.
Moreover, at this moment, a thought suddenly flashed through his mind: Even if all that happened in the past was fake, so what?
If it weren't for this "fake" love, he might not have had the chance to return to this world, and might have been lost on the way home.
Even if the 'past' was false, the Yun Shuning he saw during this period was real.
Feeling the silence between the two, Yun Shuning finally couldn't help it and said in a trembling voice: "He Yan, don't you have anything to say to me?"
She raised her head and looked at He Yan, thinking she was strong and calm.
But He Yan looked at her and saw the precarious fragility in her eyes. She could not withstand the slightest stimulation now.
He could have told her that what she had just said was because her memory had been tampered with, and he could have pointed out the loopholes to her bit by bit.
But at this moment, he suddenly felt that this was not the answer she wanted, or perhaps such an answer would only irritate her.
What kind of answer should she want now?
"Ningning." He Yan looked at her seriously, "You should know that I have forgotten some things. Now I never remember our past."
Yun Shuning stood there in a daze listening to his words.
She had thought about how he would react when he found out, but no matter how hard she thought about it, she had never guessed his current reaction.
She raised her head, her eyes filled with emotions so complicated that even she couldn't explain them clearly.
It is expectation, confusion, fear and terror.
"I am willing to put you in the most important position in my heart. Maybe it's because of those 'false' memories, but the most important thing is, because that person is you." He Yan looked at her eyes and felt his heart aching and soft.
"What does this mean?" Yun Shuning held his breath.
She already understood, but she couldn't believe it.
He Yan, does he really not care about her deception of him? How is that possible?
"If our previous relationship was based on lies." He Yan raised his hand and gently combed her hair, with a faint smile in his eyes, "Ningning, then does our future relationship represent complete truth?"
"He Yan." Yun Shuning tilted his head back slightly to avoid his hand, "Don't you know what happened?"
"Even if you don't care about the lie, the person in front of you is a habitual liar and is not as good as you think."
"She is not kind at all. All the qualities she showed around you are fake. She is just a bad woman who can deceive you and everyone in order to survive."
"It's so late today. You won't be able to rest well if you go back. Can you take a day off for tomorrow's live broadcast?"
"No." Yun Shuning said without thinking, "The live broadcast time is not that early, how can I ask for leave because of such a small matter?"
He Yan smiled and rubbed her head when he heard this: "At least your dedication to your work is real."
Yun Shuning admitted that she felt a little weird after hearing him say this. When did He Yan have the same twisted train of thought as hers? Is it true that birds of a feather flock together?
"He Yan." Her tone became heavier.
She didn't realize that she now had a bit of vitality of her own and no longer had the wandering feeling she had before.
"Yun Shuning." He Yan looked at her seriously, his face was also unusually serious, "There is no perfect good person in this world, no one stipulates that a person must be perfect."
"What I see is never a perfect you."
Why did she feel that it was just a lie and all the good qualities in her disappeared with this lie?
He silently hid the complete Yun Shuning in his eyes, who was a little lazy, a little clever, afraid of hardship and not fond of exercise. He always felt that if he told her all her shortcomings, the person he had finally tried to coax might shrink back into her shell and might even bite him.
"But I..." Yun Shuning blinked and wanted to say something.
"Do you think it is unforgivable to tell a harmless lie in order to protect your own life?" He Yan interrupted her and asked softly.
"It's not harmless, it's a very serious lie." Yun Shuning raised his head and looked at him carefully, then retorted in a low voice.
He Yan looked at her helplessly. She still said how "bad" she was. She didn't know what some people in some places could do when faced with the threat of death. She might not even be able to imagine it.
Even he couldn't guarantee that the person who might hurt him would still have a chance to breathe.
Of course, that was in a world without laws as a bottom line. Another thing he learned in the copy was to do things within the scope of the rules.
He will use the rules but will not challenge them.
"Okay, the owner of the lie and the person involved, I forgive you now." He Yan said this lightly, "So, can you go home with me now?"
Yun Shuning listened to his words and felt that she might really be dreaming.
If it wasn't a dream, why would so many bizarre things happen, why would some kind of system appear, and why would he be forgiven so easily.
She even felt that he had never blamed her at all, and all the words he said seemed to be comforting her, telling her not to think too much.
"He Yan." Yun Shuning's eyes were more serious than ever before. "I have a question for you."
She looked at the clothes he had not had time to change after arriving at the villa, looked at his delicate yet sharp eyebrows, and looked at those eyes that never showed any emotion when looking at others, but were always exceptionally gentle when looking at her.
She took a deep breath: "He Yan, do you love me?"
He was so good to her. If it really had nothing to do with that lie, could she have a little expectation that he would treat her...
He Yan was slightly startled when he heard her words.
He had not expected her to ask such a question, nor had he ever thought about how to answer it.
Seeing his reaction, Yun Shuning slowly lowered the corners of her lips that had been raised at some point: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have..."
"What is love?" He Yan looked at her, stretched out his hand and gently placed it on her shoulder, with no concealment of the seriousness in his eyes.
"I will care about you unconsciously, like to see you happy, miss you when I am away from you, and try to come back to accompany you as soon as possible..."
"Is this love?"
Listening to his words, Yun Shuning couldn't suppress the smile on her lips.
She smiled and shook her head: "This is not love, this is liking."
But she was already extremely satisfied to get such an answer from him.
She suddenly began to pray that tomorrow would come later, so that she could make this dream last longer.
"Then what is love?" He Yan's voice sounded a little confused.
"Love, probably means being able to respect all her choices based on these." Yun Shuning suddenly remembered the saying that has been circulating for a long time, "Liking is unbridled, and love is restraint."
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"That system has no style at all. The whole system looks so small." Yun Shuning nestled in He Yan's arms. At this moment, she looked like a complainer. She stretched out her hand and made a gesture smaller than an ant. "And the light on it looks really ugly."
She described the golden light on the Lord God as yellow without any guilt.
It also vividly acted out the scene in which it looked down on her, threatened her and even took advantage of her.
Except for the fact that she traveled through the book, she couldn't tell anyone about it. She filed all the complaints she could.
She held He Yan's hand and held her in her arms.
He heard about the danger and how she dealt with that weakness of his.
Yun Shuning did not spend much time on that part, but from the few words of description, he knew that her memory had been tampered with by the Lord God at that time.
Even though she knew that he might hurt her in the future, and even though the Lord God threatened her with this false memory, she still made the decision that was in his best interest.
How can you be so stupid? It makes me feel sad.
"Next time, if you see this system, you must vent my anger for me." Yun Shuning was still angry after making the complaint.
"Okay." He Yan replied gently.
Next time you see it, just let it break into pieces.
At this time, the main god who was hiding in the mountains and forests far away in the suburbs sneezed violently: Strange, as a god-like being, could it also catch a cold?
"Okay, it's time to go to bed." He Yan spoke softly when he saw that she seemed unable to open her eyes.
Yun Shuning blinked: "Actually, I'm not very sleepy..."
"Then I'll cancel tomorrow's live broadcast for you..."
“No, no.” She quickly waved her hand. She was a little embarrassed when talking about why she didn’t want to sleep. “I’m just afraid that I’ll wake up and find that all this was just a dream.”
"When you wake up, if you see a gift at the bedside, it means that everything that happened today was not a dream." He Yan saw that she had closed her eyes, and kissed her forehead tenderly.
"Goodnight, my girlfriend."
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