Chapter 169 How Long Can She Live
Qin Yu returned to his rented house alone. The glass that Jiang Fengyan had washed was still on the table in the living room.
Qin Yu boiled a kettle of water and poured it into a glass. The image of Jiang Fengyan standing in the living room flashed through his mind. For a moment, Qin Yu wanted to reach out his hand, but after he came to his senses, he smiled bitterly.
Then he began his daily training routine.
The National Day holiday lasted a total of seven days. During these seven days, Qin Yu only had one meal with Jiang Fengyan. The rest of the time they were basically busy with their own things. They only made a video call before going to bed.
On the sixth night, Jiang Fengyan invited Qin Yu to his home again, but Qin Yu still had some concerns.
"My mother wants to talk to you." Jiang Fengyan said.
Qin Yu stared at Jiang Fengyan in white pajamas on the phone screen. Every inch of his skin looked exceptionally white under the light. Qin Yu's Adam's apple rolled before he answered Jiang Fengyan's question: "She was worried about handing you over to me?"
"no."
Jiang Fengyan actually knew what Qin Yu was afraid of. Qin Yu lived a dependent life when he was a child and had no relatives around him, so he tried his best to maintain his relationship with his family.
Perhaps in Qin Yu's view, Jiang Fengyan can live without him, but not without his family.
"She has some misunderstandings about you, and she wants to have a good talk with you." Jiang Fengyan hesitated for a few seconds, and finally said his selfish motive, "She insulted you because of her unstable mood back then, and I want her to apologize to you."
Jiang Fengyan's words stunned Qin Yu. He originally thought that Jiang Fengyan just wanted him to sort out the relationship with his family, but he didn't expect it was because of what happened that year.
"No need to apologize. She's not wrong. I am indeed the son of a murderer." Qin Yu said, "You said your mother disciplined you very strictly and it may have caused you harm. Whether you hate her or blame her, it is not something I, an outsider, can get involved in. Because from my point of view, your mother cares about you very much, and she doesn't want to see me."
Qin Yu's words seemed to show that he didn't care about the hurt Jiang Fengyan had suffered from his mother, but Jiang Fengyan knew that this was Qin Yu's most rational answer, and the meaning of his words was both emotional and reasonable.
"See her for the last time. Her illness is getting worse. The doctor said that it's too late for mother to get treatment, and she won't live long." Jiang Fengyan said to Qin Yu calmly.
Qin Yu suddenly remembered Chen Lixue's pale face and was stunned: "How long can she live?"
"I don't know." Jiang Fengyan said, "Maybe he won't survive until the end of the year."
"You..." Qin Yu suddenly didn't know what to say.
"Don't comfort me. I knew about this two years ago. That's why I didn't go looking for you even though I knew you were leaving."
Before the college entrance examination, Jiang Fengyan spent two months "atonement" in front of Chen Lixue. During this process, he would do whatever Chen Lixue asked him to do.
Qin Yu's pupils gradually darkened. He looked at Jiang Fengyan's cold expression on the phone screen, and his heart suddenly felt blocked. What he feared most was that Jiang Fengyan would lose his loved ones because of him.
"Would you be afraid?" Qin Yu asked slowly, "If she really passed away one day, what would you do?"
Jiang Fengyan was also looking at Qin Yu and suddenly laughed out loud: "Qin Yu, you don't really think I'm a sentimental person, do you?"
The cold laugh chilled Qin Yu's heart. He frowned and tried to stop Jiang Fengyan from laughing, but then he heard Jiang Fengyan say, "If I didn't love you so much, I would have chosen to follow my mother when she passed away, because I once stood at her door with a knife in my hand and tried to die with her."
Qin Yu didn't say anything, but many fragments flashed through his mind. He suddenly realized that Jiang Fengyan didn't seem to have any good friends around him. Even though he had been isolated for a long time, he still had friends like Shen Chenan who he could invite out for drinks.
"Do you know why I listen to my mother so much?"
Jiang Fengyan was still smiling, but Qin Yu found it extremely dazzling, and he also vaguely felt a chill from it, a chilling chill that made him shudder.
"She slapped me, and if I dodged, she would slap herself twice in front of me; she punished me by starving me, and if I couldn't bear it and went to eat, she would not eat until I fainted from hunger; she made me kneel all night, and if I stood up, she would kneel at the door of the house until I had kneeled all night."
Jiang Fengyan stopped laughing, and suddenly he was afraid to look Qin Yu in the eye. He lowered his head and continued, "From childhood to adulthood, I have been slapped by her hundreds of times. I had to kneel for a whole night almost every time I took an exam, and I have been starved countless times. Later, she restrained herself only because I committed suicide. I was only a few minutes away from death."
Jiang Fengyan closed his eyes and recalled the scene of blood all over the floor and Chen Lixue hugging him and crying.
"I'm not that good at all. There are people I hate so much that I want to kill." Jiang Fengyan said softly.
Qin Yu felt as if he was being tortured by a sharp blade. Blood was splattered all over the place and he was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe. He couldn't imagine how Jiang Fengyan managed to survive.
"Why did she... do that to you?"
"In the name of love." Jiang Fengyan opened his eyes, "She thinks she is my mother and everything she does is for my own good."
"Jiang Fengyan..." Qin Yu opened his mouth, his voice so low that he could hardly hear his own voice, but he still said, "Did you have friends during that time? Friends who you could talk to about your troubles with."
Jiang Fengyan didn't know why Qin Yu asked this question, but he answered anyway: "She doesn't let me touch any electronic products, and doesn't let me get too close to anyone."
The implication is that, let alone friends, there is not even anyone with whom I can chat and talk.
Therefore, Jiang Fengyan went through all those years alone.
Qin Yu's heartbeat suddenly became heavy, and each beat touched the pain nerves all over his body. Suddenly he felt numb and at a loss.
"About four or five years ago, I noticed that she was not mentally well, so I began to accept her oppression and listened to her as much as possible. It was not until two years ago that I determined that she had mental illness and heart disease that I repeatedly persuaded her to seek treatment and even contacted her father to come back to take care of her." Jiang Fengyan said, "She asked me to take the entrance exam to Tsinghua University and I passed. No matter how much I hated her, I never retaliated against her. I have done everything I can. If she really leaves, I will have a clear conscience."
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