Chapter 476 Where does she put herself?
Lu Shiman was also confused. If the person in front of her was not wearing the Third Brother's skin, she would have thought that this person was a little lover who appeared from nowhere.
"Third brother, is it... someone trying to sow discord between you?" She subconsciously looked at Lu Chixu, the meaning was self-evident.
Lu Chixu rolled his eyes: "What are you looking at? Don't try to put all the blame on me."
Lu Shiman retracted her gaze and continued to look at Lu Jianheng: "Third brother, don't use the same tricks on Yingying and Yanyan on your own sister."
Lu Jianheng's Adam's apple rolled, and he forced himself to suppress his heartache and anger.
He pulled the corners of his mouth, trying to make himself look normal: "No, don't think too much." She softened her tone, but with a deeper stubbornness: "I just want to know, who is the most important person in your heart?"
The doubt in Lu Shiman's eyes deepened.
This question is so strange and abrupt.
She lowered her eyes slightly and remained silent, as if she was thinking seriously, or organizing her words.
Lu Chixu watched anxiously from the side and glared at Lu Jianheng fiercely, fearing that his further questioning would make his sister uncomfortable.
Lu Jianheng also realized that his question was a bit abrupt, so he stopped talking immediately.
Lu Shiman finally raised her head, her eyes lingering on the faces of her two brothers, and she smiled suddenly: "They are all important, eldest brother, second brother, third brother, fourth brother, Jiaojiao, Ji Linshen..."
She counted on her fingers, explaining each person clearly: "They are all important, there is no particular order of ranking. We don't have a competition for the C position, everyone is the C position."
She smiled and made a heart gesture, trying to ease the atmosphere.
She acted too 'normal', as normal as a bright and sunny little princess, enjoying everyone's love with peace of mind.
This just aggravated the dull pain in Lu Jianheng's heart.
He didn't laugh.
He looked at her smiling face and the calmness in her eyes, and his emotions surged up again, almost overwhelming his last bit of rationality.
Lu Jianheng took a step closer, his voice even deeper, emphasizing each word: "Lu Shiman, what about you? Why don't you have yourself in your heart?"
“…”
The office suddenly became quiet.
Lu Chixu's breathing stagnated and he looked at Lu Shiman with complicated eyes.
He didn't expect Lu Jianheng to ask so directly and hit the sore spot.
The smile on Lu Shiman's face seemed to be paused, frozen at the corner of his mouth.
She didn't seem to fully understand the question, and she widened her eyes slightly and stared at Lu Jianheng.
There was silence for several minutes.
Lu Shiman smiled, her tone as if it was natural: "Because I have to be outside." She raised her hand and pointed to her heart: "I have to be outside to put you away."
This sentence, like a silent bomb, exploded in the hearts of Lu Chixu and Lu Jianheng.
Outside? Installed?
So where does she put herself?
Is her heart just a container to hold them?
A container that keeps stuffing others in but excludes herself?
Their hearts felt like they were being crushed by a huge rock, and the sharp pain mixed with sadness instantly overwhelmed them both.
Lu Jianheng's eyes were red, and he wished he could tear open Lu Shiman's heart and stuff himself in it.
Lu Chixu couldn't hold it in any longer, he stood up suddenly and pulled Lu Shiman, who was still in a daze, over to him: "Let's go, idiot, your third brother's brain is covered in documents today, ignore him."
Lu Jianheng stood still and did not stop him.
Pei Mo Ning's psychological counseling room.
Lu Yannan sat on the single sofa with his back straight, but a layer of unshakable worry hung between his brows.
He had just explained Lu Shiman's words to Pei Mo Ning in detail using the most calm and objective language possible.
Pei Mo Ning sat opposite him, wearing a simple beige cashmere sweater, with her long hair loosely tied up, revealing her slender neck.
She listened quietly, her fingers unconsciously stroking the edge of the teacup, her brows furrowed more and more as Lu Yannan spoke.
"Mr. Lu." Her voice was particularly clear in the quiet room. "Based on your description and my previous initial contact with her, her problem is far more complicated than we originally thought."
"What she is showing now is a very typical deeply repressed personality, accompanied by a completely distorted sense of self-worth."
Lu Yannan's heart sank suddenly, and his hands on his knees clenched unconsciously.
"How do you want to explain it specifically?" Lu Yannan's Adam's apple rolled and his voice was a little tense.
Pei Mo Ning tapped his fingertips lightly on the table, as if he was sorting out his thoughts.
"Simply put, her inner world has an extremely strong protective shell."
"The core logic of this shell is that I am unimportant, and my feelings, needs, and even my life itself can be sacrificed for others at any time."
"She sees herself as a vessel, a vessel to hold you."
"The container itself has no value and does not need to be cherished."
Pei Mo Ning raised his eyes to meet Lu Yannan's. "This kind of cognitive distortion is very deep. It will lead to a series of extremely dangerous psychological mechanisms, such as suppressing one's own emotions and needs, blaming oneself for any negative emotions, instinctively avoiding conflicts between relatives, and being sensitive to the emotional changes of others."
Lu Yannan recalled, and many scenes emerged in his mind.
Those scenes now matched what Pei Mo Ning said one by one.
He did not interrupt Pei Mo Ning and changed his sitting position.
Breathing was a little difficult, Lu Yannan unbuttoned a button on the chest of his shirt, and then he felt a little more alive.
Pei Mo Ning's voice sank. "With this understanding, she subconsciously believes that if her existence becomes a burden to you, then her disappearance would be the best contribution to you."
Lu Yannan's mind flashed back to when Lao Si's laboratory exploded and Lu Shiman said in the ward corridor that she should be the one to die.
He always thought that she said this because she blamed herself, but it turned out to be the conclusion she came to after her inner logic was self-consistent.
Lu Yannan's face gradually lost color under Pei Mo Ning's analysis.
The veins on the back of his hands, which were placed on his knees, were bulging.
There was a suffocating silence.
There was only the sound of two people's suppressed breathing.
After a long while, Lu Yannan finally raised his head with difficulty: "Can...can it be cured? How can it be cured?"
Pei Mo Ning looked at Lu Yannan, who seemed to be broken at the slightest touch, and the softest part of his heart was gently touched.
Her hands on the table moved slightly, as if she wanted to reach out to comfort him, but in the end she just clasped them together tighter.
She took a deep breath and said, "Psychological problems are not terminal illnesses. Although her condition is complex and serious, it is not irreversible."
"The key is that this is a long-term intervention that requires extreme patience and your full cooperation."
"You need to break open her protective shell and let her come out on her own."
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