Perfection
The effects and side effects of that serum were far beyond Sang Jiyue's imagination.
She looked no different from before, she was thoughtful and rational, but her face was paler, and those zombie characteristics were well hidden when she was not showing any aggressiveness.
However, the side effects of the serum were too severe. The same pain as in her previous life tormented her like a shadow and lasted longer.
Sang Jiyue has an excellent ability to endure pain, except for the initial period when she would faint and cry from the pain. Later, she got used to it and hid her vulnerability very well.
It'll be fine, she'll be fine.
It won't hurt forever.
Sang Jiyue often comforts herself in this way when the pain is unbearable.
…
Sheng Xingzhou originally thought that Sang Jiyue would change after being injected with the serum, but she seemed to be no different from before, except that she was not as weak.
But she became much quieter, and from time to time she trembled uncontrollably. This was an unconscious behavior when she felt pain in the past, and the frequency became more and more frequent after the injection of the serum.
Sheng Xingzhou also realized that Sang Jiyue chose to inject the serum created by Jiang Wangxi to accelerate genetic evolution and gave up natural evolution.
Although he has always preferred that Sang Jiyue could choose to be injected with the zombie virus and evolve naturally, Sang Jiyue never told him what she was thinking, so he could only guess.
At that time, Sheng Xingzhou guessed that she would choose the latter, because she was the former in her previous life and was very miserable. Since she could choose this time, natural evolution would of course be better for her.
Why did she choose the serum that accelerates genetic evolution?
Obviously, they both had plenty of time, and he was ready, waiting for the day when she would remember him.
Sheng Xingzhou couldn't understand it, but when he saw Sang Jiyue trying hard to suppress the pain and refusing to show it, he felt angry and distressed.
This seems to be a dead end, and they can only accept the arrangements of fate...?
Realizing his own insignificance and powerlessness, Sheng Xingzhou fell into a familiar depression.
At that time, he was making a swing for Sang Jiyue. The courtyard was full of greenery in spring, and the flower seeds sown there might bloom into gorgeous flowers next year.
Sang Jiyue stood quietly by the gate, staring at Sheng Xingzhou's back.
She was very perceptive and could clearly notice that Sheng Xingzhou was in a bad mood.
It was just like that last time, but she was unconscious at that time. When she recalled everything belatedly, Sheng Xingzhou was no longer by her side.
And now…
"Sheng Xingzhou."
Sang Jiyue's voice was very soft, but it was particularly clear in Sheng Xingzhou's ears.
Sheng Xingzhou walked up to her in two or three steps and habitually grasped her cold hand: "The swing is ready, come over and play."
Sang Jiyue stared at the swing, some unpleasant memories flooded into her mind, and she stood there unwilling to move.
"I don't want to play." Sang Jiyue retracted her gaze and said, "I want to talk to you."
"Okay." Sheng Xingzhou sat down with her on the steps to the side. As if remembering something, he said to her, "I'm going to the nearby base tomorrow. We're running low on supplies. I'll probably be back in half a day."
Sang Jiyue pursed her lips and clenched her hands at her sides. She didn't continue with Sheng Xingzhou's words, but asked, "Are you unhappy lately?"
"Why do you ask me that?"
Sang Jiyue frowned in distress: "I just don't understand why you are unhappy."
Obviously, they weren't in any crisis right now, and she at least seemed to be getting better.
"I'm happy every day with you, Ayue." Sheng Xingzhou's hand rested lightly on her shoulder. His fingertips could clearly feel her slight trembling. He hesitated to speak.
Sang Jiyue murmured: "I really don't understand..."
He was unhappy last time she chose natural evolution, and he was also unhappy this time she chose to accelerate genetic evolution. If Sheng Xingzhou couldn't figure out why all this happened, it meant that he might repeat the same mistake.
This was not what she wanted to see.
She has already thought about everything that will happen next and will not allow any more changes.
So Sheng Xingzhou’s thoughts are very important. If he acts behind her back again, everything will be ruined.
Sang Jiyue came back to her senses and changed her way of communicating with him: "Sheng Xingzhou, I was wondering what you would think if I didn't wait for you on New Year's Eve, but chose to inject the zombie virus instead."
He was silent for a moment, and followed Sang Jiyue's words to imagine that possibility.
"I would think that I didn't do well enough and that you didn't trust me enough. Ah Yue, I want to be needed by you, and I will prove that you need me." Sheng Xingzhou said with a smile on his face: "But this is just a hypothesis. I'm very happy that you waited for me."
"Yeah, it's just an assumption..." Sang Jiyue lowered her eyes and said softly, "But you're still unhappy, Sheng Xingzhou, why? Tell me what you really think."
Sang Jiyue's repeated questioning made Sheng Xingzhou realize that she really cared about him. He said, "Ayue, I'm really not unhappy, I just..."
He looked at Sang Jiyue, and his voice choked for a moment.
Sang Jiyue still looked at him in confusion.
Sheng Xingzhou took a deep breath, covered her cold hand, and said, "You are obviously in so much pain yourself, why are you still trying to comfort me?"
He just felt sorry for Sang Jiyue.
My heart felt like it was being pressed down by a huge rock, heavy and stuffy.
Sang Jiyue turned her head and said uncomfortably, "I'm not in pain."
"Why didn't you choose to be injected with the zombie virus?" Sheng Xingzhou asked her softly, "Is it because I'm not trustworthy enough for you?"
"No, no." Sang Jiyue denied, her eyelashes trembling, hiding the emotions in her eyes: "It's because I don't want to forget you."
During the time when she forgot Sheng Xingzhou, he disappeared when Su woke up.
Sheng Xingzhou reacted, reached out and hugged her, and put his hand against her cold cheek, speaking incoherently: "But Yue. Whether you remember me or not, I will always treat you the same... How can you stop feeling hurt?"
It would be great if he could also awaken his psychic abilities, so that he could share Sang Jiyue's pain.
Rather than being unable to do anything.
Sheng Xingzhou asked, "If it was Jiang Wangxi, would he make you feel better?"
He looked at the pale and trembling Sang Jiyue and suddenly asked this question.
Sang Jiyue's brows immediately furrowed: "Why do you say that?"
Sheng Xingzhou is completely different from before. He would never ask such a stupid question before.
He said calmly, "I often think that you were right from the beginning."
As an outsider in their story, he really has no effect on Sang Jiyue.
Sang Jiyue was not wrong from the beginning.
She knew everything clearly, but still chose him. She was in pain and trembling at the moment, but he could do nothing.
For the first time, Sheng Xingzhou wanted to retreat and imagine beautifying another path that Sang Jiyue and Jiang Wangxi had taken.
"No." Sang Jiyue almost blurted out. She seemed to have fewer concerns. It was also the first time she told Sheng Xingzhou what was in her heart.
If there was no Sheng Xingzhou, if there was no Sheng Xingzhou...
Sang Jiyue didn't want to recall how she wandered around in a daze after losing him last time, nor did she want to think about how bad her life was in the life without Sheng Xingzhou.
She whispered, "You are the only one who treats me the best. You are the only one who chooses me without reservation and thinks I am the most important. I like you to take care of me."
"I like you to like me, and I like you too."
Sheng Xingzhou helped her regain many of the emotions she had lost.
So Sang Jiyue did not regret her choice.
It was so in the past and it will be so in the future.
Sang Jiyue raised her head slightly, touched his chin, and whispered, "So don't be unhappy..."
After all, there is not much time left.
In the remaining time, she hoped to see him as happy as before.
Silly and naive, admirably optimistic.
Instead of being like this now, she couldn't see what he was thinking.
"I should be the one saying this to you." Sheng Xingzhou poked her soft cheek and said, "You don't need to endure the pain in front of me."
"I told you I'm not in pain." Sang Jiyue curled her lips and said, "I'm different from you. I'm not afraid of pain, and I'll get better soon."
Sheng Xingzhou hummed, as if to comfort Sang Jiyue, but also as if to comfort himself: "It will be fine."
"Sheng Xingzhou." Sang Jiyue continued, "What do you think would be a happy ending?"
"You continue to grow up healthy and without any illness."
"Okay." Sang Jiyue asked again, "What about Sang Huai and Yin Qiao? What would be a happy ending?"
Hearing Sang Huai's name, Sheng Xingzhou frowned unconsciously and said, "Sang Huai doesn't deserve a happy ending."
If Sang Huai has a happy ending, how can Sang Jiyue also have a happy ending?
Sheng Xingzhou knew that Sang Jiyue hated Sang Huai, so he would also share the same hatred.
Sang Jiyue said: "He will have it."
"Don't let yourself be wronged by saying such things." Sheng Xingzhou touched the top of her soft hair and said, "If he shows up, I won't let you be wronged again."
That's why he came here, isn't it?
Sang Jiyue seemed to realize something. She didn't say anything more about it. Instead, she asked, "Do you still need strawberries out there? Can you help me find a basket when you go to the base?"
Sheng Xingzhou agreed immediately.
Sang Jiyue said, "I must find it. I want to eat it. You can come back later."
Sheng Xingzhou glanced at Sang Jiyue, and a strange feeling inexplicably rose in his heart.
After a while, he nodded: "I will find it."
The day passed quickly.
Sheng Xingzhou leisurely prepared breakfast for Sang Jiyue, and even had time to make a garland for her to play with. He also gave her a few worried instructions and wanted to drag Sang Jiyue out with him, but was finally driven away by Sang Jiyue.
With one person missing from the house, the place immediately became quiet.
Sang Jiyue put the wreath aside, sat on the steps at the door, and stared in the direction of the gate.
The timeline remains normal and has not been altered.
But this time, the first thing Sang Jiyue saw was another familiar figure——
"Ayue."
Yin Qiao's face looked even paler, and her thin figure looked like she could be blown down by a gust of wind.
Sang Jiyue was stunned for a moment: "Qiao Qiao."
Why is it Yin Qiao?
"If it's not me, do you hope it's Sang Huai?" Yin Qiao seemed to see through Sang Jiyue's thoughts and asked her.
Sang Jiyue didn't say anything for a moment.
Yin Qiao's lips turned pale as he said to Sang Jiyue, "There won't be a next time, Ah Yue. My powers can't sustain another restart of time and space. Luckily, I woke up early this time, so I asked Brother Xi to help me and come here first."
"I know. Where's Sang Huai?"
Yin Qiao pursed her lips tightly and said, "Before coming to find you, Brother Xi controlled him in advance. He is now in the camp and will not be able to leave in the short term."
"Okay." Sang Jiyue said calmly, "Then let's go to the camp."
"Ayue!" Yin Qiao was desperate and helpless: "Don't..."
Sang Jiyue's gaze suddenly shifted behind Yin Qiao.
The man looked at her coldly, hatred in his eyes.
Yin Qiao felt something and looked back, then subconsciously ran to Sang Jiyue and stood in front of her.
Sang Huai looked at Yin Qiao calmly and said, "Qiao Qiao, you don't need to persuade Sang Jiyue. She's not the only one who's been enduring. The grudge between us can't be erased with just a few words."
"So, don't use your powers to help her again and again. She doesn't deserve it."
Yin Qiao's voice sank: "Do you know that if I don't restart time and space, you will..."
"I'm not dead." Sang Huai sneered, "It was that fool who died who didn't know his own limitations."
Sang Jiyue's expression behind Yin Qiao suddenly turned cold.
She pushed Yin Qiao aside and looked directly at Sang Huai. After a moment, a smile suddenly appeared on her expressionless face: "Brother."
"You don't have to be hostile to me anymore."
Sang Jiyue said softly: "Rather than killing you, I want to get along with you better now. We both deserve a happy ending, don't we?"
Sang Jiyue was full of lies, but at this moment she actually said such submissive words that made Sang Huai stunned for a moment.
"To show my sincerity..." Sang Jiyue threw the dagger hidden in her sleeve to Sang Huai, smiling with her white teeth showing: "I'll give you your dagger back."
The dagger that should have belonged to Sang Huai was thrown at his feet.
Sang Huai didn't react, but Yin Qiao found it incredible: "Ayue, have you really figured it out?"
"Yeah, I figured it out." Sang Jiyue nodded, looking relaxed. "Qiao Qiao, please help me persuade my brother. After all, if they really fight, he won't get any good results. Don't you agree, brother?"
Sang Jiyue asked the last question to Sang Huai. She was talking about the very first life, when Sang Huai was eventually beheaded by her and died together with her.
"If the ending is predetermined, why should we go to war?" Sang Jiyue walked towards Sang Huai. Even though he had the lightning power in his hand pointed at her, she had no intention of resisting. "I hope this time, our ending will be happy."
Sang Huai seemed to have heard a huge joke: "You and Jiang Wangxi have done so many evil things, killing Xu Zhiyuan and Ye Lin. Can a simple statement like "you want perfection" make it so that none of this has happened?"
"Brother, it's okay, as long as you're willing." The smile on Sang Jiyue's lips faded a little: "The grudge between us can never be settled, you know."
For example, during the past two years with Sang Jiyue, Sang Huai could not have a clear conscience.
Yin Qiao pressed Sang Huai's hand. Sang Huai said nothing and did not make any other moves for a while.
Yin Qiao's original intention of coming here this time was to take Sang Jiyue away and avoid the limelight temporarily, but things turned out to be beyond her expectations. Sang Jiyue actually chose to let go of the grudge.
Yin Qiao was not sure whether it was true or not, but she still wanted Sang Huai to leave first, and she would stay with Sang Jiyue for a while longer.
But Sang Jiyue said, "I'll go with you to the base."
"But Senior Sheng Xingzhou..."
"He has somewhere he should go." Sang Jiyue said calmly and decisively: "It's better than here."
Rather than staying here, because she lost herself.
It was already noon, the spring was bright and sunny, and Sang Jiyue's gentle voice was like a spring breeze.
"Where are you talking about? If it's really good, you can go together." Yin Qiao said.
Sang Jiyue's gaze passed through Yin Qiao and Sang Huai and fell on Sheng Xingzhou, who had just returned at noon and was holding half a basket of strawberries in his hand.
Facing Sheng Xingzhou's complicated gaze, Sang Jiyue said, "His home."
"Sheng Xingzhou should go home."
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